Went to school to "study" today.. cos instead of studying.. i was writing notes.. haha... then went for kfc... so long no eat le... LoL... nice nice...
while waiting for bus... found that actually pam and i noe quite a few same people.. but.. i not very gum with them... ha... shall find somemore identity some day... we need to blast ourselves... LoL...
tml bioinfo test.. not ready at all.. LoL... jia you huh...
oh.. and i made a mistake.. it was bai bai who bit me.. not hei hei.. hei hei was the one injured.. hmm.. they seem fine today... hope they are really fine ba..
明知其不可为而为之。
戏里的劳父子道，那是执念。
能言明的，就不是爱。
爱要用心去感受。
她说她没有心。他说她幸福啊。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 10:40 PM
UpDaTe??
Hmm.. quite long no blog. so here goes...
Pass one week went by in a very hard and busy way.. Reports.. Posters.. Projects.. Assignments... Everything and anything with datelines came like a bomb... Poster presentation today... Quite alright.. Dr Lau was very kind... We went in.. and he smiled and said "very nice ah".. cos when he came out of the office.. we were there and said want to remain secretive about our poster... Ha.. and throughout the presentation he listened intently and smiled.. thanks.. dr chai.. wake up leh...
There's this person called Jessica Lim.. who organised the DnD.. For the year 3s.. Yes.. And there wasn't any much response at the start.. And here.. I'm gonna take credit for myself.. If it wasn't for me and pam and royston.. would there be any people going for dnd now?? you wouldn't even reach 50... and there she is.. with her blog saying those fucked up things.. response not good.. us taking the event for granted.. confirm her batch people 100x more on... kns.. instead of being thankful for us helping her to pull people.. u say like that...
dun feel like going anymore.. shit your 6k compensation... sorry ron... your organisers suck...
went home.. hamster cage dirty.. so cleaned up for them.. and remembered pam saying her sister bathed her hamsters using water.. so after cleaning their cage.. bathed them in water.. then.. when put together.. they fought.. hei hei bit bai bai.. and bai bai bleed on the right side of his face... and hei hei bit me too lor.. when i was trying to seperate them.. so sad lah.. pain pain.. now they are seperated.. but it irks me to see them seperated.. whem will they stop fighting.. when will they live in peace together.. 难道它们已经忘了以前在一起的快乐日子了吗？
在这八天里
三百七十八天的悲伤似云的
漂浮到天空
心如直水，就是现状吧
总之， 笑等于良药。
笑!!!
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:27 AM
FUCK
First thing I saw...
A big banner with SSA Singapore Soka Association...
Is this an exhibition done by this association?
for whatever's sake!!!!
She was a Buddhist!!!! Not a Soka follower!!!
Her coffin was even screwed tight... What is this???
I tried to wake her up.. I tried to shake her coffin...
Even if it would scare me if her eyes did open..
But I didn't mind.. How I wish they were open...
How I wish she was just sleeping in a nightmare...
Its time for her to wake up...
But she didn't...
That woman told me.. I should give up hope on my father and take care of my mother...
Fuck you.. I got brains.. I know what to do...
They are cremating her on wed... Mandai crematorium...
And her husband's in "san bao tang"...
What the hell!!! Use butt to think also will know that they have to be put together ah...
How can they be seperated!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!
I hereby announce... Even if my surname is Cheong.. I'm not related AT ALL... To this 蒋家... They are just mere strangers...
十一月九日。二零零五年。
一月二十一日。二零零七年。
三百七十八天。。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:44 PM
对不起...
以泪洗面
是这样描述的吧
我们的结局看似果断
心想真的是这样吗？
你说378天你很开心
378天里有几天你是真的开心的？
378天的日子里。
我也很开心。
虽然有伤心有悲愤，但一切都是快乐的。
我是对不起你。我真的是。
只是想感谢你为我做的一切。我欠你太多了。
对不起。
I didn't get to know how she died.. I only got to know no one 戴孝... her funeral followed the soka way when she was a buddhist.. I still can't accept it... I want to wake her up... Those people.. Too much...
and thanks zhang... u gave me a lot of concern...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:35 AM
Thanks..
