Tuesday, October 15, 2013

makin hari aku hidup ni aku rasa.....

semua kesedihan aku adalah utk hati aku absorb dan biarkan di situ smpai jadi jeruk. xperlu yang lain tahu. xperlu pamerkan apa kau rasa. hanya Allah dan hati aku saja tahu. lebih elok ye x?

di suatu hari yang lain.

"ainul..awak x balik kg cuti raya?"
"saya..sobs.sobs.kena tinggal.."
"eh apasal x ikut?"
"habis...senin boss xkasik cuti..cemana???sobs"

serious aku rasa boss aku menyesal tnya soalan tadi tu.bahahahahaha..... sebab muka dia mcm petai jeruk lima tahun dalam bekas.hahaha...


Monday, September 16, 2013

ini hari rasa gumbira...jumpa balik kawan2 zaman uni... we shake hands and though i am sure as hell not a person who like to hug... tadi peluk mereka, peluk yang sungguh2...i really meant that hug.. i missed u guys a lottt.... 

knowing what kind of person i am... my dear friend siap tanya permission..

"boleh aku peluk hang dak??" and lepas tu daya imaginasi aku yg tinggi bayangkan mata dia mcm puss in boots... without jawapan, i gave her the best hug i can give..eh lain je bunyi..

conclusion dia..rindu dowww... 


me being me again..nampak wawa di tmpt buffet makanan...and...whisper to her from behind..

"hola hot stufff"

hahaha...nasib baik dia x bukak silat ke..kungfu panda ke apa..mihmihmih... kuruih sgt nieh wawa.. rasa mcm giant sgt berdiri sebelah wawa...

for this beautiful mini reunion of houesemates.... atie..wawa...paah...mira...kak lina... all thanks to ayie's wedding....walaopon mencari itu dewan seems impossible..waze bawak kiteorg pegi wisma putra..bahahahha....syabas waze... nyaris2 kiteorg detour pegi alamanda and have good lunch.. alhamdulillah we decided to try carik dewan near palace of justice... bila nmpak kereta byk sepah2... oh yeah.. there is wedding ceremony there...mihmihmih..selamat poket.


good day...but i still miss the rest of my mmu ians frens...kak fibo(kaklong yg senantiasaaaaa dirindui..) kak lina (br jumpa tadi)..kak diah (i miss ur laugh)... amyy (my crazy hommies yg brilliant)..tim2 (me loving timmy's love hehe).. nik..kak fla..dan byk lagilah... and oh oh oh oh ..kakang!! mana kau hilang ni???????????? kalau jumpa one day mmg aku sepuk2 kau hilang mcm asap....
esok kena gosok 6 helai baju kurung.mampuih.








Sunday, September 15, 2013

was watsapping with bro yesterday about the house his about to buy depending on the loan approval of course... the house that i found when i was about to eat my breakfast... me being human just look at the picture first and go wow... sure juta2 kalau koyak rabak poket pn belum tentu mampu kan. sekali tgk harga it was just 300k+ je.. omaigod.omaigod. in my mind i was practically lifting my hand praying to Allah gimme one unit please.please..please make way for me.. and then pOP! wait seminit... murah sgt ni... sure bukan Key-el kan? bahahahaha..it was in malacca... dush dush to myself.... 

since the location in malacca, so watsap abg laju2/ forcing mama to call abg ASAP asking him to have a look at the ads.  surprisingly he actually go and have a look... of coz he felt in love with it since got discount for bumiputera lagi..haihla awat best sgt rumah itu.... rejeki beliaulah kalau loan approve... noiceeee house for first house he gonna owned, insyaAllah. thanks to me for finding the ads..kan?kan? i got share or not in the house? gimme one room sounds reasonable.bahahahaha..beranganlah dikau.

anyway, next day, i got watsapp from him asking about tun's opinion on some political matter and i replied

"hah?apakah?"

bahahahaha...salah orang letewwwwww....terus foward link 1st house loan laju2 ignoring the previous msg. haahahahaha... egois sgt ni.


last but not least...

oh hello blog.. i was scared to write again..but then it pops in my genius brain that 

"KENAPA NAK TAKUT KALAU X SALAH. U SHOULD MOVE ON FROM THAT AND PRAY HARD TO ALLAH THAT ONE FINE DAY, SHE COULD ACCEPT THE FACT. JUST THE FACT AND NOTHING BUT THE FACT. "

u annoyed me sometimes, u make me angry, u have ur weaknesses...but sure as hell i did not run away and dump u just like that as i am still here till today. yeah.... so quote whatever u want...be sarcastic as u like.. im still here.moving on without dumping nobody. 


Tuesday, September 10, 2013

once we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around?
Will these memories fade when I leave 
I keep hoping, keep hoping that it's not goodbye
but  it's a time to fly

Friday, September 6, 2013

u want to throw away the bad ones...but... it will also means throwing away the one that are good at the same time. in the end... its a matter of choosing whether to always remembers everything or losing everything...

memories.hoping it won't hurt that bad as time goes by and still remember the good ones.

