I got a problem. I fight too easily. Ho Rey, Mr gil. Fact of the matter is I fight. And i never give up my case. Im too sure of myself. Arghhh! Too much emotion in me. Too much stress i need to type out. So much happening. No time. I need to come back another day. I have no other chocie. Sometimes i respect Mr. Soh. He's freaking stoic. I have no idea how he does it. Honetsly i respect people like that. Tomorrow's sports day.
I found a link between my unhappiness and scouts. Maybe ill quit. Honestly. Listening to Cannonball. Nice song. I need to sleep. wah. wah.
So much to write and catch up on. So much. Tomorrow it is.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Whats wrong is not me.
ARGHHH! Need to get that off my chest. Was pouring my herat out into this cnut sucking blog when i try to publish it what happens? It falls apart. everything which i typed for half an hour gets deleted. Screwed up lah. bet it has soemthign to do with the new template. I dunno what nuts about blogs and templates and shit. And i dont intend to learn. Wah lao. Kay i have cooled down. Now time to type again. Wow. This really sucks.
Lets start with everythingi have missed out on. Friday went skating iwth zenn. Not really. was very sick so i just sat down and helped zenn take pictures of himslef. haha. Saturday was a good day for me. Really in a happy mood. Staretd the day with piano exam. Good to get it over with and out of my chest. After which i loitered around white sands library reading books on theatre. mind blowing. Really got lost in the books. I borrowed two. When i went home i wrote a bit more of my book. Read a few books myself. Listened to music. Everythign was just so perfect. Yes. Sunday was flipside. haha. coudl feel my insides rotting. Stupid TV. Was on for the whole day. Stupidifying. Eyes and brains were retarding. Got really sick towards the end. So i ended the night by finshing my maths homework. Monday was good. I ciaoed scouts camp for soem bio thingy in dunman sec. Met linus, bet i left a bit too eraly. Passed time by writing lyrics for our band. haha. tahst funny. our band. Has no fixed members, no fixed positions, and we haev had no jammings essions ever. But we still call ourselves a band. Only claim to credibility is that we write lyrics. So in Dunman sec i met Ikmal. Met alot of otehr shcool peopel there. was fun. Th chai chee peopel were nice. So was this damai girl, this ping yi girl and this victoria guy. Alright. I think i did really well with the lab. was teh only guy in the whole row(there was two rows in the whole of the workshop by the way) to get a clump of brocoli DNA you could pick up. And i answered alot of the quetsions asked. After it ended we helped clean up. What can I sya. We are such gentleman. Though i doubt my fellow schoolmates would have doen it unless i did. Anway, Don, Ashley, Clarence, Eng Tai, Linus and myslef went to have lunch on KFC at the CPF building. We then went to Challenger. There was these two australians there who spotted me and approacd me, to use my student card. They wantd to buy this CD there but need my student crad for a discount. Iw as very cool about it. they were extremly large and jovial. Joking with everyone form the store assistant to the cashier to the people standing behind them in the queue. One was a SIA pilot whiel the other was a proffesor at Curtin Uni, Austarlia. Or somethign to that effect. Went home. Called Mr Chew. The enxt day, I was to go to Scouts camp.
The camp itself started on monday. Hmphhh. Its a matter of principles. No consent form. No formal informing me of the camp. Dont presume I am going to come. But i had to come on tuesday of course. tahtw as my day for cooking. which i did a exrremly good job at i beleive. At least a better job then David and thedore. Left early. Too early to get my advanced scout standard. Mr chew said he wont give it to me, if i left before the ceremony. Sigh.
I wanted to shwo i didnt care about the badge. I want to detatch myslef from scouts. I think im doing a good job. Theodore and Mr Chew are noticing. Mr chew is already unhappy with me as it is. The sce 4 registration with TSSA, the past pioneering training, not turning up on the first day, and my mom calling to say she would be picking me up early to go on holiday. It was actually a matter of two hours. It was not a big deal. When i told my mom about it she was scolding me for not waiting two more hours. There was no rush to go off. There woudl be no loss if i stayed back another two hours. But iwas stubbon. I wanted to prove a point. So i left just befor teh ceremony. I didnt get my advanced. Feel the pinch. before i left i told mr chew i would get my first class. i dont need my advanced. But can i really get it. Darn. It means more commitment. More scouts. And one more major obstacle. The pioneering project. Crap. A matter of priorities. Do i give it up, or work for it and risk losing out on studies. Its my swan song, this year. No room my errors.