Thanks zhang...
for always being there for me...
been too much of a bug.. sorry...
Thanks a lot!
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:17 PM
孙女不孝...
For her... This post will be in chinese...
门一开，妈妈眼里有怒；有悲。
"你去了哪里?! 你阿妈死了!"
我呆住了。
泪水是给予她的奉献。
亲爱的玛玛，
小时候，觉得你怎么那么烦。一直缠着人家要我吃饭。我好调皮啊。长大了。才知道原来阿妈对我是很好的。玛玛常常想着我们。阿妈一直觉得我是她的骄傲。虽然是她唯独两个孙女中的一个，但玛玛还是会很爱我。
每次看到亲戚对玛玛不好，我好愤怒。好气他们为什么可以这样对自己的妈妈。玛玛可是她们的妈妈啊！那个男人还把玛玛的棺材本花光了。亲戚们也把玛玛当成是个站位的东西。玛玛可是她们的妈妈！！妈妈！好为你不值。为你心酸。但我什么都不能做。对不起。孙女不孝。
以前叫一声"玛玛"，感觉好辛苦。现在，好想再叫一声。玛玛！玛玛！玛玛你听见我叫你了吗？好想握着你的脆弱的手。扶着你。带你去走走。现在孙女能握的只是玛玛冰冰冷冷的手。是孙女不孝。跟你说话时，语言不通。现在孙女的广东进步了。可是还来不及与玛玛谈天呢。我太迟了。已经没有机会了。玛玛，你几时会跟孙女谈天啊？玛玛，对不起，是孙女不孝。
玛玛我接受不了事实。你能告诉我，这一切不是真的。你还会在那里，让我跟你说话的对吧？
为什么连最后一面都看不到。至少让我握着你的手，给你温暖。对不起，孙女让你带着思念而去。孙女不孝。
天啊。为什么连新年都不让她过。你好恨。
你好恨啊！！
一切太迟了。玛玛。
对不起，孙女不孝。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:18 PM
knn... fuck... cb...
Happily chatting online.. Then "bom"!
Something against my window...
卡尼那
七百
傅克
一瞬间，以前的一切景象在脑里像加快的影片划过。
就像鬼片一样。haunting images?
好难忘掉啊。。
卡尼那被，七百。傅克你啦！
先生你好有空哦！
你让我好想杀了你。
啊！！！！！！！
我要冷静。。
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 1:50 AM
IsLanD LiFe.. LovE iT...
Sentosa today!!
But before that went to the NTU talk.. Was like late.. Sorry pam!! then went to the Psychology talk... NTU is weird.. they keep ranting about their school, how good the facilities are and everything.. But touch little on the course information.. want to noe? go our website lor.. like that.. okie lor... thinking about psychology, arts, or the science double degree.. But dun think I can go in.. Cos of the entry requirements.. How di..
Lesson of the day: Never go Sentosa for outing with friends.. When you only had 2+ hrs of sleep.. Cos' you will be super high and do a lot of stupid things and be super kao beh.. Well.. at least that's what I did.. Ha...
Sentosa was ok... Before that went to harbourfront eat.. Then go in.. Started off with trying to play volleyball.. But i sucked.. LoL.. dunno how to play lah.. can or not.. then went to eat ice cream!! while alvin and weiqi rollerbladed.. the rest of us (bernard, pam , ht and me) walked... then New Zealand ice cream!!! Thanks to alvin.. haha..
back to Siloso... talked and talked... then bball... Wah... at first clean clean.. after the game... tired... and sticky.. LoL.. my god.. I sound like miss tan.. nono.. cannot.. but still it was fun... but damn royston said i was the weakest link in the group lah.. eh.. sorry lah.. i not very good in bball can... kns... LoL...
then pastamania (wq, bernard, alvin, pam, roy, ht, zy and me! so many people~~).. and home!!! and i'm here!! yay!!!! LoL..
so long no go out play like that le.. though this is the period of stress but.. ya.. relieve~~
should go out play somemore.. maybe sometime later ba.. with laughter and jokes and all the kb-ness.. haha...
