MERRY CHRISTMAS LOVES!

hope you all have a vunderfool christmas.

ooh the new year's coming soon too!

isnt that just vunderfool?

but that means school's starting..

oh well.

what a vunderfool world..

take care!

and so, it was a day at the zoo with shabs..
8 dec 2005.

the day started off warm and sunny.. birds, monkeys, and loads of plants.
really wonderful to see the many changes which have made the Singapore Zoological Gardens such a beautiful place.
and being with him made it all too good.


check it out. i met a really friendly tiger.. cute, aint it?

penguin!
the penguins there were so adorable! esp when they were swimming in the water..
during feeding time, all they seemed to be thinking of was only fish, and the zookeeper too.. haha so cute.


animals! oh man, so cute! ahahaha.
well, i think the otters were really silly.. whenever people looked in their direction, they'd start to squeak so loudly! as if they want us to feed them.. haha oh well.

in any case, there's just too much to mention should i retell my entire experience there.. so yeah.
had loads of fun! weeee~

back to the present.
17 dec 2005.
i've caught the flu.
spent the entire afternoon in bed.
miss shabs, he's back from sailing..
poor fella.
christmas is coming!
im sure it'll be great.
yawn.
better get to bed now..
take care loves.
nites.

so many things has happened the past few days.. well, i think i shall update according to the earliest date. hehe.

061205
bake day!
went over to raymond's place to bake cookies and make cheese cake with sy.
it was great fun.
the cookies tasted good too.
went over to shabs's place to surprise him with the cookies.
he liked it!
cool.

071205
well, met up with gerri to visit daphne, cos her dad passed away..
gerri and i were kinda talking abt how the number of indians there seemed to be a lot more than in other districts.. cool.
haha please, we aint racist.. we just notice.
hmm, spent a few hours there before going back.

081205
zoo!
met up with shabs to go to the zoo!
it was way cool.
havent been there in ages.
haha, while we were waiting for a cab, i was hoping to sit on the green ones. and sure enough, we had a green cab!
the place has changed so much. it looks a lot better than when i last went many years ago.. awesome!
the animals were so cute that i almost 'died'! hahahaha.
in any case, i had so much fun with shabs.
thanks dear.

hmm, met up with a few others in the evening to celebrate josh's 16th!
yay!
pizza hut, loads of food, cake, and retarded but great fun.
it was good.

091205 - 111205
youth camp.
hmm, it was alright, but it felt more like a play/leisure camp rather than anything spiritual. seemed like it was more catered to the younger ones..
i should have expected that.
didnt really enjoy it as much as i hoped i would.
oh well.

111205
confirmation! at st anthony's.
it was great to see people i know getting confirmed..
simply wonderful.
hmm, some of the youths there had attended a retreat prior to confirmation..
and there was just so much love between them..
i could feel it.
and honestly, i was envious.
i know that i wont be able to find such a loving community anytime soon.

had dinner with shabs and his mom at pizza hut..
nice.

121205
deaths.
patches passed away.
godmama passed away.
but i still had a good day.
sometimes, life has so many twists and turns.
hmm in any case, im kinda ready.

131205
and thats today.
nothing much has happened so far.
all i know is that,
i miss him.
and,
i miss them.
gonna stop here for now, judging how tired u'd be after reading such a long and lengthy entry..
take care loves.

sigh.
i dont like this feeling.
school next year isnt gonna be the same anymore.
aahhh!
change.


anyways,
the camps have been great.
holy spirit cc2 retreat was different, yet wonderful.
youth camp's coming up,
hope it'll be good.
looking forward to the zoo too.


yawn. gonna makan now.
really hope everything'll be great next year.
take care loves.

its been good.

well, it seems like a while since i updated..
so here i am.
everything's been great lately.
i really enjoy this 'nice' feeling..
*giggles*

hmm there's just so much to say..
but not enough time though.
cos, i've got camp tmr!

anyways, i had a great time with shabs at tony romas.
rocks.
outrageous at one fullerton was pretty boring.
but my lovely gorgeous friends made it pretty alright.

dinner with mpm was one that felt so nostalgic.
not very, but a lil.
glad to see almost everyone there..
haha but i banged my head against a cupboard at mark's place..
there's a dent on my head ever since.
what if my skull's fractured..?
hahaha.
oh well.

youth canteen today was warm.
superb job, wonderful people.
had fun.

oh yes.
shabs, you rock.
haha im like a lamo gazemo.
wooohoo.

yawn, sleepy.
night loves.

im just not good enough.

oh my.
Just Like Heaven
its so sweet.
its such a heart-warming, touching movie.
like it loads.


Harry Potter
its alright.
pretty disappointing as they really distorted and excluded a great part of the actual book.
hmm, but i dont really have much of a say as to how the movie should be huh.


i think im silly.
i think im dumb.
i think im really far away from good.
oh well.


and im really annoyed with the noise at home.
save me.

God has given me so many things in life that nothing can ever replace.

the people i've met everyday have created so much sparkle in my little dark room.

im really thankful.

although there are times when i find myself falling into a pit,
there'll always be someone there to help me out.

thanks for listening to me dear.

and so God, thanks.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!

ZOUK
good fun
great friends
good music
tiring though

the week's been good.

but feeling really insecure right now.. oh well.

indochine with nat zhen alicia and joyce was great.
great party.
great fun.

cc3 re camp was positive.
wonderful, slack, different.

promoted to year 2..
its gonna be tough.

yawn.

results.

good?
bad?
neither.

disappointed?
yes.

glad?
yes.

at least,
i think..
im promoted.


sleepy.

so much.


results.
our fate will be decided today.
oh well.
i shant think too much about it 'lest i get overly anxious.
everything shall be known tmr.


in any case,
SHABS PASSED HIS IPPT!
im like so freaking happy for him.
hehe.
super proud of him.


time's passing my so quickly.
Os will be here soon.
e maths.
need to practice real hard..
but i just dont have the mood.


jing yi.
my baby cousin.
he's soooo adorable!
shall post up a pic of him soon.
hee.


four camps to attend for the rest of the year..
CTK CC3 Re-Camp.
MI Student Leadership Experience.
CTK CC1 Camp.
Holy Spirit CC2 Retreat.


hmm.
today's gonna be boring.
i miss you.
yawn.
take care loves.

the week.


work.

moe.

gifted education programme.

pri 3 kids.

i miss them already.

the laughter.

the singing.

the self-talk.

the toppling.

just everything.

the kids.


him.

so much to think about.

so much to say.

so much to share.

so much.


them.

need to catch up.

friendships.

holidays coming soon.

but so many events.

camps.

exams.

people.


tired.

the weekend's been great.

i miss him.

today was cold.

i think i've caught the flu.

tmr's time for work.

hope it'll go fine.

yawn.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNETTE!

but the day was pretty good.

watched Goal with charmz, geri and jacq.
cool.
walked, shopped, talked.

met lyn for dinner after that.
yay.
its been a loooong time.

tata, gonna sleep now.

