28.11.2007

didn't attend the chalet,
postponded my working shift to a later time slot,
all just so that i may see you for 2 days, or rather a few hours.
Since that "Don't want", i guess what my friend said was right,
i'm just holding on.
oh well, i guess love is unconditional.

i did wait alittle longer outside your aunt's house but, its okay.

25th November 2007

alright. haven't been updating regularly. this is the 3rd or 4th time i'm saying this, and i hope something changes.

Prom was a blast. yeah as tan liang noted, the most anticipated event of the year, Prom Night. Everyone was dressed in extorbitant clothes from head to toe, with lavish make-ups and hairdo for girls and, i'm not sure for boys, but some dyed their hair. Started about 8pm, an hour late. Then we had some games and food. Well, i've to admit it did go on well. Really. Except that i didn't go out after prom (most ppl went to watch a movie or play pool or something) which ended at about 12.15am. I had to send someone home and i was too tired by then.

Anyway these few days after prom didn't go quite well, except that my wallet's fatter,
my sms-es are lesser and i'm home for dinner. And i want to call up George Bush soon, I wanna borrow that satellite he used to spy on iran. Now now, don't harbour dirty thoughts. I just want to use it for a while.
Feeling quite hollow now. =(
shall go now.

18th November 2007

its been ages since i last bloged. shall blog more regularly now, now that its holidays and now that i'm really bored and free; thats if i don't get a job which i'm still deliberating.

O levels have been a breeze. Trust me, its really easy, but i'm don't think getting all A1 would be really possible. There's that cumilative graph to average everyone's result. That determines the cut of point of A1 which hopefully, is lower this year.
Anyway these few days after o lvls were really boring. My last paper was on the 13th of November, which was bio mcq. easy? no, very easy.
Anyhow, post o levels days are really boring, there's nothing much to do, and you feel liks studying. You sleep late, and you wake up late. Really bad. i shall do something soon.
Anyway Chelsea's birthday was on the 29th of october, but due to o lvls, we had to only celebrate it on the 17th of november, its just 2 hours past the 17th. Anyway it was really cool huh? We went to her house and surprised her. Yes, surprised she was. And then there's really cool food, well they weren't that hotel-resturant-delicious but you know, its really nice still and its from the courtesy of my classmates; ziting, stephanie and suyin. Should had invited me, i would really love doing them too.
Then after dinner, we went down to play catching but it didn't turn up that well, so i decided to use some of my stagnent brain juice (still since the day i finished o lvls) to woop up a game. And i thought of Blind Mice or Blind Man, as jessica claimed. Whatever anyway, it was really fun. Its like there's a catching who closes his or her eyes and try to catch someone on this playground. The hiders weren't supposed to touch the ground and hence we had to climb about like monkeys, or hang like whatever-hanging-animals to get out of almost dead corners or situations. Played that for a long time, oh yea, i forgot, After we played catching, Jennifer pushed Chelsea into the pool! haha! that did spice things up really well.
Anyhow, after that, we went to cut Chelsea's Birthday cake. honestly, its the coolest cake i've ever seen. I've seen my other friends bake cake before, but this one looks really cool! Its like all chocolate-ty and yea! with some words like Chels or something. Taste kinda great too.
After cake cutting, we had cakes, yes as expected and then we went to play some games. Hm... bing xun said its called indian taboo, and we were supposed to write a word on a paper and everyone has one held at their forehead. And yea, the people around you will try to get you to say it, and when you say it, you lose. Anyway Jennifer lost, lol she's really good at losing. Trust me. Most of the words weren't initiated by us for her to say, she did it on her own accord.
The next game was Charrades, we formed 2 groups like the forgeiners and the singaporeans and then we acted out movies. Was fun, but lasted awhile only.
All good things come to an end; it was time to go. and there's no more bus !! so we had to take taxi.
thats about it, i bet its the best party she ever had. [don't say no chelsea!, i could had killed you when i jumped over!]
Anyway the people who were present: Chelsea, Suyin, Ziting, Stephanie, Jennifer, Jessica, Dion, Patricia(chelsea's sister), Diana (chelsea's sister) BingXun, WeiLoong and Christopher ( i think thats me)

I have church tmr, and i don't want to be tired. so, goodnight :D

4th November 2007

i'm bored and i guess i shall take a break. Tomorrow's Biology paper 2 and Social Studies. I'll do well.

