good afternoon world !
i am home today with the gang.
today is raining in vancouver so we have all decided to stay home and nua our lives!
yesterday we went to the metropolis shopping mall.
its the 2nd largest shopping mall in town from my knowledge.
however after shopping for half a day, i've got totally nothing purchased.
things are either too expensive or not really that fantastic.
the mall is really hugeeeeeeeeeeee.

we had lunch at the 'foodcourt' which really is the price of a restaurant.
wow like wow.
i had some greek salad which is hmmm.

dinner time = i love vancouver/ coquitlam
the mini korean town is awesomeeeeeee.
we had korean bbq for 100 (6 pax)
thats dirt cheap isnt it ?
filthy cheapppppp ! and huge portion and very very niceeeeeee.

thats all, im going to nuaaaa (:

Good evening people, it's 0003 am right now Vancouver time.
I'm wide awake since im supposed to have a lil jet lag lol !

Today was such a wonderful day.
woke up in the morning and took my own sweet time to bathe.
(that caused the people bathing later to suffer cos there's no more hot water !)
prepared and picked uncle francis from casino where he works and headed to Bellingham, WA.

First stop : Tulips Town
since this is not the actual season of blooming, there wasnt much of a really wow factor.
but it was freezing cold.
it was so cold, i dropped my bag into the damp mud like wtf.
then we went in, took many pictures and my ears almost dropped off due to the coldness.

2nd stop: Walmart Bellingham
this is wow so freaking big.
they have literally everything !!!
thus, i got ah mic's chocs !

3rd stop: Authentic Vietnamese restaurant for dinner
so coool and cheap.
very nice taste.
thats all !

eggcited for tmr but im really bored now!
byezxzx

Good morning earthlings ! I miss Singapore ! Lol this is day1 of my 38 days of expedition.
I'm using my phone to blog since I don't really wanna on my laptop at this moment.

Let me share about itinerary today, or was it yesterday.
Alright I'm freaking messed up with the stupid Greenwich time issue,
I don't even know what's e time and date now.
This is so funny cos now that I'm supposed to be soundly aslp,
I'm wide awake. Been chatting with Marcus lil cousin, Francesca the whole time.
I love this lil girl people. Shes like really sincere and speaks her heart.
She tells me all things good abt this city and even what they have in other cities.

After leaving singapore on 9 apr 11am to hk for transit,
We reached Vancouver at 130pm (their time)

Went back to Mai Leng's place and rest, and we fell asleep since it was supposed to be midnight in SG time.
Was then woken up one hour later by Uncle Francis who shouted.
ohmygod, we were not supposed to slp or we will never get over the jet lag.
prepared, blablabla and went to Walmart here.
first thing i looked for was Michael's request ! but opps they dont have it.
dinner at this japanese restaurant where their sashimi is 2 fingers thick !

okay, time thats all for this ! (:

im feeling so cramp but i have no one to turn to.
lucky yan ling jie jie is ard to talk to me.
was surprised that she wanted to have a heart to heart talk with me.
thots was something very very serious.
turned out it was very light and comfortable.
that i even felt so much better after talking to her.
she's really really a duper nice lady.
she's generous, steady and helpful.
she understands my family's plight and offer whatever she could.
told me not to say thanks to her cos she feels strange.
hahha, how nice right ?
morning breakfast at 6th ave.
american breakfast, fav !
then she took the effect to send idiot teng to his class chalet.
got home after that and started feeling unwell.
probably due to the weather ?
haha, laid on the floor and bla bla bla.
wasnt feeling any better.
then that bloody ass called to boast abt his cycling trip.
say want me to teach and learnt by himself.
hahaha.
whatever lor, even better for me.
hahahah, i save my energy to teach him.
still wasnt well until i started to play sims 3 @ ard 6.
felt better.
then he called.
answered but he said he will call back.
so i left my phone aside and cont.
ate dinner with mom.
went out to walk ard.
bought alot of groceries and it was hell heavy.
what happened next is what i dont want to mention at all.
bloody ruin my happiness for nth.
boiling blood.
shall not mention anything alrd.

