我就是我，是颜色不一样的烟火

I am what I am
我永远都爱这样的我
快乐是
快乐的方式不只一种
最荣幸是
谁都是造物者的光荣
不用闪躲
为我喜欢的生活而活
不用粉墨
就站在光明的角落

我就是我
是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔
要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我
让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里
一样盛放的赤裸裸

多么高兴
在琉璃屋中快乐生活
对世界说
什么是光明和磊落

不是那个人

这世界上有享受被呼之则来；挥之则去的人。

可惜我并不是那个人。

Bubbles no more please

Promises are like bubbles, break once touches the ground;

How many times I am asked to be the ground, seeing every bubbles break without a goodbye

How many times you were stepping on me, asking me to be happy

Still how many bubbles left I need to see them breaking in front of me?
I wish I can be the blower, or I should wish I never met the blower

Don't know how to let you go

It has been 6 years you and I being apart
I still do not know how to let you go out from my life, you still come to my mind, my dream time and time.

I only realized what I've learned in this 6 years is to embrace things that happened, accept that I cannot get to hear your voices anymore, and then to say ok that sometimes crying over over-misssing you is ok, many times I find myself lost, but I know what I need to do

A smile from a friend worth a million dollars

I just posted a series of the pictures I took a year ago almost the same time now.
I really wished to see how it would make an impact on the feeling for the person being photographed, when she looked at the lady from the picture one year go, what comes through her mind, what has been different since then...

At the same time, I have the chance to ask myself, what do I get from this? was I happy doing this? and if yes, will I be always feeling good doing it?
I know a thing that I like seeing most, I like to see my friends smile, which will worth a lot to me :) and I hope the pictures will act as a net to capture some happy moments they had on that time...

Addicted

There are some small games which make people go addicted playing, the latest games that do that to me are these 2, Diamond dush and Candy Crush...

p/s: I quit these games, apps were deleted from my phone on 22nd Feb.

When I was told 'when you can't beat them, join them'
My question is 'have I already fought my all until I have to join them?'

At this moment of my life, I need a change, God please help me...

Best feeling to be at home

It is always best to be pampered by family, even an instant noodles, I never feel 'empty'...

My 2012

I love this picture, it was taken almost one year ago.
It is my work, and this is one of my favourite pose when I take self-portrait, it is like trying to look back at what had happened in your past on yourself.

I would like to look back to what happened on me during the one year from the time I took this picture until today. What is different now, what has changed so far...

I believe most of the things about me changed, except my photography skill, still far way to improve :p
But when I said things about me changed, they really changed drastically.

During last year, around these days I was struggling with my last job, I was too stressed with the work load I had, I was not satisfied with the pay, I was not happy; I had the plan to quit and go travelling in New Zealand for as long as I could with the working holiday visa that I applied earlier. I did quit my last job and went to New Zealand on April, but I did not stay longer than a month where my visa would allow me to stay up to 9 months. I went to the furthest country I ever traveled and I spent my 3 and a half week backpack, with my camera, with my long lost imagination. It was my most fulfilling solo travel so far (after Japan, and Taiwan).

I came back to Singapore after New Zealand for a start of new job, which is my current job, as sales executive for another Japanese co. Things were fine, and I started to handle works I ever handled alone, I think those were good chances for me to learn. I had a better pay, and I had a better life, I moved to a more comfortable place to stay instead of renting a room from a family as landlord, I have now a larger space to move around, I can watch TV at living room, I can cook at the kitchen, and I can be topless walking within the house. I have good and friendly housemates.

Besides all the good things that happened on me for this one year, there are unbearable pain I received too, from someone I love, I felt cheated and I was at many times tired and felt life is too much to handle. I gave up and found the hope back myself. I survived.

I am positive thinker, ever; or should I say I am forgetful? Neither are good things for me, I always find hope in the next morning when I wake up, the next day always looks a good day to start a new life.

The day before was another good day for me, I received a satisfying increment from my company, I promised to myself that only comparing my life with my past, and not with people who never lived my days.

At last, A blender at home

Okie, at last we got a machine to make fruit drinks at home...
I want mango milkshake :o

What is missing?

The question comes to my mind at times, 

whenever I have moved a little forward, this will always hold me back, 

what is that piece missing in my heart?

Everybody is a genius..

But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.

31st Dec 2012

It is coming to the end of year 2012.
What's there to wish for everyone in 2013? I wish everyone gets a chance to try all types of loves out in this world :)

Irasshaimase, here I am a waiter

It has been such a long time since I last worked part time.

