IDK. Life haven been good.

I dont seem to be able to find anyone whom I can count on anymore.
Those that used to be close are all gone.
Some may say that I didnt put in much effort, hence resulting in today's situation.
But I would like to post the same question back to them, are you putting in any efforts too?

Friendship is fragile. One moment this person can be your budd for life, and the other moment when he/she finds another friend whom they can count on better, maybe due to avaliability or geographical distance, you will just be abandoned.

Trust me, I have had many friends in the past too, but I wont dare say that I manage to keep all of them. For those that wanna clear their footprints in my heart and life, so be it. I wont hesitate to leave yours too.

Everyone is changing. I dont deny that I do change too. But surely not for the worst.
But I have observed silently at the other side the changes. Mostly quite scary changes.
From the quiet ones to rara ones. To the tamed ones into someone so havoc. Humble ones into haughty people. If these are the changes people have when they grow up. I rather the world end in 2012. Because the human race is getting haywire.


Pooof 2 weeks plus 2 or 3 days just flew by.


I friggin` miss my boy right now. No calls no sms, no surprise msges using wireless @ AU.Vegetarian assam fish head. HAHA!

This is the mock san cheng rou. LOL. It looks liang cheng only

Ajisened with the girls today. Darl. G dearie and Hazel.


OOOH, OOOH, OOOH! My eye hurts a bundle. Have been facing the computer screen 8-5 nonstop setting science papers for 3 consecutive days! My contacts went on strike the first day of work, and today I wore glasses so that more work could be done and I wouldnt have to drip in the entire capsule look alike eye-drops(Thanks Adeline!) into my eyes. && it so doesnt help that I have to be a herbivore for the next 9 days (6 more days and voluntary vegetarianism till M comes back which makes it say about 21-22 days not touching meat.) Although deep down inside I really hope I can lose a lill weight because of it. I really doubt it cos there are tons of fried food stuff and those mock meat and actually made of flour. Lets talk about carbo overload.







I just read typicalben's blog. & I witnessed how army has helped another boy evolve into man.

Once a cute lill fair skinned blogger has grown up to be someone with tanner skin, muscular body. & those veins popping out at their fingers/hands area. Too much knock-it-downs/ pull ups?

When M love first booked out after his 2 weeks of confinement in BMT, I didnt dare look at him, 2 weeks of isolation- Rather strange and weird feeling I had when I first saw him. Tanned, IDK why, but face rounded, like a ball which I think if I were to throw it onto the floor, there is still some elasticity in it to bounce up and down for about 2-3times. Body, of course more muscular. Place physical changes aside, M became more sweet and giving.

As time goes by, the once IDC about my body if Im fat or thin M became more health/self conscious. He started pushing himself hard during PTs and IPPTs + whatever he do just to prevent himself from getting confined, guard duties, more extra work etc. But of course he didnt realise that pushing himself was actually more work to start off with. The once pampered (everything also mummy help to do boy) started to volunteer even at wee hours to scrub the spiral staircase at his block in camp, scrub toilets etcetc. Basically I can say that I dont have to do much dirty jobs if I were to marry him in future. The toilets could be scrubbed by him etcetc. HOHOs. There was this cockroach catching incident which I was so frantic about. But fret not with his abundant outfield experiences, M aint afraid of cockroaches/scorpions etcetc, so of course insects-catching can be left for him to handle too;D & oh about the physic part. M became so self conscious that he started doing some tummy tuck exercise for pectorial enhancement(?).

But due to his trip to Darwin, makanmakan, shoot canons, use machine guns etcetc lack of exercise and PTs, M became flabby again. I mean the skinny kinda flabby. Gosh, what am I talking about.

In my opinion, the biggest transition of M's growth from boyhood to manhood was witnessed by me, my parents and his parents. & Im sure we are all very happy to see him grow into a more mature, strong, tough person both physically and mentally.

The popped up veins running across his arms, face and hands, calluses and corns growing underneath his knuckles and on his feet. From crew cut to hair able to be spiked (recruit to private). Cuts and burns all over his shin and fingers as well as dented toenails and rougher hands, which held me so dearly whenever we are together, are evidences of how much M has grown.


I love you so much <3