why i should do more chinese new year visiting

yay. sweetest meeting with my neighbour just now. and we talked and talked aboutt he coolest things. i swear, old people are cool. hahha.


talked about her jogging at lcuky heights,a nd her experinces in USA as a nurse, and her old kampong in tampinese and the old rambutana nd durian plantations, and how they used to cook food in the past, and the old malaysia cup, and how much better it was then the singapoire league, and wow. it was cool. haha. i like old people.

reason for tissue papers

surreal is the world which i live. the conversations i have, to my interactions with everyone around me. surreal and magical. and in two weeks time i get my O level results. no wait, one week... Man. and it doesnt even feel relatively important anymore. life is more than that. honestly. things are losing importance. i was once grounded, but right now im floating. im missing my anchor. plus to top it off, im sick. grrr.... sickness is not my friend.


top it off with whipped cream and a cherry. now i dont usually eatc herries but i did this time. mmmm. wasnt nice or anything. but it was barable. eat what i can. rishik cant afford to stay small. he eats alot now... crap man...


im spending all my money of food. and stationery. i swear. aiyah... like that how, boy? how to afford 600 dollar samsung digi cam/MP3 player. meeeeeh. gosh. i never wanted anythign this expensive before. sigh. i would never have the guts to ask. nope. all i can do is save.



sighs... im sick... very very sick... gaaaah. hate being sick. hahahas. oxymoron of the day: "


Stay home and get well soon.


meow. not happening. sigh. so i went out. went mustafa with de wei, nadia and shankar. i bought files. and loads of tissue paper along the way. hahaha.


i WANT coffee and biscuits.. and marshmellows...
i NEED to finish my work.



i see....



i should never ever play scissors paper stones with geetha. hahaha. it will never end. hahaha. sigh. pure crap lah. hahahha.



sigh. so now i now how lynnana felt when her name was used by mr tagboard faker. pissed. sigh. but this is life. and yeah, you move on.



before the day ends i shall finish AT LEAST my KI presentation and my debate speeches.

chem, physics and maths tutorials can be done tomorrow. hahha.



Suspension by Mae. sweet.



and just like that, i guess im out of your life. is this what you wanted? sigh... thats what it looks like. cause honestly, i dont understand anymore. please educate me if im wrong. but dont ever assume ill know. nope. i dont know anything anymore...



sigh. time to update my template. seeing as how i no longer attend st pat's or am committed to newletter, prefects or whatnot. ahhaha. sigh. life goes on.



i intend to do community service at darma muneesveram temple every sunday. yaps.

day to day sleep

i wanna wake up....



taken in by decarte. he makes sense... hmmm. i wanna wake up....




today was cleaning day.



then anna's friend came from china. mmhmm. so we went to have dinner at simpang bedok.



thats life...




gotta run soon....




KI presentation tomorrow. sweee.

fuggedy fug

apologise for my last entry. i was semi-asleep. i shouldnt have been near the computer. nope. hahas. not a place for a kid like me.



sooo... at geetha's request i shall blog about friday. Friday morn went to meet nicholas aiysha kiran at TM then went to carolines house for debates preparation. think we did OKAY there. not good enough. but OKAY. bryan Cheang is in the srjc debate team. as in he;s going for the srjc com. hes in NJ. not sr. hahah. yeapss... anyways after debates went for richie's birthday. arthur, neirtta,. michelle, nadia, and whonot were all there. yeaps. haha. and now to the part which geetha is dying for me to post: While having dinner one of them asked if i was gay. hahahahaha. yeaps. interesting... anyways we watched memoirs of a geisha. cool show. ahhaha. of and debbir was there, still bitter about the new years eve glowy thing. hahahaha. sweet.



During the movie
"are all girls bitches?"
"NO! maybe debbie..."



chatting with naddy today

Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
sigh
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
is this really life...
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
is this really it
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
you think maybe...
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
just maybe id wake up
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
and i could do it all over again?
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
just get that chance
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
just fight harder
Dont complicate by hesitating -rishik... says:
wouldnt that be nice...




today went to temple. darma muneesvaran. its my dream temple. think ill be goign there more often...




so a fight at west plaza. lion troupe dancer people. haha. had dinner as per normal...



and now i gtg and rip 'as lovers go' by DC for arthi. cause my nik hlped her with some problem. ahha. loser. but in a nice way of course.



haha. uhh okays.

restless

cant stay here any longer.....



i just cant look, its killing me. and taking control.




cause its so very pretty. pretty. pretty. pretty.



its 1 am in the morning. get off my back. i cant think right now. thats why most my songs are written at this time. ahha. yays.

a mark a brand a mission

i do what i can.



