Sigh. doesnt feel like deepavali. somethings missing. spirit. its toally gone. sucked dry. dang O levels.
Good luck to all who did their O levels today. my heart bleeds fer you guys.
"You cheap bastard". hahahah. sigh. never laughed so hard over something so stupid before. hahaha. oh wait. i think i might have. anyone who is friends with joshua has. haha. but this was different. sigh. 3 in 1 coffee at starbucks. hahaha. omg. never thought id be reduced to that. hahaha! in my laughing coffee spilled over my bio notes.
today was a messed up day. woke up late. or actually. i slept late. haha. three in the morning. was writing... uh... an english essay. haha. so to speak. in exchange for a blog template. yay.
anyways, went to MPL, went to parkway and met alot of patricians. naresh was funny. i swear. sigh. and oh. the little kid at the library! haha. so cute! hahaha. "growl!" hahahah. omg...
went for add maths tuition again. scored an A2 for VS 2005 a maths prelims. yay-ness. "coming from a guy jumping with joy from 50% in the prelims?" yes, nicholas. things change. they always do. haha.
On the topic of change. My bro is back. he's got a headache. mmmm.
Dance inside by all american rejects are nice. but i aint buying their album. still saving for new found glory's. haha. yay. dashboard' EP is EX. sigh.
tomorrow i was supposed to study with nicholas. idiot. he better wake up early. hmmm. kinda makes you forget its deepavali huh? Im telling you. the spirit has died. sighs. for now.
my guitra strng snapped. as eveyrone predicted. haha. taht very same string. oh well. ill take this as a cue to go buy an electric. hahhaha. or not. acoustic lah, at least an accoustic. haha.
After My Os.... My loyalties will divided not in any particular order
1) Volunteer work at NAC
2) Volunteer work at SECDC
3) Practise on my grade 6 Peices
4) Practise on my bass tabbing skills
5) Skate and grind my nights away
6) Vacuum and scrub my sundays away (For 100 bucks a month!)
7) Start reading up my literature texts in advance
8) Start reading up my chem textbooks in advance
9) Help out in scout survival camp
10) Enjoy life
that shoudl be it. good night.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
alittle but of variety.
Bro's comin home tomorrow. oh sweet joy. haha. my room is SO ugly now! ahhh! i swear. green and black bedsheets(nice), beige curtain(not nice) comforters with lambs, moons, turtle with top hats and whatnot (Wrong time period of my life), books all over the place (adds character to the room. but no, it wont do in the long run)
sigh. a horrible mess of colours and crap. sigh. anyways. i have a new policy. no discussing of family fights in blog. cuase id just rather not remember. today was a bad morning. =S
My Mom to my Dad, "he is alot like you. in the morning he's grumpy. but in the evening he is veyr cheerful" haha. too true. the night rocks. what can be done about it
i like the life i lead right now. less TV. less computer. more...solitude. alot more solitude. just going to the libraryt o study. when i need soemthing i walk to marine parade. its so.. isolated. and yet liberated at the same time. no more meeting up with friends. no more confusing arrangements. i mean, sure i like those. but now. this life will do for now. all friends i meet will be by random conincidence. yeah. you might call it sad. but hey. this is the o levels. its just for these few weeks. so, yeah. this is how its gonna be. yeah.
shalala. happy birthday nicole and joshua. rock on bro.
about this whole writiten entries thing. hhaa. its different. im making a stand here. im excersing creativity. thats what my life is gonna be built on. tahts whats getting me by. creative energy. poetry, song writing, music writing, story telling, writing, the whole works. its all that gets me by. and its whats gonna get me through this life.
anyways, back to my point! haha. ill write when i feel like writing. it will be an on and off thing. cause we need variety. yeah. haha. so yeaps. haha. things cant be one way. like i told kubo today. a good leader is flexible. and reasonable. mmhmm.
by the way. can anyone help me redo my template? haha. please? just contact me. ill love you for one day. haha. in an emotional way, of course. haha.
so good night. and a beautiful night it is indeed.
sigh. a horrible mess of colours and crap. sigh. anyways. i have a new policy. no discussing of family fights in blog. cuase id just rather not remember. today was a bad morning. =S
My Mom to my Dad, "he is alot like you. in the morning he's grumpy. but in the evening he is veyr cheerful" haha. too true. the night rocks. what can be done about it
i like the life i lead right now. less TV. less computer. more...solitude. alot more solitude. just going to the libraryt o study. when i need soemthing i walk to marine parade. its so.. isolated. and yet liberated at the same time. no more meeting up with friends. no more confusing arrangements. i mean, sure i like those. but now. this life will do for now. all friends i meet will be by random conincidence. yeah. you might call it sad. but hey. this is the o levels. its just for these few weeks. so, yeah. this is how its gonna be. yeah.
shalala. happy birthday nicole and joshua. rock on bro.
about this whole writiten entries thing. hhaa. its different. im making a stand here. im excersing creativity. thats what my life is gonna be built on. tahts whats getting me by. creative energy. poetry, song writing, music writing, story telling, writing, the whole works. its all that gets me by. and its whats gonna get me through this life.
anyways, back to my point! haha. ill write when i feel like writing. it will be an on and off thing. cause we need variety. yeah. haha. so yeaps. haha. things cant be one way. like i told kubo today. a good leader is flexible. and reasonable. mmhmm.
by the way. can anyone help me redo my template? haha. please? just contact me. ill love you for one day. haha. in an emotional way, of course. haha.
so good night. and a beautiful night it is indeed.
Saturday, October 29, 2005
One more time
Sigh. saturday.
dont talk about the picture. haha. shut up. im serious. i dont wanna hear any comments on it. Hahha.
sigh. I have reached a conclusion. That slippers are the worst choice of footwear to anywhere. Ever. haha. I make alot of harsh statements like that. using words like 'worst' and 'best' and 'only'. but you know what. i like things i say to be powerful. to have meaning. to be strong. emotional. guess ill always be emo. sigh. by the way. macs is the worst place in the world to study. haha. im serious.
tuition went well. yay! i can do it. i can get my distinction. watch out, world. here i come. sigh.
anywyas, the real date is october 30th, so ill contine this post on another entry, of a more accurate date. haha. ill be back before you even knew i was gone.
dont talk about the picture. haha. shut up. im serious. i dont wanna hear any comments on it. Hahha.
sigh. I have reached a conclusion. That slippers are the worst choice of footwear to anywhere. Ever. haha. I make alot of harsh statements like that. using words like 'worst' and 'best' and 'only'. but you know what. i like things i say to be powerful. to have meaning. to be strong. emotional. guess ill always be emo. sigh. by the way. macs is the worst place in the world to study. haha. im serious.
tuition went well. yay! i can do it. i can get my distinction. watch out, world. here i come. sigh.
anywyas, the real date is october 30th, so ill contine this post on another entry, of a more accurate date. haha. ill be back before you even knew i was gone.
Friday, October 28, 2005
where i cant draw. i write.
Recommended songs.
Taste of ink played 25% faster.
Be my escape played 25%faster.
Your evil soul played 25% slower.
Im not okay played 25% slower
Jonni mitchell's clouds
Hahaha. and this one's for jeremy
"Set squares!" By D.Deagan and the K jack petunias. haha.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
the leaf came to me
This leaf fell onto my book. so i was inspired and wrote on it. then i kept it. haha. its not a bookmark.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Fucked attitude, fucked assholes
the prefects are going down the drain. fuck man. Fuck. with a capital F. its dam frustrating for me. especially for people like theodore and me. Frustration! Gah! also a capital F. god...
To me, it has always been about image. Everyhting is about image. people who Know me, know that. Image is important to me. To me that justified the whole existence of the board. the board was there to protect the image of the school. save it. the only dam reason why we try and stop smokers is cause they damage the school image. the only fucking reason why i ask people to tuck in their dam shirts to for my dam school's image. eveyrthing i do as a prefect. everything for the fuckng sake of my school's image. cause i dont want it to go down. at any cost.
and god to see this sad shitty state of affairs. the sec threes were never the bumper crop. one of the worst batches ever. there is no doubt about that. i still remember 2004 Prefect camp. Sec 2 Turnout: ONE. 2004 PLTC. Sec 2 Turnout: TWO. 2005 LLTC. Sec 3 Turnout: THREE. wtf. but you know what. i wont judge leadership based on camp turnout. ill base it on attitude. which brings me to my title. Fucked. latecoming. during recess, wrong duty posts. How the fuck can you be at the wrong fucking duty post! late for duties early for recess. and plainly said, no leadership. No initiative. Nothing. just emptiness. pure emptyness. I remember tellign that to zico when i explained to him why he was chosen for EXCO. "Zico. your dam lucky to be in exco. cause when i look at you. i see... nothing"and you know what. when i look at the entire sec three batch i see one thing. "michael da silva". and its so dam sickening how an entire batch can be characterised by a single mind set. as ivan said. our batch had marc oliver. had rishik menon. had ben ow. had theodore khng. hell everyone was unique and had their own skill and persnality that benefitted the board. but their batch is so. single minded.
marc has given up. theodore is frustrated to the point of pulling his hairs out but he too is giving up. im just sad. that we worked so hard to do soemthing and now the board is collapsing. and even sadder that this was the batch assigned to me. i was supposed to take care of them. i was supposed to build them up as a team. and i failed. sigh. disunited losers. i give up. after tomorrow. After tomorrow. I will return for ONE last morning assembly. I will..
sigh. had breakfast at macs with nicholas, jeremy and laurel. went for chem parct. went to study. went for lunch with nicholas. came back to study. walked around the school with joshua fer awhile and wow. and sky was BeaUtiful. sigh. anyways went to serangoon road. deepavali shopping thing. i bought this cool green shirt. ahha. DAM cool. its nepalese i think. haha. and i bought this book too. Teachings of Swami Vivekananda. his writings really inspire me. I remember once as a young 11 year old reading a line from his book. It was about bravery. and i swear. After reading that i could feel the bravery and courage and righteousness build up in me. and it lasted. It lasted for a VERY long time. all from ONE line. wow.
I have decided at all cost to learn the intro for "my heart will go on" haha. its soo nice. ah well..
tomorrow studyin with ben ow at NLB. see how it goes. physics. cant lose out. wesley invited me to sleepover./study marathon at his house with sam and josh. kinda like what i did at josh's house with sam. only we didnt study that much. ahhaha. oh well. maybe next time.
speaking of josh. his birthday is coming soon. 30th october. incidentally thats also nicole mao's birthday. and no she isnt related to benjamin mao, as i had earlier suspected. haha. crap.
i thik mid night conversations are the most meaningful. anyways i gotta sleep now. i got a bad cold by the way. and i refuse to drnik coffee. not good. especially after what happened to me last night. OMG.... coffee is bad. never again. haha. bryan cheang was funny today.
"I had a little trouble sleeping last night"*Insert Trademark Bryan cheang smile Here*. haha. sigh priceless. haha. omg. was dam funny. especially when you think of in contrast to yesterday afternoon . "I dont feel a thing" *Insert Trademark Bryan cheang smile Here*.
oh yeah i think i totally missed out yesterday. haha. too bad. it was day of studying in the heritage room witth jeremy. a day of lots of coffee. a day of lots of chair banging adventures and blah blah blah. yeah. good night. no more coffee for rishik.
geetha is lame.