But doing a part time work has been something on my mind when I just stepped in to working era 4 years ago. Until 2 days ago I finally found myself one, and attended my first day of part time job as a waiter. There is a mixed feeling when I received the offer, and complicated emotions in me when I accepted the offer. The feelings are partly excited because I found the job within 2 days of finding; concerned because as a 28 years old with working experience of 4 years in export sales, I took a job that I have no experience at all and mostly done by either students who are waiting for exam results or older people who prefers working than staying at home; I was happy as the pay offered to me was what I requested and which is slightly higher hour pay than part time jobs I saw online; I was worried if at this stage of age and body condition, will I still be able to stay that strong like 6 or 7 years ago when I could attend a few part time works and requested more working hours from employer for the sake of earning more hour pay?; I was not convinced if what I am going to do will be worthwhile, as I am not doing this for myself, I am doing for someone I care so much but have cheated on me for 3 times. I was tired and I needed sleep but I hardly fell into deeper sleep, but I have no option but to believe it the fourth time, and if it fails, I believe I will have nothing left (be it physical strength nor mental strength) to move on. Ahead of me, there is biggest risk biggest challenge to be faced, so I have to rest…

为什么说谎

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

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这时候，解释已经没有意义，
流过的泪，这里没有人想挽回。

今天它死了

有些生命在某个时候就要结束。

它在32个月来临之前，死了。

Golden Shrimp

Golden Shrimp (with salted egg yolk)

Never thought woulf ever have chance to enjoy this dish at home
The best thing was I did not need to prepare it myself :)

Guess I just had a happy moment that belongs to only me
超満足だ！！

One Wanderer

It just won't be happy day in everyday,
should there be a need to stay cheerful everyday? give me a reason I have to do so...
I understood even accepted this is mine, this is a life I chose to live,
but wouldn't I have the right to feel disappointed and dissatisfied? and tired about it sometimes?

I want to give my bad times a break
They say, 'This is what life is about...'
I guess it means there should be good days and bad ones too.
I am facing them, although it is not easy at all, I was like an old lady with depression, sitting at the bench in a shopping mall, and started tearing, feeling miserable, feeling my life sucks so much that I want to put down everything that I just shopped and run to somewhere I see no happiness, everything is so cruel to show up at that moment...

I have been learning to be one wanderer, I was at the top floor on the building; I was at the middle of the road with busy traffic, when I was walking back home with smiles don't belong to me.

Life is long when you think it is long;
Life is short when you think it is as short.
I know how much I owe my real life once

I am one life wanderer

I don't want to lose any

When there is nothing to gain,

there is nothing to lose;

怀恋

这时候，我开始又怀恋了。

那大海风吹不乱的短发；

那大海声乱不着的平静.

在 Hokitika 的两天，我享受它傍晚时的海风，很强的风却吹不乱人的心绪；

我留了三个星期的短发，被吹得无法招架， 我的心却格外的平静；

平静让我看见海浪的方向；平静让我听见自己的脚步；

平静让我感觉平静。

这时候，我懂我怀恋的不是那次的旅行，而是久违的平静。

It always comes with $

                                                       

Recently stressed by Love?
Recently stressed by Money?

                                                   

Lego.Land (II)

Alright, this is something I enjoyed when I visited Legoland, the world of miniature at the center of this land is amazing. It amused me so much, here I share some of them I love with you here :)

How interesting if there is one in this colour in real

Oh, I love this cruise

This is made so purposely to please Singaporean visitors :D

These few shots are my favourite

I love this shot, how would they ever thought of putting a small girl at that spot!

Some shots at castle, look at the wall with cracks...

Back to some old age...

Canon Photomarathon 2012

So it was once a year photomarathon organised by Canon again.
This is my third year participating, though I did not get any prize this year, it was truly a good way to skill up, and to admire other people master pieces...

Below are my entries for the 3 themes of the contest :) (for my own memory)

1st Theme: Wonder

2nd Theme: Harmony

3rd Theme: Pleasure

Hope I would get a better works in Photomarathon 2013

Lego.Land (I)

So I had got to go to this place, not even Universal Studio in Singapore I ever thought of going even I have been living in this small country for 4 years. I went to this, it was an outing with my dad, and my sister's family, my niece and nephew longed for sitting in a car made by bricks, Lego bricks which they do not even play with, but we bought the tickets and stepped in to their unfamiliar land :)

It was crowded under hot Saturday!

Show for kids, good for parents to rest under shaded place 

 

I spent long time queuing to buy tickets, so I killed some time on taking these

This girl who prepared the tickets for us, happened to be neighbor of my sister, I found the name tag so  cute :) would love to have one

These tickets are like achievement, put aside the RM500 that we spent getting them, the feeling to take up a long queue under hot sun and finally got them was awesome

My nephew took a 30 minutes queue for a 5 minutes boat ride was  brave :P This is a pic he stood looking at other people riding boats, I guess the thing that you waited long enough, they become the best (or at least look the best ever) when you finally got them

My lovely niece was the victim of the day (in my own opinion) as there was nothing much in that Land brings any memories to her, nor any good game that she was allowed to play due to height limit, luckily she was easily satisfied by food

I will post some pictures on things that fascinated me in Legoland soon :)
LEGOLAND

Love $

A lot of people are trying to look for money,

some are trying to prove love is in the money,

and the deeper you seek the more priceless love is;

Some gave up during their journey,

realising true love never hides in money,

it is to be seen,

A few never hesitated,

time is only spent embracing the existing love they already have 

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Back as Titanium

How about coming back as a Titanium
I am inspired by this song, the lyrics, and music video, realizing how different I am, and how far I have been hiding myself from...





You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you sayI'm talking loud, not saying muchI'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochetyou shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to losefire away, fire awayricochet, you take your aimfire away, fire awayyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titaniumyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fallGhost town and haunted loveRaise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bonesI'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm bulletproof, nothing to losefire away, fire awayricochet, you take your aimfire away, fire awayyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titaniumyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium
Stone hard, machine gunFired at the ones who runStone hard, as bulletproof glass
You shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium