[[*SHORT UPDATE*]]

Currently: Listening to HIZAKI Grace Project - 'Curse of Virgo' mini-album. Amazing instrumentals by HIZAKI~


As the title says, this si a very short update. I have cleared up certain things on my exits list and also my wishlist. And i have decided to change the background music again. This time featuring HIZAKI Grace Project's 'Calm'. I just couldn't resist when i first heard the song. It reminds me so much of a malay jiwang song. Well, anyways, i'll be back tomorrow with my lenghty review of the year 2007 and bid farewell to 2007 and say hello to 2008.


Well, this was YunXi saying 2007 was a very eventful year. I need to check the dates back. To give a proper review of the year. See you~!


++YUDANSEIZUNIIKOU++


--don't let your guard down~ ++

[[*BRILLIANCE*]]

Currently: Listening to 'My Wish [Horror] X'mas'. I'm so in the x'mas mood~ Officially~


I finally got the chance to watch Ayabie's 'THE BRILLIANT PARADE' Tour Final Live. I didn't get to watch the Bonus Footage but i'll watch it another day. About the live that i watched yesterday afternoon while my brother was cleaning his room... Firstly, i didn't concentrate for the first few minutes of the live considering my brother asked me to help him put him old magazines into the plastic bag and then a cockroach surfaced from the pile near my hand and i was screaming at it~ So scary~ Anyways... Things i didn't like about the DVD, the camera moves too much during jumpy songs. The camera shifts too much as well. The camera focusses too much on Aoi (i don't blame them for that...) and Yumehito (how about the others?! They should be focussed more as well!~). I like the quality of the video though~ Really nice and clear as if it's HD! The arrangement of the live is pretty good. And i've just decided to appreciate their outfits~ I really love Aoi's skirt~ I wished my room door wasn't opened so widely and my sis was not sleeping in the background, i could have done the hand-movements with Aoi~ It was really cute!~ And the guest appearance of Manabu-kun in a sailor-girl uniform was priceless!~ I enjoyed myself watching it!~ Lives actually help me to appreciate their music...which i've been not doing lately~ YAY!~


I really wanted to make a wallpaper today but when i opened the application and the pictures, i felt so distraught by the whole situation and thus closed everything. I don't want to try at all... I think i lost all my creative juices during this break. I need to go out or something~ I want to go out!~! Save me from my insanity~~


Well, that was a short update from me. I hope to be able to get my late christmas present consisting of Girugamesh's self-titled full album!~


AND MERRY EARLY CHRISTMAS!~ Coz, i don't want to be here on Christmas~


++SPARKLING++


--my world is painted white. cheery tunes invades my soul. kisses shared under a misstletoe. presents left under the fancy-decorated tree. a feast to be thankful for. a home to feel warmth in. my warm chritmas story...++

[[*WINTER PARADISE*]]

Currently: Listening to Alice Nine. and watching Princess Princess D live action drama again.


Right now, i am trying to make a blue ribbon~ Complicated way of doing it with the need to sew... I still haven't really done anything productive... I will do something tonight for sure~! Well, then i will lazy again and won't do it... hehe...


On Saturday night, i watched the Asian Idol performance night. It was really late into the night like 12.15am it ended and i was tired and sleepy... Couldn't they make it slightly earlier?? Then yesterday i watched the results show. We who couldn't be bothered about who wins this competition, watched it till the very end. My bro, my dad and me sat there watching it to the very end. You know, when they were about to announce the winner of Asian Idol, we were saying... 'Ah, Hady won't win~ Hady won't win~' Then we debating whether it will be Mike or Jaclyn or even Indian Idol! And then the camera was focussed on Hady... Then he was looking like 'Ah i will not win~' and then they announced... 'HADY MIRZA!' and while Hady fell to the ground in shock, me and my bro were shouting, 'WHAT HE WON?!!' Yes, late that night we were shouting at each other about Hady winning Asian Idol. I mean who isn't shocked that he won? Even he was shocked that he won... Man~ He won~ Wow, how did that happen? But anyway~ Congrats to Hady Mirza who won Asian Idol!~


Winter Paradise? I wish it would snow in Singapore... Stupid wish really... Well, it's rainning anyways~ I was thinking about a stupid romantic mountain snow scene yesterday and i couldn't help but wish it snowed~


++YUKI NO UTA++


--the vast plains washed white by the beautiful melody of the snow~++

[[*DEATH VALLEY*]]

Currently: Listening to 12012 - 'DIAMOND' album! I guess this is the first time i actually listened to 12012 so repetitively~


Yesterday i was stressing myself the whole day on the internet. I felt so much anger. Also yesterday i watched 'HELLO, DEAR NUMBERS' for real this time. I felt weird staring at my tv screen. I said it so many times that i want to watch it... so yesterday i finally did. My sis came into the room while i was watching it and she asked the most obvious question, 'Who are they?' I mean i told her like many times who they are. I mean Shou's face is not very forgetable you know... So i was like... 'How can you not know them?!' Just the other day she mistook Alice Nine for Ayabie... and i was like... 'They look so different! And their music as well!' Ah well... Even when i was buying Cure magazine, she asked who was on the cover... And i was almost shouting at Kinokuniya at her... haha...


I really should start making my plans... I've wasted like two whole months not doing anything! I should do something... BEFORE it's too late. I need to get it done!! AHHH!!~ I hate this lazy body of mine... I will get it done today i guess~ Time to do it!~ DO IT!!!


I want to cut my hair again. You can't even see the previously-Masa hairstyle anymore. It's just not fair... I think i'll cut it like those jrockers... The short-boyish top with lenghty ends. Those are nice~ I need to figure out how to tell the hairstylist that though... And I just realized how brown my hair is. I mean i was shocked when the hairstylist told me my hair is brown... Then i was slightly proud that my friend was envious of my natural brown hair. Then i was angry coz my mom said my hair is no longer black... I mean, when was it black? Yes, you see it black... But under the sun, it's so brown! It's like brown, brown! That's why my friend was like, 'So good you're hair is natural brown...' Unlike them, i never dyed my hair~ hahaha!~ So weird... I need to cut my hair... My hair is taunting me... Saying: i want to be cut, i want to be cut... like some kind of mantra~


Here comes my review!


LM.C - Bell The Cat [Regular Cover]


1. Bell The Cat


Seen the PV? The PV with that helicopter pad and the tribal feeling? And Maya looks like a Diva in it. Yeah, he really does look like a diva in that pv. I mean, the way he moves and looks. Yeah~ Okay~ The song~ Initially when i first heard the song through the pv, i didn't like it very much. Slowly though after a while listening to it, i kinda started to like it. It has this tribe-ish feeling to it. Different from most of LM.C's works. Maya's vocals are still very lovely and Aiji is as always cool on his guitar. The sound and arrangement of the song is really cool~ A good song, just takes time to really appreciate it.


2. Maple Leaf

It starts with Maya's vocals being layered. Then it goes strong and melodic. It kinda reminds me of another song. The melody is melancholic and sad. Add Maya's melodic vocals, you get a beautiful song. It sounds repetitive though... Yet, the song is well-written so it makes up to the repetitive verses. The guitar solo in this song sounds so sad, that the melancholic feeling is emphasized. It ended quite abruptly though...


Overall the single gets 8/10 from me. It's a great new single! I recommend it to everyone! Oh and i need to give it to my sis as well. She likes LM.C alot~ So yeah~ A great single!~


LALALA~ Yesterday was my friend Jian Ling's birthday so HAPPY BELATED BIRTDHAY!! Today is i guess the last day of the SEA Games? I don't know, i don't really follow these stuff. Ah well... See you~


++OSHIETE KUDASAI++


--dead bodies lying everywhere...tell me is this the death valley i dreamt of...?++

[[*DIAMOND-SHAPED LIES*]]

Currently: Listening to 12012 - 'DIAMOND' NEW MAJOR DEBUT ALBUM! JUST GOT RELEASED TODAY!! WOOT!~


With the new release of 12012's major debut album, i bring to you the CD-COVERS and my reviews!~


12012 - DIAMOND - REGULAR EDITION - Includes 12songs + 1 Bonus track.

12012 - DIAMOND - LIMITED EDITION - Includes a 30-min DVD featuring making-of footage and PVs. 12 tracks.


1. Mr. Liar


The first song of the album. I like the intro. I starts off really nice. It keeps this laid-back rock feel in the song. I guess Wataru's vocals has improved. The melody however is very repetitive. It actually sounds like an English rock and roll song~ Too repetitive...


2. THE MOON


This song has a dark feeling to it. The guitar in this song brings out the dark feeling of the song really well. But somehow when it goes to the chorus part, the song kinda changed melody and goes back to the original melody at the end of the chorus. Wataru's vocals in this brings out the raw-sad feelings in the song. Not a bad song...


3. SCREEN OUT


A faster paced song and sounds harder. Wataru rapping sounds so nice in this song. The chorus is quite nice and melodic. The growling at the background from the 2-min mark is a nice touch to the song. But it sounds kinda repetitive as well.