今天老天爷真好。
天一直没下雨。
直到我们回家时。
老天爷，谢谢你了！！
今天是个开心的一天。
谢谢大家了！！
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:03 AM
gLoP...
Today marks the last second day of the second week of school.... But yet.. it seems like we are in such a rush of time... For?
for final report.. for final presentation... for assignments.. for tests...
and those SGLs have to come.. "SC... go DnD! go DnD..." Shut up lah.. Look at me.. I got no time to puke 65 bucks for such a night... and i'm under too much "pascals" to talk to all of u... so stop giving more and more "pascals"...
napfa is coming.. and I dun feel like going.. cos I noe even if I go.. it doesn't make any difference.. but I want to go.. cos' at least it makes my conscious clear and tell me that i'm responsible and that my cert would look nicer at the napfa test part. "ji dan gao"... how di....
I tend to post things in chinese nowadays.. ha... i'm a proud chinese.. although I don't look like one...
tomorrow's IL1 lesson with that fat slug Terence Tan... and day after next... Sentosa!! quite looking forward to it.. relieve... from everything.. and also.. NTU talk.. Time to noe whether I have any chance at all for my future in science.. haha...
第一次。竟然有一点点的收获。
幸运吧。。
但还是那么的沉重。
想到这点。。
分手了。就真的不是朋友了吗？
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:26 AM
pAiNT...
Today was a fine day at school...
Choy is kind to us... Must really thank him...
Buck up for studies I guess...
Chiong ah......
坐在电脑前
脑子里没有漆和诅咒的概念。
然后鼻子里充满着一股漆的味道。
问了问姐姐妈妈 "你们用thinner啊？"
"没有啊。"
脑子里突然划过那可能。
"不会吧？这个时候？不可能。"
但还真蛮有可能的。
把窗口关上，察看外头有没有人。
门一开。
哇！好漂亮的杰作。
他妈的。那人真是空啊。
这种日子几时会过去啊。
天晓得？
对那位不明人的话: 你他妈的。有空去管管自己。别再来这啦！
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:25 AM
I'm BLasTeD....
WARNING:: This is a very irritating ranting post of mine.. Those whom are not interested.. Please do not continue reading.. Thanks... You can go to other blog after reading this paragraph..
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God... There's like so many things to do.. At one go.. That I've suddenly had the urge to blog...
Choy is rushing us to update Sanjay.. But I feel that.. There's actually no point.. He will just take our update as trash.. He's never really put us into consideration before!! What's our update to him man... Then this final report.. We haven't even started.. And the best thing is.. We have to hand in the final report on 24th.. Before 4pm... And the even better part is.. We haven't even finish doing our project.. We don't even noe what the bloody aim of the project is.. May I dare to say.. I actually don't even noe what I'm doing except clone a gene sequence into a vector...
Then there's so many assignments.. Lecturers are taking us like.. what.. robots?
Then there's this stress about what's going to happen to me after graduation.. Am I going to continue study? Am I going to go work first? I'm now considering the 5 year biomed course in NTU.. And then I'm thinking about working first.. Forday has sent us so many available job applications.. So nice of him.. But this makes me stress too.. Should I apply? Then i'll have to start writing a resume.. ARGH~!!!!
Working in cartel now.. May be the only relaxation for me.. Other than meeting him? Its the only place.. Where I can work without stress.. maybe cos that place doesn't need any brains at all.. and the fact that there's so many friends there...
But I also have my friends in NP... But I've seen so little of them this sem... Except maybe yf.. I see her nearly everyday.. Minus the days I maybe skip lecture..
How bout money.. So many things to pay!! NP even sent me a letter to rush me for school fees.. Wait lah.. attachment pay haben come yet can... and phone bill.. and so many!! $1000+ where got enough.. and that bloody MP dun want give me my bursary.. Thanks huh.. 1k fly away...