sigh, efforts unappreciated.
what a nice ending.

i felt that i lost my soul today.
dont know why, but i just cant seem to feel myself.
i woke up early in the morning.
but different from usual, i didnt entertain my mom.
she understood fully i guess.
mr bao, come find warmth in me okay ?
passed my ftt anyways.
felt that it was easier than btt.
got my PDL !
but one issue.
i have absolutely no idea whether to take sch or private.
private appears to be so much cheaper !
aiyah, i dont know la.
hahaha.


baobao, no matter what, i wont mention that taboo word yea ?
come come into my embrace, lol (:
we'll be a strong strong couple ya ?
(:
its not deteriorating, its improving.
i feel stronger, i really do.
ure not alone.
for everything u've done for me, i know.
give me a few more years.
we'll not rely on anyone else except ourselves (:

i am feeling really guilty today, yesterday.
and till the day i fully changed, i'll be guilty.
pinkied with mr bao yesterday.
but it didnt lightened my sentence of guilt.
i was really unreasonable yest.
probably one of the most unreasonable times ever.
i was crazy, uber siao.
probably due to my menses that came today.
but thats not an excuse though.
my dear had to wake up so early in the morn for his last driving review.
on a sunday morn.
where everybody was slping so soundly.
but im pissed with him for not able to stay up to watch true horror with me.
how stupid am i.
worst still, he came to my place after his morn drive.
bought mac, my fav.
set up everything but to see me ignoring him.
for such a minor issue.
i dont know what i was thinking but it was horribly disgusting.
and after that, i was so upset for shitty reasons.
and left the house.
leaving him at my place.
i sat at the void deck near my place and played sudoku.
for like 1 hr plus before he came down and look for me.
aint i horrible ?
after all these, my dear is still willing to forgive me.
who the hell on planet earth can stand anyone like me ?
but my love is still willing to accept.
suffered in silence because he didnt want my mom to worry.
no matter how harsh i was, he kept quiet.
because he didnt wna go back of his promise to change.
not to nag anymore.
not to hold my hand so tight it hurts.
to give me time to reflect.
he didnt forget a single bit.
like how he's willing to change for me, i want to do the same.
i will do it darling.
im so sorry.
terribly sorry.
i know u truly accepted my apology yest.
but still, im so sorry.

and to cheryl,
CONGRATULATIONS love (:
u can drive me ard alrd (:
congrats (:
happy for u (:

to my fav don-ra, do-ran (x
my darlings im so so happy for u guys.
my bestfriend and my love's bestfriend are now bestfriends(:
*winks*
no doubt night safari works wonder (:

to dora bestfriend,
this road is gonna be tough at times but no fear, i'll be walking with u thru.
marcus always tells me that there's nth unsolvable.
trust him on that.
for anything, pls tell me ya (:

and to myself,
ftt is in 2 days time and ure still blogging here.
u wanna die or u wna die ?
hurry go study la !
but before that, sims for an hr !
hehe,
meeting the teng's for a seminar this evening.
"finding inner happiness"
i hope i can (:

faggotly upset after seeing it today.
when darling came and told me.
i was so sick the entire of last week i gave up my com.
i gave up sims and internet.
hahah, finally recovered now and i saw.
whats there to give up ?
am i just a toy ?
im a human being for goodness.
who is acquaintance ?
what is friendship ?
i have a mind of my own.
i can think.
why give up when whoever got who ?
and for goodness sake who got me ?
im my mom's and my dad's.
im not even marcus'.
i know how to set priority, i know what to make time for.
im terribly upset.
horribly battered.
i repeat myself clearly again.
i aint a toy, aint a tool.
i dont belong to anyone, anyone as in one at a time.
everybody has an importance in my heart, darling
aiyah, i dont know la. haiis !