STOLEN.
my handphone was stolen while i was walking around town today.
that thief is really pro.
oh well.
im okay with it.
just that everyone's saying
'YOU LOST IT?!', instead of
'it got stolen?'.
makes me feel like i was the one at fault.
i took precautions to make sure my valuables are safe alright.
its just that some people know how to take stuff..
sigh.
but i'll get my replacement phone from shabs..
as soon as my mom lets me get a replacement card (cos it happens to be under her name.)
k my mother is nagging again..
i give up.
i cant wait to get outta here.

WOOO.

its finally over.. for now.
got maths in nov though.
so gotta continue practicing.

laa laa laa.

ONE MORE DAY!
tmr's the last paper.
ECONS.

literature was alright.
i think i've been writing too much.
my hands are aching!

well, i like yesterday.
it was real awesome.
and im gonna like tmr after 3pm too.

yawn.
gotta study for econs soon.
pretty lazy though.

this is called consistency.
because every stanza has three lines.
oh poopie.

i hate cramps.
oh well.
tata loves.

i dont think i'll ever be good enough.

well, today sucked.

HOPE.

Gorillaz has such an entertaining site.

drey and i actually screamed.

oh man.

well, econs essay today was like.. just shoot me.
hope to at least pass.

yawn.
no class tmr.
but may be studying with charmz and jacq though.
depends on my mood.

alrighty.

gosh.

18 hours left.

econs essay.

we can do it!



hey my peeps.
miss you lah.
kat - when's our next makan date?
zhen, nat, joyce, licia, mandy - party!
(my last paper's next thurs!)
nia - meet we must.

la dee da.

shower!

well, the day's been alright.
seriously not looking forward to the beginning of exams, but to the end of it..
one more week!
hmm, cant wait to catch up with all my peeps too..
its been ages.
and kat, i absolutely have to see your hair.

I MISS YOU ALL.

school.

we did some affirmation thingy where we write down the positive traits of our fellow classmates.. this was what they wrote..
(word for word)

ANDREA

1. Hardworking and trustworthy.
2. Love this girl! Love her personality!
3. WOO. BUDDHA WITH A GOLDEN HEART. YOU KNOW ME. SO HAVE CHILLS IN THE EVENING! YOU 'SHI TOU'!
4. My teddy. So sweet & loving. *Thumb* =)
5. adorable, huggable, lovable, I <3 You! =)
6. cool and funky
7. My CARE BEAR!!
8. Hello my fellow IJ girl =) haha. You're so friendly, selfless, positive and a damn gd friend. =)
9. My bear... sweet, caring, funny & bubbly... Oh yea holy as well!
10. You should be canonized a Saint for loving and protecting wee creatures. Aiyah, Aiyah! will turn to Oh Yeah! Oh Yeah! with you around. Carebears Rule!
11. Smart! and yet CUTE! Hehe! =>
12. You look like e type who knows more than she lets on. Smarty pants... =)
13. I think you're the silent, strong type. You are really smart and the smile on your face brings joy to many! Keep your high spirits up and your commendable determination. =)
14. An engaging listener
15. Hi... +++ <- positive
16. sad, troubled, good, caring, also quite fat
wish u well
apologize for inaccuracy
jing song
(i think this was the most hilarious one yet.)

so yup.
my classmates are pretty cool.


05A1
we rock.

yawn.

the weather's pretty good today..

hmm, yesterday was like *sticks out tongue*.

so yeah, you get what i mean.

GP paper was ...

haha.

today was pretty tiring..
pregnant.
inside joke.
but some people thought of it literally.

after school was bliss.
im like, super happy now lah.
hahaha.

exams coming soon.
scary.

yawn.

NINE.

its been a good nine months dear.

im tired.

yawn.
school's been alright.

laa.
exams coming though..

class.
small in number but strong.

goodie.
met mistress today.

its been a while.
met love today.

i miss you.
sleepy.

have a nice day.

you're beautiful,

*strips*

you're beautiful,

*strips again*

you're beautiful, its true.

*topless*



oh my.
the video for that song is simply hilarious.
lamo gazemo.
haha watching family guy now.
retards.
laa laa laa.
today was alright.
really tired though.
flu.
i dont wanna go back to school.
its just this feeling of trepidation every time i see school.
sigh.
hate it lah.
well, in any case, i still gotta work hard.
take care loves.

so tired.
i think i've got flu.
oh well.
exams coming real soon..
scared.
i need to study loads,
but i just cant seem to do it.
help.
hmm looking forward to get everything over and done with.
then can relax.
yawn.

im not perfect.

and i cant help it.

sucks.

momo.

night.

long wait.
long queues.

warm.
packed.

had fun.
had danced.

high.
drunk.

tired.
slept.

morning.

the little malay boy.

today i saw a little malay boy.
he was adorable, small, and wore a songkok.
he had fallen asleep in the train,
i think he'd probably missed his stop.

some people tried to wake him up,
but no, he still continued sleeping.
finally, he got up. i was sure he would,
espcially after all that shaking.

shabs and i looked at him loads of times,
wondering if he'd fall asleep again.
well, he did, it wasnt much of a surprise,
cos his eyes were so droopy and he looked so drained.

after a while, he finally awoke.
his small little stature limped to the door.
he looked so cute, shabs laughed so much,
that it seemed as if he was gonna roll all over the floor.

and that,
was the little malay boy.



drea joan

i like today.
i like yesterday.


yesterday.
john little.
hmm shopping with mom and drey was nice.
the stuff i bought was so expensive!
told mom i'd buy her stuff as soon as i get paid.
she'd be so thrilled.

marche.
it cost us a bomb!
but it was wonderful having the entire family together.
yummy.

hollandse club.
surprised shabs.
drey and i went in to enjoy the music and performance..
well, the dnd was alright.
was just glad to see him.
great to have met many others too.


today.
it was really sweet.
i wouldnt wanna change anything.
was a lil tired though.
but still, it was great.

glad the shoes's settled.
so happy to see him so happy.
i just feel this overwhelming sense of content.



school tmr.
not really looking forward to it though.
oh well.

sleepy.

everything's alright now.
im glad.
got a headache though.

today.

started off great.
passed pft, so no need for conditioning.
halfway through it was alright. lessons were good.
ended horribly. my entire day is ruined.
but its my fault too.
argh, i dont wanna think about it.
i hate me.

just f*ck it.

oh my goodness.
i could just faint trying to figure out everything about econs.. oh man. i need a brain.

well, had chinese oral examination today. its 10% of the final chinese results.. aahhh! die lah. im sooooo horrible when it comes to the chinese language. tried my best though. hopefully the teacher will pass me.

i'd like to go to disneyland please. thats my dream.

weekend, do come soon.

yawn.

hmm. saw nanthini and thilaga on my way home today.. seeing them was really great. though we werent close or anything like that back in sec school, i was still glad to have bumped into them. in any case, im just happy for them.