A mark, a brand, a mission, a scar. 19.90. its mine now. hahahhahaha! BITE THAT!



mustafa rocks, for that reason now.




I need an iPod. Dam right....




debates was okay-ish. one more weeeeee-k.



e-mail debates speeches by today. well mine is kinda done already. by ill wait till later to send it. cause i dont like to rush.




paino class cancelled.




new life new year, new start. ive said that quite a number of times already. maybe ill trya nd put that in practise....


ive had enough. maybe i shoudl give up. even if you think i havent really been trying. whatever. life goes on. and im not gonna let this great new stage of my life be spoiled by something like that. like milk in the medicine cabinet.



charlene is into good music. yay. she's my deabte senior by the way. and shes cool. lit, debates, into taking back sunday, something corporate and is in a band. Bound to admire her.



on the topic of music, and who like what kinda music. kiran is cool. guns and roses, pink flloyd and old rock. sweet. haha. its good to have her around. makes it easier to gang up against people who listen to pop. hahah.



and now..... i need lunch soon.




NYAA gold. hmmphs. and i have to drop a PDP... i dunno. i really need to re-prioritise and filter.



hockey might have to go. sigh. it was such a great sport.

closure

Closed temporary for debates preparation. no more distractions.

cold concrete cuts

chlorine bleaches. aint that a revelation. my thread is losing its colour cause of the swimming. so sad. and it was such a bright red too. oh wells.... sometimes colour isnt the onlu thing that fades.



school is taking its toll on my body. and todayw as seriously WOW in terms of physical exhaustion. i dunno why. my lerthagy today is like nothing i ever experienced this year. haha. not saying much considering the number of days thats passed so far.



dharvin leaves tomorrow. coudlnt join dharvin shane and jeremy today... =(


lets see my to-do list.

Ki homework. matsh homework. chem homework. physics homework. lit research. debate research. sigh... its just one more day before the big break comes.



"do you write poetry"
"yes"
"wha... kay, not the answer iw as expecting"
"do you play the guitar"
"kinda"
"wha...OKAY."




hidden in plain view's bleed for you is my pick for this years song for valentines day.



today bouldeirng was cool. haha. han ming is good. and apparently, the reason why im good is cause im tall. wtf!!!


tomorrow, got small hockey meeting, and then debates as per normal. suai. pressure. and HOPEFULLY i meet jeremy and dharv. yeahs...





goodnight.

sheeesh.

what the fuck man. what the fuck.
first you ask why im mad, and then you say your mad cause i keep things inside. so i say how i feel, and you get mad even more. so i say i give up and you question if i have tried in the first place. and i tell you how i have tried and you tel me your mad cause i dont understand.
what the fuck do you want me to think. the only thing i can seem to udnerstand is that yoru just in a fucking mood for a fight. you probably dont care what i say, and cant be bothered about me. you probably will hate my guts for posting this on my blog. or maybe you'll just ignore it. i dunno. but fuck.... i tell you now, im still not mad... just dam fucking confused.




god.

"ill wait until tomorrow then, maybe youll feel better than, maybe we;ll be better than. so whats another day..."



cheyenne writes sweet stories. sigh. DC rocks socks.



school today was cool. finished my KI homework with help from shu han and maryam. kay not really. but the point is, i finished it. wtached the matrix. tried to understand some maths. finished chem practical( i think the only guy in class to finish it on time). threw paperp planes during physics tutorial. went for debate training. came home with aiysha debating about the need for worms. school is good...



tomorrow.... tomorrow... i love ya, tomorrow... your only a day away.




waiting for teh weekend. piano. venture meeting. and oh... not forgetting. getting ready for O level results day in st pats. need to go and buy gifts and stuff. yeah..



