Ooooh. Your like a hurricane.

morning. sundays. no wiata minute. Its saturday! haha. so cool. feels like sunday, cause piano class was cancelled. dam. how sucky is that. i miss piano class. i miss the chance to just walk along the park without my parents wondering where i am. freedom. in a manner of speaking.

yesterday was the class party. and it wasnt in my house. =( haha. was in school, as expected. miss teng, miss siva, mr roshand came. miss chern and mrs leslie came. haha. makes you wodner why mr tan didnt and miss teo come. intretsingly enought they called me last night! the down side of teachers having ur number. haha. mr roshan, miss teo, miss teng, mr tan and all. haha. like wow. was pretty funny. mr tan likes to disturb me. haha. he showed us a movie during on his classes and i fell asleep. it was a nice movie, but i was sleepy. not bored. oh wells. ahha. on radiationa nd all. soc ool. the part was fun anyways. nadia and ying told me they planned to crash in in the guise of guys. ahha. like...wow. haha.


Nicholas GN is sick. poor kid. hope he gets well. sigh. i got all teh add matsh questions right yesterday! OMG! i was so happy. of course i didnt pass up my homework... but still! wow. this is like a breakthrough for me.

THBT we still have a long way to go for racial tolerance. meeting jas and bryan todya at toa payoh breadtalk. haha. hope it goes well. sure we can rock. haha. three ebst speakers, for different debates. haha. whatever. im still the newbie of the group. i feel happy. i feel good.

5th august is the pesa dsinner. right after my debates i think. and dora will bethere. along with michelle. ying. nadia. marc. sharon. jas. ben mao. and de wei. and i cantr emember who else. kyle. selvam. yeaps. ahha. i think. yay. will be fun. and good. speaking of ben mao...murderor ROCKS!

ben ow played a good game. jeremy was always causing confusion. bryan has lost all trust he has had of us. haha. and I and ben mao as usual get killed within the firsh three rounds. wow. haha. i liked being narrator. joshua and clarence are good at analysing teh game. so are marc and bryan. haha. yay. i like being murderor. haha.

well gtg. three things on my mind right now. sigh. haha. so high.

Take three long breaths

today i woke up on time! haha. thanks. i owe you one..haha. school was good today. eveyrthing about it. kinda worked out i guess. i dunno.

murderor... they take my life at the firts chance they could. joshua is fun. laurel helped me get a cab back.


i feel uninspired to write
all i want to do right now. is share with, not the whole world, via ths blog, but a few people. close firends. and play the piano. ahha. yes. thats what im gona do.

tomorrow calss party. haha. not my house, sadly, thoguht we did think about it. ahah.

we are in the finals for the matsh trail. like wtf. haha. nice. spill canvas is nice! yes!
see you all tomorrow then. music on staurday. finally. ahha.

mocha moccha

in a flash things can change. our team is in the quiz finals! ho, ho. togetehr with brandon chai's team and zach and jonny's team. cool. haha. today, got sent out of tamil class again. kinda fun, i must say. dad complains of me goign online at 11.00 plus. haha. fine. ill go online at ten then.

so. MURDERor is funny. dam fun. i either suck at it, or just love making things confusing. i fakes being detective three times. and i never get kille dby the murderor. im always voted out by the people. ahah! so fun. ahhh. i wanna play... haha.

tomorrow there is bio tts. ir rather study chem. i like it more. haha. Eu is planning a part on firday. shoudl really help him.haha. that guy isa musicla master. speaking of music, kyle sang at todays basker's thingy. ahah. yeap.

i am DAM weak in add maths. maan. well... i guess i could study. tomorrow, im supposed tog o for some eldds play. id rather fer e maths gcp.

ever get this feeling somehting is missing. like what im feeling now. im not the only one. incomplete. ahha. echo is good.

blakc and white. script writing com. i wanan go. haha. i should go. well i siad the same about the PEN awards and project pilot. ahha. there is still hope left. i love the piano, i realise. haha. yeaps.

i think of you...

That frankly will not fly

haha. You and I both love, by jason mraz. just the girl by click 5. you and me by the goo goo dolls(i think). these were few of the many songs that were stuck in my dam head. blea-

hello. my mom's brithday today. happy birthday! haha. today was the quiz thingy. after that we went out with the SE CDC gang to study. ying, nadia, michelle, jas, kyle, selvam, de wei and myself. haha. went kfc. did some OKAY studying. got home and then went out for dinner. im sleepy. pretty full.

tomorrow is gonna be the inter-diciplinary trail thingy. organising some debates friendly. yay. hope it works out.

piano class postponed. meetign pete tomorrow to study. can everyone please get off my back, over who you think i like. blea. its annoying. i need to study.

debates, debates, debates. haha. i like it more and more. i dont mind being captain. hayha. just for spite. well it seems i have forgotten all that has taken place the pastf ew days. and that is my own fault. but i seem happier. yay.

goodmorning seattle.

I cant sleep tonight

Sunny days.. where have you gone.. i get teh starngest feeling, you belong. haha. why dos it always rain on me. by travis. good ol travis. sigh. my com doesnt like me. keeps blanking into nothingness. not like the computer in school. that was a good computer. hah. im sleepy. im jabering again.

And totoday im gonna imitate my brother's style of blogging. haha. or michael joo's style of structured essay questions. haha. whichever you prefer.


jeremy had his CJC interveiw today.
I slept at 3 somehtign this morning.
The debate team got confirmed today in a very political argument. blea. serves them right.
The EXCO inteview finished today. Marc talked to me about it.
Nicholas waited for me tos tudy, but i played him out. =(
Went to study with pete today.
Rain was nice
english today we researched suicide bombers.
mister brandon lee helped me with the ppt thigny fer ventures
michael and devesh want to join ventures
tomorrow wanan study at siglap macs
tomorrow there is the QUIZ prelims, with bryan jeremy and chris.
planing a friendly debates with broadrick and STC.
e matsh test tomorrow.
im happy, and at peace. haha.
i love the world...

I cant sleep tonight

Sunny days.. where have you gone.. i get teh starngest feeling, you belong. haha. why dos it always rain on me. by travis. good ol travis. sigh. my com doesnt like me. keeps blanking into nothingness. not like the computer in school. that was a good computer. hah. im sleepy. im jabering again.

And totoday im gonna imitate my brother's style of blogging. haha. or michael joo's style of structured essay questions. haha. whichever you prefer.


jeremy had his CJC interveiw today.
I slept at 3 somehtign this morning.
The debate team got confirmed today in a very political argument. blea. serves them right.
The EXCO inteview finished today. Marc talked to me about it.
Nicholas waited for me tos tudy, but i played him out. =(
Went to study with pete today.
Rain was nice
english today we researched suicide bombers.
mister brandon lee helped me with the ppt thigny fer ventures
michael and devesh want to join ventures
tomorrow wanan study at siglap macs
tomorrow there is the QUIZ prelims, with bryan jeremy and chris.
planing a friendly debates with broadrick and STC.
e matsh test tomorrow.
im happy, and at peace. haha.
i love the world...

Sweet.

hello, hello. its such a lovelyd ay. the weather. the people. my friends. sigh. life is good. future is good. its like what i said. the future is bautiful, so i dream, and dream of the future tot ake my mind of the horrible frigtening present. haha. a strange theory, but its working for me. i become... happier. =)


thursday and friday. both days went out with theodore for lunch. wednesday with linus, friday with chris and jeremy. haha. i finally returned the prefects room key to mr tompson. made me sad. haha. lost my power. late for maths twice. haha. whatever. life was good. in retrospect. all of them. i cant recall all. but they all rock. haha.

firday! took bus 31 with ling and we passed mwen at the bus stop, met jas at Toa payoh, who had just dropped of selvam, and we called de wei and met him and paveena later at the debate thingy at AJC, where i met faddhilah and talked to nicole's friend and read the name "neeta" on the attendance list. haha. oh wow. and cherie impressed me. she was a national debater, and WOW. i wanna be like that. debates rock. we all had dinner at long john;s at PS. again. we always end up in PS. haha. i dont know why. haha.

saturday, i woke up late but me mom sent me. met jas, alicia and de wei at ang mo kio mrt. brought a blazer for bryan's speech. selvam, bryan, paveena and all were speaking yesterday for the tpjc thingy. not sure if mei wen was speaking. none of them won though. sigh. neeta and nicoel came that day. we all plus nicole's friend whose name i mistook for elizah, and live in pasir ris(NFWNIMFEALIPR) had dinner at macs and then we went home. NFWMIMFEALIPR took the train home with me. haha. i got best speaker! haha. one of the best anyways. for our mock debate against stc. STC won. haha. and i CANNOT work with leo and zac at all. blea. that night i wanetd to go to sitti's house but my plans were ruiend thanks to the residents beach comber's nite. ahah. sighs.

wasnt althat bad. hung out with peter, marissa, ashwin and tara abit. met this cople that was a poet/pilot. ahha. exactly what me and my sis wanted to be. food was okayish. marissa, aunty mercy and my sis and i walked home. ahha. we were playing with fire and stuff. sigh. its sad when you think its only in these sort of events that we met our neighbours. I WON A HAIRDRYER. haha. which i am going to use today to dry my shoes.


this morning i moped the house. then went to mr aunty's house for lunch. was nice. the two families. and 'pk'. all good. maygali'kka's going back to oz today. sigh. ahha. came home, played piano. i need to do history homework and some chem later. im brushing up my chem alot. this time i am serious about getting my 1st in level for chem. dead serious. haha.

haha. i love debating. i realise that. and now im supposed to talk about how wondeful dora is. haha. she's wonderful. yeaps.

The long Wait

A compo by rishik v menon.

There she lay, hidden in the dark deep layers of linen, and velvet cloth. Her eyes were leaking with the insecurity she felt, but her mouth lt out no sound. Sound which should rightfully have been her cries for help and guidance. But there was a reason she would not cry. The mere fact that she was all alone, and that there was no one to hear her, much less help her. She was a sensible girl, and being the sensible girl she was, she did the next best thing; help herself. In that moment of courage, she threw off the blankets, got off from her bed and made her way to the window, of the prison of a room she was in. She was done waiting. She had to do something. She had to escape.

Meanwhile, elswhere within the same premises, a tall, young man of indian descent was shaving in his room. From the bedside he could get a clear veiw of the newly done-up garden. The last of the chairs were just moved in, and the tentages gleamed in all its magic. He smiled, more to comfort himself that anythign else. For deep down he was worried. In his hart he could feels omething was not right. It was not the venue or the time. Both were incredibly auspicious according to the fortune teller. Neither was the problem family. His parents could not have been more proud of him. What was it then, that caused him so much distress at this crucial timing. The guests perhaps? His eyes darted out the window once more to have a good look at the people who have come to share this night with him. Ardusuly studying their faces as they slowly occupied the seats, the man resigned to the fact that all the guests were more than happy to be here. It had become clear to him, what it was he was afraid of: Her. What might she do? She has always had a history of panic attacks and cold feet. This realization struck him hard. Torn between his paranoia and his overwhelming need and desire to trust her, he was at a loss. He had come this far, "not out of paranoia but trust", he told himself. Perhaps this was just a gamble he had to take, he decided as he slowly slipped on his suit. The guests were growing impatient.

"Mother's always know what's bets for their son." This was the motto and the code of conduct the grey haired old lady lived by for raising her only son. She carried herself with such pride and poise, it was nit surprising to mistake her with one of the many foreign dignitaries that resided in this side of town. She was a lady of manners and groomed her son in the same way. "sigh" she would say at the mention of her son. "such a fine young gentleman". And there was no denying that too. He surely was a polite boy. But in her eagerness of showing the world the most chivalrous boy possible, she missed out teaching him a very important lesson. The lesson on bravery. And for that slip, she more than often woudl wear the shining armour to save her son. Perhaps, in her eyes, he was still a small bot, and he still needed his mummy to protect him. and she would do it too, more than readily. Like she was doing right now. Mommy's littel boy had once again come running, telling of all histroubles and worries. worries and doubts that there might be somethign wrong. And so mommy had to check and make sure everythign was alrigth. Sos he marched up the stairs, down the hallway and to the final foor she stood. Gently, she knocked on the door that was meant to contain the lady of the evening. In a sinle knock, the door flung open. Air rushed upon her face from the window. A window as wide and as open as he mouth as she let out a gasp in that realization that the room was empty. And right now, mommy had failed to protect her little boy; in this most important of nights too.

The garden was full with people by then. The sun had fully set and the stars were in the sky. The guests seated became more and more lively and energetic, and many of them left their seats for a short walk or a quick puff. And why not? After all the ceremony had not yet begun and who was to stop them from enjoying this picturesque evening? Then without warning the music started playing. the ceremony was about to begin. The tall man, now fully dressed, and fully comforted by his mother stood alone at the foot of the long blue carpet that led to the strong solitary altar. The preist was already situated there and gestured for him to walk, with a soft, gentle smile. Many of the guests shuffled back to their seats. The man feeling reassured by the smile, made his walk up to the altar. "This was it" he thought. "The long wait is finally over". Tonight was the night all his dreams were going to come true. Everything was so perfect. So there he stood alone. Alone in that momen, before he started wondering, where was his pride-to-be? Anxiety suddenly gripped him as sweat trickled down his nose. The music continued playing asth eguests and the priest continued smiling. From the corner of his eye, he could see his mother amongst the guests. She was not smiling. She nodded to him solenly as his worst fears came true.

The seconds felt like minutes as he stood there. He was lost. He had no idea what to do. He started panicking furiously, but refused to let his body show it. He would remain strong, he told himself. The question to ask, of course, was for how long? How much longer woudl he take it? How much longer could he stand this burning wait. He was about to see. He was about to test how long he was willing to wait for this one girl.

The first sign, that it was getting late, was the sight of some of the guests getting off their seats and going for walks. Time was running. The next sign was the fact the priest stopped smiling. Whispers coudl be heard throughout the audience. twenty minutes had passed. And still he stood. He was going to stand strong. He was just oing to have to find faith. Be it an hour or two, he was willing to wait. He would do it, he told himself.

That was when she rushed down the aile. She was in her wedding dress, her faced wreaked with guilt and regret from cheek to cheek, eye to eye. The crowd hummed and buzzed amongst themselves louder than before. But the couple said nothing. The preist smiled again. No words were needed to express how they felt. In That moment, they embraced, and finally, the long wait was over.

mister a-z meets the moonlady

because i am the wizard of oohs and aahs and fa-la-laaas.. hahah! jason mraz is really something. from wrtiing the lyrics, to writing the music,to playing it and rapping and singing all. gasp. wow. he is music. and finally the lagging singapore radio releases the same song i was singing two months back. it will catch on. watch my words. 'wordplay' will rock. haha.


speaking of singing, you should neevr enter my house when im home alone. ahha. my voice will drown you out with my off-tune singing and renditions of popular classics. haha. seriously. dotn come to my house when im home alone...SERIOUSLY.

whn you wish upon themoonlady your dreams will come true. haha. who would have heard of that. sigh. poor ol moonlady. wonder if she's alone up there. which brings to mind this one question.. how did she even enter this entry? haha. enter this entry. the irony of it all. i love ironies. so shoot me.

yes yes, i AM sick. i have an mc to prove it. ahha. so whatcha gonna do about that. huh? huh? huh? SHIT! whatw as i thinking! sighing up for that debate thing. tehre goes five days which coudl eb spent onnn stuff. like studying. well mighta s well vindicate thats tatemnt by studying now. no point saying a dy coukd have been spent on studying when right now, right here there IS a day and its spent on...absolutely nothing.

mom is pretty pissed about the phone, cause the buttons 7,8,9 dont work sometimes. oooh. tahts bad. mgith waste more money on a new phone. sighs. i can eat today. feels great. i realluy should get to work on my homework. ahha. here goes my plans for the rest of teh day. finish homework. play piano. study chemistry. listen to music. write. celebrate life. haha. yes. and study! O levels draw nearer. oh so nearer. i need at elast 10 points for prelims. and 8 for the real deal. so that means. alot of studying. ahha. ive never been so lost. the shere joy at which that line is sung, in the song 'i woke up in a car', says alot. haha. yes. its not always a bad thing to be lost. in fact its great. if your lost with the right people. life is all about people if you ask me. it means zit, nothing, if you cant enjoy it with the right people. yeaa.


so long. haha. i think an irish accent is dam cool. byes. haha. life is good, if you want it to be.

whatabout source a

hello.... haha. i AM SICK.

correction. i was sick. this whoel morning. i swear. life wasabitch. headacje was wrse than ever. feeling feverish. could not sleep. could not EAT. now that was a new progression. i ate two spoons of cornflakes i vomit it out. three hours later. i bite of a biscuit. out it goes. shit lah. life sucked. even the water i drank was puked out. this was a bad as it gets. later i drank abit of soup and ate some bittergourb. felt better...momentarily. as the rest of it, it got puked out soon enough. sigh. ill spare you the details....

so at nigth we go changi hospital. quite sucky waiting there for a few hours. anyways she gave me some really strong paracetemol i felt much better. also tooka blood test. i dont have any malaria or dengue whatsoever. so got medication and went home. feel WAY better now. in fact i feel almost high now. ahha. cants leep.


dad's complaining. so i'll wrap this up quick. i MIGHT be going for the debate thingy. im not going school tomorrow. more time to do homework. haha. for dinner(my firstw hole emal today) i got chciken pie and chicken curry. haha. ig ot a 2nd hand nokia 7250i. yeaps. thats all there is to say minus the eloquence that is my writing style. okays. byes. haha. i feel good.

As soon as i can

oxymorons. haha. chances of that coming out as an O level english one word topic draws slimmer. haha. and so does my chances of scoring well for the last compo i wrote. oooh, please, ooh please, prove me wrong. ahha.



I am sick. seriously bad. thrity eight point one last time ic hecked. which was last night. sadly when i went to the doctor itd ropped to thrity six point five. hahahaha. FLUCTUATION in every sense of the word. haha. jeremy has the same thing i heard. so anyways.... the homecoming dinner is screwed! half the shcool has got food poisoning and related conditions. haha. shalala. and i hardly ate so that woudl explain...abit. haha. SAY NO to sharksfin. thatsall i want to add before i move on ot the enxt topic.


i went to shcool last night. No one likes staying at home. at least not me. hate it. every moment of it. EXCEPT when im online or sleeping of course. ahha. so i went. felt good. talked to mr chew. gave my mc. talked tos elvam and stuff. wanted to find miss chern for my homework but she left by then. haha. after that i went to MP L with selvam to settle my book issue. the librarian gave me an extension.

IF YOU ARE A LOSER WHO BORROWED A BOOK ON CHANGI AIRPORT USING MY LIBRARY CARD. FUCK YOU.

so i have one more week to find teh above said loser. sigh. life is annoying. selvam then helped himself to my wallet to a coffee frappe' in a manner of speaking, and so did I. poor wallet. its been getting burnt alot lately. two starbucks coffee cups. taxi ride to pasirr is mrt. macs for lunch. OUCH. it really hurts. sighs. selvam is funny in his own twisted way. sigh. in my opinion, he was made for JC, NOT st pats. oh wells.

hahah. the taxi driver was using FUCK like it was free. it was the bets taxi ride i ever had! hahah. so i decided, to try being friendly for the first time in ataxi. we were talking about terrorist, government politics, and the body parts murder. ahha. was super cool. i swear.


i took the taxi today. after my interviews and before i went home. haha. so i gues this is wher ei talk about the interviews. it was good. tiring. boring. and okay overall. sure we can all coem to a common consensus. nicholas han was definitely the most impressive. after the inteview followed ben ow and theodore to suglap macs to have lunch. there we played my old exco interview on theopdre's laptop. hahah. was dam funny! amazing how much of a self-praising whore i was last year. selling myself totally. hahaha.


after that i relaoised i was later for my meeting with annurshah. so i took a cab down to pasir ris met her, and that was it. i started feeling really sick. my fever got pretty bad. went home and slept in my shcool U. woke up at 6 something. palyed piano. and here i am. yay.



im feelin btter now. i just needed music. sigh. so much homework. monday after school i got to update my troop's cca records. haha. so crappy. i need a new phone by monday. THANKS wei ket. owe you one. good luck toa ll me mates for theirs MT Os. hope it was good.

im off now.

ONE

I find this dam cool... yeah.

if you want somethign done....

just did my blog. and did a bit pretty cool monogram fer my self too. its a V, V, and M, and if you change it abit it makes a rats head. haha. its somewhere in the blog i think. YEAH! my blog...


its so...perfect. *yawn*. im tired. so proud of what i did to this. yeah. yay.

What shoukd I say

hello. here is the update. Ive got fever. i got tooth infection. i got some wisdom teeth coming. i got headache. i got normal blood pressure. i got pink mouthwash. I got MC. i gota handphone. haha.. i DONT have a clue what i am gonna do tomorrow. neither do i have a certain library book. sigh another one of life's lessons. In the words of my mom: "this is what i learnt from my dad. Never borrow. never lend. it will be the end of you". maan. fuck it lah. im just gonna pay the dam cash tomorrow. forgo any thought sof getting a handphone, or of buying that dam CD. I really wnated that CD too. sigh.



hello there. im sick. sigh. This morning i skipped breakfast. and due to the meeting with mr thompson i inevitable skipped recess. so when it was the last period at chem lab and teh bell already went i was on tenterhooks waitinf for one signal to let us off. i glided to the canteen and was seated and eating before most of my friends reached teh canteen. haha. glided. whata ord to use. well it was faster than walking, but i wasnt jogging for sure. haha.



Jorge . honetsly lah. i dont care anymore. arrr. makes you think. who are ur real friends. Brandon. i dont hate you. its just the occasional now and then you piss me off. please understand. sigh. then is teh bryan cheang jasveer thingy. argghhh. its more of politics than anythign else really. bryan is my good friend. jasveer is my friend. marc is my friend. how do i choose!!?? anyways i ended up goign with bryan and jeremy and chris. jas got selvam, benjamin chea and i dunno who else. bleah. alex got into NJC. haha. i got the prefects room key! yeah.



shoudk i go school tomorrow. see first. got to find my hosue keys now. byes. i owe dora. thanks.

So yesterday

talka bout bad english. when i first heard there was a song called so yesterday, the word so had a totally different connotation in my mind. haha. yeaaa.



im sick. i got teeth infection apparenly. i feel bad. i got a headache. yesterday was a sucky day. everythng was going against me. sigh. Today thankfully wasnt bad. it was more of... weird. yes thats the word to use. surreal. i skipped gcp.



jasveer and bryan cheang. maybe i will just go awal. dam quiz. so annoying. bleah. will update later tonight. yeaaa. the song is right. being stuck in the middle will be the end of me. haha. byes...

Fight the break of dawn...for me

Ever since that faithful night speant at my dear cousin's house ive been hoping for two things... an ibook and limewire. ahha. and an ipod inclusively of course.. Well that would make three.. haha. so what. maths sucks. im an english person. in a manner of speaking. haha. well according to the NE survey i did today im an Indian/related person. haha. indian/related. so cool...


i have been pronounced 'number 2' in tic tac toe, by brandon, teh self proclaimed number one. haha. and i didnt even win him. i simply countered all his attacks. ahha. whatever lah. tic tac toe isnt a stimulating enough test of mental intellect. An interdisciplinary quiz however is. ahha. im going with bryan C, jeremy and (still pending) marc. haha. it should be good. we would knock them dead. haha. You have the top five in english. the top five in humanes. and uhm.... MARC! yay. haha. thats good enough. but it does leaave me to question. does someone so filled with examination and textbook knowledge have space left for trivial know-how? haha. whatever. No doubt we will rock them. Nicholas gn warned me again not to get too involved in these activites. sigh. i really shoudl listen to him.



english i did badly. 23/30 fer essay. no comment. sigh. a doom of my own making. im good at that. haha. self-destruction. volleyball is tougher than it looks by the way. haha.



Ivan talked about my new hairstyle today. haha. then ben ow started protecting me and saying how people who comb centre-parting have only one hair style to choose from, and ig ot lost somewhere in between. ahah. Marc wont be coming to school for the next few years. DAYS i mean, sorry days. hmmm. i can always press backspace now and earse that... i dunno why i choose not to. haha. freedom of choice. im a liberal at heart. what can i say. plus a journla is meant to be open and revealing. so now i reveal the typo side of myself.... haha. riite. Anyways so marc will have golf fer teh enxt few days leavin me with attendance duties. sigh.



Sometime earlier this year there was a prefect general meeting so ben ow started goign arounf asking who cant amke it and made them record tehri names down and their reason. kyle's reason was celebration of life. I was so inspired at that moment. I was like: "wow. this is one guy i respect. he knows how to live life. he knows how to have fun. he has a law of his own. and he's not afraid to show it. this is what freedom is really all about." haha. it was only later that day i discovered celebration of life was a school organised event for the catholic boys. hahaha. anyways since that day i have always loved the phrase celebration of life. yes.... sweetness....



Now let me set one thing straight. I am Rishik Menon. I am a fifteen year old boy. I go to an all boys school. I have many friends (male and female) from all over singapore. Many of whom are of teh same age group as me. Many of whom have suffered heartbreak like me. Many of whom, refuse to learn from their mistakes.
And my point is this. We are all adolscents. we all young. And ME. I am young. i am stll fighting my inner demons. My values and my morales arnt fully formed and cast into stone yet. i am not yet a fully stable amture young adult capable of handling relationships. I dont know anything about love. i dont know anything about real life per say. whoa m i to judge or make claims right now. no one. and at that, i shall remain and mantain that i do not have any more-special-than-normal- feelings for anyone. because i dont know what is love. This is not to say i dont beleive in love, mind you. I do. but love to me is like god. I beleive they exist. This is not to say i know what and who exactly love or god is. so, i dunno. maybe im running. maybe im not ready. maybe im lying to myself. That is what i have chosen. its a sucky decision on my part. which is exactly why i need more time to think and see.
Plus, i like the idea of the more time you invest into a relationship and the more you work on it to progress the better it will be. haha. and that is what i leave my hope in. haha. yes. that is all i have to say i guess. sigh. all this talk out of one song i wrote. maybe i better tell the story of the song first.

This picture was drawn in tamil class. i was day dreaming and i stared sketching as usual. and for no apparent reason i decided to draw 'her'. i dont know who 'she' is. ive never seen her. BUt i knew what she looked like. i knew how she felt. her life sucked. it was horrible. she had commited suicide. and now i had to pay patronage to her. and i had to redeem her. make thinsg better for her. so i drew her. after that,i decided that i wanted to do more. so i picked up my pen and wrote the first line "she is beauty written in imperfection." genius. i loved the line. it was gonna be a song. i was gonna write it. haha. i smiled as i put away the paper and that was the end of it. At night i tried writing i couldnt. i wasnt in the spirit. In tamil class i tried completing it i couldnt. i got cuaght. i kinda gave up after trying a little and expereincing writer's block. so it was reduced to another half baked plans of mine. sigh. so sad. then came the night of pesa. that night, everything was perfect. it was sooo... unbeleivaly great. and that night i went home and i started and finshed the song. so that's the story. maybe my mind is subconsiously thinking of a girl, but i wouldnt be sure. oh wells.

Knew it all along

sigh. i love sundays. who doesnt. and to top it off it rains. life just rocks sometimes. ahh. so where did i miss out. Saturday? okays. So on saturday, this blog shall begin then....



Saturday morn. haha. woke up surprisingly early. around 7 im guessing. so i played piano fer awhile, then went online, and then returned to the piano. haha. always on the keys. anyways, my dad woke up later that day and wanted me to help him with some gardening. blea-. i had piano class at 12 30 and it already was 12 25 so i said i had to go for piano class. haha. so anyways i decided i still had time and played abit more of the piano and this crazy old man comes into the room and starts shouting at me. what the fuck. so i just did abit of gardening for one minute and then just grabbed my books and walked out of the house. piano was fun as usual.



after piano i went to the park. i just felt like it. i was supposed to be in shcool by 3. and i had no watch, so i had no idea how much time i spent in the park. but apparently i didnt spend my time there. cause when i got back home it was only five minutes to two. intrestingly phone rang when i was phone. dad was on the line offering to buy lunch and send me tos chool. was nice of him so i accepted. then went on to pack my goods and iron my clothes. that end the chapter of home life for saturday. haha.



in school. i met nicholas huang and his knife collection. his HOME made knife collection. that kid is a genius in the most criminal sense of the word. haha. or would that be alex?? anyways, theodore arrived later and we got to work. the story was this. We needed to recruit more ventures to replace the troop after we elft. so we got a publicity campaign going on. haha. so we decided we need pictures of us doing cool venture stuff. so that day we met up in our venture polo t shirts, and jeans and started doing alot of posed stuff. haha. me and huang made this debris hut out of palm leaves and took a photo of me init tostimulate and jungle setting. theodore posed with an eskimo fire started and we obviously fakes teh fire using matches. hahah. dam sad. after thatw e quickly touched up the whole place and no one would know there ever was a debris hut or a fire pit there in the first place. ahha. after that me and theo changed and went fro mass.



My first ever mass. was so fun. haha. was really nice and all. but i dunno. for some reason i just prefer temples. the openess. the lack of any fixed structure. It seems way more sincere and all. yeah. and i got blessed!! haha. yipeee. after THAT dinner commenced.



wow, homecoming dinner. was dam fun. the food sucked sure. but was still fun. haha. nicholas and his communism, alex and his whacked ideas: the FEED ME sign which theodore accused em of doing; the coke pyramid. haha. was fun the first time when i didnt get coke spilled on me. then of course was alex's obssesion with regaining his losses by winning as much prizes as possible via the games. haha. non of us won any of the lucky draws either. so sad. haha. don got a shamrock and we all got st patrick's tie pins which are pretty darn cool. there was alot of other crazy stuff too which i must have forgottent in the heat of things. haha. overall was fun. meanwhile my sis and mom and cousin and anuty went shopping. girls night out. haha. whatever. 11 pm the dinner ended and i took a train/bus home with tim. met andrew from 6J on the way home. attha was in my house when i got home. haah. yay.




sunday. oooh. woke up with big plans. haha. in a manner of speaking. had plans to finish my homework, copyright all my poems and then nlog. haha. in the end dharvin calls, and i end up going out with him, arthur and arthur's bro, ryan. haha. was fun. got to catch up with dharvin. yay. went to lido to catch fantastic four after which i rushed home tooo.... do this. haha. yup. homework still not doen as expected. and well, thats about it. still handphoneless. yeaps. prefects room is nice. and blessed! okays.... well anna just called. talked to him. he was nice and friendly as usual. haha. a real character. just learnt he has a blog. read an entry on bangladeshi workers. Wow. this is why i respect him. Oh yes. Before i forget to add this: SAY NO TO SHARKSFIN SOUP. yes haha.



drinking a mixture of carrot juice and 7 up gives you this bad feeling in ur stomach and a orangina like taste in your tongue. haha. rights. i got o levels this year. wah lao. thats sad.



and in response to passerby.... how the hell do i tell someone i like them, when i dotn even KNOW if i like them. im too young to make mistakes like that. zenn would argue life is too short. i dunno. haha. this reminds me of mr fantastic. haha. all talk no action. sigh. i dont want to be like that. blea-.



I gotta go. haha. byes.

This one is for you

She's beauty written in imperfection.
The way she walks, it reflects the tension
that she is feeling deep inside herself
wish i knew what to say, wish that i could help
but i know ill screw up anyhow.
and as i walk away, im wondering now.....




A broken chord
A bitter thought
My handphone's ringing
as i swear its alot
for anyone to go through right now.
and she's gonna try it anyhow.




So she falls. Down. and i can see her as she
She Crawls. Now. and i wont leave her.
Not quite sure of what to say.
Things wont turn out at all the way
that i want it to be.
Will you please sing a song for me
*piano solo*




A sense of style riddled with a penchant
For making 'them' dissaprove without question
and tear her up, though she is only a child
I wanna try my luck, try to make her smile
Then i hesitate, i know ive failed this trial. ohhh....





A broken chord
A bitter thought
My handphone's ringing
as i swear its alot
for anyone to go through right now.
and she's gonna try it anyhow.






So she falls. Down. and i can see her as she
She Crawls. Now. and i wont leave her.
Not quite sure of what to say.
Things wont turn out at all the way
that i want it to be.
Will you please sing a song for me
*piano solo*





She dedicates a song to his ineffection.
She's standing alone at the intersection
Picking up the words she dropped there last night
Pray i knew what to say, say to make it right
As I put down my headphones and I'm
gonna try my luck at this, this time.....





So she falls. Down. and i can see her as she
She Crawls. Now. and i wont leave her.
Not quite sure of what to say.
Things wont turn out at all the way
that i want it to be.
Will you please sing a song for me
oooohhh..... will you please sing a song for me

she will scream...

hmmmm. today iw as scarred. ill tell you about it all inawhile. im gonna shower now... bleah.



soooo, school started as per normal. haha. no wait, it didnt. haha. dam. how stupid is that. i totally forgot that kyle wasnt goignt o school today. thoguh he must have said so at least a thoudand times yesterday. hmmm. perhaps i shoudl start with yesterday. hahas. i woke up int he morning telling myself, i was gonna go to school and come back home. haha. uhm.... suuure.... thats why i brought the cd didnt i. i dunno. maybe subconsiously i already planned it out. ahha. in the words of nadia: "loser." haha. now where was I? oh yeah. school yesterday wasa bitch. I didnt bring my englsih file and my chem homework. well, i didnt do my chem homework so that worked out. hahah. for the record i passed both up today, along with add maths homework which was due today. haha. i had to stay bakc after shcool with PJ and jeremy to finish it. but thats another story. anyways so thursday morning rishik menon asked kyle, selvam and marc about the PESA thingy. rishik asked alot of people about it. he asked tehdore, ben mao, ben ow, bryan cheang, mdm sim and many many many more people about it. rishik menon was annoying on thursday. haha. well no iw asnt. i was my good ol fun self. so as you figured i left my sec threes in the lurch for their blazer measurememts (their big boys, theyc an do it themselves) and i tookt he bus down for the pesa with ben mao, alfred and ben ow. haha. no idea what happened to justin g. and dominic. oh well. so we went to ymca and met marky and co. at macs. yay. he apparently finished his prepared speech so that was done. anyways we went back in to watch the rest and blah blah blah. was actually pretty cool. michelle, nadia and jas came half way. so basically we were just watching and having a good time and eating and stuff. at the end of it all marc won top 5. haha.yay. i was mentioned in the impromptu speech. and i swear he was good in spite of that. haha. so i met cheyenne and neeta. haha. they were cool.cheyenne incidentally is the name of teh tribe my scouts are modelled after. supposedly. haha. anyways where was I? oh tahts right. so dora so on so forth and the st pats gang and the south east cdc gang and the kc prefect gang and anyone else i missed out gang all went to ps for dinner at long john silver. or so they say. haha. ended up eating at BK. either way i like. i like the pies from both shops. and both ARE my prefered fast food stalls. alrights. and i went home woth no Cd in my bag. big surprise there. haha.



here is the shitty part. i got no handphone. it was in the dam repair shop. and apparently even they say its a gone case. sighs. anyways the whoel point is that now my parents cant contact me. so i got home at 8.10. oh my. haha. of course i was in deep shit. and i was expecting it. blea-. and here the really scarry thought. on my way home form the train i thoguth of the best excuses to use. so i thoguth of one perfect one. and THANK GOD i suddenly decided against telling them anythign at all. whew. they called theodore. so that was it. i kenw rigth away there was no space for any lies until i knew theodore's story. haha. and theodore called marc and taht was the story. the naked truth. haha. the irnoy of it all. that being the topic for marc's impromputu speech. truth. So my parents found out abou me goign to ymca for the pesa and that was just bad. haha. at least they dont know bout the Plaza sing part. haha. but whatever, goign to ymca was bad enough for my parents. so sigh. that was bad..... and im still phoneless.....




hello sweet sunshine. waita minute. why is there sunshine at 5.30. ah'. its not five thirty. that makes sense. its not five thirty... Its not five thirty..... HO SHIT ITS NOT FIVE THIRTY! haha. so i was late today. and to top it off kyle didnt go to school today. well thanks much to peter i got to school.... still late, but not as late as i would have been otherwise. so yay. i was late for the first time for this year. with the exception of thaipussam well.... even that i still made it to school for first period. haha. i just walked calmy into school, no questions asked. haha.says alot about our security doesnt it. hahaha. well what do i see on my arrival in school. the Sec Threes were a mess. bloody hell. you woudl think by now they can amanage themselves. and thsi whoel term they were dam good i swear! why today! accorind to them it was because it was friday. haha. loved that answer. well that cheered me up. just goes to show your never too old to learn. school was good i guess. during tamil class i wanted to finish the lyrics of the song i was working on but had crap to do. bleah. im gonna have to finsh it later. before 5 when the msn crowd comes online and start distracting me. anyways today during duty theodore, arthur and myself went to do the toilet smoking duty. haha. was the first time me and theodore was there. haha. was really funny. we were negotiating witha smokers how much they were allowed in the toilet, and we made them go in shifts. that was duty for you. sigh.
today during english mrs elslie tested my english speaking and she said i got my band one, and i had to keep working on it. no problems for me. wup tee doo. after bio, i told miss chern the highlighter joke. which i swear id DAAAAM lame. i was forced to do so by wei ket and si chung of course. there were afew more jokes which are euqally lame. like the batman returns and batman forever joke. and the swey tree joke. DAM lame. my eyes roll 360 everytime i hear it. haha. and then to force me to say it. wow. sigh. the pain of being a good joke teller. haha. as if. hmmm. speaking of eyes rolling, chris is one guy who looks dam funny when his eyes roll. kay out of point.



school ended with me having lunch in shcool for the first time (as in proper food instead of just bites) with nicholas gn, jeremy and laurel. nichoals came up with a theory how a pregnat women were a 'they' as they were two life forms and jeremy argues bakc how veryone was a 'they' because we are all made of individual living cells with their own life. so for ten minutes we were calling each other 'they', 'us' and 'we'. dam lame. we stopped really soon. haha. paul jon and jeremy then helped me with add maths before teh chinese boys had to go for their oral exams. then helped marc out with the prefecst room. felt good. hahaha. it was after i talked to marc i started feeling scarred. so basically we were talking about life recetnly. cca. golf, and how golf was such a solitary cca, and about how this yera he feels good abotu doing more school based activities and this gave him a chance to meet more friends. and about cca and he started talking about my own ccas and i dunno. it just made me think. think real hard.



what if. what if i had been like what marc had been in sec 1 and 2. alot of aquaintences but unsure of any true good friends. what if i had dedicated my life to scouts totallya nd worked towards the PSA. what if i didnt give that up. what if i didnt give up the NYAA silver. i cans till work for it now. its so possible because i jave it all done already, excpet for one or two more tasks. its just there. i can choose to grab it. but i chose not to. because i suddenly got this image of me. being all alone. doing work all alone. not on msn. not on the phone. not with my firends. not watching tv. but whole hearted deciated work. and i got scarred. because it would mean i would never have met the friends i did meet. i can never dedicate to one. tahst another one of my weaknesses. sigh. but thats what im working towards. but now im thinking again. marc surely has alot of friends right now. but what friends did i gain in sec1 and 2. hmmmm. i have no idea. what true friends do i have to speak of. hmmm. alot actually. ahha. i dunno. maybe im just looking for a reason to be depressed. i write better when i am. haha. bleah. whatan anti climax.




so here i am. tomorrow is bryan C's speech. would love to go. got piano class though. haha. and not forgetting homecoming dinner. oh goody. need to bring two pairs of uniform. one as a prefect and one as a civillian. yay.




only one by yellowcard is a depressing song. sigh. im gonna listen to 'devila t the bottom of the wishing well' now.




16th july is exco interview. marc cant make it. sighs. oh well.

she' so high.

hmmm. my memory is vague on what happened from sunday to wenzday. yes you heard me right. wenzday. i think its a better reflection of its pronunctiation. haha. at least for now. till the ignorant becom educated. then i shall revet my spelling. haha. uhm sunay... there was a bbq whihc i was not allowd to go for, which i went for anyway. ahhaha. we played truth or dare which was a flop. both dares, both phone calls, both easily found out. ahha. meera and I were the darees. if thats the word to use. bleah. its kinda obvious when you get a call saying "Iwant you" or "i want to break up" its truh or dare. haha. yay. after that we had a fire going, we had food uncooked, and we left. and i only just arrived! wah lao. haha. and i paid 16 bucks for the pit. knn. you guys better find a way to pay me back. haha. so fun. geetha is crazy. i swear. what else happened.... mmmm went out with my dad fer lunch on monday and apparently mr ho saw me. he scolded me for putting on a grumpy face. ahaha. like wow. so cool. uhm. yesterday i went out with my mom to see what was wrong with my phone. ahha. water got in. no comments here. haha. go figure. = s

it my own fault i guess. haha. well i never liked the phone anyway. sucked at messaging. lagged like 80 % of the time. yeaaa. today during PC we were supposed to write three affirmations. i to somene in your inner circle one to someone you didnt really know and one to yourself. ahha. ii wrote one to jeremy and together with nichoals gn we three wroteone to prem kumar. haha. nichoals wrote to me, jeremyw rote to me. bryan Cheang wrote to me and so did jay. haha. wow. i feel so happy. kinda liekd bryan's ltter. was really nice. he's a nice guy. what can i say. i wanna support him for his prelim speech thing. ahha. yay. as well as suppoet marc for his finals. haha.



GCP. graduating class program. i signe dup for eevrything except biology. i even signed up for english. haha. i want to strive closer for the 100% mark. i need to put in all effort into it. i cant afford to let marc or anyone else overtake me for my carelessness or lax attitude during prelims. i NEED to get 1st in englisg again. haha. thus creating a balance. kyle fer two years and rishik fer two years. haha. plus its also kinda liek redempion from brandon's black horse-esque steal of my 1st in lit position in sec 2. ahha. this means long long days to come. haha. sos ad. dam sec threes. ahha. hmmm. incidentally i saw sha the other day. bleah. whatever,. id best be off. by that i mean im gonna sign in now and start doing my homework. leaving the rest of the night free for personal pleasure. until i return after dinner for final round of chatting and thast it. yeaps. haha.



must train hand to become ambidextrous... must....

picture this

Its 4.32 pm on a wednesday afternoon. a young adolscent boy of indian descent sits on the chair where his kinsfolk once sat on. The boy's small yet deep eyes dart between the empty box where his nuggest once were contained to the packet of capri-sonne orange he holds in his hands. taking one last sip, he throws both into the trashbin a feet or two away. Finally with a rather made-up sense up pride, the kid adjusts his chair to face the screen, adjusted his t-shirt and finally cleared his throat. he was about to type.



and hello. hahah. did you like that? all that shit i typed earlier. ahha. i type slower when i eat.. haha. so i thought, if i was gonna type slow.... i was gonna type slow with some style... haha. all style no substance. i have hard that line way too many times, than it should be legally allowed to be used on an individual. Just like mean. i'm not mean dammit. ahhaha. of that remidns me. bryan lim got suspeneded today. haha. alrght. another victory for the prefects. haha. its a long stpry, but it ends with me goign home with a curry stained uniform and listening to peter's ipod. haha. yes. that is the story of 6th july. the story of today. hahah. blea- i'm way too free right now. good thing about coming home early. good thign about not signing online. haha. good thing about not having a hp. haha. man life rocks when im not perpettually connected to the rest of the world. haha. well technically sicne im online, i guess i still am. ahha. so what you gonna do about that huh? huh? whatever lah. now where was I.....



morning wake up late again. still get to meet kyle on time.. yay. and guess what. theodore was earlier than me in prefects! WOAH! haha. this is a first. haha. linus lent m his handphone again. he's a rela friend. haha. yeap. that reminds me i need to go and get myt phone fixed today. while my parents get back the key for our condo. i wanna live in the condo. its way cleaner and neater and cosier than this house. haha. i dunno. we'll see. good riddance. thats a nice song. incidenrally im listening to midge ure's breathe. hahha. ive narrowed down my prefernces to alternative pop/rock, punk rock, emo, indie and finally metal. and anything in between. hha. though of course i love the occasional frank sinatra and dean martin now and then. haha. cant go worng with oldies. sooooo where was I???



haha. school today was a s fun as school ysterday. nothign being takens seriously. miss teo was as fun as yesterday. mr tan as sarcastic as yesterday, mr roshan as absent as yesterday. haha. wait... he's in reservist. i knew that. just like i knew how to spell incest. i was tetsing you. haha. i swear. fine. dotn beleive me. anyways..... uhm, english homework AND chem homework are due tomorrow. and im okay with that cause it was due today. haha. note to self. print english stuff. haha. uhmw ait. i gotta fix my printer first. kyle was talking about joing the basker's festival and he suggetsed doing the most number of wresskling moves in 1 minute. ahha. im with that. im of coure the crash dummy. i removed the word test from the crash test dummy, as the fact is they are not testing me. they are crahsing me. bleah. ahha. but kyle's good. he know how to di his stuff. speaking of kyle, read his blog for referrence to the saturday debate thing. he wrot better than me. haha. my mind wasnt there when i wrote it. haha. plus his has less typos. so tot he highlight of today.



Recess. i was supoosed to stay in the prefects room. i was supposed to finisha ll my admin work. but noooO0o.....i wanted to patrol. see how things were going. dumb ass. towards the end of recess i heard a noise. someone was shouting, i turned and saw theodore standing there with a bunch of 4n boys sitting at a table. shit lah. why dont they just go for assembnly and dont make life so annoying. ah whatever. just have to go and persuade them. tahstw hat i though. my thinking was way more vulgar given five minuts form then. i stood next to theodore and the gu was shouting vulgarities at dore'. i had no idea what theodore said but it coudnt have been taht bad. wtf. like that wasnt enough, he knoced his 100plus water bottle causing it to spill on the table. dam dumb peice if shit. like that's gonna help him. as a testiment to how idiotic he was, he hit up his whole plate of rice. the same plate he was so protectively covering to eat, and that 'stopped' him from going to assembly. knn. rice and curry flew on me. "what the FUCK!" i let out immediately. thedore got abit on his sleeve and yaw khong got a bit on his sleeve. yours truly got the full brunt. "Ka NE NA" i said, but of course they were all dispersing by then. this had to be followed up. no shit. no way was this gonna pass. Three reasons.

1)If anyone hurt any of my prefects i woudl pursue it to the fullest as i can. just like wehn someone apparently 'bit' si chung and i got dam emotional. bloody hell. was a miscommunictaion of course.