MI mid autumn festival celebrations.
it was alright. got free mooncake samples though.
photography meeting today was so short..

met up with shabs after sch.
thanks so much for today dear.
miss you.

weekend, please come soon.
momo, please come soon.
promos, please dont come.

look.

i just had to put this in.

new, and improved.

do you see it?
do you?
im sure you did.

its a new layout!

oh! oh!
and i did it myself!
but it took me quite a while though.

aahhh! i love it!
so green and black.
oooh.
so exciting!

hmm, in any case, i dedicate this all new journal to..
*drumroll*
drey and mandy, for helping me out with decisions;
lyn, who took the picture;
and shabs, cos i didnt use the eeyore one.

so yeah!

im so excited!
but,
there's school tmr.
darn. what a spoiler.
oh well.

however, today was great.
met up with shabs, and chose a shirt for youth dnd.
i think he looks real good.
hehe. hopes he has a safe trip back to camp..
miss him a lil.

ooh and i miss my peepos so much!
nat. kat. nia. sz.
MOMO here we come!
ahahaha just slap me.

laa laa laa.
gotta get off the computer or my eyeballs would just 'pop' out!
hahaha im getting so lame.

take care loves.

yawn.

to mo or not to mo?
hmm. its really tough choice to make.
sure, it is a once in a lifetime experience,
but.. there's school the next day!
argh.
i think.. i think, i shall.
nat, looks like i've got no excuses!
nothing beats a once in a lifetime experience.

darn. homework has got to be the worst thing on earth (for now).
so many essays to complete! i could just die now.
but i wont.

laa laa laa. looking forward to tmr.

okie dokes. gonna start working my ass off now.
ahahaha.
take care loves.






and Lord, please do take care of all those people.. i know they're safe in Your arms.


<3

im so lazy to actually update.

well, in any case, life's been okay.


zouk.
fun. loud. packed.

school.
boring. tiring. loaded.

home.
noisy. annoying. alright.


hmm, went for youth mass yesterday. gosh, its been ages since i last went. it felt.. alright. i dont know how to describe it. maybe cos i've been away for so long..

the weather now is simply PERFECT for sleeping.. but its so dark outside though. cant see a thing.

alrighty. gonna find some brown stuff to munch on.

banged. bruised. beautiful.

today has been eventful.

for starters..
happy birthday salman!

anyways, i got banged today.
in the face.
hmm, got hit by a ball, and now, i look like an abused child.
haha its a lil swollen under the eye.
other than that, nothing much.
a lil woozy in the head though.
wow.
now i know how it might feel if i ever get punched in the face..
oh well.

yesterday, i finally donated blood!
feels good to know that i could actually save a life should the need arise.
so yup.

gonna rest now.
tired, stinky, and hopeful.
take care loves.

im glad the weekend's here.

hmm. school's been going alright.

projects! faint.

epl season.

gonna meet him soon.

miss all of you!

you know who you are.

alrighty take care loves.

my life doesnt seem to be going the way i had hoped it would.

friends.
many i have, few who truly care..
or so i feel.
i dont think i've made close friends.
oh well.
everyone has surprises.
except me.
maybe im not worth it.
gosh.
i seem to be just talking crap.
hmm.

my afternoon is going to be awfully boring.

i wish she'd just stop screaming.

i wonder if you really thought it was bad news.
or were you glad that you could take some time away from me?
oh well.

reminiscing.

there's so much in life to be thankful for.. so many events, major or minor, which have, somehow or the other, shaped the course of my life.
well, was reading one of mich's entries just now, and i didnt realise that i was actually remembered, let alone mentioned. to think that i, andrea, actually played a role in the life of a friend.
so many times i look in the mirror, wondering if im worth it. interesting how people chance on affirmations which could lift up their spirits.
in any case, i'd like to take this opportunity to mention the people who have changed my life.

----- ----- ----- ----- -----
kindergarten

wendy (cant remember how she looks like though.)
----- ----- ----- ----- -----
ij

siok, natalie, kathie, tania.
fiona, michelle.
gwendo, laura, eil, teresa.
sarah, hui luan, serene, sylvia, alicia, amelia, stephanie, cheryl, sophia.
ai ling, vanessa tay, lynette, louisa ho.

laura, stacy, domi, nicole, christine, daphne.
daphne xu, phylicia, kristine, tricia.
----- ----- ----- ----- -----
ctk

daisy, lyn, matt.
pris.
----- ----- ----- ----- -----
dearest

shabin.
----- ----- ----- ----- -----


thank God for all these people.
they've been so precious, and i cant imagine my life without any of them being part of it.
miss the old times though. oh well.
looking forward to the weekends.. going back to church on sat! (after so many 'years'..) so yup.
take care loves.

so long, and good night.

its been a while since i last updated. hmm, in any case, i've got back most of my mid year results.. managed to pass everything so far. gp, chinese, econs and hist. but i dont think i'll be able to make it for lit though.. oh well.

today was good. school was pretty slack, the afternoon was warm.. got to meet him for a while in the evening, and our parents now know. haha, feeling really lazy to blog..

the past few days were cold. many many birthdays. geri sprained her ankle. harry potter hbp is out.

hmm, im off to bed now. good night loves.

over.

after three days of stress and wondering if the papers would be difficult,
its finally over.


monday. history and literature. it was ...
*sticks tongue out*

tuesday. mother tongue.
chinese is sooo not my forte.

wednesday. economics.
i forgot impt information which could have helped me with my essay.


oh well. i dont intend to think about it until the papers are returned back to us.
in any case, today has been fun.

went over to josh's place, along with geri, dhirah, jieyi, and of course josh, to sorta do our literature project.. measure for measure. well, geri and i had a blast. i have no idea what it was that we did, but we laughed loads. well, the two of us made a new friend..
FRETTIE BROWN.
he was a silk worm (who had a coccoon like leaf 'shell' as a home, like a hermit crab). we found him on dhirah's blouse, and he spent the entire afternoon at josh's place too.
hmm, after an entire afternoon of ballet, jumping, laughing, checking out josh's collection of books/vcds, eating, two-people typing, and just looking at frettie, we went home.
anyways, we let frettie go. he needed sunlight and leaves.

hmm, met up with shabs in the evening.. haha finally. the first time im meeting him on a weekday in months! awesome. we bought something for venisa, then walked around. haha he cut his hair too! but honestly, i dont see much difference. i like it when he shaves to a two. haha. missing him lots now.

well, looking forward to sat when i can see all of you guys again!
take care loves.

today, i passed my 2.4km run. though a few seconds short of a silver, the fact is, i passed.
to all my pals in ij, you guys know that im not exactly the sort of person who'd actually bother to run 6 rounds and actually pass. haha. so to me, its an achievement.
hmm, the day went well, except that exams are next week! im soooo dead.
haha im pretty lazy to say anything more.. oh well.
good night everyone.

five days to mid years.
just shoot me.

unless you can save me.

today was pretty boring. nothing exciting happened.
and so, i took the time to observe.

