now its time to resurface that old post i wrote last time.
I'm a much better person now who appreciates and respect my mother more.
and for the non-frequent readers- i wrote this 2 years ago.
here goes:
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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to mums around the world.
...since today's mothers day, yea, the posts should be mother's day themed.
well, today's the day when mothers around the world unite to celebrate.
how did mother's day come about? and where's father day =(
maybe its mother's day because of the unbearing pain they go through during child birth or maybe its cuz...since mostly fathers work, so they get to enjoy labour day but moms don't cuz most of them don't work.
anyway my reason would be - For Being My Mum.
Yes, as u all know what sacrifices and hardship a mother of christopher has to go through;
-such as worrying as you try to sleep of whether i'll come back home safely, but not wanting to reassure yourself cuz you know that calling my hp just to ensure a goodnight's sleep would contribute to my hp's outstanding bill.
-and when u hear the door creak open, you refrain from getting out of bed to welcome me home cuz you know that'll make me worry whether you'll sleep well whenever i'm late outside.
-and before i wake up the next morning, you had to ensure that a nutritous breakfast would be ready to fill my stomach.
-and in the afternoon you would have to once again put up with my sustained arguments,debates and complaints as you try your best to impart your knowledge about chinese words into my brain which would somehow by then be in dreamland.
-by evening, you would have to cook dinner even though your favorite show's on tv.
-only to be disappointed with me informing you that i'll be going out at the very last minute.
-but upon seeing me smiling just before i leave the house to meet my friends, you decided that it'll be best not to argue and spoil my mood.
-instead you hid your heavy heart behind a weary smile,
-saying in a soft voice, telling me to enjoy myself as well as to come home safety.
-and just before the doors of the lift were to close, you would call out my name, rushing to press 'open', only to see my curious face and sometimes irritated, when i'm in a hurry, and you would ask, if i'd enough money
-and then bid me goodbye.
-as the doors closed, i know thats when you'll let out your displeasure with a frown u tried to resist. Sometimes it came out too soon,
-and you would worry once again, if i'd seen it.
-and whenever you had something nice to show me, you would come into my room and show me,
-hoping that i'll at least get entertained or happy,
-but i only showed a face of irritation as if you've disturbed my peace
-and sometimes, when i'm stress, i would scream at you, sometimes, hurling hurtful words.
-and when you had sonething to attend to, you would ask me if u looked nice in that gown
-but i'll not even take a much notice but to slightly turn my head and shurg you off with a frustrated reply or sometimes nothing at all,
yes, theres many more difficulties a mother of christopher has to go through, but i'm just already too guilty to write them all down. furthermore, there wouldn't be enough space.
i've learnt alot from you, such as not to boss around my emotions, thats why i don't frown infront of my friends.
i've changed for the better thanks to you.
yes, mom you've changed too. i still remember you putting ure hands around my waist, lifting me up to reach the monkey bars, and slowly walking along side with me, with your vigilant hands always below me, afraid that i might fall and get hurt.
and i also remembered that you could finish it too.
but a few days ago you couldn't even reach it and instead of encouraging you, i merely laughed. i was in a good mood then.
yes, we'd many joy and fun together as well as many pains and sorrow.
at times i really wanted to apologise and say i'm sorry or to reply or help you up. but inorder to keep my cool i didn't.
i know you would never read this post but i just hope that you'll know that i'm really sorry although i don't say it out, i hope my actions speaks for me.
-when i bought bubble tea home everytime i came home at night.
-when i lied that i've studied
-when i said thank you.
-etc.
yes i guess i'll have to stop here now. my mom's gonna cut the 'Mother's Day' cake soon,with other mums and i surely would want to be there.
yes i'll smile.
happy mother's day MUM!
oh and i meant to say this that night:
You look absolutely beautiful in that gown.
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