The more i push away from scouts the more i fall into drama and prefects. But thats not a bad thing. i like it. Its what i want to do. Its what i love as compared to scouts. Scouts aint a source of revenue, aint a passion aitn a hobby an interest, or anythign other thena cca for that matter. "Its just a CCA" I quote Han Wei. Had a chat with bryan C last night. Was good for me. Helped me feel better about myself. Feel myslef developing more and more maturely. Stronger sense of identity. Stronger views. More independent ideas. More rebellion away from peer pressure and doing what i think is better. It feels alot mor emature. Stronger values. Stronger stands and views. I am becoming a better person i feel. For oen i dont let any rumours influence my views on people. And i realise i am making alot more firends then i had in the past. Also i care less and less of what people think of me. as long as i am pleased with myself. To an extent that is all i need. Corey whom i might have had a bad reputation about in the past now strikes me as a rathernice guy. I choose not to be influenced by anthign otehr then intelligent and logical reasoning. Tonight i am meeting Vicnan'nna for maths tuition. Its these small little steps are gonna make a differnece. I'm changing. And its gonna be for teh better. You will see. Just you wait.
Lets start with everythingi have missed out on. Friday went skating iwth zenn. Not really. was very sick so i just sat down and helped zenn take pictures of himslef. haha. Saturday was a good day for me. Really in a happy mood. Staretd the day with piano exam. Good to get it over with and out of my chest. After which i loitered around white sands library reading books on theatre. mind blowing. Really got lost in the books. I borrowed two. When i went home i wrote a bit more of my book. Read a few books myself. Listened to music. Everythign was just so perfect. Yes. Sunday was flipside. haha. coudl feel my insides rotting. Stupid TV. Was on for the whole day. Stupidifying. Eyes and brains were retarding. Got really sick towards the end. So i ended the night by finshing my maths homework. Monday was good. I ciaoed scouts camp for soem bio thingy in dunman sec. Met linus, bet i left a bit too eraly. Passed time by writing lyrics for our band. haha. tahst funny. our band. Has no fixed members, no fixed positions, and we haev had no jammings essions ever. But we still call ourselves a band. Only claim to credibility is that we write lyrics. So in Dunman sec i met Ikmal. Met alot of otehr shcool peopel there. was fun. Th chai chee peopel were nice. So was this damai girl, this ping yi girl and this victoria guy. Alright. I think i did really well with the lab. was teh only guy in the whole row(there was two rows in the whole of the workshop by the way) to get a clump of brocoli DNA you could pick up. And i answered alot of the quetsions asked. After it ended we helped clean up. What can I sya. We are such gentleman. Though i doubt my fellow schoolmates would have doen it unless i did. Anway, Don, Ashley, Clarence, Eng Tai, Linus and myslef went to have lunch on KFC at the CPF building. We then went to Challenger. There was these two australians there who spotted me and approacd me, to use my student card. They wantd to buy this CD there but need my student crad for a discount. Iw as very cool about it. they were extremly large and jovial. Joking with everyone form the store assistant to the cashier to the people standing behind them in the queue. One was a SIA pilot whiel the other was a proffesor at Curtin Uni, Austarlia. Or somethign to that effect. Went home. Called Mr Chew. The enxt day, I was to go to Scouts camp.
The camp itself started on monday. Hmphhh. Its a matter of principles. No consent form. No formal informing me of the camp. Dont presume I am going to come. But i had to come on tuesday of course. tahtw as my day for cooking. which i did a exrremly good job at i beleive. At least a better job then David and thedore. Left early. Too early to get my advanced scout standard. Mr chew said he wont give it to me, if i left before the ceremony. Sigh.
I wanted to shwo i didnt care about the badge. I want to detatch myslef from scouts. I think im doing a good job. Theodore and Mr Chew are noticing. Mr chew is already unhappy with me as it is. The sce 4 registration with TSSA, the past pioneering training, not turning up on the first day, and my mom calling to say she would be picking me up early to go on holiday. It was actually a matter of two hours. It was not a big deal. When i told my mom about it she was scolding me for not waiting two more hours. There was no rush to go off. There woudl be no loss if i stayed back another two hours. But iwas stubbon. I wanted to prove a point. So i left just befor teh ceremony. I didnt get my advanced. Feel the pinch. before i left i told mr chew i would get my first class. i dont need my advanced. But can i really get it. Darn. It means more commitment. More scouts. And one more major obstacle. The pioneering project. Crap. A matter of priorities. Do i give it up, or work for it and risk losing out on studies. Its my swan song, this year. No room my errors.
The more i push away from scouts the more i fall into drama and prefects. But thats not a bad thing. i like it. Its what i want to do. Its what i love as compared to scouts. Scouts aint a source of revenue, aint a passion aitn a hobby an interest, or anythign other thena cca for that matter. "Its just a CCA" I quote Han Wei. Had a chat with bryan C last night. Was good for me. Helped me feel better about myself. Feel myslef developing more and more maturely. Stronger sense of identity. Stronger views. More independent ideas. More rebellion away from peer pressure and doing what i think is better. It feels alot mor emature. Stronger values. Stronger stands and views. I am becoming a better person i feel. For oen i dont let any rumours influence my views on people. And i realise i am making alot more firends then i had in the past. Also i care less and less of what people think of me. as long as i am pleased with myself. To an extent that is all i need. Corey whom i might have had a bad reputation about in the past now strikes me as a rathernice guy. I choose not to be influenced by anthign otehr then intelligent and logical reasoning. Tonight i am meeting Vicnan'nna for maths tuition. Its these small little steps are gonna make a differnece. I'm changing. And its gonna be for teh better. You will see. Just you wait.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Karma, whatever
Karma redepmtion. What you give is what you get returned. Dont seek revenge, it will be done on its own accord. Thats what i beleive in. Bleah. Im boring myslef, with what im typing. Not my fault. Im sick kay. Gimme a break.
So was cleaning my room. Got sick, cause my screwed up maid, never cleans anything further then a five metre radius of my parent's bedroom. The dust overwhelmed me. I tried to run, but it was too late. Well, it not the worse that could happen. I can skip school tomorrow and hopefully use that time to do my homework. Backfire. Now i cant go out with Jeremy to see the Kid Central Preview of Mask's son. wah lao. Its okay. I can still do me homework.
I knew i was sick, but not THAT sick. Woke up feeling worse than before. Growing pains in my legs and arms. Stomach growling with gaetric pains. Nose as stuffed as ever. Could taste the phlegm build up in my throat. Head ache was insufferable. Took two panadols and wen toff to bed. Woke up at 2. Went doctor. Felt much better by then of course. Only the fever persisted. 38.9 degrees. Hay fever i call it. Dunno if it was the right term. Whatever. Went home. Had lunch and medication. Slept. Woke up at night. Had dinner and medication. Was gonan sleep. When out of, nothing else but, sheer determination, and partially guilt i did piano theory assignments. Jeremy called to tell me my common tests grades. 10th in the level. 6th in class. l1R5 of 18. Wah, that sucks! I wanna cut that down to 7. Its possibe. I know it. I can do it.
Couldnt sleep that night. Did all my piano homework. then started writinga book. Got big plans for this. This is the first book i have ever written in short hand. I'm serious bot this. I beleive this book will bring me far.
Now you ask me. How in the blue hell is all this linked to karma redemption. Well for one, i put no effort into my studying, and i got nothign out of it. Me getting more sick then i already was, punishing me for planning to go to the Mask's son, or whatever the show was called. I dunno how the rest fit in though... Im just a kid. Go away. Don't disturb me.
By the way, I still have not done my homework yet. heh.
So was cleaning my room. Got sick, cause my screwed up maid, never cleans anything further then a five metre radius of my parent's bedroom. The dust overwhelmed me. I tried to run, but it was too late. Well, it not the worse that could happen. I can skip school tomorrow and hopefully use that time to do my homework. Backfire. Now i cant go out with Jeremy to see the Kid Central Preview of Mask's son. wah lao. Its okay. I can still do me homework.
I knew i was sick, but not THAT sick. Woke up feeling worse than before. Growing pains in my legs and arms. Stomach growling with gaetric pains. Nose as stuffed as ever. Could taste the phlegm build up in my throat. Head ache was insufferable. Took two panadols and wen toff to bed. Woke up at 2. Went doctor. Felt much better by then of course. Only the fever persisted. 38.9 degrees. Hay fever i call it. Dunno if it was the right term. Whatever. Went home. Had lunch and medication. Slept. Woke up at night. Had dinner and medication. Was gonan sleep. When out of, nothing else but, sheer determination, and partially guilt i did piano theory assignments. Jeremy called to tell me my common tests grades. 10th in the level. 6th in class. l1R5 of 18. Wah, that sucks! I wanna cut that down to 7. Its possibe. I know it. I can do it.
