yeah!!! YEAH!!

So many sleepless nights, just wishing that youd call....
I read the ending twice, both times, i were to fall....
Too scared to say, too proud to be, to try and carry on....
My word was gold, your look was cold, and now i write this song
Who do i be, its an agony, a crisis is at hand
of what i say, and how i play, its how they judge a man.



oooh....
and i see yoooou.
and i know that, i will never ever be
what you want, nor what you need
there seems that there is nothing left to saaaay.
And it ends this way.




I have right now, a chance to sing,
cleanigng my room, of my suffering,
hearing my frends, pericing my skin,
youd think i forget, but my skin is thin,
so have you ever tried, tried hard to cry
and to see yourself fail, see those dim eyes die


oooh....
and i miss yooou.
and i am trying so hard to be
what you want or what you need.
but it seems like i will always be this way...
and so, ill stay.

Dear God.

just want to say i love you so much. Thank you for this lifeforce and soul within, which has helped me through so much. which has gone against the odds of my body, time and time again. thank you for the strenght to stand at all. for the loved ones that make my day. for my emotions and senses through which i feel this world in all its beauty and horror. and for comforting me, when im lost. We did it. we made it this far. and i will do you proud lord.
I will continue, oh my god, to do all my actions for the love of you.

Dear All

Its over. now i just got a KL trip, a st pats open house, another debate com, a survival camp to take care of. shit. why the debate camp? more stress.. ahha. sigh. ill do what i can. godbless.


To my classmates: Rock on.