i've been feeling dreamy lately.
maybe cos of low immunity?
oh wells.
all i know is that i feel damn bad now.
though i didnt intentionally mean it.
argh.

i made drey fry rice for me.

hahahahahaha!

im such a loser in the kitchen.

gosh, im like updating my blog lying down! haha so amusing. well, in case you're wondering how im doing that, im basically just lying on a thai tatami, with my knees propped up and my laptop inclined, against my lap. so yes. horizontal updates.

death cab for cutie's been earwax the past few hours. i really enjoy their music. its so... i dont know. at times i feel like im in a trance. ahh.

today im home, preparing for show and tell during jap class tmr.. asimo! and in case you're not aware of its existence, its basically a humanoid robot. pretty interesting, though despite this advance in technology, i dont quite fancy it. i honestly dont see the need to create artificial intelligence. i certainly dont wish to reach the age whereby people can be replaced by robots. sigh. but then again, would these robots be less bitchy and backstabbing and disrespectful? hmmm. i never cease to wonder what it'd be like if we changed.

"love is watching someone die"
haha what a random line. just picked it out from death cab. oh wells.

i need to go back to work, but im being a lazy bum again. hmph.

have you ever felt like you're being treated like dirt? like no one wants to bother about you and just dont give a damn about whatever's going on in your life or whatever you say? or how people seem to overlook you and make you wonder, 'do you even know i exist?' sigh. think think think. i find myself in this predicament. well, there are chances that i could just be thinking too much, but then again, the responses and reactions from the people around me never cease to make me realise that maybe i should just heck care. so yeah. there's no point in getting all riled up over people who dont respect me. yes.


and here's a shoutout to you. you know who you are. as much as we havent been talking, i still hope i can be someone you can count on. i think you might've misread a previous entry.. cos when i mentioned someone who didnt understand, it wasnt you. you're someone i really treasure, and i just need you to know that. i know you'll read this somehow, so yeah. do hope to meet up with you soon.

gosh, its so late, but i feel so grr that if i dont explode in words, i'll definitely implode. like, why cant people just be considerate and just reply?! so annoyed now, cos all these years, people assume i wont get angry or upset or outraged or be petty should there be a tense situation. people assume im okay if they dont bother to care about responding to simple things like calls or msgs. but no! im not okay. but i dont intend to blow up in your face either. so i think for now, i shall stop thinking so much about whether i've got confirmed plans to meet you or whether i need a response from you or whether i need your help or whether you have to settle stuff with me or whatsoever. (btw this is general, doesnt apply to anyone in particular), but in any case, preet! i hate being on the receiving end. i feel so angsty. thank hearing things aint helping either. but gosh, thank God for zhen and nat to help me relax or i'll just smash everyone's face in. (or at least mentally.) gosh, i feel like im beginning to be so.. blergh. ahhh! annoyed. super. im thinking maybe for one day, i shall just turn off my phone and not care about whether you care to contact me or not. woot. or maybe i shall just go all stoned, or iced. like an ice queen. shites i have no idea what im talking about. i just need sleep now. only have 3 hours of sleep last night, and its not helping, you know, the fact that im still up at this ungodly hour ranting just to get it out of my system. if i could, i would run to the cleanest part of the beach in singapore and scream underwater (or something along those lines. preferably includes some kind of verbal explosion). drey says woah, cos my post is so long. bet she didnt expect me to be so blah and longwinded when it came to just exploding in words. i feel like im repeating myself. i want to get some eyeshut and dream about guava and how guava can be better than mango sometimes. yawn.