4. LAST TIME


A slower song compared to the first three songs. It has a melancholic feeling to the song. And Wataru's vocals remind me of Ruki's slightly. The guitars in this is quite wonderful~ Wataru's vocals really suits this type of songs.


5. SHINE


SHINE... The one single that i always thought sounded really repetitive. And the confusing PV. But Wataru's vocals are quite loveable here. I think i reviewed this before so let's skip this.


6. EMPIRE OF THE LAGOON


Another sad song~ I love the piano being played through the song. The hard guitars doesn't really do the song much justice. The piano is nice and all, then the guitars are all hard and stuff in the verses... It's just a wrong mix. The chorus is quite nicely done and the guiatr solo was also nicely done. I have no idea why but it sounds so repetitive...


7. 24HOURS

Upbeat and jazzy song. I find that recently many bands are taking jazz-influences into their songs. It's not really that jazzy but it's quite upbeat in the chorus. I don't understand what Wataru is singing but ah well... The jazz-influence is evident in the breaks of the song and the guitar solo.


8. DISPUTE


A normal thing for 12012 is the hard rhythm. Without it, it's not 12012! So here another hard song. The vocals are hushed in the verses. The screaming and rapping is just nice in the song. There was a short bass solo which was followed by a guitar solo. It's quite a fast-paced song.


9. CYCLONE


This was the first single after a very long while of not listening to 12012 that i got. And it helped me get back into the band. It was the ending theme for 'Romeo X Juliet' the anime. The first time i heard this song while my sis was watching the anime, it thought Wataru's vocals was really improving. Then i wondered how is it used for 'Romeo X Juliet'?! Then my sis was saying it sounded so hard, she didn't like it... Ah well~ I like it~


10. ONCE AGAIN


The longest song in the whole album. The beginning sounds so lullaby-ish with Wataru's hushed vocals. A nice mellow song for a change. It makes you feel so warm inside. I love Wataru's vocals in this song. (wow, for once!) I like the simple piano tune playing in the background. It gives this nostalgia feeling of childhood. For once, i can actually say 'i love this song'. Yes, it's a wonderful song. The tittle seems to go well with the song. It makes you feel like you're reliving a wonderful distant memory of yours 'once again'. It's just wonderful~ It's really melancholic as well... WONDERFUL!~


11. SECRET FESTIVAL


The intro starts of with this layered melody. Then it goes all fast and hard. What should i say~ I don't undestand what Wataru is singing again... The hard rhythm is quite nice. The chorus is quite melodic. One thing i have to say is, i like the guitar solo. It's kinda repetitive at certain points.


12. DIAMOND


The sort-of last song. It has a slower and mellow melody. I really feel that this type of song will only do justice to Wataru's vocals. All those hard songs actually strains his vocals. I like the melody in the song, quite soothing and warm. Another song i like from this album.


13. -BONUS TRACK- DREAM ARCH


Bonus track, available for the regular version. The shortest song in the whole album. A slow mellow song which has this unplugged feeling to the song. With Wataru's raw vocals and a single guitar accompanying him. It's quite interesting and lovely~ Too bad the song is so short. It would have been so good if it was longer. Wataru's vocals is so nice~ LOVE~~


Yes, my lenghty review ended!! Rating: 8/10. It has a nice mix of hard song and mellow songs. The hard songs are essential to 12012. The arrangement of the whole album is quite well thought of. I really love Wataru's vocals in most songs. I have to say i love the cover art as well. And i just realized that this is the MAJOR DEBUT of theirs. I really find this album quite good. YAY~!


Let's see... Yesterday i was really bored, so i took the scans from Cure Vol. 52 of Sou & Ryousuke and made this wallpaper. It's of course similar to all my other wallpapers. I have yet to upload this onto my photobucket account. So yeah... This wallpaper took me some time coz i almost forgot how to make it... >.<;; I know the main picture is slightly too red. I tried to fix it... But it got worst~ So i left it like that... I couldn't even remember how to saturate! I wanted it to be black and white... But i failed~ So yeah... It's crappy~


Yesterday, i started watching an old drama from back in 2000. 'Beautiful Life' starring Takuya Kimura! I've watched it before i think when i was younger when it was shown on tv but i guess i forgot all about it. The story IS supposed to be touching. And yes, i guess it is touching... BUT at that time when i watched it, Takuya Kimura was the focus. Hell, he was the only one we actually knew~ So yeah... At that time we only knew TK, then yesterday i realized that Takanori Nishikawa-san ACTUALLY ACTED IN THAT SHOW!! I mean, seriously, like as if we knew him at that time... So i'm watching it again for the purpose of ACTUALLY watching him act. I hate his long brown hair at that time... and his acting is really weird. He actually acted in another drama last year i think, Nursing Etoile. I can't find that drama anywhere though... SHOCKER FOR ME~ And here i was sitting thinking Takanori has never acted... now i know~ What a terrible fan i am...


Well see you... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SHARON! Sorry i didn't send anything to you... SORRY!!! TOMORROW IS HIROSHI'S BIRTHDAY!!


++SAGASHITEIRU++


--trying to find my purpose in life...++

[[*SCREAM MY SORROW*]]

Currently: Listening to Avenged Sevenfold. I just wanted to listen to english rock bands for once. Yeah, right...


One comment for Avenged Sevenfold: They have nice melodies, it's quite nice... I have a terrible dislike for alot of english rock bands' vocalists so that dislike has yet to change. The guitar is good. Fast-paced... I don't know, but people seem to label good guitarists with how fast they can play it... I don't find him that great... Some parts of their guitar solo is quite messy... So yeah...


I was reading a review on 'Lyrical Sympathy' so it led me to listen to Avenged Sevenfold. I don't know how they compare a english based band with a japanese based band. But they did. Especially comparing the guitarists. Ah well... Every guitarist is good in their own way~


I finished watching Witch Yoo Hee. I don't know but the ending is really weird. I mean it ended LIKE THAT?! Come on... There must be more to it than that! But oh well... While watching this drama, i realized that my nickname, Yunxi was supposed to be in Korean: Yoon Hee. So right now i have YunShi, YunXi and Yoon Hee. Haha... and my name is still ~ HAHAHA


Well... I need to go eat lunch right now. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YUYA[SID], TERUKI[ANCAFE] AND KENZO[AYABIE]! And i think i won't be here later on so... HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO SHIBASAKI HIROSHI OF ABINGDON BOYS SCHOOL!! To anotehr year of great compositions from him for ABS!


And 'Namida no Ondo' SID is 7th on the Single Chart and 'BLADE CHORD' ABS is 4th on the Single Chart! YEAH!!! Well see you!~


++LOVE, HATE AND DESPAIR++


--these feelings burned in my heart as i hear those words from you...++

[[*SEND A LETTER*]]

Currently: Listening to ABS yet again. 'BLADE CHORD' single is melting me to bits! Love it so much~


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARMIZWAR!! Today it your birthday so enjoy it! That is all~


I've realized that my creative juices are running out lately. No new graphics, no new stories, no new poems... I feel so sad. My head is spinning at the moment actually. Yesterday i slept at 5am. Time people wake up, i go to sleep... I couldn't sleep actually. I rolled around on my bed for 5hours with a headache and mumbling 'oh god' in korean. I mean, i closed my eyes but couldn't go to sleep. I was sure i was not going to get any sleep yesterday night... Then everytime i opened my eyes, i was wide awake and the rain was pouring down. My sis was snoring so loudly too and i couldn't even get to sleep till 5am! I'm so sad... But i'm not sleepy at all. My eyes are in pain but i'm not sleepy... Ahhh~ I feel so vexed~


I'm thinking of watching 'HELLO, DEAR NUMBERS' properly later in the afternoon. I didn't get to do it yesterday. And yesterday's ratings... About Ayabie's mini-album... I need to clarify that the only reason i didn't like the mini-album is coz, the happy jumpy tunes in the songs sounds so repeptitive and similar that soon, i get bored... I don't like cheerful music... Thus, it's breaking my heart when i think about Ayabie right now. It just seems so different... Ah whatever... BLADE CHORD SHOULD GET 9/10!~ HAHAHAHAHA!!! I AM NOT JOKING!!


++AIMAI NA KOTOBA++


--Through the misunderstood and vague words in your letter, I found my reason...++

[[*DESERT ROSE*]]

Currently: Listening to my entire Abingdon Boys School Discography! INCLUDING BLADE CHORD!


Recently I've been watching random cute shows on crunchyroll. Stuff people don't really bother about, hehe... And i'm still sick. And i didn't watch my 'HELLO, DEAR NUMBERS' DVD yesterday. *crys in solitude* Anyways, i'll do it today when i have nothing to do. Also, it's raining after so long!


ABINGDON BOYS SCHOOL - BLADE CHORD


1. BLADE CHORD


When i first heard this song through the PV, i was like 'SAMURAI!!' Then i was just enjoying the song and not the PV. Well, i don't know how to enjoy a slow-motion pv. The beginning already catches my attention. I don't usually say anything about ABS so it's hard to review this. One, it's a wonderful song with beautiful melody and Nishikawa-san's powerful vocals. The melody however sounds kinda repetitive at certain points. I just wished that they didn't do that guitar solo deliberately... It's sounds so messy... But overall the song was good.


