I seldom get the chance to talk to my friends and keep them up-to-date with what's going on with my life...
well, this is it. My online journal. Yah, another personal blog,just exactly what the world needs now. Let's be realistic, it's cheaper than overseas calls. Less tiring than novel-like emails.
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Name: celgee Home: Philippines About Me: just read through my entries and you'll get to know me :) See my complete profile
Christmas has been my friend for more than 14yrs (and all of the Xtinct) and seeing her walk down the aisle and have her last dance with her dad made me teary eyed. Most girls want that fancy white wedding, and for Christmas it was a dream come true. I am sooo happy for her and Gerald (Gee). Though they would be apart again after the wedding (Christmas has to finalize some stuff in NY, before moving to California after 2 months), I am pretty sure things will work out fine for the newlyweds. :)
I spilled the beans... well, at least not to everyone yet (plus my friends who do not know about my blog). :) I have been very anxious to tell my immediate supervisor about my future plans (the guy in Manila who is overseeing the stuff that I am working on) and I feel so relieved that I did. I know my friends would tell me that I dropped my 'ace' too early... but at this point, I do not really care anymore. I am not holding on it anymore because of the fear that it might affect my career progression nor my chance of backing out on my 'OZ-Plan'.
What triggered it? We had a one-on-one meeting last July 25 and he was discussing the team structure and his expectations. It was in late June that he mentioned that I was nominated for promotion this year, and now he is telling me that there is a big possibility that it might actually come true. He has even informed me of my rating for FY08. [For a fleeting moment, I felt my face blush]. All that is enough for me to know that my efforts were appreciated.
When did it I spill the beans? It happened last July 29. I was just like a casual conversion, that mid-way became a project status update to a one-on-one discussion about my future. I assured him that I am not leaving very soon, but just wanted him to be aware that as early as now we need to groom a replacement. I know the spot can easily be replaced immediately even if I only gave a months notice, BUT I just want to ensure that the people I'll be leaving behind will be in good hands even after I leave. I don't want them to end up with some 'so-so' lead who expects people to work very hard when he/she is hardly working. I can't expect everyone to be passionate about their work or their team, as some might have already lost that faith or compassion. I guess my problem is I have grown attached to the people I work with that I sometimes feel that I care too much. At the end of the day, it's just work - but the nice thing I have with them is even outside the not-so traditional working hours, the people I work with (and have worked with before) are still my friends. I do not want to burn any bridges nor make it hard for anyone because of my aspirations to move 'down-under'.
Honestly, this emotional torture that I have brought on to myself is one of the most stressful things I have done. Imagine planning out things for the people you will be leaving behind to ensure that they will be secure & taken cared of. It feels like I only I have a few months to LIVE and the only thing I will be leaving behind are memories and things I have planned out for them. I know this sounds a bit morbid, I really feel like I am going to die soon. Call it crazy but that's how all these feels right now. The thought of their life (my parents, relatives, friends, Jp) moving on without me still haunts me - and I am still preparing myself to accept that reality.
My cousin from Melbourne recommended this song just recently, and it is cute. Just thought of sharing it as well...
Sunshine - RICKI-LEE COULTER Wait a minute more before you roll I got plans for us thought you should know Wait a minute more before you leave promise you're always coming back to me 'Cause I've had visions in my head from the very first day that we ever met Everything that I've been waiting for, is knocking at my door
You make me feel so high, your love is like sunshine You had me at hello, don't mind if I say so So before it fades away, I got one thing left to say Your love is like sunshine
Throw another dime in that wishing well if i could stay here underneath your spell I'll do anything that you want me to just wanna be the one that gets to you 'cause baby boy oh you're so fine I get chills when you look at me with that smile Everything we do is just so good you make me wanna move
You make me feel so high, your love is like sunshine You had me at hello don't mind if i say so So before it fades away, I got one thing left to say Your love is like sunshine
You make me feel so good You make me want to turn on I'm under your spell and i will do Anything to get to you
You make me feel so high, your love is like sunshine You had me at hello, don't mind if i say so So before it fades away, I got one thing left to say Your love is like sunshine