Anyway i read this compo's editted from somewhere.
That day i was talking to Chelsea on msn and she left me all alone. Cause she watched a horror movie and was scared of being alone in the room. Hence she went out, leaving me to talk to myself.
i'm bored :

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Chelsea, you left me all alone on msn all because you were afraid of being alone in you're room ? What in the world were you thinking? Have you lost all your tracers with ure Sanity, your in the dark invisibility? Have you lost the cool, courageous attitude that everyone need when after watching a horror movie ? You have forsakened me on msn that night. You replaced the chains that harnessed our friendship with the chains of malice and incompetency and drive that overwhelming sense of lonelyness through my joyous world, just to run out of your room? Words simply cannot explain how bored i felt after you left. You have abbandoned your cherub aura and love for the human race. I remember what you did, you left me all alone.

What were you thinking ? i supported you for 4 long years Chelsea. Ever since Mrs Soh punished you from her wrinkled hands. I promised to uphold the tradition of an excellent school boy as your winded breathed wheezed a silent string of curses on me. But that was only half finished before Mrs Soh's attention slumped back onto you. Then tears streammed down my mottled face as i screamed at the sun after school. I beat against my woolen pillow in uncontained raged and anger. It was unfair, i made my first enemy in secondary one.

But now Chelsea, you have betrayed me, whose sole wish was for you, as a normal, tall and super dark school girl named by the name of Chelsea Honasan Luzuriga who worked her way up from secondary one, enduring constant insults from exubertant never-finished-with-their-insults youths, using her rentless ability at night to evade danger with such perfect precision to make her way home safetly, and finally log on to msn, was to cherish your friendships and never leave your friends alone.

DID YOU FORGET THE TIMES WE CHATTED TILL IT WAS SO LATE AND I HAD TO DRAG THAT LIMP BODY OF MINE TO SCHOOL FROM THE THORNY BRAMBLES OF FATIGUE THAT ENSARED ME TO MY BED, WITH THE SCHOOL COUNSILLOR INSURGENTS CHASING AFTER ME TO JOLT DOWN MY NAME FOR COMING LATE AND THAT FRAIL SMILE YOU GAVE ME WHEN I DASHED INTO THE CLASS ROOM REALISING THAT I WAS NOT GOING TO BE LATE ?? DID YOU FORGET THE TIMES WHEN I SAVED YOU FROM MR TAN'S CLUTCHES OF DOOM?? DID YOU FORGET THE PROMISE YOU MADE, TO BUY ME A KINDO BUENO ?? AFTER I TRASHED YOU IN MINESWEEPR BUT STILL ALLOWED YOU TO KEEP URE DIGNITY BY ALLOWING YOU TO LOSE BY A SMALL MARGIN ONLY?? DID YOU FORGET THAT AFTER I LET YOU WALK FREE WITH URE HEAD STILL ALMOST HIGH CAUSE U LOST BY A SMALL MARGIN ?? AFTER THE MINESWEEPER OR BASKETBALL GAME??

When we first saw the horror movie "Dark Waters" and screamed in unison when the ghost girl grasps the poor little girl's mother, but then later sat back in relieve as we realised that that ghost girl can never hop out of the television set. Remember the time when you stared at disdain at the terrorist attacks review from news on TV and told me you never want to cause harm to children of the proceeding generations to come.

NO CHELSEA! you have forgottened and with that, you have doomed me to be alone in my room as the darkness engulf me like a cloak, paralysing me from any movement, afraid that something at that dark corner might notice me.

It felt like yesterday when i remembed at 3 or 4 am you tip toed into your parent's room to take papers to help me print something. BUT REALLY! it was just yesterday when you left me all alone and proceeded to race out of your room.

This is the final straw Chelsea. I'm breaking this because of your strange fetish for ghost like imaginations behind your back. Its obvious you were manupilated by the Ghost Busters or other local Ghost busting syndicates. I've seen you Chelsea in light and in darkness. I've used Gamma rays and a Geiger Muller tube to find you in the light and Night vision googles to find you in the dark. I've seen what you and you're "friends" have been doing all along. Goodbye Chelsea. Come back when you've decided to stop playing childish ghost games. I might talk to you again when you've decided to stop playing these games and even if there are ghosts behind you, remember all the evidence i provided to assure you that you were safe? REMEMBER WHAT YOUR PARENTS DID THAT MADE YOU WERE INVISIBLE AND INVICIBLE IN THE DARK ? REMEMBER THAT YOUR'RE A VACUUM IN THE LIGHT ? REMEMBER? now that, until you're assured and believe that all this is true. Don't return.

I still believe you light up the dark. :(