2. DESERT ROSE

This song has a more melancholic sound to it. Sounds sad and painful. And like any other single of ABS, the 2nd song has to be in ENGLISH! Half of the time i can understand his english, but the other half of the time, i won't understand it unless i read the lyrics. "I'm a criminal" gives it some kind of rebellious feeling to the song. It actually sounds so beautiful. The melody is so beautiful especially when it's at the chorus and add Nishikawa-san's vocals, the song sounds so wonderful! This song gets my love~


I keep forgetting to rate things when i am reviewing it coz, i really forgot. So for the past stuff...


ALICE NINE. - ALPHA [8/10] I don't really like how they arrange the album but it's good enough to listen to over and over again.


AYABIE - RIKKABOSHI [7/10] I don't really like cheerful songs. It's good enough to listen to when i'm bored or happy but most of the time, i'm really angsty and listening to this doesn't really lift my mood.


ABINGDON BOYS SCHOOL - BLADE CHORD [8/10] I will not go overboard. But i really love the single. Tell me, which Takanori Nishikawa fan will say they hate this? Come on, this is a wonderful single!


And i've changed the background song to Alice Nine.'s 'Kousai'. My favourite song from their 'ALPHA' album. It's such a heartwrenching song. YEAH!~ I've realized that everything i've review lately it from the 'A'-name bands. haha...Well, Soon Girugamesh, 12012, HIZAKI grace project, Mix Speaker's Inc. stuff to review!


++MOMOBIN!++


--Was it a crime to fall in love with the person you can't love?++

[[*MY LIFE, MY STORY*]]

Currently: Listening to Alice Nine's 'Alpha' yet again! It almost always doesn't pop up in my mp3 player! Thus, i had to play it!


Well today is a very extremely special day to me.. IT'S MY FREAKIN' BIRTHDAY! Yet, the only freakin people who actually wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY was my parents, myself and WAYN's director. Sheesh! Happy birthday my foot! More like some other day in my life that i couldn't be bothered about! Yeah, i hate my birthday. Never really liked it when it came... But anyways... I am officially 16. Sweet-sixteen not really... But hey, i finally can watch all those NC-16 movies at the cinemas! WOOT!~


Today is also Haderu's (Jealkb) birthday, if i'm not wrong... So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!


To celebrate my dumb boring birthday... I actually posted this picture! MY FIRST WORTH-TO-BE-PROUD-OF GRAPHIC! I posted it before if i'm not wrong... BUt i couldn't resist looking at it. It's just so wonderful~ I mean, seriously! I cropped the picture with precision and everything! I was so happy... I couldn't remember when i did this...but two year has passed since then and to this day, i felt that this was the first and only graphic that is my pride and joy. SO YAY!!!


I'm still figuring out stuff on my GOSULOLI book. My mom is still trying to teach me planning... I'm planning to sew a blue-lace bag. This is coz, i resorted to not wanting to make a lolita dress. I mean , how many days of the year will i ever WEAR a lolita dress? so i resorted to a more punkier outfit. I need to buy zips and buttons now though... And maybe i'll learn to sew another short dress where i'll wear pants under it.


I wish i live in the Western area! I mean, it's freakin' hot right now! And even though the new LCD tv arrived, it won't be set up anytime soon... So yeah... And it's too hot to think! Later i'll set up my DVD player to watch 'HELLO, DEAR NUMBERS' again. Since~ I have a new tv in my room... well, my dad gave me his room tv and is taking the tv which is currently in the livingroom into his room and later setting up the LCD tv... so YEAH! I would love to play my DVD on that LCD tv but... no... Not now... HEHE...


Well, see you!~


++CRASH AND BURN++


--You were my shooting star, yet i buried you too deep in the ground to shine...++

[[*BLOOD*]]

Currently: Listening to Ayabie's 'Rikkaboshi' & Alice Nine.'s 'Alpha' (will anyway...) Oh yeah!

Just came back from the Hospital after taking my blood...I still feel kinda in pain right now... The blood didn't want to flow so she kept hitting me and the needle was in so deep...AHH! Well, at least it's over and done with. It took only a minute or something! So by 8.45am i left the hospital and finally i can eat! Right now enjoying my Plum Juice!


Only hours since it's release, i got Alice Nine.'s 'Alpha' and Ayabie's 'Rikkaboshi'. Still have yet to listen to 'Alpha' but from the previews i heard the other day, it's quite nice, really. WOOT!~ So since i have nothing to do, i shall review the album and mini-album. WOOT!~

Alice Nine. - Alpha (Regular Edition Cover)


1. ZERO


For a start of the album, it's quite hard and has this catchy-ness to it. The hard rhythm continues throughout the song. Shou's vocals just suits the song somehow. This song is quite something for a start. I just love the whole hard melody in the song and Shou's vocals. The guitars are just wonderful at the end of the song.


2. Cosmic World


First heard this song from their PV. The first time i heard this song, i didn't really like the sound to it. Moreover, many viewers couldn't really be bothered by the song itself, they are too bothered with how great the look...*sighs*... The song is quite catchy but at some points, i stray away from listening to the song coz it doesn't have such a strong impact in the song. But the good points of this song is the catchy-ness. But somehow putting this after 'ZERO' seems pretty weird, coz, the opening song is so hard and captivating that this song somehow killed that captivity in me. Yes, this isn't one of their greatest song...sadly...


3. Aoi Tori


It starts off pretty nicely, then the song becomes quite mellow then it picks up the pace in the chorus. Shou's vocals in this song is pretty wobbly considering he has to sing his chorus quite quickly that it sounds slightly off sometimes. The guitars aren't so bad. I love the drum line in the song though.


4. JEWELS


If you haven't heard this song, you've been living under a rock! This is one of the beautiful songs by Alice Nine.! I can't remember what the PV was like but i really loved this song! Hell, before i got the single, i had a PV rip and then i had some bad-quality rip and then the single. You can see how desperate i was in getting this song. I really love Shou's vocals in this, it's so mellow and melodic that it captivates me. The melody is so wonderful! I still remember putting it as a ringtone and my phone was ringing in the train and i didn't want to pick it up...haha...


5. 9th Revolver


It starts off slow and it's pace is quite mellow. Shou's vocals in the beginning is quite hushed. When it picks up the pace, the melody stays melancholic and melodic. Shou's sings some english in this i think. I never liked how he pronounces the english words but his voice is just still wonderful! It has this really sad melody to it. And really short too...>.<;;


6. -dice-


I love this song! It's been a while since Alice Nine. made some really hard songs! The pace is really quick and the rhythm is just love~ Eventhough it's considered a hard song, the chorus is quite melodic thanks to Shou's vocals! The growling and stuff are quite cool!


7. Number Six.


Another song that if you haven't heard it, you are living under a rock! I mean seriously, they even made a short film on for this song! But this song gets kinda old... After a few hundred times listening to it, i got tired of it. And i have some problems with the way Alice Nine. arranged their album. I watched the freaking short film like four times at least. My sis watched half-way and was bored... I don't know, i think it's coz it's Alice Nine... Oh whatever...


8. Kousai


This song starts out slow and it has a really nice melody to the song. The violin is so nice. A slow song. Shou's vocals makes it sound kinda melancholic, like if you just listen to it without understanding the lyrics, you want to cry. The sad melody carries throughout the song and as i type this i feel kinda sad...*crys*... I officially love this song and this is the first time i listened to it!


9. White Prayer


Another song that you would have been living under a rock, if you haven't heard it. WHITE PRAYER, man! Come on! The PV with the white rose burning at the end! The PV with the Alice Nine. members in that glass cell! The song with word, "Please save me with a white rose" and "Black or white, Jewel or stone"... come on, it's almost common knowledge! And I didn't even listen to the song to write this review on it!


10. ERASER


What are my thoughts on this? Hmm... For once, i think songs like this suits Shou's vocals. It's a mellow piece, not too fast, not too slow. The melody is quite repetitive though. And the tittle makes me think of erasers... Something not so widely sought for but makes an impact on people's lives. I'm thinking the song is supposed to make an impact... yet it doesn't... IT DOESN'T! WHY?!


11. Blue Planet


I saw the PV like three times already. I didn't like the freaking Pink-Bunny-Girl. The girl at the beginning is cute though...Anyways... This is not a new song... But it sounds re-recorded! When was Shou's english so understandable? I mean the previous time, i didn't understand that whole verse he sang in english! Now i understand it! "Anywhere, Anytime, I think about you~"


12. Cradle to [ALPHA]


I didn't get to hear a preview of this song. So this is the very first time i'm listening to it. It's an instrumental piece. The song starts off pretty slow bass line thingy. Then when it picks up the pace, it's quite nice. And the weird thing is it ended abruptly on my media player...


