Thursday, July 26, 2007

the sea

The sea wants to take me
by Rishik Menon
(Based on Jeff Buckley's rendition of "I know its over")


Oh I know that you feel it, ma. the soil falls over your head.
And believe me, cause I feel it, ma. the soil falling over my head.




All we do is remember.
Cause there is
nothing
else,
that we can
hope for.


Did you see how low the tide was amma? Its a walk I wont forget.
And we took this in our stride, so far. But I dont want to forget.


We havent gone that far from her.
But im
drawn
to the soil
to get wet.

And the youth can stand strong so far.
But the youth cant forget.


And we let it go.
And we feel the cold.
And were bare, both our bodies our soul.

But why do we hear her? Because we didnt let go. No, we know. Were not that strong.




We walked to your beach, amma. Its like all that you said.
We washed in the sea, under the stars which had left.



And its frozen.
and the sea has withdrawn from the cold.
And this fire.
This fire it wont let me know. Know. when this is over. oh.

no. no, never.




never. we never fold.



And its pouring.
In this empty, between this and that.
And we're walking.
this tide, that i did not expect.


Its so far between. Its so lonely.
This sand's not clean.
But unholy?
Was that what you said?




'tween the sea and the embers. this landscape is cold.
and its shallow.

and this fire. this fire wont know.
let me know.

will I ever know.. know.


when this is over.


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

all time low

Coffee shop soundtrack by All time Low

"I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing,
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me pressing,
for more than just a moment of truth between the lies told,
to pull ourselves away from the lives we leave back home..."


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Whooo. Ever have one of those days, when the weigth just get so dam heavy on your chest, that your mind runs blank. And you know that something has gone wrong somewhere in the recent past.


hmmm...
The recent past sucks.


hmmm...
i think im gonna fight for this.
ciao.

Friday, July 13, 2007

is this the life

God knows I tried to learn the ways of the world, even had inklings we could be glorious; but after all thats happened, the inkles aint easy anymore. I mean- What kind of Fucken life is this?

Theres a reason why Vernon God Little is one of my favourite novels. sigh.

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drama handover today. finished KI IS first draft. starting on H3 tomorrow. Meeting theodore and huang tomorrow. Met ms lee yesterday and meeting her again for the Hilary challenge on Sunday. Mr Hasim approved my refugee presentation, plan.


Its like what Rannald's nik says. Time aint gonna wait for no one. Its gonna go. And i got to bounce straight back.


did alot of thinking today after the handover. And dammit how lucky am I. I made it this far. I lived on the verge of insanity and I made it this far. I made it. I lived through it. And there is nothing more I can ask for. Well. Nearly nothing anyways.

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Listening to
Forever Young.
and Summer Love.
=)

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“& Salomon in Singapore…”
By Rishik V. Menon
There is a world out here which you don’t know
A world out here which you may never see
A world some have heard of, but don’t understand
A world, which the other worlds may never need
This is the world which I reside in
This is the world which you don’t feel
This the world I know I have meaning
This is the only world which seems real

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

cursive sounds good

This discipline is occuring too infrequently for me, to actually make any significant difference.








so here comes the hurricane. the great plunge we have all been waiting for. Filmed in HD for your viewing pleasure.


Wednesday, July 04, 2007

love

My grandmother lived the most amazing life, of any person I have ever known.
No one gave as much as her. Without asking, demanding for anything in return.
No one loved as much as her. So unconditionally, so sincerely, that genuine joy was planted in all those around her. She personified the spirit of loving. I have lost count of the number of people who gush over how she was like a mother to them. How they felt pampered by her mere presence. How lucky they were to have known her. She was amazing. beyond belief. I never saw her spread any negativity to anyone. She was headstrong in being the best Human Being there possibly could be. Every scolding, she took. Every time someone hurt her, she bore it. In a family so dystopically cracked, she weathered, and held us united. She forgave those whom others refused to forgive, (even when it was her who under went greater hurt than anyone else.) She was understanding. She was caring. She was determined to live independently and strong. She broke the rules and never looked back. She refused to let herself burden others. She was a fighter, who drew her strength from her love for everyone else. And we drew our strength from her. She would disregard caution and cook for the sake of her children and grandchildren. She threw tradition and custom aside for the sake of the happiness and joy of her loved ones. She knew when her actions would incite criticism. But it was her knowledge of how much, her actions would create a smile that drove her on. She gave her life for her family. And in doing so she fed us with that spark that made us special. She was our inspiration. She was the infallible. She was the most humble, un-hateful and peaceful being that I have ever know. She held my hand and walked with me. She massaged my legs when I was in pain. She remembered my favourite dishes for as long as I can remember. And her memory was equally good. Every simple story of the smallest favours we did for her, she kept to her heart. And she would remind us of how special we were, filling us with so much euphoria. Even though whatever it was that we did was probably nothing compared to the sacrifices she has made. She was feisty, yet she was mild and unassuming. She was the single cutest thing alive. Her smile was miraculous. Her laugh was heavenly. When she sang for us, that Christmas, I knew I blessed with an angel for a Grandmother. She was our guardian angel then, and she still is now. Every human being has their flaws. No one is perfect. But my attha is not just any human. She had turned her life into a symbol: of love, hope and sacrifice. She was the legend. She was our hero. She was our attha. And we will always love her. And never forget her. And there can be nothing more fulfilling in our short lives, than to try and emulate but a mere fraction of the goodwill that was my grandma. Our grandma. Atha.