To me, it has always been about image. Everyhting is about image. people who Know me, know that. Image is important to me. To me that justified the whole existence of the board. the board was there to protect the image of the school. save it. the only dam reason why we try and stop smokers is cause they damage the school image. the only fucking reason why i ask people to tuck in their dam shirts to for my dam school's image. eveyrthing i do as a prefect. everything for the fuckng sake of my school's image. cause i dont want it to go down. at any cost.
and god to see this sad shitty state of affairs. the sec threes were never the bumper crop. one of the worst batches ever. there is no doubt about that. i still remember 2004 Prefect camp. Sec 2 Turnout: ONE. 2004 PLTC. Sec 2 Turnout: TWO. 2005 LLTC. Sec 3 Turnout: THREE. wtf. but you know what. i wont judge leadership based on camp turnout. ill base it on attitude. which brings me to my title. Fucked. latecoming. during recess, wrong duty posts. How the fuck can you be at the wrong fucking duty post! late for duties early for recess. and plainly said, no leadership. No initiative. Nothing. just emptiness. pure emptyness. I remember tellign that to zico when i explained to him why he was chosen for EXCO. "Zico. your dam lucky to be in exco. cause when i look at you. i see... nothing"and you know what. when i look at the entire sec three batch i see one thing. "michael da silva". and its so dam sickening how an entire batch can be characterised by a single mind set. as ivan said. our batch had marc oliver. had rishik menon. had ben ow. had theodore khng. hell everyone was unique and had their own skill and persnality that benefitted the board. but their batch is so. single minded.
marc has given up. theodore is frustrated to the point of pulling his hairs out but he too is giving up. im just sad. that we worked so hard to do soemthing and now the board is collapsing. and even sadder that this was the batch assigned to me. i was supposed to take care of them. i was supposed to build them up as a team. and i failed. sigh. disunited losers. i give up. after tomorrow. After tomorrow. I will return for ONE last morning assembly. I will..
sigh. had breakfast at macs with nicholas, jeremy and laurel. went for chem parct. went to study. went for lunch with nicholas. came back to study. walked around the school with joshua fer awhile and wow. and sky was BeaUtiful. sigh. anyways went to serangoon road. deepavali shopping thing. i bought this cool green shirt. ahha. DAM cool. its nepalese i think. haha. and i bought this book too. Teachings of Swami Vivekananda. his writings really inspire me. I remember once as a young 11 year old reading a line from his book. It was about bravery. and i swear. After reading that i could feel the bravery and courage and righteousness build up in me. and it lasted. It lasted for a VERY long time. all from ONE line. wow.
I have decided at all cost to learn the intro for "my heart will go on" haha. its soo nice. ah well..
tomorrow studyin with ben ow at NLB. see how it goes. physics. cant lose out. wesley invited me to sleepover./study marathon at his house with sam and josh. kinda like what i did at josh's house with sam. only we didnt study that much. ahhaha. oh well. maybe next time.
speaking of josh. his birthday is coming soon. 30th october. incidentally thats also nicole mao's birthday. and no she isnt related to benjamin mao, as i had earlier suspected. haha. crap.
i thik mid night conversations are the most meaningful. anyways i gotta sleep now. i got a bad cold by the way. and i refuse to drnik coffee. not good. especially after what happened to me last night. OMG.... coffee is bad. never again. haha. bryan cheang was funny today.
"I had a little trouble sleeping last night"*Insert Trademark Bryan cheang smile Here*. haha. sigh priceless. haha. omg. was dam funny. especially when you think of in contrast to yesterday afternoon . "I dont feel a thing" *Insert Trademark Bryan cheang smile Here*.
oh yeah i think i totally missed out yesterday. haha. too bad. it was day of studying in the heritage room witth jeremy. a day of lots of coffee. a day of lots of chair banging adventures and blah blah blah. yeah. good night. no more coffee for rishik.
geetha is lame.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
"any song will do. any song"
"be specific. i got alot of songs"
"dashboard? dashboard makes me happy"
haha. yay! sigh. never thought id hear them on my com again. or at least till after my Os. cant resist the pull i guess. sigh.
This is easy as lovers go. haha. man. dashboard in the night. what can be greater? spill canvas! haha. but nvm. im happy with dashboard for now. sighs. im feeling nostalgic. and so is cheyenne. ahha. whatever.
so before this i was studying with zenn and wei jie ( not the 4E2 guy). sigh. i like the night. so magically kickass. yay. sigh.
tomorrow i might go alfred's house. depending. pending indeed.
more on what happened yesterday on my written entry. ONCE my dam scanner gets fixed. haha. not yet. =)
good morning. sleep well, all.
"dashboard? dashboard makes me happy"
haha. yay! sigh. never thought id hear them on my com again. or at least till after my Os. cant resist the pull i guess. sigh.
This is easy as lovers go. haha. man. dashboard in the night. what can be greater? spill canvas! haha. but nvm. im happy with dashboard for now. sighs. im feeling nostalgic. and so is cheyenne. ahha. whatever.
so before this i was studying with zenn and wei jie ( not the 4E2 guy). sigh. i like the night. so magically kickass. yay. sigh.
tomorrow i might go alfred's house. depending. pending indeed.
more on what happened yesterday on my written entry. ONCE my dam scanner gets fixed. haha. not yet. =)
good morning. sleep well, all.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
just too bad for, i guess
yeah. so i wrote out tonight's entry. on pen and paper. planned to scan it, but my computer's being a bitch. so i cant be bothered. ill keep writing my entries on pen and paper, regardless. i have my reasons. dont expect much, lest my scanner starts working. good night, all.
Mood swinging
Hmmm. I have no idea how i fel right now. pissed. sad. or excited. or happy. i know. its a very weird combo.
Yesterday morning and afternoon, there is no doubt that i was happy. high. hyper active. happy. haha. yeah. But then coming home.. and my family and... wow. amazing how things and days can chage by mere comments and remarks.
So this morning i was bent on being as mean and bitchy as possible to everyone. but thtas unfair. and thats crappy. so no. im just going stay the nice guy, i am. haha. and No, its not a bad thing to tell a guy he's a nice guy. unless he's some macho, tetestrone pumped loser.
anyways, today i need to meet nicholas. i need to stay out of the house. cause coming home means cleaning. and coming home means i dont study. so i stay out. at 6 something i meet selvam. and mao. and anyone else who is going for the fashion fiesta. im gonna go there. hang lose. enjoy. im gonna be happy. yeap.
"Rishik! one step at a time." mr chew. i can do that. haha. yeah. ill try. i dunno why. but im letting life overwhelm me. watch out. one day im gonna come and grab life by the horns. watch out. im almost there. remember my name. Rishik Vijay Menon. ill be larger than anything this earth has seen before. Just need to get over this step first.
Yesterday morning and afternoon, there is no doubt that i was happy. high. hyper active. happy. haha. yeah. But then coming home.. and my family and... wow. amazing how things and days can chage by mere comments and remarks.
So this morning i was bent on being as mean and bitchy as possible to everyone. but thtas unfair. and thats crappy. so no. im just going stay the nice guy, i am. haha. and No, its not a bad thing to tell a guy he's a nice guy. unless he's some macho, tetestrone pumped loser.
anyways, today i need to meet nicholas. i need to stay out of the house. cause coming home means cleaning. and coming home means i dont study. so i stay out. at 6 something i meet selvam. and mao. and anyone else who is going for the fashion fiesta. im gonna go there. hang lose. enjoy. im gonna be happy. yeap.
"Rishik! one step at a time." mr chew. i can do that. haha. yeah. ill try. i dunno why. but im letting life overwhelm me. watch out. one day im gonna come and grab life by the horns. watch out. im almost there. remember my name. Rishik Vijay Menon. ill be larger than anything this earth has seen before. Just need to get over this step first.
Friday, October 21, 2005
The mark of a true gentleman
Someone who takes a beating. who gets totally walked over. who gets left out. ignored. forgotten about. played out by his friends. And yet takes it all in his stride. despite everything keeps his cool, and doesnt retalliate at all. That is the mark of a true gentleman. So Selvam, Here's to you. Here's to Selvam! (Wine glasses raised and cheering in the background)
Yesterday's lunch was good just as studying was great. Si chung, jeremy, ben ow, bryan cheang, and michael joo. and pizza hut. fun. studied till late late night.
Today was full of shit. haha. and a little bit of studying. haha. me and ben ow went to the CDC to have lunch with ben ow. and i was getting daaam lame. from the bus pass joke, to the "two halfs is ONE", and so on and so forth. i was emitting of lame jokes and comments, and i have no idea how ben ow coudl stand me. or wait. he was the cause of it! haha. sigh. from havinf lunch with ying, ben and marc (Surprise me! and footsy! hahaha.) to the rest of the day. total crap. sigh. enjoyed the company. enjoyed the music. enjoyed the various Mp3 players. and the coffee. sigh. but oh at the expense of having a great time, hardly any studying was done.
Drown our sorrows in sour power. ahahah. sigh. at the end of the day it was just me and theodore left in the heritage room. then he had to leave for VJC for his sister's colour awards thingy a dn it was just me. all alone. sigh. i stayed there for half an hour more. and then i gave up. packed up and made my way to the office to inform miss chua about the room.
went home to meet madhan. anna's friend. he was nice. had dinner with him and stuff. yeah. sigh. dont feel like talking about a certain something right now. cause its not nice. sigh. forgive and forget i guess.
You can really tell alot of people by the first quetsions they ask you, when you meet. "do you watch soccer/ what team do you support". "what school do you go to/ what subjects do yo take". "Whar kind of music you listen to/ do you play any instruments". yeah. the first questions always say alot.
tomorrow. hopefully study with nicholas gn, and then meet selvam and go for fashion fiesta thing. yeah. hmmm. have alot on my mind, but i dont like writing pissed off or sad posts. people comment and tag too much. not worth my time.
=) so thats all for tonight. ciao.
Yesterday's lunch was good just as studying was great. Si chung, jeremy, ben ow, bryan cheang, and michael joo. and pizza hut. fun. studied till late late night.
Today was full of shit. haha. and a little bit of studying. haha. me and ben ow went to the CDC to have lunch with ben ow. and i was getting daaam lame. from the bus pass joke, to the "two halfs is ONE", and so on and so forth. i was emitting of lame jokes and comments, and i have no idea how ben ow coudl stand me. or wait. he was the cause of it! haha. sigh. from havinf lunch with ying, ben and marc (Surprise me! and footsy! hahaha.) to the rest of the day. total crap. sigh. enjoyed the company. enjoyed the music. enjoyed the various Mp3 players. and the coffee. sigh. but oh at the expense of having a great time, hardly any studying was done.
Drown our sorrows in sour power. ahahah. sigh. at the end of the day it was just me and theodore left in the heritage room. then he had to leave for VJC for his sister's colour awards thingy a dn it was just me. all alone. sigh. i stayed there for half an hour more. and then i gave up. packed up and made my way to the office to inform miss chua about the room.
went home to meet madhan. anna's friend. he was nice. had dinner with him and stuff. yeah. sigh. dont feel like talking about a certain something right now. cause its not nice. sigh. forgive and forget i guess.
You can really tell alot of people by the first quetsions they ask you, when you meet. "do you watch soccer/ what team do you support". "what school do you go to/ what subjects do yo take". "Whar kind of music you listen to/ do you play any instruments". yeah. the first questions always say alot.
tomorrow. hopefully study with nicholas gn, and then meet selvam and go for fashion fiesta thing. yeah. hmmm. have alot on my mind, but i dont like writing pissed off or sad posts. people comment and tag too much. not worth my time.
=) so thats all for tonight. ciao.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
In reference to today
let history note that today, was the first day of 2005, rishik left his house in something that was higher than his knees. okay. haha.
sweet. that was my phrase. since when did selvam start using it? haha. whatever. anyway, the Penultimate Peril, by Lemony Sniket is now out! haha. not in singapore of course. the last book before the last book. haha. this is gonna be sweet. or unfortunate. perhaps. haha.
Mr gill is a funny teacher. VERY funny. and friednly too. especially these days. Today, yesterday, last friday so on so forth. whatever. i need to complete a SS paper tomorrow. I NEED to know where i keep going wrong. like mrs leslie said. Its especially an embarassment for me, to not get a distinction. sigh. I really must show her. I NEED to prove it to her. to myself. to everyone. That i CAN get my 7 distinctions. I MUST. sigh. so hard. so pressing. a week and a half passed and still i relax.
Today woke up late, and left ben ow in the lurch. haha. peter's parents drove me to the MRT which was sweet of them. studied the whole day with benow. from morning to night. at the school library. lunch time went to pester mrs leslie to bring us to roxy. haha. fun. sigh. sadly i only accomplised a ultra minute fraction of history and chem. which doesnt really need much more practise. sigh. tomorrow, ill work on my humanes and dear old physics. PLEASE physics, please... gimme my A1. i need it so desperately. sigh. time is all thats against me.
and yet i still insist on attending the fashion fiesta. haha. wtf man. hope benow can come. its all down to his dad. mao and alfred SHOULD be going. well i have no doubt abut mao, actually. so yeahs. its one night off. sigh. so much for deepavali. haha. no way man. cant afford to lose anymore nights or days. i mean i doubt vicnan'nna did. why should i?
got a random call today, from my friend's friend's mom. regarding my cut. haha. talk about news spreading fast. anyway her daughter too apparently got cut. and she asked me to go for a tetanus check up. when i told my mom, my mom said "oh yah ah! why didnt I think of that!" haha. so cute. sigh. alot of tecahers know about it too. mr young, mr lak, mr chew, mr gill. sigh. he asked me to buy flowers for the practical invidgilator who apparently caught me. i think i will. yeap. haha.
so thats all for now. ill be off. might sleep early. depending on how thigns go.
sweet. that was my phrase. since when did selvam start using it? haha. whatever. anyway, the Penultimate Peril, by Lemony Sniket is now out! haha. not in singapore of course. the last book before the last book. haha. this is gonna be sweet. or unfortunate. perhaps. haha.
Mr gill is a funny teacher. VERY funny. and friednly too. especially these days. Today, yesterday, last friday so on so forth. whatever. i need to complete a SS paper tomorrow. I NEED to know where i keep going wrong. like mrs leslie said. Its especially an embarassment for me, to not get a distinction. sigh. I really must show her. I NEED to prove it to her. to myself. to everyone. That i CAN get my 7 distinctions. I MUST. sigh. so hard. so pressing. a week and a half passed and still i relax.
Today woke up late, and left ben ow in the lurch. haha. peter's parents drove me to the MRT which was sweet of them. studied the whole day with benow. from morning to night. at the school library. lunch time went to pester mrs leslie to bring us to roxy. haha. fun. sigh. sadly i only accomplised a ultra minute fraction of history and chem. which doesnt really need much more practise. sigh. tomorrow, ill work on my humanes and dear old physics. PLEASE physics, please... gimme my A1. i need it so desperately. sigh. time is all thats against me.
and yet i still insist on attending the fashion fiesta. haha. wtf man. hope benow can come. its all down to his dad. mao and alfred SHOULD be going. well i have no doubt abut mao, actually. so yeahs. its one night off. sigh. so much for deepavali. haha. no way man. cant afford to lose anymore nights or days. i mean i doubt vicnan'nna did. why should i?
got a random call today, from my friend's friend's mom. regarding my cut. haha. talk about news spreading fast. anyway her daughter too apparently got cut. and she asked me to go for a tetanus check up. when i told my mom, my mom said "oh yah ah! why didnt I think of that!" haha. so cute. sigh. alot of tecahers know about it too. mr young, mr lak, mr chew, mr gill. sigh. he asked me to buy flowers for the practical invidgilator who apparently caught me. i think i will. yeap. haha.
so thats all for now. ill be off. might sleep early. depending on how thigns go.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Who loves the rain
Or should I ask, who doesnt? yeah. no doubt in my mind, the rain is the most refreshing thing there is. a new start. a new beginning. what better way than with the rain? rejuventaing, i would say.
haha. In a recent post not many days ago, i admitted to having a weak stomach. how i hated animal disection and stuff. while we are on the topic of my weaknesses, might as well as add, i faint on cutting. which was what happened today during my O level practical Bio exams. Both the cutting and the fainting part. heh.
was a deep cut. but i didnt look twice the first time. just cursed under my breath, sucked it, as i made my way to the sink to wash it. didnt help much. blood just kept flowing. asked for a plaster and carried on with my work, leaving my hand elevated to the right side of my body, to keep it out of my work. i could slowly feel my hand get weaker and weaker, and i just stood there waitng for the plaster to come. when it finally came, i turned to my right, and got a shock. my WHOLE hand, save the tip of my little and ring finger, was red. I swear! it was dripping and covered in blood. brrr. there was even a small puddle of blood on the floor. Omg... felt weaker and weaker by the second. i had fainted enough times in my life, to know what was coming next. shit.
There is no way of guessing what cause me to faint. the sight of blood or the massive loss of it. cause it coudl easily have been bought. lets just call it a bad combo. heh.
god. thank those lab technicians. thank those teachers. thank everyone who supported me when i needed their support. Literally speaking too. if she didnt come and catch me, who knows what might have happened. sigh. so for that, i thank god. hmmm.
rules were put there to protect humanity. save our dignity. save our sense of decency. but what happens when at the expense of using these rules, our humanity goes away?
Every morning on the train, i get so pissed off when people try to barge through, without letting the passengers alight. Or most of the time. Thus every morning, i take sick, guilt free pleasure in shouldering and shoving people who insist on standing in my way out. But this morning, in my quest; in my never ending struggle and fight for what is right; for unholding what is my right; my right of way. At the expense of holding true to a rule, which was meant to make us all more courteous citizens and more civilised. In that rash moment of righteosness, I walked straight and banged hard the shoulder of this old man. in that rush i walked straight down the escallator, without looking back or thinking twice. but i did think. and my consiounce ate me alive. at the realisation of what i had just done. At the expense of keeping a rule meant to encourage decency I lost my own decency. i destroyed my own morality, and was wrecked with guilt thinking of it, for the rest of the day. sigh. The tragic ironies of life.
Karmic almost. the way i insentively caused hurt to one's life and was punished for it almost immediatelt after. heh. sweet. everything has a reason doesn't it? you just got to sit back and reflect. haha.
Listening to Dance Dance by Fall out boy on AOLmusic. yay. after this, ill be on my way. gonna study chem! Yeah! haha.
haha. In a recent post not many days ago, i admitted to having a weak stomach. how i hated animal disection and stuff. while we are on the topic of my weaknesses, might as well as add, i faint on cutting. which was what happened today during my O level practical Bio exams. Both the cutting and the fainting part. heh.
was a deep cut. but i didnt look twice the first time. just cursed under my breath, sucked it, as i made my way to the sink to wash it. didnt help much. blood just kept flowing. asked for a plaster and carried on with my work, leaving my hand elevated to the right side of my body, to keep it out of my work. i could slowly feel my hand get weaker and weaker, and i just stood there waitng for the plaster to come. when it finally came, i turned to my right, and got a shock. my WHOLE hand, save the tip of my little and ring finger, was red. I swear! it was dripping and covered in blood. brrr. there was even a small puddle of blood on the floor. Omg... felt weaker and weaker by the second. i had fainted enough times in my life, to know what was coming next. shit.
There is no way of guessing what cause me to faint. the sight of blood or the massive loss of it. cause it coudl easily have been bought. lets just call it a bad combo. heh.
god. thank those lab technicians. thank those teachers. thank everyone who supported me when i needed their support. Literally speaking too. if she didnt come and catch me, who knows what might have happened. sigh. so for that, i thank god. hmmm.
rules were put there to protect humanity. save our dignity. save our sense of decency. but what happens when at the expense of using these rules, our humanity goes away?
Every morning on the train, i get so pissed off when people try to barge through, without letting the passengers alight. Or most of the time. Thus every morning, i take sick, guilt free pleasure in shouldering and shoving people who insist on standing in my way out. But this morning, in my quest; in my never ending struggle and fight for what is right; for unholding what is my right; my right of way. At the expense of holding true to a rule, which was meant to make us all more courteous citizens and more civilised. In that rash moment of righteosness, I walked straight and banged hard the shoulder of this old man. in that rush i walked straight down the escallator, without looking back or thinking twice. but i did think. and my consiounce ate me alive. at the realisation of what i had just done. At the expense of keeping a rule meant to encourage decency I lost my own decency. i destroyed my own morality, and was wrecked with guilt thinking of it, for the rest of the day. sigh. The tragic ironies of life.
Karmic almost. the way i insentively caused hurt to one's life and was punished for it almost immediatelt after. heh. sweet. everything has a reason doesn't it? you just got to sit back and reflect. haha.
Listening to Dance Dance by Fall out boy on AOLmusic. yay. after this, ill be on my way. gonna study chem! Yeah! haha.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
The most pissing off thing i have heard today
What the fuck is wrong with this world!?? ARGHH
Allow me to start this rant bys ayign this. I am a Singaporean. I am proud of my city, and love it to no end. This is my home, where we share common values, beleives and even a heartbeat(so to speak). I might at time doubt its economic continuity, but it doesnt change the fact that I would die for our culture, our town, our way of life, which is unique from the rest of the world.
And i suppose i take for granted certain things about singapore. like how we are cosmopolitan, and treat all races and religions equally. And it is only when i watch FOX news, do i realise the stupidity of the rest of the world, and how great it is we in singapore pragmatic, and smart. A striking contrast to that news reporter. idiot.
So the story was about this florida school that decided to ban all religious holidays to be fair for all religions. And the news reporter was going on and on about tradition, and how jewish and christian holidays should be celebrated, and how USA is a jewish and christian country, and there is no denying it, and that the only reason why the school is doing this is because the school were too gutless to say no to muslims when they requested a holiday. wtf! and the florida correspondent was literally debating with this thick headed cunt that USA was NOT a jewish and christian country, and that what the school was doing was right. sigh. Its in the dam constituition. all religions should be treated equally. loser. wtf. he dares talk about tradition. No doubt he has conveniently forgotten america belonged to the native indians and were far from a christian/jewish country. it was a native american country, that respected the earth peacefully, and lived off teh land. far from what it is today. a hyper capitalist, oil consuming, war-vaging, nation that is run by a certain few uber-nationalistic bums.
all in all, sickening. how culturally insensitive these new reporters were. and all it did was make me thank god, that i live in singapore.
okay. so im alone at home again. not surprising. i had to clean the house and do everything myself. pffft. all for a malay couple who came to veiw the house. they seemed nice. thats all.
Allow me to start this rant bys ayign this. I am a Singaporean. I am proud of my city, and love it to no end. This is my home, where we share common values, beleives and even a heartbeat(so to speak). I might at time doubt its economic continuity, but it doesnt change the fact that I would die for our culture, our town, our way of life, which is unique from the rest of the world.
And i suppose i take for granted certain things about singapore. like how we are cosmopolitan, and treat all races and religions equally. And it is only when i watch FOX news, do i realise the stupidity of the rest of the world, and how great it is we in singapore pragmatic, and smart. A striking contrast to that news reporter. idiot.
So the story was about this florida school that decided to ban all religious holidays to be fair for all religions. And the news reporter was going on and on about tradition, and how jewish and christian holidays should be celebrated, and how USA is a jewish and christian country, and there is no denying it, and that the only reason why the school is doing this is because the school were too gutless to say no to muslims when they requested a holiday. wtf! and the florida correspondent was literally debating with this thick headed cunt that USA was NOT a jewish and christian country, and that what the school was doing was right. sigh. Its in the dam constituition. all religions should be treated equally. loser. wtf. he dares talk about tradition. No doubt he has conveniently forgotten america belonged to the native indians and were far from a christian/jewish country. it was a native american country, that respected the earth peacefully, and lived off teh land. far from what it is today. a hyper capitalist, oil consuming, war-vaging, nation that is run by a certain few uber-nationalistic bums.
all in all, sickening. how culturally insensitive these new reporters were. and all it did was make me thank god, that i live in singapore.
okay. so im alone at home again. not surprising. i had to clean the house and do everything myself. pffft. all for a malay couple who came to veiw the house. they seemed nice. thats all.
The rain pours down as i boil some water
Yeah. im gonna make me some hot coffee with marshmellows, and sip it as i listen to the radio. sigh. The radio. s' long since i last turned you on. or at least the FM function. yeaps
So i realised... i have 5 half-completed songs. so... i shall complete them all. Today. yeah. ahh. or maybe merge some of them together. sweet. brb. pot's whistling.
Nicholas Patrick from 5N's aunt has visited my blog. o_0... now that's wavering between scarry and strange and soem what ego-boosting at the same time. haha. like marc and ben ow said. "with rishik its all about pride. and emotion" well pride is an emotion. almost. hmmmm. marshmellos tatse great in white coffe by the way. mmmm....
Th truth of my youth by new found glory is stuck in my head. i love the chorus so much, i decided to redo my blog skin based on it. and seeing as how my whole family has gone over to my aunty's house to buy healing magnets (dont ask me. i dont really know myself) I have decided to turn up the volume and sing along with it. yeah.
"These are the liiies! The things you never mention. These are my paaaast. Mistakes i'll stay away from!......
(retartendos here)
these are my thoughts written down on Paper.
Its my only saviour,
from not saying, what i wanna say.
these are the thoughts that are on my mind
Moments that havent yet been defined,
And i dont know if
you could ever understand...
These are the things I cant say, when we are alone!"
These are the things i cant say when we are alone! haha. sigh. whata great band. but in all ts greatness, it still cant beat dashboard confessional as my favourite band. yeap. if you consider him a band that is. which i do. so there! wanna make anythign out of it?
I realise my style of writing is extremely sucky on this blog. any outsider who reads this will have abosolutely no idea what the hell i am jabebring on about, unless they are me. yeah. its simply too filled with insider jokes, inuendos, and teasings.
I found this on my chem textbook. its in my handwriting but i got no idea WHEN i wrote it. "Dont' you see, what falls on the floor. It takes you away, my calls you ignore"... No If you think that is weird, read this. In my sketchbook, somewhere in the middle. have totally NO recollection whatsoever writing this down or even what it means, or says. weird. it goes like this.
"my girlfriend says you want him
and i dont know what to think.
I always beleived it woudl work out somehow,
guess not the way you dreamed."
This is werid for many reasons. Its in MY handwriting. I dont have a girlfriend. If i did, what do i refer to her as a "him"? has my english gotten that bad?
brrr. weirdness. the downside of writing prose when your in a half consious state. chem class and 2 am in the morning. yeah.
Ipoh white coffee. heaven in a mug. haha. the rain has been pouring since morning. its lovely. and the moon last night was BRIGHT. really bright. yeah. sweet. i miss fishing. not so much the killing fish part, but more of the sitting on the bridge part. in the middle of the night. feeling the overwhelming cold and poweful wind hug you as you cast you line. the night. the sea. the magic. sigh. but time is a factor. and days count down. soon, it will all be over. I WILL get my 7 distinctions, i WILL get 7 points for my L1R5, and i WILL get into VJC.
Sigh. "Its my only saviour, from not saying. what i wanna say"
Bye. I'll be back. because things arnt final, see. they never are. Especially if your like me and beleive in re-incarnation. haha.
So i realised... i have 5 half-completed songs. so... i shall complete them all. Today. yeah. ahh. or maybe merge some of them together. sweet. brb. pot's whistling.
Nicholas Patrick from 5N's aunt has visited my blog. o_0... now that's wavering between scarry and strange and soem what ego-boosting at the same time. haha. like marc and ben ow said. "with rishik its all about pride. and emotion" well pride is an emotion. almost. hmmmm. marshmellos tatse great in white coffe by the way. mmmm....
Th truth of my youth by new found glory is stuck in my head. i love the chorus so much, i decided to redo my blog skin based on it. and seeing as how my whole family has gone over to my aunty's house to buy healing magnets (dont ask me. i dont really know myself) I have decided to turn up the volume and sing along with it. yeah.
"These are the liiies! The things you never mention. These are my paaaast. Mistakes i'll stay away from!......
(retartendos here)
these are my thoughts written down on Paper.
Its my only saviour,
from not saying, what i wanna say.
these are the thoughts that are on my mind
Moments that havent yet been defined,
And i dont know if
you could ever understand...
These are the things I cant say, when we are alone!"
These are the things i cant say when we are alone! haha. sigh. whata great band. but in all ts greatness, it still cant beat dashboard confessional as my favourite band. yeap. if you consider him a band that is. which i do. so there! wanna make anythign out of it?
I realise my style of writing is extremely sucky on this blog. any outsider who reads this will have abosolutely no idea what the hell i am jabebring on about, unless they are me. yeah. its simply too filled with insider jokes, inuendos, and teasings.
I found this on my chem textbook. its in my handwriting but i got no idea WHEN i wrote it. "Dont' you see, what falls on the floor. It takes you away, my calls you ignore"... No If you think that is weird, read this. In my sketchbook, somewhere in the middle. have totally NO recollection whatsoever writing this down or even what it means, or says. weird. it goes like this.
"my girlfriend says you want him
and i dont know what to think.
I always beleived it woudl work out somehow,
guess not the way you dreamed."
This is werid for many reasons. Its in MY handwriting. I dont have a girlfriend. If i did, what do i refer to her as a "him"? has my english gotten that bad?
brrr. weirdness. the downside of writing prose when your in a half consious state. chem class and 2 am in the morning. yeah.
Ipoh white coffee. heaven in a mug. haha. the rain has been pouring since morning. its lovely. and the moon last night was BRIGHT. really bright. yeah. sweet. i miss fishing. not so much the killing fish part, but more of the sitting on the bridge part. in the middle of the night. feeling the overwhelming cold and poweful wind hug you as you cast you line. the night. the sea. the magic. sigh. but time is a factor. and days count down. soon, it will all be over. I WILL get my 7 distinctions, i WILL get 7 points for my L1R5, and i WILL get into VJC.
Sigh. "Its my only saviour, from not saying. what i wanna say"
Bye. I'll be back. because things arnt final, see. they never are. Especially if your like me and beleive in re-incarnation. haha.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
dont wanna come home
" so you know me. lying on my bed. listenign to the used. you know who they are right? yeah their this band. so there i was. half asleep. thinking about life. on the verge of knocking off. when all of a sudden, my sister enters my room! 'Ohkay..' i thought for awhile 'whats up?'. she looked at me in this prettys erious way. 'quickly wake up!' i could see she was holding something in her hand, but I coulndt make out what it was. 'why? whats happening?...' she turned on the lights and i crawled out of my sheets. i could now see she was holding a pack of cards 'All night... I was practising this magic trick. now im gonna try it on you. pick a card' "
"haha. your sister is cool." marc commented later on.
sigh. what great friends i have. sigh. morning met ben mao and michael joo. was later joined by alfred, marc, dominic and nadia. met michelle and afzal at the openhouses too. and oooh! TSD is sooo tempting. which is why i MUST study. hahah. but what de wei said is true. "it would be a waste to lose my chemistry" especially considering i have already started reading up on A level chem textbooks. pffft.
So SAJC was a failure. screw it. CJC here i come for first three months. haha. my parents are really dead set on me going MJ. but whatever. i pick my friends over you. ahah. speaking of new found glory, their album catalyst rocks. heh. sadly hardly had a chance to listen to them today. friends. sigh. woudl have been plain rude. almost as if to say "my music is cooler than any converstaion you could possibly come up with"
so after SA, mao, marc, nadia, de wei and I went to cine to catch the skeleton key. was cool. enjoyed it. and omg! marc was so funny. sigh. oh and the CLB thing. ahha. classic. was dam cute.
i hate running errands with you guys. i hate being dragged around to do your shit. i justw anna study. god. so dam annoying. sigh. i already let loose all my anger on a few other people to im not so pissed now. but whatevr. thanks guys.
CJC! yeah! haha.
By the way. i wont be going on MSN anymore. heh.
"haha. your sister is cool." marc commented later on.
sigh. what great friends i have. sigh. morning met ben mao and michael joo. was later joined by alfred, marc, dominic and nadia. met michelle and afzal at the openhouses too. and oooh! TSD is sooo tempting. which is why i MUST study. hahah. but what de wei said is true. "it would be a waste to lose my chemistry" especially considering i have already started reading up on A level chem textbooks. pffft.
So SAJC was a failure. screw it. CJC here i come for first three months. haha. my parents are really dead set on me going MJ. but whatever. i pick my friends over you. ahah. speaking of new found glory, their album catalyst rocks. heh. sadly hardly had a chance to listen to them today. friends. sigh. woudl have been plain rude. almost as if to say "my music is cooler than any converstaion you could possibly come up with"
so after SA, mao, marc, nadia, de wei and I went to cine to catch the skeleton key. was cool. enjoyed it. and omg! marc was so funny. sigh. oh and the CLB thing. ahha. classic. was dam cute.
i hate running errands with you guys. i hate being dragged around to do your shit. i justw anna study. god. so dam annoying. sigh. i already let loose all my anger on a few other people to im not so pissed now. but whatevr. thanks guys.
CJC! yeah! haha.
By the way. i wont be going on MSN anymore. heh.
Friday, October 14, 2005
A story of crow riders, flag raisers and copper II sulphate
the lats day of school. how sweet, and sad. couldnt have been a better way to end. me and joseph raised the flag. damien did parade comanding. mr young gave a speech and we all clapped. mr lak came to class during chem and gave us our report cards. my 'a' level chem answer was rejected by miss teng.. haha. sigh. such a smiley, happy way to end school. and the promise by mr lak that we can come back and study. sweet.
brb. gonna watch suria now.
ooh. nadia and friends were on suria. haha. how cool was that. regarding the south east fashion fiets thingy. and i remember the guy's name! MORGAN! haha. yeah! so cool. nvm....
so after school i followe nicholas gn and bryan C to have lunch, by i left that half way to cut my hair. half way through, ben ow mao dominic alfred justin and michael joo saw me and said they would wiat for me at KFC. haha. one i did finish my hair cut i met them. not as KFC though. haha. anyways. i went with them to the TJC open house instead. the open house was fun. saw some cute girls. or 'A' cute girl to be precise. haha. got to play with copper two sulphate and spoke to the liteature teacher there. she was pretty encouraging. haha. wow. met chery and shuiling. haha. and yes i HAVE matured. you would think, huh? did alot of fun stufff. sit on the floor. talk alot of shit. play soccer. climb the obstacle course. whatnot. sigh. was just fun. at the end i took a bus back to school with michael, ben ow, and alfred. sigh. all because i suddenly realised i didnt lower the flag.
Geetha says hi. weirdo. haha.
bloody hell. the falg was lowered when i got there. the cleaners or securuty gueards must have doen it. so i took a bus home and then went to TM to have dinner with amma, perimma and karika'kka. came home and realised once again everything was deleted. i give up. no more online music for rishik. sigh. i cant fight this war. ill just buy my Cds and stay in my room. so less MSNing for rishik. less everything save books and piano. maybe teh occasional blog entry and guitar. hmmm.
L1R4.....7
L1R5.....13
man. if only they moderate that 74% in english to 75%. sigh. i could get 12. maybe with my A1 for CCA i can get 10... maybe i can by fluke get into TJ or AJ... maybe even VJ... but ill never know. cause 11 is just too little too late. sigh. crappy. time to do things the nicholas gn way. complain.
Quote from jasvir the Dang singh. "Its gotta be 90% studying and 10% thinking of her, see" haha. wow. you rock bro.
tomorrow morning meeting alfred and ben mao at macs. going VJ openhouse and then SAJC open house. yeap. see how this thing goes. haha. yeah. sigh.
the week ahead. 8-12am study in school. 12-2 relax. 2-6 study in school. go home. blog, if i have to. play music. go to room. read/play piano.play guitar. sleep.
brb. gonna watch suria now.
ooh. nadia and friends were on suria. haha. how cool was that. regarding the south east fashion fiets thingy. and i remember the guy's name! MORGAN! haha. yeah! so cool. nvm....
so after school i followe nicholas gn and bryan C to have lunch, by i left that half way to cut my hair. half way through, ben ow mao dominic alfred justin and michael joo saw me and said they would wiat for me at KFC. haha. one i did finish my hair cut i met them. not as KFC though. haha. anyways. i went with them to the TJC open house instead. the open house was fun. saw some cute girls. or 'A' cute girl to be precise. haha. got to play with copper two sulphate and spoke to the liteature teacher there. she was pretty encouraging. haha. wow. met chery and shuiling. haha. and yes i HAVE matured. you would think, huh? did alot of fun stufff. sit on the floor. talk alot of shit. play soccer. climb the obstacle course. whatnot. sigh. was just fun. at the end i took a bus back to school with michael, ben ow, and alfred. sigh. all because i suddenly realised i didnt lower the flag.
Geetha says hi. weirdo. haha.
bloody hell. the falg was lowered when i got there. the cleaners or securuty gueards must have doen it. so i took a bus home and then went to TM to have dinner with amma, perimma and karika'kka. came home and realised once again everything was deleted. i give up. no more online music for rishik. sigh. i cant fight this war. ill just buy my Cds and stay in my room. so less MSNing for rishik. less everything save books and piano. maybe teh occasional blog entry and guitar. hmmm.
L1R4.....7
L1R5.....13
man. if only they moderate that 74% in english to 75%. sigh. i could get 12. maybe with my A1 for CCA i can get 10... maybe i can by fluke get into TJ or AJ... maybe even VJ... but ill never know. cause 11 is just too little too late. sigh. crappy. time to do things the nicholas gn way. complain.
Quote from jasvir the Dang singh. "Its gotta be 90% studying and 10% thinking of her, see" haha. wow. you rock bro.
tomorrow morning meeting alfred and ben mao at macs. going VJ openhouse and then SAJC open house. yeap. see how this thing goes. haha. yeah. sigh.
the week ahead. 8-12am study in school. 12-2 relax. 2-6 study in school. go home. blog, if i have to. play music. go to room. read/play piano.play guitar. sleep.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
I dont believe its not butter
yay. yesteray night was fun. haha. Sam, Josh and I were studying abit. and playing abit. ahha. fun. for sure. minus the smell of cat and dog. haha. this morning awoke and didnt so any more work at his house. ahha. instead we played chess, checkers and i tried to play on his 5 string guitar. haha. fun. yeahs. shared a cab with sam to MP L, where i met up with nadia, de wei and ow and mao. did work. went to SE CDC, where i did more work at the meeting room which said "NO STUDYING IN THE MEETING ROOM" haha. marc ying and all were there getting busy for the SFW. wow. amazing. and there i was slacking. met...... that model guy, whose name i just forgot. shit. hahaha. wow. and i JUST met him. heheh. nvm, im sure ill meet him again soon. he's heading the SFW thingy anyway. and for Marc's sake i shall go. hahah. yess..
took train home and my dad lovingly drove me home. sigh. think ive gotta fever.
alots on my mind. thank you AOL.. sigh. tomorrow, il be goign to school and TJC openhouse. see ya'll. haha. yeaps. fortcanning park is soo dreamy. and i feel... =\ yeap. thats just how i feel. =\
bleah
took train home and my dad lovingly drove me home. sigh. think ive gotta fever.
alots on my mind. thank you AOL.. sigh. tomorrow, il be goign to school and TJC openhouse. see ya'll. haha. yeaps. fortcanning park is soo dreamy. and i feel... =\ yeap. thats just how i feel. =\
bleah
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Which one of us will burn untilt he end.
sigh.
Monday: went to study with Josh, jeanette, nicole and liana. At Starbucks and haegan daas. Jeanette is funny. and i owe josh money. sigh, thanks bro. was soem goood studying.
Tuesday: woke up late. thank god kyle was there. i feel dam bad, for making him wait. sigh. anyways, school was a waste of time. was spent chattign with jeremy, ben ow and other people. after school was supposed to meet priya. instead, went to KFC with mao, ow, alfred, michael joo and... yeah. thats it. and I for the first time this year ate KFC chicken. once again borrowed money from mao. so now i owe both mao and josh cash. heh. after that wen to MP library where we met ying, selvam, michelle, nadia and yeah. a kid tried to pick a figh with me. weirdo. short pants manjusri kid. and i learnt im taller than ying! yay! hahaha. went parkway. deepvali clothes shopping. fell in love with billabong jeans and bought two S & K t shirts. haha.
Wednesday: had eveyr intention of going out with selvam. but whatever. went to HMV to buyt the used and new found glory's album. tehn watched corpse bride with geetha. then went to istana park and fort canning park. was SOOO beautiful. i swear. i must descibe it in more detail, but i gtg have dinner now. and after that im going to joshua's house to study/sleep over. byes!
Monday: went to study with Josh, jeanette, nicole and liana. At Starbucks and haegan daas. Jeanette is funny. and i owe josh money. sigh, thanks bro. was soem goood studying.
Tuesday: woke up late. thank god kyle was there. i feel dam bad, for making him wait. sigh. anyways, school was a waste of time. was spent chattign with jeremy, ben ow and other people. after school was supposed to meet priya. instead, went to KFC with mao, ow, alfred, michael joo and... yeah. thats it. and I for the first time this year ate KFC chicken. once again borrowed money from mao. so now i owe both mao and josh cash. heh. after that wen to MP library where we met ying, selvam, michelle, nadia and yeah. a kid tried to pick a figh with me. weirdo. short pants manjusri kid. and i learnt im taller than ying! yay! hahaha. went parkway. deepvali clothes shopping. fell in love with billabong jeans and bought two S & K t shirts. haha.
Wednesday: had eveyr intention of going out with selvam. but whatever. went to HMV to buyt the used and new found glory's album. tehn watched corpse bride with geetha. then went to istana park and fort canning park. was SOOO beautiful. i swear. i must descibe it in more detail, but i gtg have dinner now. and after that im going to joshua's house to study/sleep over. byes!
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Monday, October 10, 2005
Your the only one that i could live for.
Haha. over influence from alfred and ben mao has got "one way" stuck in my heart. sigh. not that its a bad song or anything. haha. And at the same time Im also humming "Sharp new hint of tears" by dashboard.
So here we go. My first tabs. haha. pleae tell me what you think. try and let it ring out. and let the fast parts be played fast.
Bass tuning. If you cant seem the numbers i wrote it goes like this. 3-3 0-0 2 2-2 0-0 0 0-0 3-3 0 3 2 0 3-3 0-0 2 2-2 0-0 0 0-0 3-3 0 3 2 0 3 3 222/5/3 0 0 3 3 2 0 3 3 222/5/3 0 33 2 0 3 3 223 31 1 3320-3320 3 ....
you know what. this looks pretty sucky. maybe ill re-write it later. and post it again so its clearer. sigh. haha. anyway its called passing trains. i wrote a song to it too. but i got to go now. going to jeanette's house to study with her and joshua.
yesterday's studying with them was good. as in REAL good studying. yeap. and if you havent figured by now i skipped school. ahha.so i think im gonna be late. oh well. bye. take care.
Ah. thats better.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
wheee!
| In a Past Life... |
 Where You Lived: Iran. How You Died: Natural causes. |
Who Were You In a Past Life?
hah. not bad. i wont be surprised too.
| Your Blog Should Be Purple |
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What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?
personally i like green and black. lets keep that for now.
| You Are an Emo Rocker! |
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What Kind of Rocker Are You?
No surprise here. haha. sweet.
tThank god for friendss
sigh. i never had any idea how many songs i has sent josh until today, when he sent them all back to me. wow. amazing. now THIS is what i call karma. Truly "you get the music you give". haha. Talk about play on words. wow. haha. i love my friends.
sigh. i might be able to stomach human execuitions without flinching and enjoy slasher movies. But today i confirmed something. i got a weak stomach for dead animals. like how i skipped school for the bio disection of the rat. and how sick i felt watching the pro-vegetarian movies of poor animal treatment. and today looking at the butcher as blood dripped form his fingers as he chopped up the chicken. still feel sick. sigh. its a sign of weakness maybe. but hey... dont we all have our own weaknesses?
sigh... didnt really resolve the fight. but hey. i guess that how things work out. later today ill be studying with josh and jeanette and maybe more peeps at MP library. not bad. i need to study anyways. and its kinda official that rishik cant study at home. Si chung is photocopying the stuff for history. he's a great guy. need to remember to do my history homework later.
thinking about last friday. playing the bass for "that thing you do" was fun. especially when mao complimented me that mine was the clearest most obvious sound. haha. felt nice. of course he could just be saying that. singinf grand theft autumn with jonny bao as we were cleaning up. haha. sigh. the night. the music. the pool. the company. nothing could be nicer.
and knowing that i made marc feel the most uncomfortable he had ever felt possibly in his life, during truth or dare. haha. not that i meant in to happen. marc's a great guy. =)
"ill let my marks and god decide where i shoudl go for the first three months. the Os aint over yet". "true. haha." bryan C and myself. sigh. he is one motivated buggar. so unlike myself.
CJC is coming up while SAJC is going down. torn between options and choices. distance and friendships. oh well. see how this thing brings me.
I will give up m seat for old people. haha. so dont bother asking me. incidentally andrew form EPPS saw me on the train. apparently i was sitting next to him. NEXT TO HIM! and i didnt notice. he said he saw me. and to double check asked if i was the guy who gave up my seat to that old man at simei. haha. yeahs.. intresting. im losing touch with my old classmates.
what is fat. what is large scale. what is hot. i ask alot of questions which people dont like to answer. anyways ill leave now. feeling better. still kinda sick. still kinda uncertain. but life is life. this is what god gave me, and this is what ill live out.
god bless. good ngith.
sigh. i might be able to stomach human execuitions without flinching and enjoy slasher movies. But today i confirmed something. i got a weak stomach for dead animals. like how i skipped school for the bio disection of the rat. and how sick i felt watching the pro-vegetarian movies of poor animal treatment. and today looking at the butcher as blood dripped form his fingers as he chopped up the chicken. still feel sick. sigh. its a sign of weakness maybe. but hey... dont we all have our own weaknesses?
sigh... didnt really resolve the fight. but hey. i guess that how things work out. later today ill be studying with josh and jeanette and maybe more peeps at MP library. not bad. i need to study anyways. and its kinda official that rishik cant study at home. Si chung is photocopying the stuff for history. he's a great guy. need to remember to do my history homework later.
thinking about last friday. playing the bass for "that thing you do" was fun. especially when mao complimented me that mine was the clearest most obvious sound. haha. felt nice. of course he could just be saying that. singinf grand theft autumn with jonny bao as we were cleaning up. haha. sigh. the night. the music. the pool. the company. nothing could be nicer.
and knowing that i made marc feel the most uncomfortable he had ever felt possibly in his life, during truth or dare. haha. not that i meant in to happen. marc's a great guy. =)
"ill let my marks and god decide where i shoudl go for the first three months. the Os aint over yet". "true. haha." bryan C and myself. sigh. he is one motivated buggar. so unlike myself.
CJC is coming up while SAJC is going down. torn between options and choices. distance and friendships. oh well. see how this thing brings me.
I will give up m seat for old people. haha. so dont bother asking me. incidentally andrew form EPPS saw me on the train. apparently i was sitting next to him. NEXT TO HIM! and i didnt notice. he said he saw me. and to double check asked if i was the guy who gave up my seat to that old man at simei. haha. yeahs.. intresting. im losing touch with my old classmates.
what is fat. what is large scale. what is hot. i ask alot of questions which people dont like to answer. anyways ill leave now. feeling better. still kinda sick. still kinda uncertain. but life is life. this is what god gave me, and this is what ill live out.
god bless. good ngith.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
God... enough already.
God... this sucks soo bad. god. the fighting. the escaping. shit lah. everything sucks man.
in backward order of why things suck. i discovered MSN is gone. along with all my music and pictures. and that it wasnt an accident. that it was intentional. and sickening. i fought with my mom over piano and she so totally mis-intepreted me. she scolded me for grinding my teeth. AND GOD! IM TRYING SO HARD ALREADY! cant you see. i'm only grinding my teeth to control my frustration. im trying to stop my anger! AND WTF! "STOP IT"!!?? and even after exlaining to you, you can still tell me "You just stop it". how fucking unreasonable... god dam.....
so i went tot he park the only place i could find peace. and what made me sad was that all i heard was malay from some mat skaters, chinese by some bengs at the bus stop smoking, cantonese by two ah mahs taking a walk, and tamil by two indian construction workers... no english... saddening... so very saddening.
and the reason why i didnt want to go home was, besides me mom, my dad. the fact i fought with him last night, over the computer and not coming home last night. that was also the reason why i had to sneak home last night without him knowing and leave this morning before he woke up. sigh. last night i was at jeremy's party. and today i was out studying..
its so obvious i got bad planning and flow of thoughts. like mrs nelly said. mrs nelly thoguht uncle thiaga apparently. whom i met today at dinner. sigh.
last night kicked ass. the whole of yestersya actually. but im kinda sad right now. but hell. it was a good day. from the photo taking part in the morning to my appointment where i learnt that my back would be okay, and that the x-rays were puzzling, to eating with my mom and sis at CGH... then later on meet jonny at SAC on intending to meet him, and the party itself, playing soccer, the guitar, taboo, eating, truth or dare, cooking talking to the teachers, how mr gill apparently so me with my gf earlier this year at parkway despite my pleas that i was single, eevrything. was so fun. even diving in the pool and all. sigh. good day. good night. i almost guitilly enjoyed sneaking home and climbing the gate and all.
todayw as good. went to study in the morning. met ben ow, marc, nadia and de wei at parkway thought not in that order and not at the same time. later met selvam and michelle and togetehr with de wei we went to Toa payoh to meet jas to go for the CJ open house. after that me michelle and selvam went to borders to look at CDs, then i kinda ought with my mom and then met her at uncle ravi's house. he's a nice guy and a Sai devotee. sigh. i wanted to talk about that but im feeling too shitty right now. plus there is no music. so i dont feel spurred on to. sigh. met uncle thiaga and bothe thir wives who were really nice. watched videos of Sai baba and played chess with my sis. sigh. won three out of four times. sigh.
maybe if im in the mood illt lak about christianity and Sai devotees tomorrow. yeah. right now im just....emptionless and dead without my music. helpless.
count your heart out. im gonna sleep now.
in backward order of why things suck. i discovered MSN is gone. along with all my music and pictures. and that it wasnt an accident. that it was intentional. and sickening. i fought with my mom over piano and she so totally mis-intepreted me. she scolded me for grinding my teeth. AND GOD! IM TRYING SO HARD ALREADY! cant you see. i'm only grinding my teeth to control my frustration. im trying to stop my anger! AND WTF! "STOP IT"!!?? and even after exlaining to you, you can still tell me "You just stop it". how fucking unreasonable... god dam.....
so i went tot he park the only place i could find peace. and what made me sad was that all i heard was malay from some mat skaters, chinese by some bengs at the bus stop smoking, cantonese by two ah mahs taking a walk, and tamil by two indian construction workers... no english... saddening... so very saddening.
and the reason why i didnt want to go home was, besides me mom, my dad. the fact i fought with him last night, over the computer and not coming home last night. that was also the reason why i had to sneak home last night without him knowing and leave this morning before he woke up. sigh. last night i was at jeremy's party. and today i was out studying..
its so obvious i got bad planning and flow of thoughts. like mrs nelly said. mrs nelly thoguht uncle thiaga apparently. whom i met today at dinner. sigh.
last night kicked ass. the whole of yestersya actually. but im kinda sad right now. but hell. it was a good day. from the photo taking part in the morning to my appointment where i learnt that my back would be okay, and that the x-rays were puzzling, to eating with my mom and sis at CGH... then later on meet jonny at SAC on intending to meet him, and the party itself, playing soccer, the guitar, taboo, eating, truth or dare, cooking talking to the teachers, how mr gill apparently so me with my gf earlier this year at parkway despite my pleas that i was single, eevrything. was so fun. even diving in the pool and all. sigh. good day. good night. i almost guitilly enjoyed sneaking home and climbing the gate and all.
todayw as good. went to study in the morning. met ben ow, marc, nadia and de wei at parkway thought not in that order and not at the same time. later met selvam and michelle and togetehr with de wei we went to Toa payoh to meet jas to go for the CJ open house. after that me michelle and selvam went to borders to look at CDs, then i kinda ought with my mom and then met her at uncle ravi's house. he's a nice guy and a Sai devotee. sigh. i wanted to talk about that but im feeling too shitty right now. plus there is no music. so i dont feel spurred on to. sigh. met uncle thiaga and bothe thir wives who were really nice. watched videos of Sai baba and played chess with my sis. sigh. won three out of four times. sigh.
maybe if im in the mood illt lak about christianity and Sai devotees tomorrow. yeah. right now im just....emptionless and dead without my music. helpless.
count your heart out. im gonna sleep now.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
I'll be the hero, that i'm dreaming off!
wo hoo! today was a way funny day. as in WAY funny. haha. woke up late but who cares. haha. i mean kyle is always there to send me. unless he decided to pon school today. which was exactly what he, shane, ryan and joshua did. all as planed, haha. a plan which I backed out on to go to school, and shop for my class party this friday. ahha. school was bullshit of course. we re arranged our tabls. so jeremy yeap, myself, ben ow and marc formed one giant line, leaving a gap in the front left of the class. haha. was fun. talking all day. marc max and I then were tasked with making a poem for the class graduating page for the school year book. we went pretty far. sounds good so far. haha.
After miss teng's class jeremy, marc, max, jonathen bao, si chung and myself were picked up by mrs leslie to do shoppping. haha. Man i love my school. just like i love my balcony and roof. sigh. but ill talk about that later. anyways, shopping was fun. mrs leslie, marco and sichung went to si chung house'd first fer soemthing. haha. we were talking all the way. just like we always do. and then we went for chicken rice lunch at some supposedly good chicken rice shop somewhere begind STC. haha. coolness. later we joined the rest at great world city to continue shopping. bought ALOT of stuff. the part is SO gonna rock! haha. bill went into the two hundreds. which isnt a problem since our class fund and class budget for this party is three hundred soemthingy. haha. jeremy mrs leslie and myself then brought the stuff to jeremy's house, and after that mrs leslie dropped me and marc in st pats. yeah. it was fun. talking. gossiping more liely but hey. haha. who cares. i realise marc and I bitch alot. haha. ben ow too occasionally.
so i realised i left my phone on loud the whoel day and didnt realise. haha. loser-ness.
met one of the twins on the way home. the E4 twin. haha. anyways, as i was talkin to ben ow on the phone as i walked towards my house i was ambushed by a group of four patricians. haha. i couldnt help but smile watching kyle, shane and ryan charge up towards me. haha. so i went to kyle's house to watch simpsons and then we started playing with Google earth. yeaps. haha. and now im printing chords for songs to play for tomorrows party. Jonny (Eu)'s idea of course. no surprise there.
sigh. it was one heckuva fun day. all the random jokes and gossips. hahas. and ben mao is gonna get moderated and go JC. haha! how fun is that. all 21 pointers. thank god too.
For sake of clarification: Jonny Eu is the same as Jonny Pao is the same as Jonny Bao. Real name: Jonathen Reuban Eu. Alias: bao. haha. just so my readers dont get mixed up. the only other jonny i think i talk about is jonny yeo. yeap.
And rest assured that we WILL be playing glory of love tomorrow. maybe we'll play witht he bubbles too. haha. "bottle of soap." sigh. and the price of gold is falling! yay. haha. dont know if its good or not, but hey! who cares. its gold.
Doctor's appointment for my back shitty thing; ten ten ante meridean
Graduating Class Photo Taking fer 4E1; ten ten ante meridean.
shit. time and me just do NOT get along. your soo right. haha. anyways no prizes for guessing what im going for. haha. my priorities are about as screwed up now as theyc an get. and the prefect are NOT wearing their blazers (or at least me and ben ow) in a unified act of defiance, and solidairty with our fellow classmates. haha. its gonna be soo cool. yea. wait and see. sigh. 4E1/3E1... maybe not the coolest class in the world, maybe not the brightest, but you know what? we know how to have fun. without a doubt in the world. we kick ass. haha. we might be lame and corny but fuck. we love and hate ourselves for it to no end. and thats just lovely.
the only question i think lft unanswered is if i am going to school tomorrow.. or if i just come mid school for the photo taking? hmmm. what do i do.. what DO I DO. hahas.
christopher's birthday saturday. saturday is gonnsa be a busy day. haha. yeays.
31st oct my bro comes home from oz.
1st november is deepavali. one of those dyas are halloween and the other all saints day. coolness. haha. eitherways i HAVE to cut down on the hahas. so...
this brings me to the end of today's post. ctach you gusy tomorrow. love you all to no end. as my brother would say, "In a hetrosexual way of course". haha. byes.
After miss teng's class jeremy, marc, max, jonathen bao, si chung and myself were picked up by mrs leslie to do shoppping. haha. Man i love my school. just like i love my balcony and roof. sigh. but ill talk about that later. anyways, shopping was fun. mrs leslie, marco and sichung went to si chung house'd first fer soemthing. haha. we were talking all the way. just like we always do. and then we went for chicken rice lunch at some supposedly good chicken rice shop somewhere begind STC. haha. coolness. later we joined the rest at great world city to continue shopping. bought ALOT of stuff. the part is SO gonna rock! haha. bill went into the two hundreds. which isnt a problem since our class fund and class budget for this party is three hundred soemthingy. haha. jeremy mrs leslie and myself then brought the stuff to jeremy's house, and after that mrs leslie dropped me and marc in st pats. yeah. it was fun. talking. gossiping more liely but hey. haha. who cares. i realise marc and I bitch alot. haha. ben ow too occasionally.
so i realised i left my phone on loud the whoel day and didnt realise. haha. loser-ness.
met one of the twins on the way home. the E4 twin. haha. anyways, as i was talkin to ben ow on the phone as i walked towards my house i was ambushed by a group of four patricians. haha. i couldnt help but smile watching kyle, shane and ryan charge up towards me. haha. so i went to kyle's house to watch simpsons and then we started playing with Google earth. yeaps. haha. and now im printing chords for songs to play for tomorrows party. Jonny (Eu)'s idea of course. no surprise there.
sigh. it was one heckuva fun day. all the random jokes and gossips. hahas. and ben mao is gonna get moderated and go JC. haha! how fun is that. all 21 pointers. thank god too.
For sake of clarification: Jonny Eu is the same as Jonny Pao is the same as Jonny Bao. Real name: Jonathen Reuban Eu. Alias: bao. haha. just so my readers dont get mixed up. the only other jonny i think i talk about is jonny yeo. yeap.
And rest assured that we WILL be playing glory of love tomorrow. maybe we'll play witht he bubbles too. haha. "bottle of soap." sigh. and the price of gold is falling! yay. haha. dont know if its good or not, but hey! who cares. its gold.
Doctor's appointment for my back shitty thing; ten ten ante meridean
Graduating Class Photo Taking fer 4E1; ten ten ante meridean.
shit. time and me just do NOT get along. your soo right. haha. anyways no prizes for guessing what im going for. haha. my priorities are about as screwed up now as theyc an get. and the prefect are NOT wearing their blazers (or at least me and ben ow) in a unified act of defiance, and solidairty with our fellow classmates. haha. its gonna be soo cool. yea. wait and see. sigh. 4E1/3E1... maybe not the coolest class in the world, maybe not the brightest, but you know what? we know how to have fun. without a doubt in the world. we kick ass. haha. we might be lame and corny but fuck. we love and hate ourselves for it to no end. and thats just lovely.
the only question i think lft unanswered is if i am going to school tomorrow.. or if i just come mid school for the photo taking? hmmm. what do i do.. what DO I DO. hahas.
christopher's birthday saturday. saturday is gonnsa be a busy day. haha. yeays.
31st oct my bro comes home from oz.
1st november is deepavali. one of those dyas are halloween and the other all saints day. coolness. haha. eitherways i HAVE to cut down on the hahas. so...
this brings me to the end of today's post. ctach you gusy tomorrow. love you all to no end. as my brother would say, "In a hetrosexual way of course". haha. byes.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Sometimes you gotta fold
..before your found out. sigh. dashboard confessional's album swiss army romance was playing in my head n the way home. haha. and i SERIOUSLY mean their full album. but by the time i got home i could only think of "you come in cold, your all covered in blood...." haha. sigh.
today was filled with too many crappy moments and funny events to remember all.
quotes of teh day
"Tomorrow you coming", "No. i gotta go school." shane and me
"Surprise hit in sec 4 class of 16 year old boys. a bottle of soap." jeremy
"Can you smell any smoke on me?" sec 3 ex-scout
"I thought it was dukes of hazzard" ben mao
"what the fuck.. then he died!"jonny eu bao
"your backside gets sweaty after awhile" security guard
"I got my Os man" jonny bao
"Is St patrick's a christian school?" random guy on the road i was helping
"hello handsome" ben ow
"hey look there is something in your pocket" alex
"why is everyone laughing" inderpal, marc and me simulatneously
"can i blow some more, rishik" jeremy wong
"how many minutes do i have left" "one" Bell rings. Mr gill
"Ben ow..smack his ass" justin gium.
sigh. the little snippets that make up my life. haha. was a good day. yeaps. sigh. whacked crazy people. woudlnt lose them for the world. which is exactly what makes this fridy so impotant. not just the party. but they grad class photo. i MUST be there! and with my back appointment... it really sucks lah. haha. sigh. see how thing goes.
so i watched a movie today. sigh. to think im gonna watch another one next wednesday. there goes my cash. got paid for doing something which i thought i wouldnt do i a long time. haha. but hey, im cheap. so screw integrity. there was an offer for the house. 630 thousand. 20 less than what my parents wanted. sigh.. see how this all goes and brings us. my roof... to think i just wont have the chance to truly enjoy the house then. was hoping i could have had it during the hols after the Os. cause this is truly one great house. perfect for beach parties and whatnot. sigh. SO SAD! but whatever. class party this friday. rock on! tomorrow goin shoppin fer meat. haha. and to think i intend tot urn vegetaran one day. we'll see. haha.
so ill be off.
today was filled with too many crappy moments and funny events to remember all.
quotes of teh day
"Tomorrow you coming", "No. i gotta go school." shane and me
"Surprise hit in sec 4 class of 16 year old boys. a bottle of soap." jeremy
"Can you smell any smoke on me?" sec 3 ex-scout
"I thought it was dukes of hazzard" ben mao
"what the fuck.. then he died!"jonny eu bao
"your backside gets sweaty after awhile" security guard
"I got my Os man" jonny bao
"Is St patrick's a christian school?" random guy on the road i was helping
"hello handsome" ben ow
"hey look there is something in your pocket" alex
"why is everyone laughing" inderpal, marc and me simulatneously
"can i blow some more, rishik" jeremy wong
"how many minutes do i have left" "one" Bell rings. Mr gill
"Ben ow..smack his ass" justin gium.
sigh. the little snippets that make up my life. haha. was a good day. yeaps. sigh. whacked crazy people. woudlnt lose them for the world. which is exactly what makes this fridy so impotant. not just the party. but they grad class photo. i MUST be there! and with my back appointment... it really sucks lah. haha. sigh. see how thing goes.
so i watched a movie today. sigh. to think im gonna watch another one next wednesday. there goes my cash. got paid for doing something which i thought i wouldnt do i a long time. haha. but hey, im cheap. so screw integrity. there was an offer for the house. 630 thousand. 20 less than what my parents wanted. sigh.. see how this all goes and brings us. my roof... to think i just wont have the chance to truly enjoy the house then. was hoping i could have had it during the hols after the Os. cause this is truly one great house. perfect for beach parties and whatnot. sigh. SO SAD! but whatever. class party this friday. rock on! tomorrow goin shoppin fer meat. haha. and to think i intend tot urn vegetaran one day. we'll see. haha.
so ill be off.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
betcha scared of short people
hahas. loser. nvm. sigh.
this is becoming a ritual. after school, having lunch with michael joo, dominic, alfred, ben mao, ben ow at BK or macs. studying after that with the rest at MP library. then studying at school for night study with marc. hahas. coming home at this time, when im too sleepy to understand all the blogs i read. and i am anything but in the right mood for typing. but hey. obligation is obligation. sigh.
twelth in the level! OMG! i never dropped so LOW before... sigh.... alfred stole my chance of getting11th in level. haha. would have been a waste. if i DID get 11th, my level positions from year 1 to 4 would be (7, 11, 7, 11). hha. oh well. its over. its done with. and here i am. good as always. yeaps.
went for students mass todaya t OLPS. was lovely. i liked the prayer which went something like this. "the holy spirit behind me to support me. in front of me to guide me. by my side to journey with me. on top of me, to pass down knowldege. within me to love" or soemthing. i dunno. was sweet. haha. being Hindu rocks. the open-minded view of life.
haha. ill go blow bubbles. West ham's theme song after all. ' we are forever blowing bubbles". haha. forget it.
really wanted to blog about what i spoke to marc about today. and on what was it that we both found leh che and annoying . but im running low on time. so LATER! Good night.
this is becoming a ritual. after school, having lunch with michael joo, dominic, alfred, ben mao, ben ow at BK or macs. studying after that with the rest at MP library. then studying at school for night study with marc. hahas. coming home at this time, when im too sleepy to understand all the blogs i read. and i am anything but in the right mood for typing. but hey. obligation is obligation. sigh.
twelth in the level! OMG! i never dropped so LOW before... sigh.... alfred stole my chance of getting11th in level. haha. would have been a waste. if i DID get 11th, my level positions from year 1 to 4 would be (7, 11, 7, 11). hha. oh well. its over. its done with. and here i am. good as always. yeaps.
went for students mass todaya t OLPS. was lovely. i liked the prayer which went something like this. "the holy spirit behind me to support me. in front of me to guide me. by my side to journey with me. on top of me, to pass down knowldege. within me to love" or soemthing. i dunno. was sweet. haha. being Hindu rocks. the open-minded view of life.
haha. ill go blow bubbles. West ham's theme song after all. ' we are forever blowing bubbles". haha. forget it.
really wanted to blog about what i spoke to marc about today. and on what was it that we both found leh che and annoying . but im running low on time. so LATER! Good night.
Monday, October 03, 2005
im not ignoring you.
you prick. haha. thats gonan become my new favourite insult. its better than bum. which i have been using for quite some time. haha.
sighs. today was crappily good. yeahs. class flew by as usual. wither slept or talked crap. haha. Oh today i found out laurel has teh same taste as music as me haha. surprisng considering laurel is as close to me as marc is. haha,. geographically speaking. haha. dam lame. whatever, I say.
now two things to improve on. stop with the 's' after words. and stop with teh ahhas. can be done. will be done. in tiem to come. yeahs. sigh. haha.
VJC ARTS
TJC SCIENCE
TJC ARTS
AJC SCIENCE
SAJC SCIENCE
CJC SCIENCE
...." so which of your top 5 Jcs are you confident about getting a place into"..."CJC science"... "I siad top 5"... "oh.. haha... uhm... haha." yeah. thats how the conversation went. how fun.
plans for this week and weeks to come. tomorrow. study. wednesday. study. thursday. shopping for class party. haha. firday. class party. saturday. study/ piano class/tuition/ fishing at night with zenn. sunday. sleep. monday. study. tuesdaystudy. wednesday. movie. thursday. study. friday. study. haha. how fun is that. my life is FUN! haha! yay.
the academy is. attention. now thats a nice song. haha.
on the way home, with nadia today... talk to her. scared me. thinking of our friends. of who is who. its kinda like what i used to do with marc. psychoanalyse our friends. sigh. and it always makes me sigh in dissapointment. at how human how we all are. and thank god for that too. for that fact that we are human.
so drink your milk. do your homework. brush your teeth. enjoy your breeze. and take a deep breathe before you fall asleep. haha. good night all.
sighs. today was crappily good. yeahs. class flew by as usual. wither slept or talked crap. haha. Oh today i found out laurel has teh same taste as music as me haha. surprisng considering laurel is as close to me as marc is. haha,. geographically speaking. haha. dam lame. whatever, I say.
now two things to improve on. stop with the 's' after words. and stop with teh ahhas. can be done. will be done. in tiem to come. yeahs. sigh. haha.
VJC ARTS
TJC SCIENCE
TJC ARTS
AJC SCIENCE
SAJC SCIENCE
CJC SCIENCE
...." so which of your top 5 Jcs are you confident about getting a place into"..."CJC science"... "I siad top 5"... "oh.. haha... uhm... haha." yeah. thats how the conversation went. how fun.
plans for this week and weeks to come. tomorrow. study. wednesday. study. thursday. shopping for class party. haha. firday. class party. saturday. study/ piano class/tuition/ fishing at night with zenn. sunday. sleep. monday. study. tuesdaystudy. wednesday. movie. thursday. study. friday. study. haha. how fun is that. my life is FUN! haha! yay.
the academy is. attention. now thats a nice song. haha.
on the way home, with nadia today... talk to her. scared me. thinking of our friends. of who is who. its kinda like what i used to do with marc. psychoanalyse our friends. sigh. and it always makes me sigh in dissapointment. at how human how we all are. and thank god for that too. for that fact that we are human.
so drink your milk. do your homework. brush your teeth. enjoy your breeze. and take a deep breathe before you fall asleep. haha. good night all.
Sunday, October 02, 2005
ooh, see my shiver. that means im scared, see.
pffft. whatever. today was crappiest day in a long time. haha. beecause.. i stayed at home. and god, that always sucks. cause i never can do work when im at home. so lets not talk aboutt hat now. haha. work sucks anyway. lets talk about what i did instead of work. ahha.
So when i Did wake up, i head something going on, in the back. so i made my way over to the balcony and just stood and stared there for a good fifteen minutes. the wind was SO strong and great. the whole jungle was swaying. amazing. the feeling of watching seven storey trees swaying at the mercy of the wind, as i stood there unmoved and let my hair blow back. amazing that the wind was SO strong i could literally hear it howling. awe-inspiring the way the leaves were flying in the dozens. talk about land breeze sea breeze. haha. which is why it pays to live near the beach.
sigh. people came to view the house, so i had alot of work to do. washing the toilet, cleaning my room, blah blah blah. yeahs. the people seemed intrested in the house. and the weather rocked too. at that point i was more in love witht eh house than ever before. but i guess its only natural to feel a love for something increase when the threat of it to be taken away increases. yeahs. haha. sigh. it was looking great. sigh, love.
love is all around me suddenly. bums. haha. naw, just kidding. not that its a bad thing or anything. i mean. yeah. its nice. that people around are happy and content. makes you want to claps your hands togetehr and go "awe" like the people in Oprah. guess things are differnet for people like kyle and myself; guess we just have to keep fighting. and searching. and persevring till that moment comes. and it will come. haha. i beleive.
to all my sec 4 mates across singapore. good luck on your prelim results. i come to a understandig that st pats tecahers are fast markers. ahha. yeas.
to my mom. WTF! since when do i have to report to you with an empty plate to verify that i have eaten. since when dont you trust your own dam son. gimme a break dammit.
priya owes me two more wishes. if you include the wish that i can get into VJC. haha. whatever, i say. and NO! saying whatever does not make me a bimbo. bloody hell... haha.
hahah. sigh. should do work later. just whatevr, for now. soo... i dunno whats happening now. im feeling left out. and im hoping to talk things out. but i dunno. why. im not doing that. im just too passive. at all the wrong times. sigh. so ill wait till tomorrow. and try and find a way. to make things work. or something. sigh.. but i wont stop thinking of you. not in time to come anyway... pffft. I hate myself sometimes.
good night. Note to self. burn 20 songs for class party.