Ayabie - Rikkaboshi (Cover)


1. Kirisame


The first song of the mini-album! Something to catch our attention! It's been a while since the last time i heard Ayabie and Aoi's vocals are really good now. The song is quite catchy and the melody is quite happy. I think this mini-album will be a good one when i hear this song. Yeah~ My brain is slightly fried so i can't think very well...


2. Izayoi Kaze


Second song. It has this messy feeling at the beginning with the guitar. It feels so different from most Ayabie songs. And more really catchy songs. I think i'll be happy listening to this mini-album when i listened 1/3 through the mini-album. Somehow the songs are more catchy and happy.


3. LAST NOTE


Third Song! Half-way through the mini-album! The keyboard melody is quite nice in this. And as i said, the songs are more catchy and happy. Aoi's vocals are quite nice here. The melody is much mellow than the other two songs. And the guitar solo is quite good.


4. Yuukyu no ame, soshite...


Too much happiness is bad! So they decided to put a song that is slightly more melancholic and has this dark feeling. I think i feel like as if i'm-walking-at-a-dark-alleyway-and-this-song-is-playing kind of feeling. The melody is much darker. I actually like this song.


5. Hoshigaoka


This song is quite nice and mellow. Has this really my-pace kind of feeling. Aoi hits those high notes yet again. I have to say Aoi's vocals is one of the more melodic vocals out there in the visual-kei scene. The chorus is really nice to listen to. It has such an easy feeling to the song. The kind of song you listen to when you relax and stuff.


6. Sleet Eve

THE LAST SONG!! Ending it with a bang! Finally a song i can hear the bass line from my rotten speakers! Yet another catchy song. It gives this really happy-melancholic feeling. The guitar solo is quite nice even if it was really short. When i hear this i feel, "Ah the album ended" in a good way. Like it makes you want to repeat it or something to that effect. Ah, when i feel like relaxing, i'll listen to this mini-album on repeat and drink more Plum Juice~


AH OWARI DA! My extremely time-consuming review is finished! I have a random Christmas-idea story in my mind. Everyone around me excluding my family are like CHRISTMAS, CHRISTMAS. My brother even sang 'We Wish You A Merry Christmas'. I was appalled. But anyway... Though it's supposed to be a Christmas story, i think it'll be kinda dark and angsty but warm. I'll write it before Christmas comes. And later in the afternoon, I'm going to Orchard with my sis. I don't know what i should buy... And i feel kinda deaf right now. And I watched a Dolly Live through my NEW Realplayer! I didn't know there was that Live until i watched it. The stage was really small and still they want to jump around. Haha...


SEE YOU!~


++JAKENPON++


--My heart is like paper and you are like a scissors cutting it into half. But my soul is hard as a rock to crush you afterwards++

[[*BROKEN ROAD*]]

Currently: watching x-family... Singing happy birthday... and listening to various songs...


Today is Tatsuhi(ZORO)'s birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM!! He is now 20 yrs old from what i remember of his birth year... SO happy birthday to him! I was so excited about his birthday for no apparent reason this whole week. I can't send him anything coz, i am dumb and can't... So i thought i'll just be nice to all his fans and present them this wallpaper i made! (below)

This is the wallpaper! Tatsuhi is so cute! 3/5 of the pictures are from back when he was in Soroban. The written 'Tatsuhi' took me a long time to get right. Actually to make sure the whole wallpaper looks nice, i took the whole day to make this. And phew, made it just in time! I'm suffering from neck aches at the moment since then... Hope you like it!


I've also uploaded all my other wallpapers including this one excluding the 'LEAD MY WAY' wallpaper onto my photobucket album. Check it out. My user is yunxi_ichigo. I might as well upload all those other pictures... those miscelleneous pictures that i have...


I remembered that the last time i updated was on 16th and i didn't even realize that time that it was Tadashi(Plastic Tree)'s birthday! So happy extremely belated birthday to him! and supposingly i will not be updating my blog on 30th Nov, i'll sent an early birthday greeting to my friend Kamiya. Happy birthday as well.


On Wednesday i will have to go get my blood tested. Sheesh... Right on the day 'Alpha', 'Rikkaboshi' + Ayabie's LIVE DVD, 'Curse of Virgo' is released! I feel sad now... Ah well... This was my very short update with my birthday wishes to whoever i wanted to... Now to add more songs into my phone...


++FRESH START++


--how long has it been since i last saw your smile...?++

[[*Chords Of Insanity*]]

Currently: Listening to CHORD, Rascal Flatts. Watching X-Family. Yes, i am slow at watching stuff like this too... And CHORD is a wonderful singer. Cute too!


Since i can't post my freaking pictures, i will just forget those picture-uploading buttons exists! As i'm listening to this Chinese Song by CHORD, i just realized how i have been ignorant about the chinese world for a while. Not only the chinese world, the malay world and the english world too! Ah well... Also, i should be asking my friend when we are going to visit our teacher's house. Yup, we are i think. We should be, to give some care and love. Ah well...


I need to listen to various english songs to give me inspirations for my next story. Considering i have finished writting 'CHASE', i need a new story to write. I know i have about two stories on hold but i just can't seem to go back to those stories coz, my mentality has changed. So the stories are not to my standard anymore. I was reading back a story i wrote a long time ago and i was laughing at my childishness. I just don't like how childish i was back then. Ah well...


Recently i've been playing Sims 2: Castaway. I was bored and i was really weird... It's troublesome trying to control the freaking guy... Which is named Chris coz i didn't bother to change his name. Yes, i didn't bother! And he had a crew member... And i found it really weird talking to umm... Monkeys... or were they chimps? I don't know... It was weird. It was vexing when i got lost in the island. Yes, i got lost! I feel like i'm playing LOST instead of Sims! Ah well...


And i should stop staring at Merry's coats and SUNAO's face and JUKA's jacket. Yup...it's too much. I really like the vocalist in Merry's coat. The red colour coat he wore during one of the photoshoot. Oh man, if i had a scanner i could scan it right now... I have a scanner only prob is the printer/scanner/photocopyer decided to break down. Yup... BREAK DOWN! If i could use the scanner i would have scanned SUNAO's picture! And i love Juka's jacket in his 'Fall of Leaves' PV! I love the song so much! It's a slow soothing song but aww...I love it to bits!


Well... Cherrio! I want to watch X-family and later play Sims either my bro's one or mine. On DS or PSP... yar... i have to choose...sheesh!


++CHARRED++


--my heart is burning with the flame of love and desire.++

[[*SHAPE OF MY HEART*]]

Be ready to be bombarded by visual-kei goodness! ZORO's new look...unfortunately they don't have a group picture for this one...i think...


Currently: Listening to Lolita23q's New Album 'Brand New Ward'! I just got it today...when it struck me that it's been 5 days since it's release! I was dumb...

~RYUJI~


Somehow, i just don't like the hair at the moment... It's kinda strange. And blue has just become my enemy... I mean seriously! I never really liked looking at Ryuji... This somehow proves why...>.<;;

~TAIZO~


Oh man... Which rock was i living under all this time? He looks so good! Charming!~ I like his hair now compared to previously. And his face is all clean with no makeup jewels under his eyes and stuff...
~TATSUHI~


Cutenesss is still ensured! He's starting to remind me of a tenshi with all that white. His blond hair is still blond...>.<...but he got it cut shorter. He's so cute!
~YUYA~


After all this while thinking Yuya was just a great guy with average looks... I think it has changed. His hair has gotten longer since and he dyed it brown!

I'm just thinking a new single or something will come out soon by them... That was what i was thinking when i saw the new outlook change...but not yet i guess. And i wish to see the whole full outfit! As they get older their outlook changes, huh? Considering they (Ryuji, Yuya & Tatsuhi) were considered the younger generation visual-kei back when they were in Soroban...so yeah...


As i said, i just realized that Lolita23q's new album came out 5 days ago! So i am five days late at getting it. But since i got it... I have to say something about them. Their sound has changed since the past. Still harder than most oshare-kei bands but then again is Lolita23q still oshare-kei? I think they have since left that scene... Anyways... Sou's vocals are much nicer now. I used to think why is Sou singing like that in the past but now... Sou just proved that he can improve his vocals. Well, if sound improves, vocals has to improve, right? Yup, yup...Oh and i just watched Red Room PV...yeah, i'm really slow~ But it was really cool i guess... The clown guy was the only disturbing part for me as i HATE & DESPISE & CAN'T LOOK AT CLOWNS! The rapping thing was cool until i think Ryousuke should at least play his bass and not be in the whole rap mood. Sou's really cute though! Well Ryousuke does make up for his lack of bass playing in the rapping part with the short bass line solo. So yeah...But Lolita23q has been one of the bands that i liked so much but couldn't get my hands on many of their works.