Let me get my life straight... I need to work for money.. At the same time cope with many many stress from school.. And from home.. Well... Thanks to life.. I need to buck up..
Sleep less lah!! Idiot!! Few days without sleep won't kill me!!
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:55 AM
MoOD SwinGiNg....
This is a very long chinese post... Don't think you all will be interested.. I just felt like putting it here.. Cos' its the only place I can put it in.. Just some odd ranting.. End of this post...
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Hmm... This year.. Is pig year... And this means.. I've gone through one cycle of the "十二生肖"...
十二年前。。1995 年。我八岁。
那时候的我还是个小孩。就读培英小学，二年级。
只知道新年来了，要去啊妈家拜年，拿红包， 吃团圆饭。
对于学业，放学了，就回家看电视。自自在在地。
功课？五分钟搞定。
温习？不用啦！考试前一天才读就好了。
钱？那是能让我买很多糖果的东西。
爸爸？刚刚看到他不久。酒鬼。不喜欢。
妈妈？她很爱我。如果她有能力，我要的，她都买。妈妈比较好。妈妈应该是爱我多一点的。
爸妈的感情？常常吵架。总是让我和姐哭得稀里哗啦。
烦恼？可能只烦到底应该看哪个卡通片吧。还有爸妈几时才会不吵架。爸几时才不会打妈妈。
这时候的我，还是能打从心底开心地笑。
十二年后的今天。。2007 年。我十九岁。
这时候的我很渴望还是小孩。就读义安理工学院。第三年。
新年现在对我来说是无谓的。有肉干吃就算幸福。红包？算了。我不希罕。
团圆饭？有点不想去。那真的是团圆吗?总觉得有点勉强。
学业？放学了，好不想回家。看电视？有好看的再说吧。
功课？多得不行。温习？好想有多点时间让我温习。
学业对我来说已经是让人沮丧的事。我在学业上像个失败者。
可我不是在可怜自己。别想错。
只是在面对事实。好让自己知道自己在社会里的地位。
爸爸？得了癌症。可是好恨他。好恨好恨。。
妈妈？好像变成家里的佣人。大家都把她使唤来使唤去。
她也不再真正地爱我了。她的爱来自我给她的钱。有钱就有爱。
爸妈的感情？别说了。还是一样吧。可能再加多点暴力。
钱？啊。。这东西好重要啊。。它不只能让我买很多好吃的糖果。
前途好像就是为了它而活。什么都需要它。
人与人会有冲突也是因为它。人会杀人也是因为钱。
钱这东西的魔力好巨大。
现实生活就是钱主宰的。
人既是钱的傀儡，也是钱的主人。
烦恼？都是由钱而来的吧？也从感情？朋友？但大都从钱的问题而来。
没有钱，烦恼就像被打一巴掌一样。啪！在你面前。躲都躲不开。
学业不好，烦恼也跟着来。前途到底要怎么样。天知？不可能。
这时候的我，笑好像是用来掩饰心底的悲。
十二年前，生活是无忧，自在，活泼的。
十二年后，生活是坎坷而无奈的。
八岁时的我，好想快点长大。
十九岁的我，好想回到八岁的时光。
人，都是这样的吗？
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 11:43 PM
New year....
First week of school is over… Not much actually.. Just about rushing up projects and everything.. And me having to wake up earlier.. That fat slug has marked me, benny and yi chao.. And I totally don’t like him AT ALL… Ha.. Second week of school starting soon….
Tml’s Wati’s last day.. So sad.. Working at 4.. Will go down earlier ba.. Must say farewell.. Will miss her man.. Everyone’s quitting cartel.. Hope its my turn soon.. Ha…
Okie.. New Year Resolutions… First time having one.. So.. Here goes…
- Better results for this sem.. (prays~~)
- Less fights with family and friends?