Couldnt sleep that night. Did all my piano homework. then started writinga book. Got big plans for this. This is the first book i have ever written in short hand. I'm serious bot this. I beleive this book will bring me far.
Now you ask me. How in the blue hell is all this linked to karma redemption. Well for one, i put no effort into my studying, and i got nothign out of it. Me getting more sick then i already was, punishing me for planning to go to the Mask's son, or whatever the show was called. I dunno how the rest fit in though... Im just a kid. Go away. Don't disturb me.
By the way, I still have not done my homework yet. heh.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
On shakespear. And good eyesight.
English rocks. Woah. I have mission. To write two play scripts, one novel, and one shorts troy collection by the time I'm 18. Possible. Inspiration from R & J. I was totally captivated. The feeling, the emotion was euphoric. I loved every moment of it. from watching it, to translating bits and peices for marc, to going home in the dark cover of the Singapore night. If only i could do that every day. Art apprecitaion. In one form or another. At night. pure poetry. Even piano homework became enjoyable in that state of mind. Then it hit me.
The air con was on. i was listenign to symphony 92.7. If ic an repeat this process for all my studying... Imagine! I will feel good, and satisfied and be in a world of make beleive and poetry. And I will cocentrate to study. I hope. hhaa. Well, I aints tudying now, so yous ee how effective it is. But whatever. haha. I went to ikea last night. bought alot of stuff to enhance my studying experience. Should help; a soft board, a whiteboard and two boxes. Im gonna rearrange my room as well. After that is done, its straight on, non stop, pulsating studying! Haha. i quote from "Zits" right now. Its a comic... Forget it. I need to go study.
Call me a nerd, whatever. I cant be bothered. I got perfect eyesight. Score! If only i could mantain it.
The air con was on. i was listenign to symphony 92.7. If ic an repeat this process for all my studying... Imagine! I will feel good, and satisfied and be in a world of make beleive and poetry. And I will cocentrate to study. I hope. hhaa. Well, I aints tudying now, so yous ee how effective it is. But whatever. haha. I went to ikea last night. bought alot of stuff to enhance my studying experience. Should help; a soft board, a whiteboard and two boxes. Im gonna rearrange my room as well. After that is done, its straight on, non stop, pulsating studying! Haha. i quote from "Zits" right now. Its a comic... Forget it. I need to go study.
Call me a nerd, whatever. I cant be bothered. I got perfect eyesight. Score! If only i could mantain it.
Monday, March 07, 2005
haha...
haha... what a generic title.. which leads me to the thought of something, something wierd and strange...
WHY AM I POSTING ON RISHIKS BLOG?
WHY AM I POSTING ON RISHIKS BLOG?
Bad hair day
HMphhh. Or isit. I wouldnt know. I got no real clear definition of 'bad' when it comes to hair, so i aint in a position to say. But the point is, my sis put this weird gluey stuff on it yesterday and, i didnt look at myself in the mirror again today...But a few guys said it was weird. Oh well.
School was okay today. Ciao scouts early. sat in the NCC air room for a while listenign to their plans. then i left. Came home rather early today. Got piano class at 8. And suppsoedly going out with my mom at night to buy stuff form ikea. to help me with my studies. Totally. I need to do well. Screw everythign else, school is the priority.
School was okay today. Ciao scouts early. sat in the NCC air room for a while listenign to their plans. then i left. Came home rather early today. Got piano class at 8. And suppsoedly going out with my mom at night to buy stuff form ikea. to help me with my studies. Totally. I need to do well. Screw everythign else, school is the priority.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
where is the soul
Roller skating. I have not forsken thee, For when my chores i through, i will always return to yee, and no one else. The only thing that adds culture and art to my life. Thine sweet blades,and soulplates; there will nevr be another like yee.
Piano. Its not about theory. Its about playing! but theory IS better than nothing. Still cant wait till im free again to start playing again.
Drama. The only thing i am actually doing right. Watching romeo and juliet (NOT SCOUTS TRAINING).
Humanities. Literature. I will be back. And I will take you back in my arms. The past year and more without you was tough. And i will survive the year to come. But dont despair, for come JC, we shall reunite once again. Social studies, history. Its not so much the grades. Its the learning. And the chance to argue with Mr. Gill. haha.
Piano. Its not about theory. Its about playing! but theory IS better than nothing. Still cant wait till im free again to start playing again.