Talking about clowns...I have this fear when i see clowns... Up close and on tv... I just can't stand looking at them. I know they were supposed to be loving people who tries to bring joy in children with their crazy ethics... But somehow it brought fear to me. I can't remember why but when i was younger i watched this show where the clowns were murderers and it kinda scared me. Then another show came about clowns kidnapping children! Then somehow, when i was sleeping and stuff, blood-covered clowns came chasing after me. I was scared to hell of clowns. Then when me and my family bought popcorn to eat, the box always had a picture of a clown(this was when i was younger). I was one, afraid to eat the popcorn. two, i ate the popcorn but covered the picture of the clown on the box. Clowns, to me are evil creatures. When i see other children want to see CLOWNS, i was appalled! Why would they want to see those CLOWNS?! But i guess i was really faint-hearted when i see clowns. I had one thought that one day, those clowns are gonna be murderous kidnappers like that show i watched! Well, that's my thought anyways... Which leads to why i never like the PUMPKIN HEAD's FRYPAN. Ah well...


I finally wrote 'CHASE'! I was so emotional writting the story yesterday though. I mean it must be painful to be an obsession to someone when you want him to love you instead. Ah well...


++IS IT ROUND?++


--i bared my soul to you and yet you crushed my hopes in a split second. Who am i to you?++

[[*SWALLOWED*]]

Again i have nothing to post as pictures. This is one of my favourite old wallpaper i made. It took a long time to make this wallpaper. But i was so happy with it that i kept showing it to my brothers. This is coz they never taught me the tricks, i learned it myself...so i needed to be a bit more of a pesky sister!


Currently: Trying to type up my poems and watching an anime after so long of no animation in my life...and listening to random songs...


I just updated my journal with more poems! Go visit it here! Okay! I felt a sting in my heart when i typed out the poem i wrote for my friend. It was a painful time for her...but when i think about it, it was similar to my own pain in a way...yet she has a sister to help her out, a friend to help her out...for me...i picked myself back up again on my own. I closed myself from everyone. I did tell my sister but she didn't help me...she said...'It happens' and i was pissed off... I did say my pain to a close friend of mine...she tried to comfort me...but that didn't help much...she said 'forget it...' betrayals are a norm to me right now...so if someone betrays me right now at this very second...i wouldn't cry...i wouldn't get angry...i'd just pretend...that's that...there's nothing much to say anymore. What surprises me is that some of these people are ignorant about betrayal! BETRAYAL ARE A NORM!


It's funny that my tv antenna suddenly gets a Japanese-English channel and a cantonese channel. I'm so surprised that i'm watching it right now. Too bad, my tv is making too much noise! Someone must have turned the volume up! I told them my remote control is broken and yet, they still do it! DAMN!


Well...i'm bored...so see you!


++HAPPY END++

[[*Kokoro No Uta*]]

Banner, banner! I have nothing else to post as my pictures so i decided to dig up all my old graphics and post it up! WOOOOT!!~ I did this when my nickname was just Saki Ishizu. Yunxi came later when i finished watching a Korean drama.


Currently: Watching Iguana No Musume and Miyavi's last indies live...


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! (insanity has taken over me...>.<;;) Well, i just realized that those peeps from the pure science who doesn't take pure but take combined science and my classmate June has finished their o levels yeaterday with me and my fellow lit peeps. Oh yeah~ but since i have nothing to read a.k.a notes...i'm bored...really...


I was really wowing when my friend back from primary school messaged me yesterday. She actually called me but my phone was at home and i actually ran back home from McDonalds to get my phone and a CD...and then ran back from home to McDonalds...okay i lied...i walked. And then i reached Mc and sat down with my friend and saw her message and the fact that she called. Yup...It surprised me. And i was trying to reply with trembling hands...we messaged for a while and till night time...random jaa mata and oyasuminasai...then added her on my MSN...then that's all...BUT! She was my best friend in primary school, we always hung out with each other! It's nice to still have a friend there who remembers you and you remember!~


I have no idea whether to say i am happy or whether to say i am sad...coz...i am bored right now and i have yet to find my sewing machine! And Eng Wah's freaking website is not working...WHY WHY WHY WHY?! And i was slightly feeling weird about my 'CHASE' story. It's becoming 'OBSESSION' instead of 'CHASE' and it's supposed to be part of my series of one-shots on the theme 'Aishiteru'. Damn... Only reason to watching Miyavi's 2004 live...boredom...and i wanted to see Miyavi not major (not that i have never watched him not major...just that i like him better indies...not major...) ah well...


P.S: i just changed the background song again. Now featuring Versailles's Sympathia!


++IPPEN SHINDE MIRU?++


--listen to the core of insanity of the crying heart. Pain, pain...Lost in the deep desire to fall in love++

[[*ARMS RACE*]]

Family...What does family means to you? I drew this along with the bigger picture. It's very blurry because this is like only one small part of the picture. It's supposed to be a family picture. When i drew this i was thinking about how much irony can someone's life have? Family...Really what does it mean to you?


Currently: Listening to random music. Ignoring the whole world. Ignorance is bliss, isn't?


++The Story Of A Girl Against The World++


Me...the one known as Yunxi Saki Ishizu (it's a terribly long nickname). This girl who everyone knows as the innocent little girl. Innocent is just a word. Ms. Quiet Queen. This is who I am. Or so people think.


Their deceptive mind collapsed in a split second...as i cackle. (Or so the story seems to go this way...) And then i run out of ideas and the story disappears...Lmao...


Okay~ Today was my Social Studies paper...after one whole night of thinking i will lose my memory today...I was happy and elated that the SEQs are to my favour! YEAH!! My two most favourite questions came out and i was jumping for joy and smiling to myself the whole freaking way! Then by 15mins before the end of the paper i got bored. I saw my friend going off to the washroom...Then saw the same friend looking just as bored...then when it was 2mins before the end of the paper my other friend's pencil case fell to the floor with a loud thud. Then by the few seconds left of the paper...i almost choked myself while breathing causing me to have a momentary coughing fit...yup...Later in the afternoon, my friend has her biology paper. Wish her well!~


Tomorrow is...MY LAST DAY OF EXAMS!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm laughing coz, only ten of us finish off our exams tomorrow. With three freaking papers on ONE freaking DAY! Yes...Literarure is bliss...then again...i hardly want to 'smoke' the whole day tomorrow. (note: 'smoke' = writting really fast and crapping. Like something you see in cartoons when too much the character writes too fast, smoke is created~!) I don't even want to look at my science notes today...Time to study my literature!


I can't believe everyone (almost) around me (in the jrock fan forum) has a freaking CREDIT CARD! And here i am...feeling like a loser coz i don't credit to pre-order albums. I really want to at least own something!!! Unfortunately i don't...Now i feel terrible...


Thinking of going out to watch movie on the 8th...buy new mags, my lolita-making guidebook...and maybe buy coffee bean...it's been a while...it's time to indulge!! Yeah right...where the hell does money come from? TREES?! Well technically it's paper and paper come from trees...WELL NOT ANYMORE! MONEY ARE NOW PLASTIC!! yeah...i know...


After tomorrow's paper...i can enjoy myself for the rest of the year...I'm so freaking happy!!~ YAY!!


++THE END++


--Or so it seems...++

[[*BORED*]]

Currently: Listening to random music being shuffled on my playlist. It's getting boring...


The BOREDOM is sinking in!! I'm waiting till 12pm to watch 'All Grown Up' on tv. Yes, i still feel like a kid and have to watch a decent cartoon once in a while. I LOVE & ADORE RUGRATS! I even played so many rugrats games on my PS1! So...You should understand how much i just love the show...I watch it so much when i was younger till the point my mom and dad still remembers the names of the children in the show! They even recognize the characters while i was watching 'All Grown Up'! (this is all the bored mind talking...)


I am so bored that i was reading through Alice Nine's blogs. I am so into the whole ffpotion and elixir thing that...here are the pictures! I think last year i mentioned this somewhere. I think i did...then again maybe not...I told my brother about it i guess...

This is what was released LAST YEAR. The bottles are so nice. The drink is as many had said, is terrible. But many Japanese people think it just taste like any 'Genki' Drinks there. Considering that's what they put in that freaking potion bottle. Hmm...what else do you want to know? I still think the premium set looks nicer. I don't have a picture of it. Sorry...
This is what is released THIS YEAR. Yup...it's tin-cans with pictures of the characters of FF7. it feels so advent children! It should be too...anyways...From what Nao-san from Alice Nine. had said in his blog...the drink is a carbonated drink. That's what he said...and he was surprised! Before i went to Nao's blog i saw it on Makoto's blog i think and my sister showed a picture of it from someone's blog she decided to stalk. So yeah...but she didn't see the characterized tin cans! She even asked me what they put in it...i was just saying it was probably some drink...now i shall tell her properly what's inside. (i'm dumb...and sleepy at that time.)


My physics paper was fine i think. It was terrible at certain points but it was fine. MANAGEABLE...now i'm afraid of the Social Studies paper and the literature paper. AAAAAHHHH!!! On Wednesday i was playing around with fireworks and i made a wallpaper. It was dumb and looks odd. It's so black, grey and white that it looks odd.