2)If anyone hurt my friend (theodore in this case) i would be dam pissed, and i would probably console theodore while calmy telling the principal

3) FUCK! my dam shirt is stained withc urry and you want me to do nothing!! KNN. forget whatever theodore might have said to offend the guy for awhile. that is no excuse to hit plates at anyone. bloody hell. this caused me to walks stright to the office and settle the matter immediately. i was surprised that dore' wasnt too keen on pursuing the matter. but anyways. wghats done is done. and i could be happier with the result. he's suspened. you know what. im sure he's anice guy. alot of 4n and 3n ppl are nice guys. if only they could control their dam temper. its his own funeral. no excuses.



so afetr that was done, i coudl be bothered what anyone else thought of me with stained shirt and pants and i went on as usual. ahha. as mr ng said "scars of war huh? soemthign to talk about." haha. mr ng is funny. yeaaa. ahha. after school was a ventue meeting about recruiting peeps for ventures. and after that i took a train home with perter and peter. haha. yea. so thats my day so far. no i gotta water the plants, fiinsh english and chem homework, fix my phone, practise the piano and blog about my library book and slc bbq... yes yes ill blog about it.... relaaax.

haha. beat that.

yeah yeah. you know what. screw it all. things are dam shitty as they are now. so many shittyt hings on my mind.




dam phone. dam english homework. dam brain. keeps thinking of stuff thatd oesnt affect me. like the dam G8 conference of the environment. why do ic are so much that the fucking americans refuse to sign a environment treaty?? cause i just care. tahts my dam problem. bleah. the whoeld ay was arguing with nicholas about capitalsm vs communism and stuff. and my mind is now totally messed up and thinking of finding away to a perfect world. and i thought of one way. but it involves the whole world turning vegetarian. haha. i swear. im dead serious about that. hmmmm. we werent made to eat meat. we were vegetarians. sigh. go read bizzaro. its true. i swear.



mean. so many people are calling me that. mean. how useless. blea. im not mean. im just. tot he poiint. ahha. oh wells.....

remedy

haha. you know what. screw no one. why the fuck do you care about my blog. fucking bitch with no life. you help no one, you amuse no one, you are a fucking waste of space. bloody arse.



moving along. communism will fail. had a dam long arguement with nicholas and it has still not ended. and i am more convinced than ever, communism is doomed to fail. yeaaa.



lost my phone. bleah. bbq on sunday was fun. shall talk about that later. god this sucks. doing dam house work. just plain sucks. no time for my own things. fucking crappy. bleah.

i sing to her a lullaby.

Rockaby....everything is gonna be alrigth.. ah. nice music. always relate it to lying under the stars on the beach. okays. now tot he matter at hand.



Someone, change my blog template. its pissing me off. yeap. okay. haha. sunday morning. no better time or place i can think of. oooh sweet sweet sundays.



life is annoying. not really. but sickening. ah! Thats the word i was looking for all along. sickening. i want to do this, but i cant. you know what. absolutely no msn, until after i finish updating my blog. yeap. thats the way things should be. hmmmm. im addicted to wikipedia. its dam cool. fills my mind with useless trivia. yay. just like when i was P 3, young and annoying. arghhh. i feel tired....



why do i feel tired, you might ask? why do you care? i might reply. bleah- imw atsing my own time. to the point. legs are tired cause i was dancing cause i was at some South east CDC launch of ministry of youths cum debate. yeap. marc was on one team against bryan cheanga nd nadia on teh otehr team. of course there were 4 peeps on each team but i have no idea, who they were. yeah... oh well. it was nice. good debate. haha. though i was absolutely agaisnt anything taht the oppositon said. the motion was 'youth should be given a place in parliament' and i am very-pro for that. ahah. yay. good debatinga nd all. it was at newsroom bar by the way. haha. went there with theodore. ahha. tahts a funny story too. we met at lavender mrt, and ended up walking to jalan sultan road, before relasiing the newsroom bar was at Md. Sultan road. OH... haha. go figure. makes sense. after the debate there was a promo for the project pilot. i liked the guy doing the promo. ahha. he gave me a T shirt! wohooo! was good. i liked that lifestyle. teh darkroom setting of a bar. next to the SRT theatre house. watching a debate on youth having a say in politics. omg... what more can i ask for. it was screaming maturity, theatre, arts, and OH. i want it so much. i want to be part of that life. but i guess i cant for now... dam Os. hmmm. i dont wnat to be anythign other than what ive been tryign to eb lately. so deep. so true. sigh. i respect zenn. he's lives art. he is one DAM deep and thoughtful guy. no one i know in teh whole dam world can take life in all its shit and beauty as he can. a true biker-philosopher, in every sense of the word. like the story he told me of teh leaf. wow. i swear. i respect him.... hmmmm. after the debate the dancing started anyways. ahah. and by the way. and here's something to think about. the only cunt-faces with the gaul tot ell me that i was bad at dancing were the bitches without the guts to dance themselves. dam hypocrites. screw you lah jorge. i swear, everyday i egt less and less confidence that you will do a good job in the exco. but that leaves with the few sec 3s... yaw khong and michael followed me to the manjusri investiture. ahhhh. im jumping all over the place. kay, kay. one thing at a time. haha. the debate thingy. yesh. so i met quite a few familiar faces there. the 4e1 ben ow/mao blah blah blah gang. there was afzal from my lltc group last year, and his sji friends. and of course the eldds ppl. yeap. met that sac prefect/debate girl whose name escapes me... uhm. met hariyan from the manjusri investiture. haha. i think tahst about it. new ppl i met were sara and sha, and daryl from sji, and cindy. oh was it sin nee. either way, she was from the KC emdd. wow. all so connected. haha. took the train home with marc and Cin-ee. haha. taht was after we went to PS for coffee. yay. i think i covered everything for the debate, yeap. and i want a DV camera. and i want it now. okay.



jason mraz's wordplay is a good song. i must add that in. so as i was saying. kc emdds. went with kyle and joshua. haha. was good. except for the prescence of all those smokers from st pats... neve liked them. never will. well joshua and kyle were fun to hang out with. ahha. joking all the way. had dinner at long john silver. haha. i like that place. especailly its sundae pie. and prawns. yeap. the pie is the same as the one in BK if im not wrong. yeaps. hmmm. since we all missed the train home we took a cab. haha. i stayed over at vicnan'nna's house. met maygali'kka fer the first time since she returned. haha. played abit with pk, downloaded music on vicnan'nna's new apple, and we watched tv, and snaked. ahha. well it was 12.30 when i arrived so you can imagine what time we slpet. that morning siti and sittappa brought us out for breakfast at tampinese. prata. was nice. was fun. sitapa was joking as usual. i dunno how he does it. but he is fast when it comes to making snappy comments. haha. yeah. after that he dropped me and me sis off at home which coems tot he part where i left home, and called my mom to tell her i went for the debtae thing. yeap. haha.



jason mraz's "you and i both" is also a nice song. aaaah. i dunno whats wrong with me. listenign to all his songs now. rights. hmmm. today is the bbq outing with middle east/North america and europe. should i go? i would like to. but right now. work comes first.english commentaries, call... haha. yesh. oh chariot. rock on.

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AWW man! thsi sucks. So many things happen. and i got no chance of writing it down! dam phone call.


not to self. finish song. blog about SE CDC thingy. KC's NDDS. and majusri's investiture. and my legs are tired. ahha. went dancing. beat that. oh and also blog about stayinf over an stuff. yeap. byes.