KI presentation. sigh. so shagged right now. mentally and emotionally drained. tomorrow ill go to the HUB and do it.

bbq yesterday

ooodles doodles.



yesterdays entry was too short. just like me. but thats not a good thing.



so i shall re-talka bout the bbq. yeap, i was late for meeting the class for lunch, so i felt bad, and decided to spend more time with them, and didnt go for the deabtes. sigh. thats what happened. i was late. and guilty. yeaa... and hungry too, but, hahah, thats not the reason! It was cause i wanted to spend time with my class.... Yes.. Of course its the only reason. haha.



anyways, linette, geokchin, han meng, leslie, yi wei, zhi kai and kenny were all there. plus the OGLS. and the other people from my OG... whose names i dotn know. haha. not bad huh.


anyways, zhi kai, kenny, leslie and han meng and I went to play pool. id consider myself decent. Decent ENOUGH. i just need more time. and leslie is just too dam pro. haha. woah. a league of his own.



went down to ECP, where we had fun. played captains ball, dunked people in the sea, played tug o war where we kept losing. and yeah, it rianed quite alot of times. yeah. and the iron chef was woah. a true challenge. the rain. i admit, that leslie and i were in the shelter most of the time. haha. many chefs spoil the food. its true. yeahs. but in the end, with a creative plate, and story, we triumphemped. i know.. my spelling sucks. wanna make anything out of it? hahaha.



the joke of the day was i kept messaging kiran about the debates, when i foudn out she was at the bbq. ahhahaha. wtf. dang slacker.



iniated truth or dare at the end. like i always do. i became the scape goat for quite a few of the "who would you pick for....." questions... bloody idiots. hahaha. its supposed to be truth!! but its okay... they wanna boost my ego, fine by me. haha. OH. and when alvin said "shoot, shag and mary", me and cedric quite confused about the difference between shaga nd shoot.... until alvin clarified that shoot meant "bang bang" gun shoot. hahaha. NOt anything else.. ah. hahaha. Cedric is an inspiration of a house com member, by the way. haha.



went home with zhi kai. still havent done my KI homework by the way. sigh. there is time later.


anyways today was cool. went temple, fufilling one of my few new year resolution. visit a place of worship at least once a week.



still have not done KI homeowrk. and when i tried doing my maths i swear i could have cried. omg. it was so dam alien to me. ARGHH!. im shit scared.... i dont want to screw this up. its too important.



SPH has scholarships. cool. ill be working towards it.



"learn your lesson" by punchline
"to the world: by strike anyway

good night. to do more work.

ooh! its in my nature

oooh....

am i unreliable or what. sigh. i hate that part of me. ill go for debates. i wont go. bakc and forth. sigh. no wonder i make a bad leader. hahah. i also find joy in the loss of others. seriously. hahah. like right now, i am perfectly fien and happy about not being in SCIP, for the mere reason that shu han, deepti and a few others didnt get in. YAY! hahaha. i can very easily be consoled by the losses of others... sigh. if ever i was a super villain, and the super hero told me, "Rishik! If Im going down, YOUR going down with me!", ill probably reply in a cheery tone "Oh cool. OK!"



hahas. i am easily satisfied.




sigh. bbq was fun. we won the iron chef comeptition. yay. i proudly take credit for bullshitting the way for our story. and now i clap for julia for designing the plate and for all the chefs. yay.



rain makes you cold and wet. HMMMM! REALLY!!??

you say, i say, who say

"somehting bout that way that you look tongiht..." (clay aiken)
"NOOO! arghh! OFF! OFF!"


guess whose stupid friendster profile THAT was in... gosh. friendster is ANNOYING! except for the chance to message people like jagadev. wow. been a while now.




nicole mao is going for saturday debates. and so am I. hahaha. or wanan know a thing bout debates? coem let me teach you. there is something called arguement. and then there are the evidence that backs it up.


THE WORLD ROCKS FOR ME!! hahaha. thats the claim. and teh support are as follows.


a) I was screwed on wednesday. I had the road run, debates and hockey all clashing. than int he end, all got cancelled but debates. YAY.

b)I was screwed on thursday. i had to meet ben ow and the gang, and had hockey training. so i met ben ow AND went for hockey training alittle late. YAY. all works out. i mean i got pumped for being late, but heck.

c)I was screwed on friday. I had to give a small talk in st pats. I had school on friday. so i skipped school. YAY. problem solved again. sigh. my problems always get solved. beautiful. oh, friday i returned to TJ for debates. sweet.


and today i just had piano class, and now ill be off to meet my CG for lunch. and THEN off to see debate finals. yeahs.



i would yaber on abit more about other things but im late.



oh i didnt make it to SCIP. dissapointed, but hahah. doesnt really affect me. this is life after all.



RE-REGISTER FOR NYAA SILVER!! WOHOOO! i dont know what the hells my dam problem.. i never learn.

suffocating

Smashed into peices by silverstien. surprisingly catchy melody. shalalala.



Of course id love to try the high road. but then, i gotta be good to myself. sigh.



i guess i gotta make a sacrifice. saturday or friday. i wanna go for debates. actually you know what. i DONT want to go. flat out. i would so much rather be having the bbq with my new friends, or practising hockey, especially when making the cut for the team is going to be so hard. but this is the thing.