Above is the wallpaper i made. I took a very very very long time to make those freaking butterflies. And putting the dots properly. The picture of the opened door and the stairway (which can't really be seen) was actually taken at the chalet, with my photography expertise (yeah right). I used a program in my phone to make it really dark. I was bored one night and played around with it. Thus, the picture became like that and inspired me to make this wallpaper. It was supposed to be a dark wallpaper...but somehow with the dots, butterflies and tiny dotted lines...it adds a kind of elegance to the wallpaper. I wrote YUNXI a bit too big...this is the only time i'm soing something different from what i'm used to doing. It really feels nice~ heheh...say whatever you want about the wallpaper...it was done out of boredom since i didn't want to study my physics that day...


++SURVIVAL++


--can i survive in a world like this. The rain falls down, washes away the sins of out time. But can i really survive in this world...without you?++

[[*My Dearest Love*]]

Currently: Listening to Versailles's New Album 'Lyrical Sympathy'.


I freaking love this album! It's their first album and i love it so much that i listened to it last night to sleep. I don't have anything to say about this except Kamijo's vocals are nicer to listen to than when i was listening to him in Lareine. (i actually shuddered when it randomly played on my playlist.) Actually i hope his vocals will stay like this. I didn't really like 'Forbidden Gate' because i was disappointed in the way Kamijo sang in this. 'Sympathia' is a nice song, nothing hard and it really showcases Kamijo's vocal abilities. Overall, i found this album not as hard as hard rock can be but melodic as neo-classical should be. 9/10!


Yesterday me and my family went to Terminal 3. It was tiring and it was slightly boring. I was listening to my walkman-phone the whole day. Songs ranging from hard-core Dir En Grey to sweet Ayabie to ultra-sweet Tokyo Michael to neo-classical Versailles to random songs put into my phone. It was turned on softly coz, i needed to listen to what everyone was saying. It was boring but the view was okay. Some of the things aren't complete yet. What a disappointment moment... Here are some pictures...some are dumb. But anyways...My sister took it. I'll link up my sister's blog coz i have a feeling she'll write stuff there and post pictures there as well. So here we go...

This is a view from i forgot what level. It has all this vines and plantations. I like this view. It's not something you see at an international airport, right??

Here comes the useless dumb pictures. This was the first picture we took. I have it in my phone but i'm lazy to hook my phone to the comp so i post my sister's camera picture. Those two are my brothers. My second brother is supposingly the receptionist...he looks mildly unhappy at the customer who is my eldest brother. It's so strange when one is smiling and the other is so unhappy. It looks dumb but hey it works!

The last picture i'm posting. I have to pimp myself here! The one sitting all alone there is me. Pretending to read my freaking brochure. My sis wanted to take a picture but it was stupid when there's no one there so i became her subject of film. I avoided sitting on the orange seat. Somehow they had to pick the one colour i hate in this world but wish to dye my hair that colour...ORANGE...


Last Saturday i went to my sister's tutee house. Menyebok sikit while enjoying the kuih-muih. They were rather scared of my presence. Good thing they never saw the things i drew on a piece of paper. They will be mildly scared. I drew something to get into the feel of Halloween. So yeah...The younger brother which my sis kept saying was utterly cute...is cute but...he's kinda lembut...and he writes quite slow and thinks on one question too long! I was kinda fed-up when i was watching him do that comprehension in his assesment book. Bah...The older brother is so hardworking that he already started on his HOLIDAY ASSIGMENT! I would usually bury it till the last day of holidays to dig up and do...wow...And i officially graduated Sec. 4!


Tomorrow is my Maths Paper 2. On Friday is my Physics paper. Two days to really absorbed every single detail of physics into my brain...haiz...today i kept singing Abingdon Boys School's 'DOWN TO YOU'. It kinda captivates me. Even if i can't even write 'CHASE' properly...i need to scrap it again...


PS: I just checked the ORICON CHARTS FOR TOP ALBUMS...I was SHOCKED but happy that ABINGDON BOYS SCHOOL'S SELF-TITLED ALBUM IS AT NUMBER TWO! WOOT!~


++TAINTED SOUL++


--'Why don't you turn to me again? Why don't you heal me then?' ~ DOWN TO YOU++

[[*Chasing*]]

[A little graphic i made for my phone background. Featuring Kanon! I tried to do something different...but it's still kinda amateur...]


Currently: Listening to random songs


I hate being the last batch of my syllabus...they make the exam papers all so hard!! I hate it so much. I couldn't even answer the map properly...hell, i was crapping. After the paper, Yusri said i had so much to write and tried to defend myself. Then they talk about the Prom Night which i am not going and he said he was going to go all white...then Dini joked about the contrast...it was funny.


I want Dir En Grey's DOZING GREEN single...but alas...i couldn't get it. Someone please give it to me!! I saw the PV and i even have the PV...but i don't even have the song...it's so sad...The PV is way too dark and that part where the doll was cutting himself was disturbing, what with that blood spilling out...Ah well...enjoy the song through the PV is fine...


Tomorrow i have no paper but the History students have theirs...so good luck to them...On Monday i have three papers which sucks...I don't want to go through this...help me~ This Saturday/Sunday, my bro says we can go see Terminal Three with the special tickets he have...i was like...See...Terminal...Three...okay....yeah...that's fun...But it would be the first few to see it! yeah...fun...


I have to study for my english...my friend invited me to go to the bookstore to umm...read the guidebook...Save money, i guess...and i have a story i want to write...wonder when i'll write it...


++VESTIGE++


--"One of us crossed that line between love and obsession, and the entire thing fell apart."~Ambiguity by avadedrahetarra on LJ++

[[*Happy Moments We Share*]]

Currently: Listening to NoveLis, D=OUT and other random bands. Don't ask why i listen randomly...I'm bored...


I had a hell of a day today with my Chemistry Paper...It sucks, officially...i will fail this paper...i did something wrong and my explaination sucks so badly! The Add Maths paper was no better and i hate it when Gavin said he will get his A1 for it! I feel so sad...and he had to make me feel worse...good thing i take Combined Science...or not i will die...I was joking with my sis about how alot of us will feel happy if we get C5 for Add Maths...hehehe...Well tomorrow is my Geography paper...Wish me well~


I wanted to blog yesterday but the posting picture function had an error so here i am today instead...Well...SATURDAY EVENTS!! My Raya At Chalet experience. Stupid title though...but hey! Firstly, we were doing lots of work from morning of Saturday, getting the place ready...Then i changed out of my terrible looking clothes into something nice and we greeted the guests. It was tiring walking up and down the stairs from the living room, the kitchen to the rooms. My uncles and aunts had a discussion. Then when my cousin came, we stood near the stairs and started talking about 'O's...the practical paper...add maths...how she says she didn't like physics when i did. Ah well...i think i will work really hard for my physics paper just to make sure i can pass my comb. science! Then we talked a bit more about studying...then she went to do her add maths, causing me to feel the pressure...damn...Then more came and lots of things to be done. Then we took the family picture...which i forgot to transfer into my computer coz it's in my camera not on my phone...so i only managed to transfer those in my phone, not my camera...which isn't much either...hehe...then we went back in and by evening,most of them left except the mentioned cousin's family and my future sis-in-law...Then before my cousin's family went home, we had fun with sparklers! But it was so short-lived fun...but fun nonetheless! I think the sparklers back when i was a kid lasted longer than this. It was much more fun back then when i was younger and we were playing sparklers on the night of hari raya with all my cousins back in Malaysia. I miss them~ *crys* anyways, about the sparklers...We first played by holding it and swishing it around. Then my brother got slightly fed up of playing it that way and took a few sticks and lighted it at the grass patch, lighting a small pathway... as seen below...

I think you can see my cousin's hand. This was the second round of lighting up the pathway. I call this... 'Light My way'...My brother's great idea! (usually ever since he went to NS, he doesn't use his brain much...hehehe...)
Then he suggested making shapes and patterns. So he started with this cross-thingy. I think it looks terrible in this view...but sorry. The line at the top was made when i took the picture and my brother moved the sparkler he was holding...i call this... 'Cross With You'
This was what happened to my ketupat which everyone turned it into a house instead. Coz, my ketupat didn't work~ *crys* Even the house looks terrible. Ah well...i call this... 'House Of Lights'
The last pattern we did and it took some architectural efforts to get this right. It's supposed to be a star...if you look at it properly. My brother was so happy with this star. So was I! The shadow is my shadow i think...The light was shining right at me. i call this... 'Sparkling Star'.


Then after that we finished up the rest of the box and my cousin went home. We sat down as a family after that and talked. My future sis-in-law looked kinda lost in our convy...but it's ok. It was after all some family politics...even i hate hearing about it. It has been how long?! Half a year? One year? I can't remember...Then my bro sent her home and we went to clean up abit and then went to sleep~ Couldn't sleep very well...My sis was snoring...I was waking up every now and then, heard my father's car...then tried to sleep again...then woke up in the end...


It was fun while it lasted...I will have fun some other day...But till then...back to studying!!!


++AIMAI NA KOTOBA++


--'Flashes of my younger days came back to me...Those we days of happiness...We had nothing to fear...But those moments don't last forever...'++

[[*Practical Assumptions*]]

[A graphic i made for my phone, any bigger and the picture will be pixelized...The graphic features Hikaru from D=OUT which i unconsciously mistook for Shiyu the first time i saw him. Yes, at certain angles they look alike! But Hikaru is cute~]


Currently: Trying out 12012 Shine Single.


