you have your agenda

these days have been really tiring.
I've been going home really late these days, and i'm really tired. I can't afford my secondary school life style now that i'm in jc.
Wednesday: went to buy chelsea's present, had dinner with dion till really really really late thanks to her mom.
Thursday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELSEA! ate at nyny and then later flagged a cab to her place to play cherrades* (that game by which you write something and someone will act it out while the rest guess). Played that for awhile. We were playing movie theme and i got the movie "sex and the city". lol so when i was trying to act my first word, my friend threw me a plush dog. =.="
Then later we went to the play ground downstairs to play "Ice & Water" and "Blind mice".
Blind mice's really fun despite her very high and rocky play ground.
Friday: today. Went to a Halloween BBQ organised by fifi (sec sch friend). It was at ECP so we didn't get to dress up or i'll be wielding my white cloth once again.

you know, i still miss you.

and you'll still be rainbows in my eyes.

Anyway here's pic's from last week's halloween party:

-Originally me                         - then i stole my friend's hat 

-some of my friends who dressed up

i've been in there for two weeks now.

...(from yesterday) after the halloween party, i went out with my friends (bx, hy, malvin, sabrina, fifi, fifi 2 couins) to macdonals to chill. Then later play pool till 12+. Then my mom fetched me home.
and my cough's a lot better now.
P.s. i took off the cloth after i left the party.

Today, after church went out with some friends to see guitar. yes again =.="
Then later go PS eat, i saw tiffany there.
and go Bugis play lan. i saw david there.

i can sit at one corner and listen to this song for hours.
reminds me of myself


i've been hanging out with my friends pass the midnights,
but all that doesn't help.
They ask why,
"cause you're the girl whom hurt me the most"
"but you're the girl whom brought joy the most"
Yet, they still ask why.

had my heart on lockdown

today's a fun day.
Had Archery in the morning. (its quite boring but, at least i get to learn something new)
and i concluded that i'm not born to be an archer.

After that went to Toa Pah Yo to play basket ball with rockmoc friends.
And the weather's really hot.

After that went for a Halloween party at night. I had no time to buy anything to dress up so i had to make do with whatever i had at home.
In the end i narrowed down my choices to 3
1. Dracula ( blazer + white shirt + black pants)
2. Zombie ( berms + t-shirt + loads of tissue paper wrapped round me with tape))
3. Ghost (white table cloth or bed sheet)

Finally i settled for "ghost" but my dad wouldn't let me cut 2 holes for eyes so oh well, i'll just wear it over me.
The party was fun. I was like the most awkwardly dressed person. Image a few vampires and suddenly a guy with a table cloth around them pops up. lol everyone was staring at me so i didn't dare take it off at the later part.
Anyway, half way through, most of the lights were switched off and we were told to scare ppl. So i ran around shouting "WOOoooOooOOOoO". Apparently, as heard from my friend, i looked like Casper the friendly ghost instead of someone scary. Even a small boy can come kick me =.=".
But still!, i did scare a few feeble souls. I scared one small girl till she almost cried then her mom come and scold me =.="

After the.. i'm too tired. i'll continue tmr. goodnight

I really miss you terribly,
please.

they say they never change their minds.

Today's commendation day. Practically did nothing much today.
Had training in the afternoon.

I wasted my lunch today cause suddenly no mood to eat.
I know deep down somewhere there's something that's dam screwed up.
I'm tired, but not jaded.

despite the fact that man are fools

today i crashed tp after school.

Attended a maths lecture and some physics lecture.

Well, not really fun.

Maths, the teacher was teaching some limiting thing. Learn before but the whole lecture hall was so noisy. Sometimes i wonder how they study.

During Physics, when the teacher talks, time stops. After 5 minutes i cannot take it. Instantly head down, go sleep. (and i'm sitting on the front row)

Somehow the lecturers are not responsible for your learning so they don't care if you talk or sleep. Unless it gets really too noisy. 

Suddenly i felt JC's better, where all my friends are. 

But i'm sure Poly students also have another better perspective.

I know i'm kinda useless, 

but if you need someone to talk to,

i'll be here.

Or at least please let me try.

after all, you're still special.

They say Cranes are easier than Hearts, but i've got that good-luck-charm.

Today's boring. WR submission this thursday so today chiong in school like crazy.

Then later got CCA, and for the first time i completed that stupid overhang wall. 

I had to try it 4 times consecutively before getting it right the 5th time. I kept missing the stupid dyno. lol

Incase you were wondering what's a dyno: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8G0-EmRZWRQ

(what the guy did at 28 secs was a dyno)

 Anyway its late and my hands are tired. i shall sleep now.

Oh before i sleep i shall try Lucid Dreaming again.

goodnight. :D

not jaded to be dared

Today i came across something really interesting,
termed: How to Lucid Dream. I'm gonna try it today. Basically Lucid means to be easily understood or comprehensible. And Dream is Dream. So Lucid Dreaming is the act of understanding your dream, which also means i can control what i want to dream of. 

It is believed that there are 8 simple steps. (i'm not gonna write it out, click the hyperlink above)

Anyway for step 5: "Try marking an "A" (which stands for "awake") on your palm. Every time you notice the "A" during your waking hours challenge whether you are awake or asleep. Eventually you may see the "A" in your sleep and become lucid." 

I'll write the First alphabet of your name. 

