people.
the backstabbers.
the hidden romances.
the act of taking someone for granted.
i find it oh-so-amusing, despite its effects.
but hey, thats life.
i need to live with the fact that things will never be what i conjure it up to be, neither will it flow smoothly. for this is life. and life, is like a rollar coaster.
i want to find a place, where i belong.
cheesy as this may sound, it is something that i really want.

a place,
where i can speak my mind,
where i can sing all i want,
where i will jump around and have people jumping with me,
where i will do weird things without a worry.
where i am not afraid to share how i feel,
where i am comfortable,
where i know im not being judged,
where i know im not alone.

it doesnt make any sense, either does it justify anything whatsoever. i dont want to probe, and yet, i find this compulsive need to stick my nose into your business, because i'd rather not see you hurt. if it takes extreme measures to set things right for you, i would carry it out. but right now, i'd want you to try to make things right on your own. i really hope i dont discovered things that i do not want to, because i really wont know how to react. friendship. is that really all it is? or is there something more that i should know about? i hope to hear from you soon. you know it, i know it, for i've spoken to you behind closed doors. im not sure if you'll read this, but im sure someday, you will.

complicating.
complicating.
complicating.

tired.
tired.
tired.

forgotten? yeah.
broke? totally.
gosh, its so tiring.
and frustrating.
not to mention scary.
yawn.
i need sleep.
early day tomorrow.
hmmm.