I want to make my mark in debates. i want to do my best. i want to be noticed. and as that teacher IC person, miss princess or soemthing like that, said: going for this will definitely change their impression of me. sighs. always about impression. so make one. tomorrow there is hockey at 430. immediately after PE. and me and kenny are kinda set on training for the road run. i got to get back into shape. i got to start running again. sigh.



oh, i quit as maths rep. haha. i get what i want. saw that? jackson is the new maths rep. also my nominee. haha. i will always get what i want eventually. it just so happens, i might not want it at that point of time.



so ill be off now. "like white noise"


Ben ow: "you dont come, i dotn give you present" hahaha. gosh. you have no idea how much i really want to come man. no idea. sigh. miss ya all. the whole lot.


I FOUND GRAD NITE PICS OF ME!! in the class yahoogroups thing.

yay. thank god for modern technology. and the cool dudes who took my photo. you rock.



and one trademark pic of me sleepign in bio class. i think my TJ friends will know this part of me too, by now. ahhaha. sigh. yeap. thats me.

good night. dang mouth ulcer.
DIE UL
CER DIE!! ARGHHH! sooo annoying.

nostlagia

nostalgia:
(listening to radiant narrative by keepsake)

so i was watching those girls cycles out of their gate . and they were such pretty bikes. i think they were hand painted. and the effort they put in were so cute. and then i started thinking about my 7th birthday. where i was so happy and excited. and then my parents brought me to the cycle shop to try out the bikes. and i was so happy. not cuase i thought i was gonna get a new bike, but was sincerely excited from just riding. i was like "YAY! ITS MY BIRTHDAY! AND IM RIDING BICYCLES, AT THE SHOP!!!" the world was a beautiful place then. and then my mom told me to cycle home. and i was shocked. this was more than what i had dreamed for. my dream was cycling aroudn the shop. and my parents had bought me the bike. and... i was so... happy. it was just amazing that feeling. that incredibly grateful and lubby dubby feeling you get, when you expect so little.





hahah. and when i was ironing upsatrirs earlier i started thinking about this time i was going out soon. was like what, 5?, 6? anyways, i remember havign this batman t shirt. and i think it was stained. and we were leavign the house soon. but the t shirt was stained. so i asked my maid to go iron it. and she came back with it ironed...AND STILL STAINED!! i was furious. i asked to go iron it again... and again! and it kept coming back; stain still there. i finally gave up, and wore the t shirt and left the house. my family was waiting in the car. anyways they asked why i was late and i complaind about the stain and the poor ironing of our maid, when my sister told me "ironing only makes clothes neater. not removes stains.."

"oh."






Day summaries
Saturday: piano in morning. Debates at night. mr loke rocks. haha. he said i have improved from the last time. coming from the president of SAID, that means alot.

Sunday: spent the whole day in the hospital. basically. yeap. was visiting. i wasnt warded. hahaha.

Monday: school. fun fun fun!!! im KI rep. coolness. teh pcitures thing was totally ingenius. and how mr veera linked it all up to order in society, and how people intepret things. two very strong and hard hitting topics. on the first lesson to boot. niiice. tamil was interesting. hahah. only two students. sad lah. dam sad. han ming and i have a new policy. he doesnt wake me up, and i wont wake him up. haha.

tuesday: school. fun fun... not as fun as monday. hahaa. i dunno. lit had 5 people. haha. wow. oakys. i became maths rep though i protested. i really got to quit. I REALLY GOT TO QUIT. im already KI rep!! this cant happen to me! haha. anyways how i got chosen is a strange story. she asked for volunteers. so i decided to volunteer jo ann. and then han ming decided to volunteer me. then keeny volunteered han meng. so we three stood outside while the voting took place. in the end this is what happened according to kenny. mrs tag asked who wanted to vote for jo ann and no one raised their hands. then she asked about me, and the whole class voted. she didnt ask for han meng's name. hahaha. when i came back intot he class i made a speech about why they made a wrong choice. hahaha. sigh. SCIP interviews.. went okayish. had late lunch at bedok macs with shu han, maryam, and two other tkgs girls. not quite sure of the names, so im gonna take a stab at it now. neresha and hakima. yeaps. sounds ratehr wrong but they will do for now. its my blog. i write what i want. hahah. take that.