So when i Did wake up, i head something going on, in the back. so i made my way over to the balcony and just stood and stared there for a good fifteen minutes. the wind was SO strong and great. the whole jungle was swaying. amazing. the feeling of watching seven storey trees swaying at the mercy of the wind, as i stood there unmoved and let my hair blow back. amazing that the wind was SO strong i could literally hear it howling. awe-inspiring the way the leaves were flying in the dozens. talk about land breeze sea breeze. haha. which is why it pays to live near the beach.
sigh. people came to view the house, so i had alot of work to do. washing the toilet, cleaning my room, blah blah blah. yeahs. the people seemed intrested in the house. and the weather rocked too. at that point i was more in love witht eh house than ever before. but i guess its only natural to feel a love for something increase when the threat of it to be taken away increases. yeahs. haha. sigh. it was looking great. sigh, love.
love is all around me suddenly. bums. haha. naw, just kidding. not that its a bad thing or anything. i mean. yeah. its nice. that people around are happy and content. makes you want to claps your hands togetehr and go "awe" like the people in Oprah. guess things are differnet for people like kyle and myself; guess we just have to keep fighting. and searching. and persevring till that moment comes. and it will come. haha. i beleive.
to all my sec 4 mates across singapore. good luck on your prelim results. i come to a understandig that st pats tecahers are fast markers. ahha. yeas.
to my mom. WTF! since when do i have to report to you with an empty plate to verify that i have eaten. since when dont you trust your own dam son. gimme a break dammit.
priya owes me two more wishes. if you include the wish that i can get into VJC. haha. whatever, i say. and NO! saying whatever does not make me a bimbo. bloody hell... haha.
hahah. sigh. should do work later. just whatevr, for now. soo... i dunno whats happening now. im feeling left out. and im hoping to talk things out. but i dunno. why. im not doing that. im just too passive. at all the wrong times. sigh. so ill wait till tomorrow. and try and find a way. to make things work. or something. sigh.. but i wont stop thinking of you. not in time to come anyway... pffft. I hate myself sometimes.
good night. Note to self. burn 20 songs for class party.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
In defense of tamil movies
people liek to make fun of tamil movies. liek the tree dancing thing. and the fact they are filled with songs and dancing. and blah blah blah. well guess what. its art. in its own distinct waya nd culture. like abstract painting and realist painting, it cant be compared. its still nice. and you know what. stop insulting it. they probably insult western movie for being so dead boring. so lifeless. unimaginitive. and lacking in music and song. haha. its all about culture.
my mom is funny. first she scolded me for using vulgarities when i siad pffft. haha. then today she messaged from the study room to living room "happy children's day". ahha. sooo crazy. haha. then today during dinner, my sister started teasing her about having no childhood. and she was at it all the way. sigh, my sister is really funny. haha. it was because my mom met a childhood friend.. and didnt remember.
i hope i dont lose my childhood. and i remember all my friends. especially the close ones. wont ever wanto lose you guys. worth waaay too much. sigh. those talks.
i stick to my policy that people who speculate. who say she lieks him or he is goign with her or whatever... are losers. and SERIOUSLY need to get a life. because we dont need to know. or its annoying for those people too i mean. give the kid some privacy dude.
come sunday another family will come to look at my house. sigh. FINE, my family's house. but still. its werid. how one day my room can be taken away from me. and id have to move. surreal.
im thinking of the last year. it was a few weeks before christmas. i was at vicnan'nna's house. it was two soemthign in the morning. and we were painting. and it was fun. sigh, i miss that soo much. the art. the togetherness. the night. the quiet of the night. i hate crowds. i think i have said that quite alot of times already.
the night is my time. its when i feel most real. sigh. i love walks in the night. i dunno but it rocks so much. anyway i better go. and im looking forward to alot of things now. for nights to come. chances to live life at night. that i just migth not experience for a long time to come. the month vacation. sigh. waiting for you soo badly. haha.
I find that line about life being hell one moment and heaven the next so true. its only when you HAVE feelings, be them good or bad, you know you are in love. anythign is better than stone. and nothing ness. as much as i hate crowds and noise...id hate even more for love to be empty.
good night.
my mom is funny. first she scolded me for using vulgarities when i siad pffft. haha. then today she messaged from the study room to living room "happy children's day". ahha. sooo crazy. haha. then today during dinner, my sister started teasing her about having no childhood. and she was at it all the way. sigh, my sister is really funny. haha. it was because my mom met a childhood friend.. and didnt remember.
i hope i dont lose my childhood. and i remember all my friends. especially the close ones. wont ever wanto lose you guys. worth waaay too much. sigh. those talks.
i stick to my policy that people who speculate. who say she lieks him or he is goign with her or whatever... are losers. and SERIOUSLY need to get a life. because we dont need to know. or its annoying for those people too i mean. give the kid some privacy dude.
come sunday another family will come to look at my house. sigh. FINE, my family's house. but still. its werid. how one day my room can be taken away from me. and id have to move. surreal.
im thinking of the last year. it was a few weeks before christmas. i was at vicnan'nna's house. it was two soemthign in the morning. and we were painting. and it was fun. sigh, i miss that soo much. the art. the togetherness. the night. the quiet of the night. i hate crowds. i think i have said that quite alot of times already.
the night is my time. its when i feel most real. sigh. i love walks in the night. i dunno but it rocks so much. anyway i better go. and im looking forward to alot of things now. for nights to come. chances to live life at night. that i just migth not experience for a long time to come. the month vacation. sigh. waiting for you soo badly. haha.
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
I find that line about life being hell one moment and heaven the next so true. its only when you HAVE feelings, be them good or bad, you know you are in love. anythign is better than stone. and nothing ness. as much as i hate crowds and noise...id hate even more for love to be empty.
good night.
Am i too depressive.
or is just plain melo-dramatic. haha. THATS IT! i solved jeremy's question, of how you can b both realistic and dramatic. when your depressed. your either realistically depressed, or plain melo-dramtically depressed. haha. yeah. sigh. whatever. no one likes hanging out with sad people. except for sad people. "misery seeks company" after all.
We all feel like shit every now and then. we just need to wait for that right moment. that right phrase in a book. that right joke. the right people to pick you up. and bing you back again. And all that came to me by the dozens in the past few days. going jamming with ben mao, alfred and jonny (yeo). Having BK with ben mao alfred and ben ow. talking to josh, as we walked along east coast road, at ten something last night, after the night study. laughing at si chung and ivan. hearing kyle tell me about his display picture. sitting on the curbside of the road at the train station, staring into the sky, and that blanket of dtars. suddenly remembering jonny bao's quotation which i REALLY REALLY liked. the one which went "life is like a piano peice. when you make a mistake you dotn stop playing, or repeat, or even let other know you make a mistake. you just continue and play on. " sigh. how awe-ish. life suddenly seems worth pushing. cause music is there. and i am still me. i am still the easily inspired boy, rishik, who stops and stares and the most redundent scene and find art there. because life is art. to me.
no maths, as it is to nicholas gn. hahah. "i see a graph". sigh. too funny to write down.
my L1R5 is confirmed. sigh. dunno where i am going, so dont ask me, haha. if you must know, ask me personally and id tell you.
so i just got home. and i feel shagged. haha. sigh. this blog has only done one thing for me. destroyed my english. and helped me keep a good track of time of course. haha. but ESPECIALLY the first. haha. i am officialy a 'HAS-bEEN' when it comes to doing well in english. sigh. and recent marks can verify that. the last ever essay we were to do, i got 22. trashed by nicholas, bryan c, jay and the whole works of writers. sigh. and to think there used to be a time i was the only guy capable of hitting band one. sigh. guess its back to narratives for me.
sigh. so morning, i postponed piano class, cause one thing's more important than music. friends. haha. yay. so i met de wei. Then, marc and nadia. then ying and selvam. haha. then we all dispersed! wow. selvam had to meet his aunt. nadia had tuition. marc had to go home. de wei had golf i think. i had tuition. =) hha. was fun. yeah.
well anway. my is is going for the smrt challenge thingy tomorrow. haha. whatever i say. singapore is a small place. it IS. a mere fifty minute ride from the west to the east. what's that in comparison to other countries. honestly, people exaggerate a litle too much soem times. sigh. in terms of which JC i should go to for teh first three months. distance shouldnt really be a factor..should it??
listening to evil soul. haha. yay. makes me want to go to the beach. but right now... i want to sleep. sigh. to think a whole day just flew by like that. wow.
its children's day! haha. YAY!. whatever... i have no comment whatsoever right now... except, haloween is in a month's time, ivan. ONE month's time. sigh...
so im listening to vindicated and reminded of the bass... sigh. frankly speaking yesterday's jamming studio sucked. haha. the bass had no proper input wire. so we had to scotch tape a wire to it. and there was no strap. the drum set was kinda shitty too. haha. and i was still learning the tabs while we played. haha. but was fun all in all. sigh. suddenly feel obliged to go learn my tabs. for their sake. yes. i cannot let them down. haha.
so im off. byes.
We all feel like shit every now and then. we just need to wait for that right moment. that right phrase in a book. that right joke. the right people to pick you up. and bing you back again. And all that came to me by the dozens in the past few days. going jamming with ben mao, alfred and jonny (yeo). Having BK with ben mao alfred and ben ow. talking to josh, as we walked along east coast road, at ten something last night, after the night study. laughing at si chung and ivan. hearing kyle tell me about his display picture. sitting on the curbside of the road at the train station, staring into the sky, and that blanket of dtars. suddenly remembering jonny bao's quotation which i REALLY REALLY liked. the one which went "life is like a piano peice. when you make a mistake you dotn stop playing, or repeat, or even let other know you make a mistake. you just continue and play on. " sigh. how awe-ish. life suddenly seems worth pushing. cause music is there. and i am still me. i am still the easily inspired boy, rishik, who stops and stares and the most redundent scene and find art there. because life is art. to me.
no maths, as it is to nicholas gn. hahah. "i see a graph". sigh. too funny to write down.
my L1R5 is confirmed. sigh. dunno where i am going, so dont ask me, haha. if you must know, ask me personally and id tell you.
so i just got home. and i feel shagged. haha. sigh. this blog has only done one thing for me. destroyed my english. and helped me keep a good track of time of course. haha. but ESPECIALLY the first. haha. i am officialy a 'HAS-bEEN' when it comes to doing well in english. sigh. and recent marks can verify that. the last ever essay we were to do, i got 22. trashed by nicholas, bryan c, jay and the whole works of writers. sigh. and to think there used to be a time i was the only guy capable of hitting band one. sigh. guess its back to narratives for me.
sigh. so morning, i postponed piano class, cause one thing's more important than music. friends. haha. yay. so i met de wei. Then, marc and nadia. then ying and selvam. haha. then we all dispersed! wow. selvam had to meet his aunt. nadia had tuition. marc had to go home. de wei had golf i think. i had tuition. =) hha. was fun. yeah.
well anway. my is is going for the smrt challenge thingy tomorrow. haha. whatever i say. singapore is a small place. it IS. a mere fifty minute ride from the west to the east. what's that in comparison to other countries. honestly, people exaggerate a litle too much soem times. sigh. in terms of which JC i should go to for teh first three months. distance shouldnt really be a factor..should it??
listening to evil soul. haha. yay. makes me want to go to the beach. but right now... i want to sleep. sigh. to think a whole day just flew by like that. wow.
its children's day! haha. YAY!. whatever... i have no comment whatsoever right now... except, haloween is in a month's time, ivan. ONE month's time. sigh...
so im listening to vindicated and reminded of the bass... sigh. frankly speaking yesterday's jamming studio sucked. haha. the bass had no proper input wire. so we had to scotch tape a wire to it. and there was no strap. the drum set was kinda shitty too. haha. and i was still learning the tabs while we played. haha. but was fun all in all. sigh. suddenly feel obliged to go learn my tabs. for their sake. yes. i cannot let them down. haha.
so im off. byes.
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