im so lucky.
i really am.
didnt realise it til now.

there's so much in front of me.
so much behind me too.
there's so much love.
so much i want to do.

the past few weeks have been a far cry from the tension i experienced before it all started to get better.
everything feels good.
i feel good.
i like feeling like this.

well, im back at kkh.
im so glad i made this decision to return. i think if i didnt, i might not be so happy about going to work. i need to feel happy. it seriously affects everything..
my mood.
my performance.
my actions.
my life.
im just so happy.

gosh, i have no idea what's come over me. why am i in such high spirits? haha no idea man.
okay, im not saying everything's perfect, cos i know im not perfect. neither is my family. neither are my friends. neither is shabs.
but somehow, all their imperfections, combined with the perfectness of God, make up my supposedly (in-my-eyes) perfect life. it just feels so good knowing that i'll be okay.

lately, home hasnt been a very nice place to be in.. i dont like people yelling. i dont like conflict. i dont like tension. i dont like the noise.
shabs's place is just perfect.
the calming silence of the rooms.
the simple layout of the hallway.
the whitewashed walls adorned with tiny blue specks.
the spaciousness.
i really like it there.
its like, my place of solace.
despite my infrequent visits, his home never fails to make me feel at peace..
finally,
no noise.
no fighting.
no tension.
just serenity.

alrighty, i think im dwelling too much on how much i like simple, calming, quiet places. shall continue on little footnotes on the book of drea's life.

i found out the blue cream stains my lips.
you see, nat has a blue cream pirate cake for her 19th. so, as i ate, i unknowingly constantly licked my lips, staining it a dark blue. it looked pretty gross and slightly scary.
in any case, it felt good seeing everyone together again despite all our busy schedules. i really miss the old times.. hmm, i should leave reminiscing as it is. no point harping on memories which can never be relived. but i'd just like to say one thing.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
you know who you are.
:)

she looked deep into you
as you lay together
quiet in the grasp
of dusk and summer.
-dashboard confessional

this seems random but,
shabs, i love you. <3

the pen i place,
on my book of life,
will be held sometime,
after tonight.

drea

CLICK.
the bestest bestest bestest.
it has surpassed The Lake House and Pirates.
im so glad i watched it.
gosh, i dont think i've teared so much for a movie since The Brotherhood. awesome man. way too awesome.
in any case, shabs rocks.
thanks dear, for today.

hmm, i've started working in MOF. new centre, new life. so different, and i miss KKH LV plenty. but i guess in life, nothing's ever as wonderful as you'd want it to be.. in any case, i hope the time i spend here in MOF LV will be worth my while.

alrighty, im like super tired now..
take care loves.