oh forget to mention. the morning we had swimming class. then leslie, nicholas, ian and whonot all togther with me went for beginners. ahha. super retarded. but still fun. after swimming the talkable gang from cg 6 went to macs for breakfast. even though class was like in 5 minutes. haha. not bad ah. TJ kicks ass kay. dont mess with us... well some of us. im pretty sure the rest can be messed with.




what made my day: friendster message from jagadev. shit man... its been so freaking long. wow. thats all i can say. the guy really made an impact on me. i know i havent talked to him, or messaged or whatever in nearly a whole year. but i still think of him. i get reminded of him. he has become my bar of cool. when i think of peeps like shanker, they remind me of jagad. cool. so, off i shall now go, to pen my reply.



and here i am now. mouth ulcers, phlegm and slight fever still persist. dam annoying. but whatever. ill bare it. GRINNING.

boys night out, and theories of the sun

courage and values. thats all you need in life. everything else, every other positive trait or habits come from these two. courage and values. so be brave. and be strong.



"all I need is one key and a full tank," My dad in response to how people these days cant leave their house without wallets and handphones or whatever. haha. nice.



last night was the bbq. boys night out. at dharvin's house. prem, zenn, sean, wei jie, and soem other guys ive never seen before.

"its my house and ive no idea whose coming" dharvin. hahahahah!


and there was xin quan! holy shit man. xin quan! gosh. this is how our reunion went.



"I dont know you, do I?"
"I'm xin quan."
"(pause) XIN QUAN! ho- shit! XIN QUAN! you got hair!!"
"hahaha. yes i did. its real you know."
"YOU GREW HAIR! hahahaha"


yeah. and there goes my mental image of this p6 skinhead that i had. replaced by a large boy with wavy black hair.


so we cooked food. good food. ate it. played with fire. played with water. learnt various lessons of life. the new onomaeotopia "fap". "Fap, fap, fap, fap, fap!" hahaha. be careful not to spill the fappings. personal joke. haha. the laws agaisnt eating uncooked marshmellows. and of course the consequences of bringing onion rings to a bbq (a major No, No). sigh.

the plan to deliver the early valentines day present was scrapped. cause it just seemed like a watse of good time. haha. especially considering the onion rings were uncooked. hahahha.



terrance joined us later with pancakes. hes workigng at water rise apparently. everyone has a job. terrance. xin quan is a security guard. sigh. sad. and here i go attending debates trainings of other schools. at four. today. yeaps. haha. sprayed terrance with water guns. skated down the slide and fell on my ass. spun around and around on the round and round thingys at pasir ris park. had this 'last one standing' competiton on the giant hamster wheel thingy, and we all fell down and scraped our elbows or whatelse. alot of shit. haha. and a few were doing turn turtle on the other turning thing. hard to explain. unless you live in pasir ris, youll know what im talking bout.



finally we went to the maze, and hid water guns in the centre. than we played CS. or whatever you call it. shooting game. me and prem won. then we went home. sigh. one week left before dharvin leaves.



thigns to remember for school. bring a dam sweater. its cold. bring money for graphing calculator.


todays had piano class. sighs. and today is also pongghal. cool huh. well ciaos.
will be goign to clean the house alittle before i head down to siglap south cc for debates. sigh.


"dont clean up!! chuck away! youll only make things messier when you try and clean up!"


I WILL READ GOD OF SMALL THINGS BEFORE TUESDAY. read the fist chapter just now. was beautiful.


dont mess with me. i just brushed my teeth.

i know everything about you, banana

when everything you get is, everything you wanted... which one would you prefer??



you get what you want. or do we get what we deserve? if you ask me, frankly, its the former. thats how life seems to work. its just we dont always admit to what we want at times.



hello! how was your friday? good? yes, mine was good too... well, hey! look at the time. i really shoudl run alogn now. was great chatting with you though. really was. we must catch up some time. see ya soon!


(oh dont you know it)




todays was cool. didnt rain. hmmm. not bad. then we heard the bang. "CRACK-A!" whilst we were doing the laundry in the backyard. sigh. could just be a false alarm of course. doesnt have to be rain. on the bright side it could just have been a bomb blast. yeaps.



i dotn like being ignored. i dont. sigh. at least i have friends.
todays the day started off with a break again. so the CH gathere and we were talking and haha. im finally starting to feel a place. no doubt. its nice enough. chances of me staying are like 60% man. if my results are good enought. thats a heavy factor. sigh. i can so easily imagine me getting like 16 or 18 points, and totally freaking out. haha. gosh, that would really suck. sighs... nvm. i can do it. less than 10, less than ten.

ive gained a reputation of eating slowly. which is true. mostly cause our breaks are like one two hours long, and im just pacing myself. haha. nothign wrong.