its interesting how people can change, for the better.
its heart warming to see how a person can change from someone who used to be rude and cynical, to someone who laughs along with us and considers another's feelings.
the power of change. awesome.
on the other hand, the cold hard truth lurks at the back of the room..
hypocrisy.
i dont understand how she doesnt realise that they are actually mocking her.
why the pretence? just show your true colours.
everyone else can see it. oh well.
who am i to say or do anything that may jeopardize their supposed friendship?
i shall leave it at that.

hmm, gotta get away from the laptop now.. so yup.
take care loves.

miss you.

royce.

chocolate.


indulgence.

awesome.

some things are just not expected. oh well.
the day's been great. so was yesterday.
hmm, yesterday, some church people, mostly maranuts, came over.
badminton, swimming, soccer, tennis, table tennis, ps2.
well, later in the afternoon, when i went back up to my house, yvonne and i were surprised. there was cake (specially baked by raymond), and loads of food. i was pretty surprised. thanks you guys.
daisy, lyn, raymond, aloy, matt, ben, yvonne, joanna, rachael, daphne, michelle, aaron, peter, kenny, samantha.
later in the evening, i met up with some of my ij pals for dinner.. spageddies at paragon.
nat, tania, zhen, fi, amanda, wen, joyce, jess, licia.
i really enjoyed myself.
oh oh. at around 2345, shabs called.
"happy birthday to you.." he sang to me. gosh. i was like 'omg'. haha so sweet of him. thanks dear. thats been the greatest greeting i've ever had.

today. i went to school thinking i would be forgotten, and how the day would be oh-so-boring. i didnt expect to receive a present. its a piglet stuffed toy! so cute. i was so touched.. honest. well, thank you guys.. loads. for the present, and the well wishes. not forgetting the brownies josh made.
jasmine, rachel, muhd, joshua, bec, jieyi.
charmaine (happy birthday to you too!), geri, daryl, char, ash.
05A1 and everyone else.
coming home felt so.. erm. i have no idea how to describe that feeling. felt really tired though.
ooh. hui luan surprised me over at my place. i was so glad to see her. thanks you guys! for the present and card.
hui luan, sarah, serene, sylvia, alicia.
miss you all loads.

yawn. feel like taking a nice, cool shower. looking forward to the weekend!
take care loves.

the weekend has been alright. hmm, went for dinner with my family yesterday at singapore poly.. it was some restaurant providing japanese buffet. haha gosh you should have seen the salmon. HUGE. well, everything was good. really glad to have been able to spend time and have dinner with my family.
i went back to ctk for mass this morning. it feels like ages since i last was at church, cos i've been going to risen christ. today, the people whom i usually see felt so foreign. i guess its cos of my temporary absence. oh well.
but it was assuring to know that some of those people actually made an effort to remember my name. sigh. i wonder where that 'mpm' andrea went.
oh got to see him and venisa today too.. looking forward to meeting the rest tmr.
hmm, i think daisy, lyn and some church peeps will be coming over to my place tmr morning.. do hope we all have fun.
im soooo thankful that i have the chance to 'celebrate' youth day.. no sch. thats way cool.
getting tired. dont know why though. and that bruise on my head still hurts.

i hate, i hate, i hate.
why is it that whenever i actually try, i get turned away?
whats the use of effort..
sigh im just blabbering.
gonna go for dinner with my family soon.
i have a feeling i'll not have the perfect birthday this year.
but then again, i never ever had one.
oh well.

darn. i got a bruise on my forehead.. it hurts.
sigh. really tired. and sometimes, i feel like maybe, im not worth it. haha i have no idea what im talking about.. oh well.
hungry.

my throat hurts. need more water..
today went alright. but my econs test didnt go too well.. i double checked the answers, and gosh. i barely made it. *faint*
hmm went over to charmaine's place to do chinese project. well, we were laughing most of the time. dont know why though. so yup. nothing much.
yawn. really sleepy.. oh oh oh! yay! its gonna be a long weekend. awesome. im pretty glad that im in MI, cos it means that i'd get to celebrate youth day. so yeah.
looking forward to see him on sunday. haha.
gonna watch the tele now. take care loves.

six months. its been awesome. miss you dear.

hmm oh yes. today's a really special day.
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MATTHEW RYAN HENG!

the day was alright.. wasnt feeling too good yesterday though. well, shall not talk about that. in any case, the day passed by pretty fast. ooh yes. i finished my econs homework! im overwhelmed by this minute sense of achievement.. haha there was class photo taking today.. im soooo gonna look like a clown in the year book man.
photography society meeting today was a mere 15 minutes! haha well, there's a epson photography competition, and so mr ng wants us to send in some of our own photos. so cool.
nature. human life.
those are the categories for the competition.. well, there'll be a field trip to take photos later this month.. exciting.

twelfth july two thousand and five.
good charlotte concert.
but im not going. why? because its right smack in the middle of my mid year exams..
pity.

well, thats all for today.
take care loves.

today was wonderful, but i wish it would stay today forever..
celebrated matt's bday at fish&co. gosh, we took so many pics. but in any case, it was great fun. really glad to have been able to meet up with them..
daisy, lyn, matt, hil, joann, joanna, aaron.
lunch was good. really full.
met up with him after that too. miss him already..
we went to watch 'a lot like love' yesterday. the movie was alright.. quite cute.
sigh sch begins tmr.. really dreading it. guess its cos of the oncoming exams, and incomplete projects.. i cant take it. i dont think i've ever felt this way during sec sch.. argh. just shoot me.
aahhh! i cant take it.

its been a week since i last updated. well anyways, there's so much to talk about, but i'll just summarize it, in case you get bored..

last week, i spent most of my time doing projects. did study with cassie on fri too. gosh, my e maths is really horrible.. seriously got loads of bucking up to do. hehe.
on sat, i went to jiawen's new home. its so nice, and zen-fied, and spacious. sweet.
met up with shabs after that, and we headed to youth center for youth fest. it was great to see so many people there.. met sarah too! miss her and the rc gang loads.
the rest of the day was precious.. hehe.

sunday! watched batman begins with him. it wasnt too bad, but im not really a sucker for action flicks. hmm after that, headed to church for.. confirmation prep.
everything went smoothly.. haha im really happy for them. awesome. God is great!

yesterday, i spent most of my time slacking. caught the flu bug, and coughing's been as frequent as breathing. haha well, headed down to church for youth bbq.. it was fun. i was sooo touched to see that people were willing to cook for me! haha im so lazy. well, overall, it was a blast.

today, today.
my sisters, neighbour and i just ordered pizza. it should be coming anytime soon.. so yup.

gotta run! take care loves.

yawn.

i woke up with my nose stuck. anyways, history today was alright. wasnt too boring, but i couldnt really concentrate. felt like my brains cells went on vacation or something like that.. hmm did chinese project with the grp, then had lunch. i think im getting sick of macs. haha. oh oh! there finally is a bk in tp. im soooo glad. but starbucks and orange julius got sacrificed. pity.
im sooo looking forward sat. it feels like years since i last saw him.
i drift, i burn, i fly, when you sing lullabies.
corrinne may. i think she has a really unique voice.
laa laa laa. i need a hug. ooh yes. did i mention that i think my classmates rock? well, they do. in some way or the other. so yup.
daisy! i miss you.

i think playing checkers is a great way to pass time.

