I am the patron saint of lost causes

I think life has somehow always been good to me.
But right now its not as magical as it once was.
This reality of it all has become quite tiring and old.
But im not gonna let that spoil it for me.
Think I just need to hold on.
hold out.
something bigs gonna happen soon.
something good.
i just know it.


waiting in the wings.

its good to talk.
its good to swim.
its great to get a good afternoon nap.



sigh. so grateful I can rely on my aunts.
them and Spersallerg. Antazoline and Tetryzoline.
=)

polar bears can swim

need more redoxon...

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i like my coffee tarik. not stirred..


..
False Reason I Go Gym
by Rishik Vijayadas Menon


ive sobered up
yet youve overdone this
understatement
letting me
lose communication
like the coverage
got on an island
out at sea.
I couldnt see
your beauty coming
with painted toe nails
so red as herring
its disarmed
my guard and bearing
till im lost
to your regard


my act is clean
of all past vices
the smoke and mirror
of rolling dices
that divide
senses of
rightness
of what feels right
and what feels right
then poison me
your belated gladness
makes me wish
upon maps and calendars
that ill be right
there to find you
when i need to
without haste.

so maybe
could you
ask me
if im
free enough
to stay...
just dont
please dont
let it be
a friday


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Frigg is the Goddess of Friday.
damn, im obsessed with norse mythology.

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so wow. three more weeks. damn.
but anyway, im feeling kinda good about one thing.
slowly gaining back my self-respect.
going running.
reading.
making it a point to meet my friends.
making time for myself to write.
going to the gym.
completing (nearly!) the CAAS application.
doing work.
running errands.
rinsing my mouth with listrine twice a day.
haha.
yeaah. its these little things i do
these acts of regimentation
and otherwise unnatural discipline
that boost my self confidence.


maybe things are gonna change? for the better. haha.

Dismantle and repair by Anberlin.

..
gonna miss my parents the next three weeks. sigh.
anyway, im off.


night!



yeaps. singapore is beautiful...
or at the very least pasir ris.

hell with the fact that the nearest bus stop is nearly a twenty minute walk away.
the beach is five minutes. the park is three.


and thats what matters, doesnt it?

Not getting the whole black white and orange facebook photo thing

`Just a casual casual easy thing~`
Bohemian Like You By the Dandy Warhols

=)

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Odd to be home on a weekday. But here i am.


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AND NOW I AM SHOCKED! And somewhat outraged. TODAY, about a week after i completed my last song "Between two legs of the race", I just watched a recent lisanova video called Virgin Epilogue (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lv6kDkIjAto). and just guess what's the lyrics for the background music!!??

Epilogue by Shape of The Earth
"I cant let you down
I wont let you down
Im sorry that I dont have a way
to make it easier each day"

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Gah! I know the chances of finding another song with such similar lines are about as likely as finding a menon in kerala. Just frustrating that I had to find it so soon after writing my own.

but now im over being bitter about that song, (or more likely im done comforting myself that mine is still somewhat unique) I must say I really like this guy. "Shape of The Earth.

Check out Audible Scribble on his myspace account. Awesome stuff. http://www.myspace.com/theshapeoftheearth

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kay kay kay.
just gonna go sleep now. long day ahead.

--

Avenue Q on sunday.
Its my Life on 29th (hopefully).

~ohhh, whataway to speend my oct pay~ (wayang!)

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Im off!

Would Bucky Kat endorse Kickapoo Joy Juice?

The next song is a little something i wrote about growing up.

...or maybe its about the army. or a love song. or maybe a really obscure political protest.

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Between two legs of the race
By Rishik Menon


Im hanging
not by a thread
3/4 inch manilla
thats cutting at my neck.

Feeling so tied down
wishing I was free
hows the luck thats got me this far
finally run out on me?

Its a new day
of having no decisions
shedding my responsibilities
through tracheal laceration

Maybe I could wait it out
Maybe Im a tree
but my state of mind is so refined
hey look! I think Ive got company!


Oh che-chi! Dont wanna go crazy, but
helicopters and velociraptors
are zeroing in on me!
I know you'll never let me down
but putting this in context

whoo is gonna let me down?


I know, I need to let go
that was some time ago
before my hand was holding yours
as you dangled out the window.

So sad we had to graduate
move up a class, and now your late
hanging in between
before the start of the next leg

Hanging out with memories
images and melodies
I once was blind but now I see
See Something Coming After Me!


Oh che-chi! I think im going crazy
I see pterodactyls, hovercrafts
circling a-round me!
I know you'll never let me down
But right here, right now

whoo is gonna let me down?


Told me I should hang loose
so I kicked off my shoes
lean back and felt myself
get lifted off of my feet

Harder you fall down
higher you bounce, but
the problem is Im landing
3 feet short of the ground.

Id reach out for the
backup plan if only
somebody could
help me untie my hands

Hallucination fluctuation
Its the merry month of may?
unclear enough to be quite sure
that this is simply not my day!


Oh che-chi! I know im going crazy
cause now snowmobiles and crocodiles
are casting their aim on me
I know you'll never let me down
But I need to know now

whoo is gonna let me down?

who is gonna let me down!?
will anybody let me down?
Been a while since Ive been let down
why not just let me down
at least I'll know someones around...


Oh che-chi! I know im going crazy
helicopters and velociraptors
are flocking towards me
I know you'll never let me down
But I need to know now
Yes I need to know now!

who is gonna let me down!

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Some thoughts

....

Lisanova is a great actress.

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"I can fake it if I have to" Dashboard, Thick as Thieves

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5 weeks to commission. 1 year to ORD.

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"Im feeling bohemian like you" danny warhols

dammit im hungry. ciao.