I feel kinda sick today but after a light swim i feel a lot better. My dad and his friend told me during dinner that since i'm so hot, i should have a can of beer. And my mom just gave me panadol. lol

Panadol + beer = GG

(p.s. i don't like to drink, i just drank for fun)

But the way Koreans dine is quite interesting, they have a lot of dishes. <- Thats the amount of Dishes Koreans have on dining tables.

i shall go teach my sister chem now, tmr's o lvls. bye

Trek trek trek

Today morning, there's this stupid GCE vietnam training which is so boring. Trekking 12.5km around from MacRitchie Reservoir to Bukit Batok is not fun. Mind you the ground's uneven and muddy from yesterday's rain
Anyway the close to 4 hours walk isn't really fun.
But still, there are some fun parts when we sang song (yes stupid songs) and when my friend placed his wrapper on the floor and suddenly a MONKEY flew down and stole it. lol

AFter the trek, i didn't know how to get home and hence it took me 2 hours to get home. =x
By now i felt kinda sick (i am sick now) so i went home to take a rest.

At night went to dine at some Korean Restaurant, a very typical korean restaurant. Like you know traditional food and stuffs.
I hope i never return there again. Firstly, everything sucked cause i was feeling sick and, secondly, Kim Chi taste like its been grown in the toilet bowl. And everything is about Kim Chi! =.=" seriously, i don't know how Koreans survive. I only ate the fish and beef.

I Feel Really Sick Now. Most probably due to last night. I couldn't sleep well and had to wake up ultra early.
oh well goodnight.

smile, its for the world to see

Today's a waste time day. My WR's still not done. Great thing i had help from my friend for I & R if not i would have fainted.
Then got Vietnam stuff in the afternoon then go for RockMoc. Climbed a bit then the stupid year 2 wanted to play "Pyramid to Infinity" basically everyone do 1 pull up then come down, then thats level 1. Level 2, you do 2 pull ups and come down. So i reached till lever 9 (1 pull up short of lvl 10). Did a lot of pull ups in such short time, my shoulders are aching.
Anyway i'm a lot happier today too. No more one bowl of noodles a day or insomnia i hope.


its difficult but,
i shall not talk to you for the time being as requested, i pray things will get better.

I'll be there waiting.

i'll take the bus and cause i know i must

alright so today in the morning i went to parkway to print a picture.
I'm quite naive. I thought we could just print a picture out alone. Then the aunty said must print minimum 10 so in the end i print 10 of the same picture. (my thumb drive only has 1 picture)
While waiting for the pictures to be printed, i was loitering around Boarders when suddenly a girl beside me sudden;y said, "eh! you're from sr! i used to be from sr for one year till they kick me out." and then seeing my shock and speechless reaction, she ran away.
Oh my, i think the world's going random, let alone the people i know.
Headed off to school later for CCA, which i then regretted. I reached an hour early and was sitting around when suddenly i felt unwell (yes randomness again) and thus i went home.
At night i went to play pool, and as usual i would see the same old ppl; the rockmoc and ex rockmoc ppl.


Today's screwed up, i should throw away my pride and do something.
Someone talked to me today while i was waiting for my CCA to start. Thank you but i won't believe you or heed your advice.

i'll find my way,
I don't need advice
I'll try and try
I know one day you'll shine

14 october 2008

i'm sad after reading that you're going to poly, but i'm also happy that finally you're doing something you like.
We're gonna really miss you.

I feel really stupid today for avoiding you although i really want to be your friend once again.
i don't know what happened and i don't know what to do anymore. =(
I'm scared. please help me

13 october 2008 again

WOO I HAVE HOPE NOW !!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

13 october 2008

i'm sorry if i haven't given you enough space.

i know i'm irritating and i'm sorry.

i'm really bad at this.

sorry.

On a brighter note, i passed my promotional exams!

i scrapped through with a 37.5 points. Barely passed by 2.5 points.

i'm considering poly or jc now. i'm not sure if i can make it for A levels.

I'm quite happy but most people in my class have not reached the 35 points passing mark and hence surrounding was kinda sad today. 

anyway i hope they moderate and promote my friends.

12 october 2008

to someone whom it concerns,

now you're a million miles away,

but i'll fly if i have to,

and if i don't have a plane, i'll drive

and if i don't have a car, i'll cycle

and if i don't have a bicycle, i'll run

and if i'm not strong, i'll jog

and if i'm really not strong, i'll walk.

i still can't accept what just happened,

and i've never imagined it happening,

but i've decided that i'll walk,

and one day i'll reach,

and by then i hope you won't say i'm late.

and to another someone else, i've given up.

12 october 2008

i guess its over for now.

But, thank you.

11 october 2008

my life cannot be so naive, i've decided to move on.

and happy birthday melissa :D  (its on the 7th)

i'll blog about it soon when i feel like blogging again. lol

Life's so difficult, but if you pull through, you'll see the rainbow after every storm.

LIKE TODAY!!! 

anyway on a happier tone,

feels like the holidays where we spend profusely and slack to the max.

oh well there's always something else to do, like pw.

today's kinda fun. Went to exercise (haven't been doing since aeons ago), then buy some stuffs, play pool and watch eagle eye.

Eagle eye's quite nice cause it keeps you off your seat for the whole 2 hours but the story line's quite far fetched. Too exaggerated. 

And the worse part is that i don't have any bus home, so i flagged a cab.

basket spent a long of money today. :D

got church. going to bed. goodnight.