A while ago, i just had my practical exam. It was sad coz, we all in the lab...didn't see the white precipitate that was supposed to form in the first part...and that pins, refraction thingy was hell! Then we had to be quranteened from 9.30 to 1.30...sheesh...we were bored to hell...I couldn't do my a maths coz i was unwilling...then we played word games...made us think alot...it was sad...But i'm glad the exams are coming! 8 days of exams! I feel sad that my lit paper is our last paper and it ends at 6pm! i feel so sad...


I don't want to review every bit of SHINE Single...I never did liked 12012 anyways...the only song i ever listened to continuously by them was 'Butterfly' and that's coz it sounded so sad. Wataru's vocals isn't really that outstanding...Firstly, 'SHINE' sounds pretty repetitive. 'Innocent Sight' sounds sad and innocent, as suggested by the title. I like this song actually coz it has more melody and it sounds pretty~ 'Breaking The Modern Society' is like something my sister will scream at me for breaking HER head...haha...But hey! This is what i call 12012! Unlike the main song 'SHINE' this one is harder and has a nice rhythm to it. 'How About Truth...(can't read the kanji)' is a nice melodic melancholic song. But i find that Wataru is trying to make his voice suit the song...it sounds strange but in a good way~ I love this song as well~ Overall, i give it 8/10...eventhough 12012 isn't a band i usually listen to...


I was squealing with joy when i saw Abingdon Boys School's self-titled first album! Why? Coz i love Takanori-sama too much! haha...but i was disappointed that many of the songs are from the singles. And i seem to have 'Atena' missing from my list...i feel sad...WHY?! But from the other songs...i started to sing along to 'As One'...for some reason, it sounded the most intriguing at 11pm at night when i was listening to my new walkman phone and trying to sleep...The lyrics was the first thing that caught my attention...(many would have noticed Takanori-sama loves writting English lyrics...simple but nice~ His japanese lyrics are quite flowery but understandable...) it reminded me of the style i usually write my poems (in the past before the GazettE and Dir En Grey polluted my mind) so i connected with that song...even if i didn't understand what he was trying to sing at the beginning...>.<;;...Then 'Via Dolorosa' was just sad~ I wanted to cry when i was listening to this song twice yesterday night. This song just proves why i just love Takanori-sama so much!~ Oh i love Toshiyuki's piano!!! Need i say more?! It's just perfect with the song!~ 'DOWN TO YOU' was...i had trouble understanding his lyrics. I was sleepy and nothing else can be absorbed...so here i am trying to understand it...i love that line, "Kokoro koe wo kanashite" meaning "The sad voice of the heart" or something like that. Okay...now i understand it...i think...it's quite sad~ (man how much angst can a girl take in her life? All i've been listening to is always angst~) When i first heard 'DESIRE'...I didn't like it very much. It just didn't suit me...it just sounds so weird...The last song, 'ReBirth+ReVerse' was what everyone said the disappointing song...just cause it's an instrumental and they all were anticipating so much for Takanori-sama to sing...ya ya...If he had sung in this, i tell you it would have been a sensational piece~ But i enjoy it just as much cause it showcases a beautiful piano piece then somehow it evolves into something different...but it's a beautiful instrumental. I can't find anything to be disappointed in except it sounds so techno-ish after the piano part...That was my mini-review...hah! Overall rating: 8/10 it has too many previously released stuff but the new stuff are so awesome that...i can't deny i love it...I'll go buy the album when i go orchard and if it's there that is...that time when i went i saw Nephilim after a some time it got released so...if i look deep enough...hehehe...


I just realized that Girugamesh is releasing their 2nd full Album on 26/12! I don't know the title but i can't wait for it!! WOOT!~ Back to my books...


++DISAMBIGUOUS++


--sinking into the pool of deception...unwilling, unwilling to resurface to face the world++

[[*Flowing With The Wind*]]

Currently: Listening to random music. Trying to study and some weird story is coming up...


Firstly, tomorrow will be the date of release of SHINE!! Can't wait~ Also tomorrow is my Graduation Ceremony...Sad...Need to wake up early and look at my friends like it's the last time...The last time to crap with each other...tease each other...laugh with each other. It's so sad...But we will part with smiles on our faces and meet each other again during the exams and next year when we get our results...I feel so sad...


Last Saturday was Hari Raya and it was quite boring. The day before i helped out with changing the curtains, cushions and it was so painful that my fingers got injured. Then i almost fell off the chair twice when i was trying to put up the curtains in the livingroom...My sis couldn't reach it, so i had to climb up instead...Then the next day, we went solat raya...met my aunt there...then after that went home after buying Big Breakfast at Mac. Then relax, eat...then wait until lunch, eat then went out to our late-grandmother's house. A small gathering there. Then since my uncle whose house is in the same block was not around, we went to Nek Teh's house instead. We stayed there till 8 or something. We ate dinner there then went home. Then the next day, my aunt came to my house. For that short period from the time she informed us she was coming, we were busy cleaning up the house. Then She came, she went home...then we got ourselves ready and went to one of my uncle's house...then we went to the uncle's house which we wanted to go on the first day. Then we went home...Then on Monday, my parents went back to kampong and i'm surprised that many of my relatives there came for the gathering when for many years i've gone back, i never really got to see them...and again i didn't get to see them...coz i didn't go. Even if i did, i will feel weird...Times have changed...We are not the same people we were when we were younger...And i was at home with my bro...we were eating unhealthily...KFC...then Mac...ahhh...


That was my Hari Raya report...really short and dumb...but the huge gathering will be on Saturday 20th October at the chalet. We will again be busy...and two days after that will be my add maths paper 1...i will die...i've been trying to study, but it's hard to study add maths...i'm so sad...oh...i've scraped the original story of 'Blame it on me' and i think i'm going to scrap the second idea...i better think of something solid!!


++WALKING IN THE WIND++


--would you take my hand and fly to the sky with me...In my world, pigs might fly~++

[[*HURTS*]]

[My personal banner! I made it myself. It's been a while and i guess it's not a very good representation of myself. I should have made something more darker but hey...i like this kay!]


Currently: Listening to 'What Hurts The Most' by Rascal Flatts (to get inspired...) and watching NHK MUSIC JAPAN the Jealkb backstage part. It's hillarious!


I've been trying to write a new story ever since i finished up 'Till The Day I Die' which involves a character death. It's kinda sad... But i was quite happy with how the story turned out so i wouldn't have minded. If he didn't die in my story, the impact on the love story wouldn't have worked out very well. My new story is called, 'Blame It On Me'. I got the title from Akon's song. My sis played it on the computer that day when i was thinking up a story but the story is very hard to write. I'm thinking of rewritting it...but alas...


The thunder is scaring me...I think i should get off the computer but i want to get things done!! Oh and TOMORROW IS HARI RAYA!! Hurray!! It's amazing i managed to fast for the whole month without fail! I'm so happy! Should be busy tonight and tomorrow and sunday. After that the gathering will be next week at the chalet! And the day after that sunday is my a maths paper 1...so sad...so sad...But oh well~


I can't wait for Alice Nine's Tsubasa Single~ I just can't wait~ I love the two songs so much~ I didn't really like the Tsubasa PV but Ruri No Ame PV was love!~ Yesterday i watched it with my sis on crunchyroll and it was larger than the ones you see on YT...so my sis was saying...'you get a close-up on the vocalist(shou)' and i was like...'...okay...' then in the middle of it, she was like...'Since it's this big, imagine if it's larger!' and she presses the larger button and at that moment...They got a close-up on Shou's face and i was like...*drooling*...i mean Shou's a good-looking guy, ya noe...so...then i said to my sis, 'He is good-looking so why not?' and she argued...'I didn't say he wasn't!' haha...then we started talking about halves and that French-Japanese actor/model Rei-something...i forgot his name...our minds can't stay on topic...hahaha...


I finally bought my fabric and lace...but i can only start my project after 'O's...I'm making a light blue/white lolita-type dress that is long till my ankles...and also a summer dress or maybe a yukata top...i'm thinking about that one coz, the fabric i bought for that one is quite EXPENSIVE...The cotton was $2 for 1 meter...so i was pretty happy~ I love cotton~ Reminds me of that Hari Raya telemovie i watched some time ago...'Kain Sutera, Kain Cotton' i think was the title...It was funny~


++FORWARDING VIRUS++


--don't lie to me when i feel vulnerable. Break my heart, i'd rather accept it than be kept in the dark...++

[[*The Instrument Of Thy Heart*]]

17 days left! It's drawing closer~ I should really take care of my health. I shouldn't even be here on the computer considering my head is spinning and my throat is inflamed...and my nose is blocked. I got a MC for today but i should really rest. I'm really sleepy too~ But i think the worst should be my inflamed throat. It feels so terrible, i can barely talk...


Currently: Listening to 'Konoha'.