CC2 Camp

well, im back from another church camp. this time, its the cc2s.
it was pretty good, but i was really tired most of the time. i guess the tiredness from last week's camp got carried over to this week. ooh, as it was the family camp, there was loads to settle. but when i saw the faces of the families in the room, i couldnt help but tear. touching.
unpacking my bag revealed a horror. i left my passion t-shirt at camp. i was so upset, as it had sentimental value.. sigh. i had a hard time psycho-ing myself that earthly possessions mean nothing. haha im such a moron.
hmm, got sch tmr. history lesson. do hope it isnt boring.
and i hate the flu.
my nose is stuck, and i speak funny.

Exhausted.

projects, projects, projects. there's so much to do, so little time.
mid year exams are round the corner, and i've yet to begin studying. O level maths paper's approaching real fast too, but i've not started practicing. im soooo dead.
i feel so tired. maybe its cos of the late nights and early mornings, projects and camps. well, who am i to complain? i know of many others who are really rushed for time..
yesterday, after an entire day of studying and projects, i headed down to church for mass. it's been a long time since i last attended daily mass. well, stayed in church til about 8 plus, then headed home with mandy.. i really like being in church. i miss the past. but whats the use of reminscing.. oh well.
sat'll be cc2 camp. hope it goes well.. hmm im probably gonna help paint the youth room in the morning, then prepare for camp in the afternoon..
i miss him so much..
kathie. natalie. tania. siok. daisy. lynette. i love you guys.
alright. shall continue some other time.. take care everyone.

CC3 Camp.

camp was awesome. the people were wonderful. most of all, God was the greatest. well, my group (group 6! along with anthony, my co-facil) was fantastic. they were a whole lot of fun. whee! im really glad i went for camp. though was a lil stressed cos being o i/c aint easy. gosh, there was so much to settle. oh well.

cc2 camp this coming weekend.. hope it'll be fantastic!

I HEART SOTY!

Weird.

just this afternoon, i had the weirdest, most retarded dream ever. well, *breathes deeply* here it goes.

i dreamt that i was in some coffeeshop and catechists such as dan, jolene, gerry and sheryl were present too. jolene had her own ice cream booth where there were 6 tubs of ice cream. you know, like the swensen's kind where you can choose ice cream from. then i wanted to eat ice cream and suddenly, pigeons and crows started to dive into a melted strawberry ice cream tub. and they splattered all the ice cream over me! oh oh oh! and i happened to be standing underneath the edge of the roof and one of the birds vomited on me! outrageous! it was some red stuff with macaroni or something like that. puke. eeeew. just thinking about it makes me gag. then, i tried to wash it off and the entire left side of my body was drenched. the worst thing was, i smelled horrible! aahhh! oh oh! and the pigeons and crows were still diving in and out of the melted ice cream.. i covered the booth so that the birds couldnt get to the ice cream.. oh and jolene didnt even know that the birds got to it! way gross. i also tried chasing one of the crows away with a towel, but the crow used a shirt and whacked me! so unfair. not long after, sheryl tells me i gotta go to town to get ready for camp! and im like "i need to go home and bathe and pack my bags and prepare!". aahhh! i was so damn stressed man. fortunately, i woke up.

i have no idea why i had that dream. maybe its cos camp's tmr, and i have this fear of crows. especially if they know how to whack people with a tshirt. aahhh, the horror!

haha well, today was boring. gonna pack my bag for camp soon! take care loves.

a month of late mornings.

im sooo glad the holidays are here. school's been pretty mundane, so this one month would really be a treat.

well, in any case, i just wanna say THANKS SHABIN! haha, he bought me a baby eeyore soft toy. i guess you might think im pretty childish to like this kinda stuff, but who cares. i LOVE and ADORE eeyore! haha and shabs too. its been a good five months.

hmm, yesterday was jess's birthday party.. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DEAR! i was so thrilled to see everyone again.. had a blast.

ooh cc3 camp's approaching real soon. hope it goes well.

aahhh charlieee's in phillipines now. do hope he'll take care of himself. haha yeah!
hmm, im sooo gonna miss shabs. wont get to see him for two weeks running cos i'll be at camps. oh well.
i miss my pals already. at least i got to see most of them this weekend.. miss you guys a whole lot.
nat. kat. tania. zhen. daisy. lyn. matt. fiona.

well, i really like this song from soty.


Sidewalks

the bridge is all crumbled
the water soaks into rocks
that fell at the bottom of the road
(at the end of the town)
the town that we lived in
the memories shaken apart
from the weeds that grow

over the sidewalks
running away from the streets we knew
sidewalks
like the time we thought was made for you
or

out on the front porch
watching the cars as they go by
(eighteen blue, twenty one grey)
looking ahead for the first time that we could drive
out on our own
to speed away

from the sidewalks
running away from the streets we knew
sidewalks
like the time we thought was made for you
or

all of the days have passed us by,
all of the sun is gone... away


take care loves.

general paper exam today..

just shoot me.

sports day tmr..

hope it'll be fun.

tired..

i should sleep earlier today.

take care loves.

i feel so tired.

oh well. i guess most of them are getting ready for the gp exam tmr.. im scared. what if i dont do well enough? what if i end up getting horrid results like last time? what if i get.. *gulp* ..left behind? sigh. studying is so not my forte. darn. i wish i could live my life without a care. but thats soooo impossible.
hmm, no one said i wasnt allowed to dream.

my life feels so stagnant. it feels like everyday has become so routine. i hate it when my life is so.. boring. its like, everyday, i..

wake up
refreshen up
go to school
go home
use computer
do homework
pack bag
sleep
that kind of lifestyle is so mundane. i hate it.
i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.
i miss the colourful life i had. church. friends. people. now, its just school. homework. reminiscing. oh well.

i cant wait fot the holidays to come. there's so much im looking forward to..
camps. catching up with friends. spending time with my family.

oh yes. nat, nia, kat, siok! i miss you guys loads!




just a thought. would you rather sms, or call a person?

big walk.
went for that in the morning. it was my first time. didnt expect such a huge turnout. it was pretty fun, though i was silent most of the time. paul was taking photos for nikon. he took a pic for my friends and i. who knows, our picture may end up in the newspapers.. in any case, it was alright.

went home, freshened up, had lunch, went out.

st anthony's was holding a carrom competition. so i just went and checked it out. after that, went for mass with shabs and charliee. hmm had dinner at loy kee, then went to cwp. freaking tired. and i think i was a lil too petty. sigh. just shoot me.

on my way home, in tp mrt, i met some old lady from m'sia, pulling a trolley. she asked me if i had money to spare her, as she only had ringgit. i didnt have any. the poor old lady lost her ez link card. she said that she'd be fine, and told me to go home.. and so i walked out of the station. i couldnt stop thinking about that old lady. i so wanted to wait with her and even send her home, but i just walked on back home. wonder how she is right now..