wheeeee, i finally reinstated my blog.
after like 3 billion years.
partly due to the fact that i was busy, yes busy woman.
didnt feel like blogging.
preferred mental diary.
bla bla bla, and so many many things happened during this period.
im 18th, first year with darling.
everything got better i guess (:
im picking up things bit by bit.
went to china with marc's mom with xzyg's clan.
i guess i toned down alot.
looking at things from different views.
got closer, alot closer with my sister and bff.
its something worth celebrating.
my virgin-clubbing (marcus teng told me to use virgin-something if ever i attempt something new)
my surprise, super surprise birthday party at parc palais.
i realise who is just hi-bye and who is to be considered as foot steps of your life.
u dont need loads of acquaintance but no one is true to u my dear.
ure gonna wake up one day realising everything's superficial.
so empty, so lost.
so bitter, all fear.
jealousy aint working, bitterness will drown u.
ahaha, next on, im gonna touch on DORAGOH.
this pig uh, is so silly.
contents shall not be mentioned.
hahahaha, nice outing. soon soon again !
i'll have so much to be mentioned in the letter to editor.
pls edit my language.
hahahahahah.
u are my bff and ever.
over and over again.
be it with or without anyone.
if u think our friendship can diminish so easily, then who do u take constance wong for ?
if u think dora goh can be replaced, or replicated so easily, u underestimated urself.
u deserve more.
in the name of god, my god (xzyg) i promise i will not let go, how to let go ?
how abt in the name of ure god ?
hahaha.
thank xzyg for keeping us strong.
i have so much to lecture ure silly thots.
you know, donra.
okay, i needa go for now.
shall update on china and all next time.

hello marc teng.
thanks for changing, thanks for putting up last time.
i know the MANcus teng now have a mind on his own.
thanks (:

was supposed to blog yesterday but bee came.
hahha, so delayed my plan.
recently was kinda hectic.
minus e occasional slacking at home and doing nth days.
went out with dora, the pig, on tues and thurs !
hahah, woohoo !
on fri, i went for work at my bro-dog's office.
then headed to kallang leisure where i reported to my bosses.
hahaha, anyhow anyhow, i became part of the team.
if there's event tendered, i have to be there.
e pay's alright, kinda not too bad.
but might be busy from then on.
hopefully my bosses can bid the F1 event.
then i can work and watch the race at the same time !
woohoo !
yoguru with hone in e cinema thereafter.
DRAG ME TO HELL.
i give it a 9/10.
it wasnt exactly horror, but there were super many horror scenes.
kinda contradicting but hone got scared super many times.
this is e first time i see him liddat.
hell hilarious.
he was like, "AHHH"
then "ohhhhh"
and throughout like 1/2 of the time he was facing me.
not because he wna look at me.
but rather, he just wna looked away.
=..=
there was this scene at the start of the show where hone was holding a spoonful of yoguru with loads of oreo cookies topping. then suddenly when the ghost came out, he got so frightened that he threw the spoon upwards and then it dropped into the bowl. thank god.
and guess what ?
the spoonful of oreo bits landed on my pants =..=
i was like "ohmygod, MARCUS TENG"
i saw his face which was super apologetic.
cleared up those on my pants.
continued watching and when i put my hands on the seat, i felt more oreo bits =..=
decided not to make him feel worst and just kept quiet.
super duper cute la.
the movie was just an eye-opener for me towards 77YTMTENG.

reported to work on sat.
where it was abit like pa.
i had to look after 2 wii while michael tended the other 2.
it was like a kids party @ west coast plaza.
wished that time past faster.
finally it was time to get off and my whole body was aching shit.
my heart was @ kallang leisure like donkey years ago cos hone was waiting there.
wondered why he reached there so early for.
met him @ yoguru where we got yoguru.
hahha.
he surprised me from the back which kinda startled me.
turned and saw him carrying a plastic bag which inside was a BAG !
hahaha, exactly the one i saw on thurs with him and dora.
wheeee, hone is so super duper sweet la.
he went all the way down to cine to get me the bag.
even thou i kinda like hinted that i want it, i thot he will wait for me to get it tgt.
instead, he went on getting it for me.
so sweeeeet right ?
then in order to show my appreciation, i faked "darl, i wna cry alrd"
hahahahha. it was true la, people gan dong ma.
dinner at illuma, my first time there.
he brought me to this act one new york new york - empire state.
pretty nice dinning place.
bus-ed home where as usual, we cracked loads of stupid jokes.
sun was also also @ usual, minus the we-woke-up-early fact.

went SP for finalising of survey yesterday and it was fruitful !
lunch with yu xian, bryan and shuyun where we chatted for quite a while.
then homed and waited for bee to come.
was supposed to pick him up.
but as he is known to be super caring (i am boot licking him only)
he suggested that i stay home.
meeting him later for dinner & yea !

okay, kum bee hoon is here alrd,
gtg ! seeya !


hello bee !
"i am werewolf !"
love u love u !
sweetest baby.

today is another unlucky day of my life.
woke up the e morning with hell headache and stomachache.
struggled to sch cos there were lectures.
i felt that lectures are more impt than tutorials in a certain way.
so struggled thru the 2 lectures.
had lunch, handed up my proj and went home.
slept for a while and cleared my bowels.
ouch.
okay, i shall elaborate on what happened in the morning.
walked out from my house at about 855 in the morning.
so went the usual way, except was feeling very much unwell.
was strolling in a way.
so when i walked past blk 327, near the red bricks bldg on the pavement,
i was stopped by this fucking indian WHICH (very much animal)
looked extremely dirty.
he did everything in a hassle and cycled off.
guess what he did after stopping me ?
he mumbled "see my cock, see my cock"
and he pulled out something from his shorts.
that seemed very much like his whatever-shit-all-guys-have.
and revealed it to me.
then he continued "touch my cock, touch my cock"
bloody fuck shit.
what the hell right ?
early in the morning and i kena this kinda shit.
then he squeeze his whatever-shit and ended with,
"drink my sperm, you drink my sperm"
fuck, i wont wna drink any chocolate milk from a dirty old freak man.
i got damn damn damn shocked.
and he cycled off.
the way he looked was damn sick.
he looked like some perverted asshole that is ready to rape.
man, just go bang the wall can ?
if only today i had felt better in the morning,
less headache and stronger,
i swear i would have kicked the bloody bicycle down,
and make sure he crush his brown color whatever-shit.
damn suay.
always kena this kinda thing.
everytime i kena, i dont see anything else except those sicko's eyes.
this time, i literally see the whole thing.
great.
msged honeybee straight away but as usual, he was slping.
so tried to get it outta my mind.
went home and told mom,
so she encouraged me to go to the police.
everyone asked me to do the same thing.
but what to tell them ?
somehow, i found that pervert choc familiar.
seems like ive seem him before.
or perhaps he lives ard this area.
but whatever it is, SINGAPORE IS NOT AS SAFE AS WHAT WE BELIEVED.

then was talking to hone on my way home.
so discussed that we will drop monday next time since uncle requested.
got home, told mom and she suggested we shld drop tues as well.
wow, what a great idea.
might as well drop all days right ?
hahah.