- Better tolerance and less curses from my mouth.. (LoLs…)
- Find a full-time job asap after graduation with a pay at least $1500.. (too little?)
- Better fashion sense? (my new year resolution is getting weird)
- More outings with my bahs, poly friends, cartel and sec sch peeps.. (should this be under wishes?)
- For school.. more punctual for lessons ba.. LoL..
- And concentrate on school work more.. (FOCUS~!!)
- anything else.. that would be for next post…
Think I have a wishlist too… shall put it here.. whakaka…
- new mp3.. I badly need one..
- new phone..
- that adidas orange jacket..
- more t shirts and jeans or pants
- more organized house.. LoL…
End of this new year post...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 12:53 AM
WoO~!! 2007~!!
Woo.. One week no update blog le.. But first...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!! HAPPY 2007~!!
hmm.. kk.. christmas eve which was on 24th dec.. sunday.. went steamboat with my dear yf, zy and him~~ was quite late.. sorry sorry... but enjoyed the food (with a lot of changing of aluminium foil) and the togetherness.. stayed away from the crowd at marina bay.. then we played some arcade games.. daytona!! daytona 2!! (which was a bit scary) house of the dead!! (i sucked) and bishi bashi!! (zhiyi pro~!!)
then went to the bowling alley the "cafe" to have some ice cream.. and yah fong's sparkling juice~!! nice~~ then its back home.. and sleep..
then new year's eve... went to vivocity with him~!! had pastamania.. cos' i complained this year how come no special meal.. had al funghi as usual.. yum yum.. then saw yf at ben and jerry's.. LoL.. and saw a REAL ship~!! from sweden.. its really a REAL SHIP~!! so shen qi.. LoL.. and the ship's quite big.. took some pictures of it.. next time then show u all.. lazy to upload.. and the pet safari!! woo!! so many cute puppies and hamsters and bunnies!! AH~!! and we bought hei hei and bai bai their present!! a running wheel!! LoL.. weird present.. oh.. talking about presents.. I finally bought him his present.. the adidas bag.. nice nice.. from vivo's adidas.. and he bought me my present.. a birkenstock alike slippers.. "Neckermann"(its the brand)... I like... and we went home and put hei hei and bai bai's present in their home.. and my shoe at home..
then went to meet cartel peeps.. cheese prata shop at west coast again.. had mushroom cheese prata again.. then dear old yf came to meet us.. and we went to west coast park.. pyramid again.. and we played Hello Kitty UNO~!! courtesy of jasmine see cos the cards are hers.. and by the time the game ended.. its time for first bus.. but we took cab... and home sweet home.. me.. K.O..
today.. work.. nice combi today.. cos got jasmine see and wendi~!! but nothing much to do.. so housekeeping.. then very free.. eng eng cheng cheng.. then wati oc crispy combo.. woo~~ but me and jsee got famous amos.. so didn't really eat a lot.. and we went home..
so now i'm home.. trying to finish all the reports and trying to sort out things properly to start school properly.. and chatting with ben and jsee.. and doing report.. and printing lecture notes..
tomorrow's the start of school.. so sad.. so sad... 2 hrs lecture only.. LoL.. so fun sia.. LoL...
kk.. again.. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE~!! New Year resolutions? maybe in the next post.. Ha...
...tHiS wAs wrItTeN @ 2:28 AM
SC.. or Kerry?
aka Black
aka Ah Chan
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SLEEP
Daydreaming~
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J-pop & Manga
锦户 亮 (Kanjani8)
生田 斗真
森田 刚 (V6)
Bleach
the '仲良's
Bah Bah 6 Jie Mei
the Gang
GFDT Club
Xiao Mei
Xiao Qiangs..
Esp those that flies!
an instrument of my own
bike and car license
honda jazz
honda CBF 150
a new bike
a new mp3
a permanent slimdown
more shirts
more money
a long long long break..
the piano.. so someone..
song composing
master my instrument
master the plane
cha do
Jap (languange)
first aiding
swimming (oops)
dance (heh??)
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