i hate it when people treat anyone like dirt.
feeling sticky, dirty, and tired. gonna take a bath soon.

take care loves.

finally.
a day when i can wake up anytime i want.
i like to sleep, but not for a long time.. spent the entire afternoon resting, cos had a really tummyache. felt so horrid.. i hate the feeling of getting sick.
hmm, he's back today. really miss him..
well, gotta go for the big walk tmr.. so, hopefully i feel well enough to enjoy myself. i'd have to wake up pretty early tmr morning..
im glad its gonna be a long weekend. though exams are approaching.. scared.
looking forward to the june holidays. hope the upcoming camps go well.
yawn getting pretty tired.
take care loves.

i've decided not to be so dependent on people. whats the use. it only makes me feel worse. last night, someone told me that he called me out of pity. wth. i seriously dont understand. oh. and i got ignored. sigh. i really wonder who my real friends are. i realised that i know so many people, but my relationships with these people are merely on a superficial level.. only a few know what im really like. but then again, no one really knows whats going on inside my head. i think i think too much.. its been so long since i last went for mpm meeting. damn, i seriously dont think i'll wanna go for it. cos, its like, i feel so detached from them. it'd be so weird if i were to go. everyone'll be wondering why the hell im there cos im not even part of the grp.. sigh. i sometimes wonder how people can affect me so easily. its like, i feel like im getting myself embroiled emotionally in every situation people face. all the emotions. argh. i have no idea what im saying.
all i know is that im upset.

damn. im freaking tired of everything. i need a break.

shabs, i miss you.
hey nat kat siok nia fi and the rest..
lets meet up soon alright?

i need chocolate.

i wish you werent like that..

its been so hectic. i cant take it.

im glad its gonna be a long weekend.

i wonder if we'll still go..

i need a life.

why do people get upset?

is it so difficult?

sigh.

is it worth being so self-sacrificial?

worry.

tired.

take care loves.

what i'm into at the moment.

The Used
My Chemical Romance
Senses Fail
Story of the Year
Finch
The Starting Line
Fall Out Boy

i need a drink. water would be nice.

tiring. the day has been tiring. looking forward to sat, where i can sleep in through the morning.. well, just wanna say that whatever it was between monkey and i has been settled.. so yup. yawn, there's just so much homework, but i seriously dont feel like doing any. i know i have to though. i just wanna sleep and not wake up.. hmm, missing him. im just glad he's safe. feels like ages since i last saw him, even though i was out with him yesterday.. i need help. seriously. i need motivation. honestly. i cant seem to get myself to start working and studying. i need to prepare. i cant be the way i was before. or i'd really lose out in life. well, gonna call him now.. take care loves.

House Of Wax.

today was pretty fun. though the weather was seriously unlike what i had in mind..

IT RAINED! haha, not that its a big deal, but i love it when it gets cool.. hmm, headed out to church, attended mass alone though. then got ready for meeting.
it was SO FUN! haha the games were fantabulous! (in case you dont know what that word means, its fabulous and fantastic merged together.) its been a while since i last played like that.. in any case, it was good.

hmm, after that, had lunch with my three sisters, jaz and marcus. haha marcus is seriously 'beyond hope'. (my dear boy, stop using the knife!) soonafter, my family and i headed to my grandma's house.

ooh. met him for a movie today. watched house of wax. it was... faint. hahaha. gruesome for some scenes, shocking for others. actually, it isnt very good. just that chad looked hot. haha just slap me. hmm i'd rate the show a 3/10. so yeah.

i cant take it. why is that monkey still ignoring me? i give up.

school begins again. got an econs test tmr. hope i dont die just trying to complete it. so yup.

take care loves.

yesterday was great.
had a blast with fi, nat, tania, kat, amanda, wen, joyce, alicia, tracy, siok yesterday.. ate at Big O. the food was not too bad. but the place was pretty dark and noisy. haha oh well. then the few of us headed to borders for a lil while. laughed my head off with fi reading some tiny books. went to starbucks for a drink, while reminiscing about old times. haha had a great time near the phone booth too.. woohoo!

hmm then after tania and fi left, we all went to wisma rooftop. the place there rocks. so quiet.. then siok came. gosh, it'd been ages since i last saw her. talked, laughed, played truth or dare (gosh, thats so sec 2), and yeah, just chillin'.

the day was good.

today's been alright so far. except for that monkey.. sigh.

gonna go out with my sis later. need to buy loads o stuff. so yup.

take care loves.

today went well. quite fun. thanks shabs, for listening to me talk about school and all. and for the chocolates. love you!


and monkey, i already said im sorry. the least you could do is stop ignoring me.


gonna meet up with some of the usuals soon.. gonna have dinner together.

yup.

im glad i went to church today. seeing all those oh-so-familiar faces made me smile. i've been away from christ the king for so long now.. so, seeing the church and father and the people was truly a gift.

the day didnt go the way i wanted it to.. things werent right in the afternoon, but its all settled now. im glad we sorted it out. feeling much better already. well, thanks fi. without you, i'd probably still be sitting down there.
thanks drey, for accompanying me to church for mass.

humans are such sensitive creatures. well, not all humans, but at least a handful. God's handful, i mean. i know im one of them. sometimes, i feel so retarded. im like so caught up with how i feel that i sometimes fail to realise that im not the only sensitive one. i could just shoot myself thinking about all my flaws and the many times i neglected the people i love. ahh forget it. im beginning to talk crap again. oh well.

tmr's friday. so fast. gonna meet the usuals for dinner. cant wait to see them. miss them soooo much. well, i'll get to see him after school. hope tmr goes fine.

shucks, still got flu. this sucks. cos it means that im not supposed to do PE. but helloo, i've not done PE for two weeks running already. cos i had flu the first week, and i rolled down the stairs the week before. the teacher is soooo not gonna believe me. i think i'll just try doing PE. i want to! i dont like being sick. makes me feel so vulnerable.

is public affection for people of the same gender taboo? i mean, it doesnt have to be lesbians whatsoever. like, just between friends.. for girls to hold hands and maybe give each other a peck on the cheek is not a sin right? but why do people get so worked up whenever they witness such a scene? oh well.

i wanna learn how to speak malay and tamil.
a little help here, please.

good night dears.

hey.
rained.
sorry.
thanks.
bye.

i hate the weather.
Lord, help me to love it.

came a time, when every star fall brought you to tears again.

today was.. alright. well, i just dont know what to say. oh well.
hmm weird. i actually donated five bucks to charity. feeling generous i guess.

i just realised that different people laugh at so many different things. what may seem like the funniest thing in the world to you, may not necessarily seem so to others. why is that so? is it because we're exposed to different situations and incidents during our growing years? is it because our surroundings have instilled a certain kind of 'trigger laughter' mechanism in us? or is it because we maybe are not as 'humourous' as others? this puzzles me sometimes.
whenever people laugh at something which may seem hilariously funny to them, i just stop and stare. i eventually try to make myself laugh so as to seem like im enjoying myself. the truth is, im not. honestly, i havent really laughed 'truly' lately. my last 'big' laugh was with fi nat kat nia.. these people laugh with me on the 'same wavelength'. haha i feel so weird mentioning the word 'laugh' so often.

one more day. then i'll get to see him on a weekday! yay.

well, im looking forward to the end of the week. gonna meet my precious people for dinner. tracy's coming too! its been ages since i last saw her.. glad she's coming.

yawn. the weather's so warm. but its raining over in bishan and yishun! darn. if only its raining here right now..

take care loves.

