twenty three.
we've come this far.
and never was i regretful.
thank you for so much.
i love you shabs.
my funny friend.
:)

i feel really lonely.
was just telling lyn that im so glad i got the chance to spend time with her and the rest at aaron's place.. its events like these that keep me going. that help me to keep that social bar green. i didnt realise how much i've missed out on my youth.. going to a private school with people twice my age doesnt really help. being a catechist without someone familiar in the ministry adds on to the loneliness. i dont know how i cope. i wonder if i can cope. oh well. im just so glad that youth camp's coming. im so glad i can be a facil again. im so glad that things might just take a turn and help me feel better. thats all i need now.. to feel better.
well, just wanna say thanks mel. and to the monopoly troop.
i feel a lil better now.
and all i need is just a call.. from him.
good night loves.

this picture brings back so many memories..
north district youth camp 2004.
it was the healing of a heartache, to the blossoming of a friendship.
this was my turning point. from wallowing in self pity, to being intrigued with that one person who has made my life so much better.. so much more fulfilling.
can you guess who it is?

well, ND youth camp was like one of the bestest camps i've ever been to. it was a linkage from ctk youth camp, thus making it a pretty long week for me that faithful dec 2004.

i recall meeting the tribe..
our wonderful tribe leader..
the awesome tribal battle..
creating our ASHER banner..
getting to know more people..
not forgetting that surprise trip.
the walk down the unlit path that night..
wanting so much to hold someone..
the cold, relaxing sea breeze..
sitting by the breakwaters with the usuals..
camouflage paint that made the girls black..
snoozing during the mass..
the final night concert..
and saying goodbye.

i really enjoyed that year.
it ended well, despite the all the drama that happened.. in any case, im just so glad i went.

one thing that i really miss, is the friendships.
with MALD.
everything's so different now.. we're all so far away from each other, and i just dont like knowing how things are now. oh well.

shall not dwell on the past..
right now, all i want, is to look at that photo.

the year's coming to an end already..
but i've yet to tidy up my room!
aahhh!

haha anyways, the course is coming to a close, and im just hoping that everything will somehow or the other turn out right. hmm, im still considering job opportunities, but im not sure where to go and how to go from here...

hmm, caught death note with drey just now.. haha, we were like in a super rush lah! scared couldnt catch the show in time.. well in any case, the show's not too bad, looking forward to a closure in the second death note.

anyways, i finally borrowed a book! gosh, its been ages since i last stepped into a library for the sole purpose of finding something to read.. well, its 3 books for me! did a whole lot of browsing through cook books and language guides.. haha fun fun fun.

yawn, i miss shabs. changi was fun babe! hahahaha laa laa laa.

alrighty, lazy drea's gonna get some eyeshut and get ready for tmr..!