KI kicked ass! hahaha! they played PINK FLLOYD"S THE WALL!! its dam cool lah! okay they didnt play the full show, but the main song! they played the main song! YEAH! and like just one week after i watched it. "HEY! TEACHERS! LEAVE THEM KIDS ALONE!!" wohooo! 70s/80s rock kicks ass. the godfathers and pioneers of punk. sigh. anyways... i seem to feel comfortable now. i really can identify people. make myself known. make an impact. do what i have come here to do. haha. sigh. but still i hate LAN.



but nonethelss, followed kenny, zhi kai, han meng, linette, deepti and... wait thats all. yeah. so we went to play CS. and then battlefield. and as usual my ass got kicked. ran into jorge and joseph and alex and... that short fat indian scout in sec 2. dam. whats his name... raaa...raaa... raa something. heck. after lanning and feeling sea sick, and depressed (youd feel depressed too if you got killed so many time) deepti linette and i went for th SCIP thingamajig. saw alot of people there. kind of intimidating. competition is scarry at times. especially at a place like TJ. as ridwan was telling me about, in context to the large number of people there were goign to cut out for the hockey try outs. and wow. out of ALL those people, less than half are gonna becoem councillors in the end. sigh. oh well. thats not a concern of mine. my aims are slightly higher. haha. if you know what i mean.




things to take note of.

1)bringcash for Graphing calculator of thurdsay
2)practise hockey in the weekend
3)practise piano tonight
4)finish all my homework
5)think about my KI homework (find 2 pictures that speak to me.)
6)something else. im sure there is. oh well...


sunday brandon wants to go out.

tonight i think there is soemthing going on. so now i have to check around. good bye.

hope dangles on a pink

man. it sucks when people cant read my title. they are such pretty tittles they are. sigh.




so i didnt follow the gang to NTUC to shop for the bbq shit. im sorry. but family is a powerful word.



but hell. tomorrow bbq. i use shorts entences these days. yes. hmmm... not proper english, but im not one to be anal-retentive. yipee. today school was cool. really getting to know people better. and im also mixing up waay to many names.

"audrey! how are you!"
"what did you call me?"
"audrey?... right?"
"Im andrea..."
"oh."


hahah. so my apologies to you, dear andrea. love that smile girl. haha. makes you easier to remember in the swarm of people.



slow dance on the inside. hahah. i like this song. but i need something new right now. soo...bottom line's can we forget. i know i was listening to it yesterday. but it has a catchy hook.


=D


hockey kicksass. nuff said. sweeping, dribbling, everything. it really rocks. sigh. i got my mind set on hockey, debates and council... and ventures.


I just confirmed with aloysius. imala. im gonna stay on as a venture. sigh. thats right. im gonna do it. somehow.



this saturday i got piano class. i got to keep reminding myself. haha. havent been practisisng at all since school restarted. man. and then there is my guitar.. poor baby. all alone in its bag. haha. technically its my mom's guitar. so.... yes. i need my own. soon....



had lunch with nicholas gn at bk. haha. cause i was just so free. i really was.


gtg

hooray

hahahah! star spangled banner, barber shop quartet. sigh... its really hard to concentrate on typing with this kinda stuff spewing from your speakers. hahaha. god.



ahhh.. thats better. cannon rock! WHOOO! kickass music. sigh.



in my earlier post i say sleeping on the coach... hmmm. VERY WRONG! i sleep on my bed or on occasion the couch. But NEEVER on a coach.. hell, i dont even have one. hahah...



oooh! speaking about not having a coach, TJ debates doesnt have a coach. but who cares! they ROCK! haha. man, the President sean and VP, natasha are about the coolest people i have seen on campus so far. cool in a whacked way. no cool in a 'leslie' way. haha. yeahs. there are more of the: "say what i want, and not care what you think of me" cool. dam right. they rock. sigh. I WANT TO JOIN DEBATES! nothigns gonna stop me. hahah. sigh. i guess the battle is now down to drama and hockey. drama from what i heard from arthi was boring.. but then hey, you never know. fresh blood could change things. hmmms. tehn there is hockey. haha. "its in my blood, man! its in my blood!" hahahah. well, if you say so...


spekaing of hockey. training tomorrow at 4 30. so me and michael joo are gonna be working out from 1115 to 1630. haha. yeah! gym, run, whatever it takes. do what you must. CCas, ccas , ccas...