I realise.

i really miss mpm, and spending time in church.

i miss the times when i'd go for meetings.
i miss the times when i'd go for events.
i miss the times when we'd celebrate birthdays.
i miss the times when my staurdays are solely for the people at church.

school's been taking up most of my saturdays lately.. sigh.
well, i was just looking through the pictures joann uploaded into her blog, and i realised that i've been missing out on a lot. seriously. i feel so.. out.
i dunno why i feel this way, but it seriously sucks. i miss everyone. big time.
argh, i hate feeling nostalgic.

its fascinating how one moment i can be so pissed off, when less than an hour later, i feel so sad. sad to the extent that i need a million hugs just to make me feel slightly better.

just shoot me.

dammit. i hate it when she keeps on screaming. just shut up.

the weekend was alright. nothing much to say.
actually, there's a lot to say. its just that im so freaking pissed right now, so i cant really think of what happened thats worth mentioning.

anyways, MI mart and rach's bday party was good.

i cant stand it. gonna stop here for now.

maybe im just too direct.
well, i apologise if i've offended you whatsoever.
so yup.

today's been alright. but its a special day. haha, its the time of the month!
wait wait, its not what you think. its the day we got together. haha. im soooo lame.

well, limping was part of my schedule today.. haha dont laugh! ... ... stop it! i know you're grinning.

hmm, stayed in school til late afternoon to prepare the stuff for the econs fair tmr.. hope tmr goes fine.

i wonder why people can forget me so easily.. oh well.

dont feel like typing any more.. take care loves.

Simply Hilarious.

dear journal,
i fell down the stairs today.
it was slow motion, and i just wasnt able to stop myself from rolling down.
the right side of my body hurts now.
esp with bruises and a few scratches.
but on the whole, im alright.
i hope pe tmr doesnt kill, or i'll seriously die.
had a great time with kat, fiona, nat and tania.
really love them loads.
oh well.
im complaining about not being able to donate blood.
but thank goodness i didnt.
cos i now got the flu.
hope the week goes well.
love love.
drea.

The Used

Light with the Sharpened Edge

Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up
Much as the sun would decide to give in
Exploding to orange
And hear all the voices sing praises and hymns
Mark the birth of a change
Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now

Over and over again
Light with a sharpened edge
Cut through the black empty space we call sky
Beginning the cycle that stays
And I know in my heart we all die
Like the day and the night
Like the sun in the sky
All this I'm giving up

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now?

Is there another side?
Beat out the black and white
Place I could meet you by
A place on the other side
I'll let you know when I go
When I'm gone

It's not me
Buried wreckage my soul
It's not me so who am I now?

I LOVE YOU!

and you, and you, and you.

sometimes i wonder how i can be ignored so easily.. oh well.

today was alright, minus the headaches and tummyaches. met up with fi, kat and nat, alicia for lunch. really glad i saw them today.. i miss them a whole lot.

there's cip tmr.. hope i dont fall ill halfway through the night or anything like that..

shucks i left my history homework in class.. luckily i'll be going sch tmr.

i need a hug! seriously.

missing you daisy.

sometimes a compliment can really make my day. *smiles*

oh yes. there were a whole lot of super adorable caucasian toddlers at simply bread. *faint*

cant wait to see you tmr.

i feel so random today.

take care dearies.

i feel so small.

its thursday. soon, the weekend'll come.

well, just wanna mention that yesterday's speech and drama orientation was pretty good. had fun, but only for that three hours. got to know mariam a lil better. so yeah.. nothing much actually.

this morning, farid told dj and i that he had been accepted into a poly, and that he was going to transfer. i thought he was really gonna leave. idiot. lied to me. but at least he's not going.. oh well.
i miss michelle a whole lot! its been almost a week since i last saw her.. well, she's off to poly. wish her all the best.
steph! miss you. it sucks being the only ijtp girl in MI.
rebecca's transfered to shatec already. everyone seems to be leaving.. sigh.

am i that repulsive? to the extent that even saying hi is tantamount to lifting the weight of the world onto your shoulders? i give up.

looking forward to the weekend. back in church. back with my friends whom i love dearly.

haha im making MI sound like a horrible school. but its not. its quite alright actually. just that im not really being proactive when it comes to my social circle. so yup.

take care loves.

suddenly, my life feels so stagnant.

no emails.
no calls.
no smses.

its like my whole world suddenly came to a halt, and everyone seems so far away.

maybe its just me, but i cant help but feel neglected.

i miss them a lot. it seems to be the little things that make me reminisce about the old times.
just like today.
if i was still in ij, i'd have someone to have lunch with after school. but, i went home.. alone.

i miss the times when i'd have zhen, wen or mich to walk home with me. or with the usual peeps where we'd go to town just to chill regardlessly of whether we had a test the next day or not.

i guess im really dependent on people.
or maybe, im just socially deprived.

no wait. i cant say that.
at least there are some people who makes everything feel a little better.
geri, mel, farid (stareboy)..

gosh i think im going nuts.
call me depressed if you wish.

well, looking forward to being ms positive again.

love love.

im the only ijtp girl left in mi!
but at least i've made new friends.

geri! thanks for all the laughs, 'ignatius'es, nonsensical singing and waving..

well, 05A1 has been alright.. but michelle left! steph left for nyp too..
other than that, everything's been alright.
im really afraid i wont be able to do well in school. i mean, the workload itself is making me wonder if im cut out for A levels, cos im more of a slack-and-heck person.. but then again, effort should be able to get me through. so hopefully, i dont revert back to my old ways where i'd just leave my work in a pile..

saw steph and mich today! ooh mich got a tattoo on her leg just above her ankle.. how cool is that?! haha.

today was a looooooong day. ended at 5 plus. haha PE was more slack compared to previous weeks where we'd slog our guts out running and conditioning. silly stareboy kept on calling me animal names..
hellooo, you're the only monkey, farid.

hmm, im starting to worry about literature. i mean, i didnt take the subject for O levels, so im pretty clueless whenever the teachers use words i dont understand.. hopefully i'll be able to grasp what they're saying soon.. and shakespeare is simply foreign to me.

im looking forward to the end of the week. not because its CIP day (faint), but cos i'll get to see him. hehe.

oh oh oh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIEEE!
so old already. that uncle. hahahaha.

in any case, i'd like to say a huge Thank You to the people who made my first few weeks at MI a truly wonderful experience.

geri
farid
mel
jas
steph
dj
shahidah
priya
aswini
pei hong

so yup. basically thats it for now. looking forward to a good week!
take care loves.