I finally got the KONOHA single! Yay! Nightmare goodness! I'll review it later. It's been a very long time since i last listened to Nightmare. The last time was when Raison d'etre came out. When i heard Cloudy Dayz while watching the PV, i really couldn't wait any longer for the single to be released. I was really looking forward to it. I really miss Yomi's vocals. It's powerful and strong. I wonder how all these short vocalist, such as Kyo, Takanori, Keiyuu...have such wonderfully strong vocals!


I feel in pain ever since yesterday when i did 5hrs of maths. I felt really sick. I wouldn't have minded if it was simple, it was hard and i fried my dear brain while doing it. Doing it with a semi-ill mind was not good. The weather is freaking hot too! It's still very hot today...I feel so hydrated the whole day yesterday. I feel that way too today. I can't take it, it's really hot~ I keep thinking it should be autumn...not summer...autumn!! (it's my fried brain talking...)


KONOHA - Nightmare [Rating: 9/10]


1. Konoha


This song has a very nice slow introduction. Very soft piano intro. Then comes the other instruments with Yomi's vocals. It's a very slow mellow song and it really brings a very melancholic feeling to the song. Yomi's vocals are really wonderful. With the slow melody, it's a wonderful song. It's kinda sad sounding. The soft piano being played is just wonderful! It may not be a very powerful rock song but it really is wonderful~


2. Cloudy Dayz


Cloudy Dayz...It's quite melancholic but faster than Konoha. Yomi's vocals are wonderful. His vocals kinda shows the constrast in the melody and the tone of the song. The pace is quite fast but due to his melodic mellow vocals, it kinda shows a different pace to the song. Somehow when i listen to this song, sad memories comes to mind. I have a vague memory of the PV. But it was a sad themed PV. Even the guitar solos are sad~


It's been a long while since i last listened to Nightmare. And the feelings going through this new single is different from the previous works. It's actually the same for most other bands. Their concept changes. Also recently i listened to Lolita23q's 'Mikansei Saphire'. It is a whole different concept! And i actually like their new sound. Sou's vocals also has improved greatly. 'Mikansei Saphire' reminds me of a song that i used to listen to. It just reminds me of another song by some j-pop artiste. I don't recall who and what song it was. It just reminds me of that song. Oh well...for a semi-ill mind...i can still tell whether a song is nice or not...heheh...


++KOKORO NO UTA++


--the song of my heart was supposed to reach out to you...it never reached you++

[[*THE DOLLY STORY*]]

22 days left! Oh my god...It's getting nearer and i'm still so lazy! Better do something~


Currently: Listening to Dolly's jewel's dRIP! It's too good!~


I just recently watched the PV of 'LIAR LIAR'-LM.C and PV of 'Cloudy Dayz'-Nightmare. I didn't understand much of it. Many my brain has too much information that it is overloaded. Yesterday i even tried to read something about neo-classical metal and i got a headache. Then i tried to do my maths and i fried my brain by then. I feel so terrible.


On friday, i wrote an one-shot. I was so happy! It was so angsty but i'm happy! It was so essay-ish. Unfortunately someone had to die in the story. It was pretty stimulating when i started writting it. The title was 'Take My Hand'. Something i wrote for my last few paragraphs...


'Take my hand. I won't let go. Trust me. I will never let go. If you fall, i'll fall with you. If you cry, i'll cry with you. If you're happy, i'll be happy too. If you die...I'll live for you.'


It carried a certain degree of meaning for my story. I wish my essays can allow me to use these kinds of phrases. Ah oh well...


Right now trying to capture the scans of 'jewel's dRIP'...when i saved it, it didn't have any dimension, so i have to do it the hard way...See you! Mini-update...


++PINK FISH++


--the epilogue to my story...where's the meaning of living?++

[[*THE END*]]

My countdown to O Levels! OH MY GOD! 26 days! I better buck up. I really need to work harder for every subject. I was unhappy with my Prelims though i think i've passed all subs...but it feel sad! REALLY SAD! So i will work harder!


Currently: Listening to Ayabie.


I got the Yubisaki single today and i have no proper comments...I don't know what to say. It's been a very long time since i listened to Ayabie. (to think i used to LOVE them so much...>.<) But it's just that ever since Yumehito came into the band, somehow everything seemed different. Actually ever since Ryohei left! But oh well...


This will be my last two reviews before i plunge into my eternal darkness...O Levels...


RUINED KINGDOM - HIZAKI grace project [Rating:9/10]


1. Ruined Kingdom


The first song and it starts off pretty strong and hard. Actually i have no proper comment for this. Juka's voice is as always pretty and powerful. Deep and alluring. HIZAKI's and TERU's guitars are wonderful! Actually i love HIZAKI's guitar anywhere! It's just wonderful! Even my friend loves the guitars when i played this song on my mp3! There's a wonderful piano solo at a certain point. The melody of the song is so melancholic and if you actually listen to it alone in peace, tears might actually fall! The melody is just so sad! As always awesome guitar solos! Just wonderful!


2. Dark Passage


Yet another song that starts really strong and powerful. Even with wonderful guitars. I have never once not swoon when i hear Juka's vocals!~ It's just love!~ Especially if you plug your ears at full blast, oh it's just lovely~ The melody in this song is somewhat more stronger and has this feeling that 'I am lost in this endless darkness unable to escape'. And who doesn't love Neo-classical metal?! I'm absolutely in love with it! GUITAR SOLOS!! The only part i probably look forward to when listening to HIZAKI grace project and Versailles. It's too beautiful! Every part of it!


3. Distorted Thought


As the title suggest, the song has to have a distorted feeling to it! Yes, it's melodic one point, quite hard at one point. As always the melody is wonderful! This one is a bit more melancholic-mysterious kinda feeling. I think i'm overly repeating myself when i say...THE GUITARS ARE AWESOME! The drum beats in this song is really what keeps the song really together! My friend was following the drum beats that day when i played this. I can't get enough of Juka's deep, melancholic vocals!


4. Ritual - Live Recording


This song, as i remember had no vocals. But during the live, there is vocals so the feeling is quite different. This guitar 'solo' is really fast-paced and wonderful! When Juka's vocals are actually introduced into this song, i was quite amazed that he can sing in this 'instrumental'. But i don't understand what he was trying to sing though...As always HIZAKI's guitar is wonderful! Melody wise, it is quite melancholic.


5. Solitude - Live Rec.


This song starts almost immediately after the previous song. Strong beginning. I'm amazed that all of these are actually live recordings! The sound and the prefectness is just awesome! It actually makes me wish i can go to their live. I can't remember if i actually ever heard the record(CD)-version song but it's just wonderful!~


6. Cradle - Live Rec.


Another wonderful song! I actually had a ripped version of this song from their live DVD. This song is so wonderful that i had to rip the live. And here i have yet another live version. But hey it's wonderful!~


7. Hover Mind - Live Rec.


Starts with Juka screaming/growling or whatever it seems like he was doing...it just sounded weird...Umm...Not really my favourite song. But it has melodic and hard guitar riffs...Juka screaming here and there is not really very...(no more constructive comments...>.<)


8. Dokusaisha no Katsubou - Live Rec.


Another song that i love the neo-classical melody! The song is quite hard and starts really strong. Juka's vocals in this one is LOVE!~ Sometimes when i listen to all of this...i wonder if this is really a live recording...>.> I mean it's just to perfect! GUITAR SOLO!! I think i'm so addicted to their guitar solos! (Yet no more constructive comments...)


9. Philosopher - Live Rec.


I love this song! When i first heard it, i was actually quite in love with the intro with the organ i think. It's just wonderful! This live version, the intro guitar is slightly different from the record-version...Even the drum beats are slightly different. But it's still wonderful and LOVE!!!~~~


10. Everlasting Dream - Live Rec.


The last song in the album! One of my favourite songs. Everytime it goes to the part where Juka asks the audience to sing...I end up following the audience and start singing. It's pretty sad at that part of the song. It actually almost made me cry when i sort of try to understand the lyrics...only at that part of the song...And somehow i understand why this is the last song...


YUBISAKI - Ayabie [Rating:7.5/10]


1. Yubisaki


Firstly i have to say, since it's been some time since i last heard Ayabie...I actually like how the beginning starts. The song softens when Aoi's vocals comes in. The melody is quite Japanese-themed feel kind of melody. Quite a nice mellow soft and light-hearted song. Aoi's vocals is as always wonderful but his voice always seem to waver when he hits a high note. The melody makes it so nice and relaxing to listen to.


2. Hoozuki

This one starts with some mysterious sounds and then starts really strong. This song reminds me of the old Ayabie. With that same vocal effect and the strong guitar sound. Then comes background screaming! The song is quite high-pitched even though the song is quite upbeat and stuff. The melody is actually pretty. Aoi's vocals waver when he hits the high notes again.


Well i think you can see the rating i put next to the title of the album/single. I know Ruined Kingdom is already released like a week ago or something...But i just love the album so much! Even if it's composed of majority of LIVE RECORDINGS...


BACK TO STUDYING!!


++DIGUSTED MIND++


--can i mock at the insanity of my people when they all crumble to the ground in hysteric laughter?++