"think about it.. tell me when your ready."

pfft. ventures. do i still want to continue. of course i do. its my only link back to st pats. and i dunno. i would love the ruggedness. dotn want to lose that. but then again. that overwhelming feeling that people there dont like me. and im sure its true. save my batchmates. sighs... time to think.... just like he asked me too...




rainr ain. Kay, dotn get me wrong. i love the rain. yeahs... i even dont mind getting wet. thats okay... im cool with that. but DONT! DONT MESS WITH THE UNIFORM!! gaaaah....thank god for the dryer. so annoying.


the rain is ,magical. it was all clear till i reached my street. than POOF. magic happens. it pours. heavy heavy wetness, leaving muah drenched.



yesterday was cool. shankar's birthday gathering. hahah. yeaps. nads, dora, jas, selv, michelle, de wei and uhh... who else came... hmmms... MARC! right, forget bout marc fer awhile, there. sigh... was looking at the photo i have on my table. the whole PESA gang. and man... some people leave. some stay. lifes a bitch that way....




to all muslim readers. happy hari raya haji.


to my aunty. all the best, for this saturday.


today is like old friends day. all the people i never talk to in ages are talking to me now on MSN. haha. yipeee. im popular again. it feels good.



can we forget by the bottom line: "I only go by what i seeeee!"




i burnt the hair on my knuckle dude... well the marshmellows were worthwhile. right now i refer to monday night. we didnt go OCH in the end. go figure. but linette wants to go! wohooo! maybe it can be like a CG outing. hahah. CG. not bad lah. at least we went for lunch together. at Macs. except for yi wei. sigh. no comment here. we said waaalk... but noooo....


Our CG is supposed to have a stall for CNY festival. so courtesy of your resident patrician, our idea is to have a water bomb throwing station. except we need the help of teachers. haha. so tomorrow ill be asking around, for volunteers for the slaughter. haha. we got Arvin, our house cap, on it already, so thats good enough. haha. water bomb throwing... hmmm. kinda like pie throwing. only cheaper. im cheap. and stingy. shalala. wantamakeanythignoutofit? hahahas.

(with regards to TJC sucking)
Bite me at 2am -rishik... says:
its too early to say actually
Bite me at 2am -rishik... says:
maybe i havent really given it a chance


maybe thats what im here for. to make change. to bring the essence of st pats to this college. to give it that vibrance. to give it that attitude. haha. who knows. maybe the college is gonna change me instead. but i remain adamant of who i am. Shik.



sigh. guitars and drums.... next week ill ge goin jammin. I will. I will... hahaha. i sound like the little red engine. "i think i can! I can! i think i can! i can!" hahahah. whatever. you dont remember the ol story? awww. im sorry.



neoprints from yesterday can be seen from dora's bloggo. or jounral. whatever you want to call it. means the same to me. haha.



yesterday went shopping with shane. cause dharvin was asleep. and so was kyle. so nvm.... anyways, i bought... "in between dreams by jack johnson" and "warped tours 2005". yeaps. niceness. and green shoe laces. but its luminous green. not lime green. so it doesnt suit my shoes. ah heck. it was only a dollar. found some pretty interesting bass guitar packages. 250. 300. haha. ill only get the guts to ask my dad after the O level results. sigh... drawing ever so closer.



met daryl chee at PS yesterday. makes me think about CJ. all that could have been. all that is now lost. sigh. in my heart man. forever.




madri gras. was talking to alfred bout the possibility. haha. our first real 'gig'. technically speaking. how kickass would it be. TJC Madri Gras. hahah. its not gay, no. its just a good ol clean arts festival. yeahs. haha.



New life. new start. its gonna be sweet. as long as i stay true to who i am. no goign wrong there.



this saturday piano class. better not forget. with all these long days and late nights. man. doenst seem to end.


leslie wants me to join pool... hmmm.... lets think about all my commitments now.

DEBATESS!!! ALL RIGHT!
Student council interneship. and hopefully later Council.
Hockey (tentative)
Drama (tentative)
Ventures (until recently, this was pretty much confirmed)
Piano
Guitar/Band (at least once a month)
aggro skating (depending on the weather. and the free time.)
House com. (its a possibility? i dunno. i doubt it lah)
hmmms... is there anything else? i dont think so. pffft... keeping fit. hahah. whatever.



goodnight yall. and now i shall round up the day by all the compliments i got and everything that made me happy.