ohyaohya,
forgot to add on.
i think the beijing trip this sept hols is kinda confirm.
heheh, hone and auntie bringing me tgt with the xzyg clan to go pray in beijing.
so excited.
didnt want to go cos not very nice to make hone's family pay for me.
like no relationship then kept eating on them.
but lovely hone kept assuring me,
reprimanded me for using the "no-relationship'' word.
guilty kks(:
so i shall be thick-skinned and go with you guys.
hopehopehope that it'll be a super duper enjoyable trip.
in sept, that means got 3 more months.
cant wait !
andya, hols starts on 5 sept.
exam ends on the 4th.
so i guess the schedule will be pretty tight.
super nice auntie tried to persuade mom to go on sun.
but because of her commitment, (ah rong and family)
she cant go )x
i hope nth pops up.
pray pray pray hard.
andya, went for haircut yest.
so many many people in my cousin's salon.
we had to wait for an hour.
so we walked ard amk.
then hone suggested to bring me for manicure.
like ohmygod, wth right ?
hahahaha, initially i rejected the idea.
cos i wanted someone to accp me.
i told him that i wna jio dora to go with me.
cos i know when comes to this kinda money wasting time,
she super on with me one.
andya dora darl,
hols first week we can go out everyday ! except for days whereby i needa give my nieces tuitions.
ahahha, sorry for not replying )x
my bad.
then on certain nights we can pick the pig from sch and have dinner tgt ?
haahaha, we'll discuss abt it okay ?
im so in holiday mood alrd.
love holiday !
uh, sided track.
erm, so i was talking about manicure.
and cos hone insisted that we go for it,
we randomly picked one from the many in amk.
first attempt.
pretty interesting.
confessed abt my first try and everything.
i didnt know manicure was supposed to be painful -.-
i bled cos i dont know why =..=
hone paid (:
went for haircut.
hone and i cut and i dont know why sinna's mood so good that she permed my hair.
ahahha.
i thot i looked older, or rather, more mature.
marcus' godmother ----> constance.
then she was telling me to buy the curler next time i go hk.
like 40% cheaper than in singapore.
not those watsons brand cos it spoils your hair super easily.
but those salon brands.
so went for dinner.
my poor sweethoneybee got this super duper 10cent coin ulcer in his mouth.
applied listerine and clear the pus everyday for him but still, its hurting him like shit.
couldnt eat well, less appetite.
had to cut his food into very small lil pieces.
went home with the new way.
amk - bishan (circle line) - serangoon -kovan (ne line) - 112
@ bishan circle line, we saw the zhong guan xian superband.
got chou hua jian and 3 other guys.
quite a big hoo-ha.

darling sweethoneybee,
thanks for everything.
i cant wait to see u soon !

today is monday ! hahahaha
i hate mondays, as well as tuesday.
grrrr, shitty bluezxxzxzxzxzxx )x
my motivation to go to sch is to look forward to after sch and weekends.
of cos, hols asap !
thanks to my sweethoneybee motivating me everyday.
cant resist falling deeper and deeper in love.
ewwwww, damn gross.
yayaya, whatever !
hahahahha, dont be jealoused of woman in love ! (that's me)
hehehe.
crazy crazy.
just finished doing the final edition of the questionaire.
with support of my honeybee again.
its a pleasure to hear your voice my dear(:
thanks for waiting up for me.
and tmr's soccer must strive hard okay!
dedicate the goal to me again. (vomit blood shit)
ohya, talk abt today.
went to visit my bro after sch with bee.
i kinda like fooled the person there to let us go up as jia ning was up there with him alrd.
then bla bla bla there.
and went to visit bee's ah Q gong.
in icu.
so poor thing.
hmm, darling, i'll be there for you kks ?
dont worry dont worry !
tmr will be meeting darl again to visit my bro.
hahahaha.
(mt is very sad now. cos he cant give me surprises)
but hell darl, everything from u is gold to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN LI RONG.
DEAREST SISTER,
FINALLY 18.
BUY ME CIGARETTES,
BUY ME WINE.
BUY ME CLUBBING, PUBBING, CHILLING.
WHATEVER(X
all i wna tell you is,
i dont wanna be the first to wish you happy birthday.
cos i wish to be the last.
to go thru every bday with you.
and stay this close with u forever.
happy sweet 18(x

mr darling ohmygod i love you(x
thanks for everything sweet.
although i must comment your singing is horrible.
to the max.
but still, thanks for singing to me.
i love it.
im smiling.
really am.
putting in all i can to return you with whatever u deserve(:
i dont believe in forever,
except for u.
only u.

yeahhhh ! today is thursday.
one more day to fri !
i love weekends !
its week 5 since sch started. cant wait for week 18 to come.
something great happened last night.
marcus teng, commented something so great,
that im kinda offended.
right, dont talk about it.
projs in sch.
ohmygoodness.
its piling up.
lirong's bday is coming.
and she still doesnt wna tell me what she wants.
hahahaa, so ive got a lil lil idea.
(:
sis, hope u'll like it then (:
ohya, let me comment about 2 weird things that happened today.