Monday, September 2, 2013

because it is sooo good people

everyone should watch Tanda Putera.. if u are not malays, watch first then judge.. dont blindly judge the movie. itu tidak adil pada diri sendiri.

dr moment tgk the making of Tanda Putera aku dah tertarik nak tgk.nak tgk.even mommy yang tgh sibuk gantung bendera pn kecoh ckp nak ikut tgk cerita ni...

so we went to the cinema...

before the movie start, iklan ditayangkan mmg membuatkan kita rasa mood sejarah, penghargaan, pengorbanan semua ON.. then right before the movie start, we were told to stand up and sing Negaraku song. without any complain, everybody just stood up and sang the song proudly. *amazing and proud masa yang sama... *put in mind that yg tgk masa aku tgk ni boleh kata semua peringkat umur dr kanak2 to tok2 yang tua...

so then the movie start... controversial?racist? sumpah xde... aku tak faham kenapa bangsa cina perlu terasa dengan filem ni. ini semua sejarah dan fakta. kalau nak ikutkan, siapa yang komunis lah patut terasa... bukan bangsa cina... sebab peristiwa tu puncanya komunis menghasut orang dalam gerakan... aku rasa komunis hasut bangsa cina sebab senang komunikasi.. dan sebab mereka lebih kurang sama dr segi fizikal..jadi senang nak buat keroje jahanam menghasut orang... so y be offended? dr kerja komunis bangsat tu, bukan cina saje yang jadi terpengaruh..orang melayu jugak dah terperangkap dlm jerat komunis..maka... xperlu terasa sgtlah... kita sama2 kurang cerdik pada masa itu dan syukurlah kita ada pemimpin yang bagus pada masa itu untuk sedar permainan komunis... nothing to be ashamed of..  melainkan kau komunis, sila tolong mohon jangan nak terasa sgt..

dan kalau betul datin paduka suhaimi baba nak pecah belahkan masyarakat kita, dia boleh masukkan lebih banyak scene bergaduh mencaci dan perbuatan kejam lain...13 mei lebih teruk dr apa yang ditayangkan..xpercaya? tanya umat manusia yang hidup masa zaman 13 mei itu..mak ayah aku ada waktu tu..ofis mak aku di kampung baru waktu itu. jadi xperlu nak terasa apa2...aku tak nampak niat buruk jahat seperti dipolitikan orang2 yang feeling2 dia komunis sampai nak terasa sgt....

lagipun...kalau nak terasa sangat, aku rasa tun mahathir orang yg paling layak terasa sbb dalam filem tu, dia dikritik dan dipecat dr UMNO..tp xde pon dia kecoh2 nak feeling2 emo sangat..dia chill rilex je sbb itu semua mmg fakta sejarah. benda memang terjadi. wat lek wat peace mcm tun bole?

apa yang perlu kita lihat adalah kualiti filem ni yang membuatkan filen sejarah itu tak bosan dan mengantuk. nilai dan pengajaran yang kita dpt dari filem tu yang perlu dipandang berat. aku setuju kalau filem ni dimasukkan dalam struktur pembelajaran sejarah... sejarah akan jadi lebih menarik. kita lebih menghargai apa kita ada. dan ye.filem ini sangat sedih. kalau aku hidup zaman tu, memang aku feel semua yang turun masa tun dr ismail meninggal dan masa tun razak meninggal..

pengorbanan mereka, aku tak rasa kita semua mampu buat. keluarga, anak bini, diri sendiri semua tolak ketepi demi negara sehingga sanggup mati.. kita senang nk buang kedamaian yang kita ada..kita senang nak kutuk kritik marah caci orang di atas.tapi kita lupa yang kita tak pernah ada dalam kasut mereka untuk buat keputusan yang mmg tak akan puaskan hati semua....

contohnya tunku abdul rahman yang perlu berundur pada waktu tu....dia boleh selfish..tp akhirnya apa yang tun mahathir tulis itu satu kebenaran... harsh. tp demi negara. tun razak boleh dan takde orang nak marah kalau dia dahulukan kesihatan dia tapi demi negara..dia korbankan semua tu... tun dr ismail.... demi negara dan menyokong tun razak, dia tolak ketepi kepentingan diri sampai terkorban. hoi... sedih hoi...insaf aku tgk cerita ni... pergilah tengok.apa sangat tiket wayang sepuluh ringgit tu...

last but not least, aku petik kata2 yang mungkin bakal buat korang pergi tgk....

"it must be remembered that those who watched the film are society’s selected, viewers who are of quality regardless of how small, people who care to understand and judge out nation’s history. Among them will be our leaders, small and large, of the future,” said the former Utusan Malaysia journalist.