"I hear you are witty. I bet im funnier than you." Arthi
"You talk lah. your a better speaker." Zhi Kai



guns and roses, sweet child o mine: "where do we go now!"

sleep never felt so good before

sweet sweet sleep. maan. those two hours on the coach was pure heaven. i swear. sigh... sleep rocks.


oooh. i hearthe car come home. better do dishes. shalalla.

im so.....but thats okay

shalalla. as long as your alive. here i am.



haha! JC rocks. bite that. the freedom. the movement. the, do whatever you want-ness of it all. and most of all; THE LITERATURE! HAH!



I can do literature, finally after my sad two year starvation. and man today's class was great. yipee. i feel good. the poems werent what made me happy. it was the fact i could decipher the poem. this initial confidence booster. I got what it takes! say it with me. " its all in hips... its all in the hips..."



anyways... RAIN! rain rocks huh. wow. and for so many days too. only crappy thign is, plabnned bbq today might be hampered. bbq with dharvin and, as he would say, "da crew". im incharga chips and sausages. good stuff. plus we planning to go OCH in the dusk. and be home before 6. haha. of course i gotta ask my parents. yeaps... shalallalee.


tomorrow afternoon meeting shane for shopping. sounds weird, yeah, two guys shopping. but hey. we shop for cool stuff. which we desperately need. like jeans. so there. lay off.

tomorrow evening, meeting the gang at PS, for reunion. sweets. its been long. sigh.


today was so weird. after being dismissed i felt so lost. i had no where to go. i was free. no meetings, no flag lowering, no tuition, no extra class...nothing. i was truly free. felt so weird. so i went to the library. yays. fell asleep. couldnt help myslef could I? sometimes the rain is just overwhelming.



to clearify with all my readers (which isnt alot. in fact i think i can name all three of them. Anna, shane and nicholas), about KI. i know i said i didnt qualify last tuesday. but hey. apparently i made it. just didnt get called up for the interview. so yeahs. haha. beat that! oh, and sharaf and farah all made it to KI too. yeaahs. haha. sweet. so my subject combi in full will be:


H2 Chemistry
H2 Physics
H2 Maths
H2 KI
H1 Literature
H1 TLB
H1 PW



oooh lalala. things are working out.


dont see the need to talk about anything else. neaah. better go buy the chips and sausages soon.


"im killing in the rain. im living in your expectations"


Now, for the chorus of onelinedrawing's smile... (drums please...)
"so put it up on your faaaaaace! hallelujah! and these tears will all go byyyy! anything i can dooo, to help ya through it! I just love to see yeerr smiiile!!!!"

I am a robot

dam right. im back. Love ya'll...


MSN, WMP, and aolmusic. what will i do without you guys? sigh.

thumbelina, dance for me

heys. first day of TJC. it was cool. i have returned to the neighbourhood school atmosphere. and boy is it weird. haha. ill talk more on that later... for now, a peek into what happened in my life on saturday and sunday.


stayed home. YAY!


well... not totally... at night we went for dinner! sunday night. and attha was there! vege restaurent. ganges i think, it was called. as for monday? stayed home until my edusave awards thingy at elias community centre. met sudesh, and this girl from pasir ris sec who was also going TJ. didnt meet her today though.




monday afternoon, watched max keeble's big moove, read the whole of Vernon God Little, and then went skating with dharvin. met sean, dinesh and whowhat around pasir ris. i can grind... only at pasir ris interchange. its a curse. a mental mindblock. sigh. got home, then family went for dinner at NYDC at hollan V.


today was tiring. i didnt get KI. aww. well, the first guy i asked was the malay boy from VS. sha-something. shariff? shafan? im sorry. i suck at names. anyways he didnt make it either and i dunno. that kind of made me feel good. haha. im not vindictive. its just the thought that, Hey, if someone as bright and as intelligent him cant make it, i guess its okay i didnt. yeaps. see... i AM a nice guy. not evil.



tomorrow i MUST go to st pats. for my dad's money. and my edusave money. dad says he will cash the cheques of both my eagles and edusave together. yippee. 450. what more can i ask for in life? friends.....



yes, i want friends. and, well, today in TJ? i dunno how many friends i made. i asked around for alot of peoples names. but... crap man. i have NO friends there, save michael joo and nicholas GN. in THAT sense, i cant wait for school to start. i trust that in a classroom environment, or in a CCA/PDP i will get the chance to meet more people of my same intrests, taste, whatnot. sigh. this lack of a clique is painful. nvm... its just the first dam day anyways. see how it goes. im sure by the end of these three months, things will change. i hope. =S

if not there is always CJ. YEAH!



saturday. outing. discuss details another day.