I'm speechless.

oh my gosh. stupid farid said i look like a minah. faint. thats like so not true..

well, i realise im not really adapting well to school. no no. i should put it this way.. im adapting well to the pace of school, but when it comes to the people who are around me, i feel so.. i dont know.
its just.. lonely. oh well.
i met a classmate in the canteen, and when i said hi, she ignored me. after a while, she came up to me and asked, "are you from my class?"
sad, isnt it?

watching a movie on Hitler now. fascinating.

im still still brooding over the fact that someone thinks i look like a minah.
in case you dont know what a minah is, its a malay ah lian (i think).

just shoot me.

met up with nat, kat, nia, fi, amanda and alicia for lunch today..
laughed so hard til i almost cried.
i have no idea why i just kept on laughing and laughing and laughing.
maybe i was amused with everything that was going on?
or it could be because im deprived of laughing back in school..
i have no idea.
but i think if i allowed myself to laugh as much as i wanted, i'd probably have cried.
they asked if i was taking drugs.
they asked if i was troubled.
they asked if i was too stressed.
they asked if i was just acting cute.
i have no idea why.

*ponders*
well, the weather now is getting really scary.
lightning, thunder, wind.
to think it was so warm in the afternoon..


i hate this house.
doesnt feel like a home.
people screaming?
its just pissing me off big time.
i just want them all to shut up.
i feel very obliged to use vulgarities right now.
but i shall not.

im looking forward to having a life of my own.
to come to think about it, i've never ever felt homesick.
never.
well, i'll definitely pay my parents back.
but im not sure if i'll be able to be that filial.
sigh.
i hate me.


hmm..
will only get to see him on sunday.
i was just talking to a classmate of mine, and she said she hasnt met her boyfriend in two months already.
and the first thing that came to my head was, how do they maintain it?
to me, a relationship should be based on communication.
if you cant even talk to the person, how on earth are you guys gonna live together?
im quite puzzled by the human behaviour.


well, gotta eat dinner now.
hope i dont choke and die halfway through dinner.

love love.

sometimes i wish home would be a nicer place to go back to.

nat, kat, tania.
you guys were right.
now, i understand.

miss you all loads.
you guys mean a whole lot to me.
love you.

Ooh. I'm good.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Low
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Disorder:	Low
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
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im pretty normal.

Hmm..

05A1. thats my class. well, there's like only 20 odd other people, so its relatively small, compared to last year.. i kinda miss 5/2. its been a while since i last saw the rest.. oh well. i have to move on.
got to know a few more people.. so yeah.
lectures have been alright. im really looking forward to starting literature lessons.. looks like lots of fun.
met amanda on the bus. haha didnt expect to see her.. cant wait to meet some of the usuals on monday.
my entries are getting boring. shall stop here for now.
miss him.
take care loves.

Just a little update.

school's been good.
orientation's been alright.
made a few friends.
keong's fried chicks.
hazwan is one funny fella.
jasmine's super hyper.
priya's amiable.
mellissa's fun.
aswini's cute.
farid's interesting.
rebecca's scream-y.
tania's assertive.
hafeez's sporting.
salwa's tall.
OG7's been wonderful.
lectures officially start tmr.
hope i dont die trying to catch up.
alrighty shall stop here for now.
take care loves.

Millenia Institute (Toh Tuck Rd)
Arts

Report to school at 7:30 am.

darn.

Hiking on a normal basis.

today was tiring yet eventful. met up with fiona for lunch at KAP macs, then headed to NP cos of her fsv interview.. walking felt more like hiking. haha anyways, met deborah there. seeing her brought back a flood of memories dating back to primary school.. i remember when she was part of an inseperable trio.. deborah, tricia, tracy. i wonder if they still keep in contact with each other.

anyways, after fi's interview, we took a bus down to MI. oh gosh, it felt more like a hike cos we were going uphill and downhill.. in any case, i now know how to get to the toh tuck campus..

travelled to novena where i collected my new pair of glasses, then we took another bus down to toa payoh. grabbed a drink at starbucks, then went home.
thanks for the day, fiona.

i think i talk too much. oh well.

posting results out tmr. all the best to all you guys out there!

daisy! miss you loads.
matt! where have you been?
lyn! lets meet for dinner soon.
shabs! you owe me.
zhen! we should go out sometime.
nat, kat, nia! ice-skate anyone?

i'd like a yorkshire terrier please. thank you.

take care loves.

Evenings.

close your eyes and move to the back of my mind,
the worries are washed out to sea.


sitting alone on a marble bench at an mrt station for an hour can make a person feel numb.


all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time.
but today i've wasted away for today is on my mind..

Ooh.

as you can see, i got a new journal! check out the penguins. cute arent they? hahaha.
well, i decided that change is inevitable, so here it is.. something new!
hmm, this is like my fourth blogskin.. i probably wont be using it for long. will change it when i've found something nicer..
but for now, i'll be sticking to this childish, retarded, yet ridiculously adorable layout. hahaha.

the week so far has been great! especially after the cc4 confirmation camp. it was such a wonderful experience.. im sure not only for me, but for most of the others who attended camp too.
well, today was been fabulous too! i guess its the little things in life that can make one really glad.

met up with rach and risa in town today. our initial plan was to catch the movie 'Hitch', but the movie timings were a little off and we couldnt get tickets for our alternative shows..
despite the minor setbacks, i feel that our meeting up was still worthwhile.. managed to spend our time fruitfully.
as rach and i were craving for some 'expensive' coffee, the three of us headed down to Cafe Cartel at cineleisure. the red couch was much more comfortable compared to the hard stone slab risa and i sat on while waiting for rach.
finally, we had our iced coffees and frappes. i had a slice of cake too. delicious. hmm oh yes. and if Cafe Cartel were to make a loss today, it'll most probably be because of our constant initiative to help ourselves to the free bread provided. ooh, and i finally tried the olive oil and chilli flake concoction hil and jo came up with. it tasted alright.
anyways, it was interesting how our conversation slowly digressed from topic to topic. it started when rach asked when school term would begin after our posting results are out. and slowly, we went on to talk about issues regarding ghosts, hospitals, piles, and even rapists. hahaha. amazing ehh?
im really glad i spent the aftenoon with them..

well, we parted at around 6 plus in the evening, as rach had to go meet jo, and i had to go back home..

its been years since we all did something like this together..
swimming.

when i got home, my sisters were already getting ready for an evening of fun. it was years since the four of us all swam together.
soon, i brought them down for a dip in the pool. it was really refreshing, as the weather nowadays is getting pretty warm and humid. anyways, i really had fun. all the laughing and splashing.. hahaha. well, it was simply exhilarating.

hmm, really enjoyed myself today. looking forward to saturday!

take care loves.