1. was trying my luck went to tender my application form for cdc.
it was overdue and surprisingly, the lady accepted it.
and she said, "oh ! i remember u !"
(i dont remember knowing her thou ?)
then she went thru my application and approved.
just as she completed, she passed it to another lady to sign.
apparently, she's e lady sending us e emails.
then she looked at me and said,
"so ure finally here huh, constance"
was kinda taken aback.
like, they were expecting me ?

2. took mrt home.
decided to take to harbourfront since e direction towards punggol just left.
when it was harbourfront station, i continued sitting,
watching my supernatural.
was super engrossed in sam and dean when the lights in train went off.
it was almost pitch dark.
the train door closed and it moved towards further down harbourfront.
but usually it will just go back to outram.
so e lights came back a lil and i was like freaked out.
looking for help but was the only one in my cabin.
then i see people walking towards me.
very very few people.
then the green man came and asked me to move to the last door.
i counted and there was 7 of us.
including this lady who looked filippino sitting opposite me.
she was like giving me e "are we gonna die? im so scared" look.
then the train moved back to harbourfront station,
this time the opposite side.
then when we reached, the green man opened e one and only door for us to alight.
wooo, it was so so scary.
esp when im like watching supernatural and kinda haunted by it.

hehehe, but now im safe and sound !

another minute makes me wna kill myself.

damn u marcus teng,
dont ask if im still mad at u.
obviously i am.
esp when u decided to listen to yr ''very experienced'' friend and doubt me.

wow, its been like years before i finally start blogging again.
wanted to recently but felt so busy all along.
seldom use com when im home.
urgh, life's hard life's hard.
studies is shit.
is this world really so complicated ?
full of people who backstab one another ?
2 faced monsters.
so scary.
why make the agenda so hidden, so scheming ?
ultimately we all dies.
so why make death full of misery and sorrows ?
i feel so inferior at times.
like comparatively, im nothing.
luckily i have sweetheart ard supporting me recently.
thanks (:
i just hope things gets better !

woohoo !
thursday.
skipped sch today.
blame it on the fibre drink i took yest.
i was practically clearing everything in my bowels today.
so weak that i couldnt stand up this morning.
i think i was kinda dehydrated.
so giddy and empty inside.
kinda boring at home but if i realise, i got loads of hmwk to complete.
gonna pick my bird up after his squash.
hehe(X
im mad over yoguru.
best yogurt i ever tasted.
hehe, cos very seldom, this yogurt doesnt cause any phlegm.
plus the oreo crush and granola is really heaven.
i wna get today.
honey also want.
im thinking of a double happy situation.
that if i buy from cityhall, by the time i reach nyp, it wont melt.
impossible sia.
even if i fly, other than the cbd charge from cab, it will take at least 15-20 mins as well.
thats e same if i actually take mrt.
so how uh ?
then if i meet him up alrd then we go cityhall,
its nt practical too.
we'll have to carry loads of stuffs, from him.
racket, shoes, laptop, bags, clothing, etc.
not feasible at all.
damn it, i hope yoguru can open more outlets.
and sack all the unfriendly staffs in e outlet @ kallang leisure.
can hire me if they want !
hahaha, so i can eat it all day long.
plus plus, at least i wont bad mouth the customers infront of them.
hehehe.
they shld take CRM.
so i will be served better next time.
a bunch of uncivilised people.
hehe, andya, sister rong's bday is coming.
hehehehehheehehehhe.
gtg ! seeya (:

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