Drama. The only thing i am actually doing right. Watching romeo and juliet (NOT SCOUTS TRAINING).
Humanities. Literature. I will be back. And I will take you back in my arms. The past year and more without you was tough. And i will survive the year to come. But dont despair, for come JC, we shall reunite once again. Social studies, history. Its not so much the grades. Its the learning. And the chance to argue with Mr. Gill. haha.
Hey! I knew that.
Jeremy has got a problem. He's addicted to star craft. Hell, everyone is. Don, Nicholas GN, Samuel, blah blah. Cept me. Im too good to fall slave to the brain drain box. Sounds kind of like my dad; technophobish. What can I say? maybe I am. Justa little bit. haha. Failing my all my subjects. Next Topic.
Results suck tot he max. So far only two distinctions. That ruins all my plans to go VJC, is Ikeep it up that is. But today I was inspired by Mr Roshan. he didnt say anythign or what. But just seeing him made me rememebr he didnt go JC. He went to Poly. And he did kind of what I want to do(if ic ant go intot he arts that is) petrochemical engineering. hhaa. Everytime I tell my friends that, they go stunned. Say its too differnet. Whatever. Hmphh, that reminds me of 40 hours. A contest about what i want to be when i grow up. Maybe I'll participate afterI'm free. Dunnow hen that is of course.Its a essay contets though. And i'm good as essays. 28/30 fer English. Contrary to what this blog might show you, of my literary capacities. It's justa blog. My worth is not determiend by the content of my blog. Haha. A rip off from india.arie's "video". A song...In case you didnt know. Forget it...
Wait, i wanted to write about how badly i did in the term assesment. Darn. Anyway, I got A1 fer englsih and chemistry, and B4 fer Tamil B, Physics and E Maths. C6 for Add Maths. Stull dunno my Bio marks, but got a very bad feeling about it. As for Combined humanities... really dunno what to think. Its always the most unpredictable paper.
X-country is tomorrow. Alright. This is gonna be it. If I screw up, be it. But I tried. Heard soemthign about other schools joining. Dun really care. Was training recently. Yesterday i nearly threw up while running. Long story. But in summary, i was desperate to get soem training done, but went for my grandma's birthday instead. And after that heavy dinner I still wanted to do my runs. Yeah. Stupid. Now I know why I'm in St Pat's. Cough cough!
Piano exam next saturday. Shit lah. Got class in half an hour. Nothign else to do but Prey i guess.
Scouts suck. After X-country need to stay overnight and do pioneering training. Bleah. Until saturday! Then saturday morning leaving staringht fer Chung Cheng fer FDI, which I violently object to being in!, and coming home for studying.. I wish. Karang Guni man's coming to school tomorrow.
Social studies homework. Dues tomorrow. Havents started yet. Hopefully Ill do after me piano class.This is part of the long story i mentioned earlier. Its a long story lah.
Drama. Yeah, got drama after school tomorrow. Craziness. Then after X country goign fer romeo and juliet play. If you noticed there are alot of overlaps. So what. I paid fer this. Screw scouts.
Prefects. Screwing up every now and then as usual. Its honestly anyone's game fer head prefect. You never know. I need to do the plans fer the booking system, which i proposed. Soon. In the head prefect interview, i'm gonna bring the group system and booking sytem to my credit. hah. And why not. I did, think of it, and do most of the work.
Oh yeah. They said, i couldnt do it. But I did. This time Rishik menon has proved himself worthy! He is the two year holder of Number 1 in TLB! And this time i got competition. haha. Not so embarassing as last year. 1/6, is much nicer looking in the report card then 1/1. haha. ciaoz.
Results suck tot he max. So far only two distinctions. That ruins all my plans to go VJC, is Ikeep it up that is. But today I was inspired by Mr Roshan. he didnt say anythign or what. But just seeing him made me rememebr he didnt go JC. He went to Poly. And he did kind of what I want to do(if ic ant go intot he arts that is) petrochemical engineering. hhaa. Everytime I tell my friends that, they go stunned. Say its too differnet. Whatever. Hmphh, that reminds me of 40 hours. A contest about what i want to be when i grow up. Maybe I'll participate afterI'm free. Dunnow hen that is of course.Its a essay contets though. And i'm good as essays. 28/30 fer English. Contrary to what this blog might show you, of my literary capacities. It's justa blog. My worth is not determiend by the content of my blog. Haha. A rip off from india.arie's "video". A song...In case you didnt know. Forget it...
Wait, i wanted to write about how badly i did in the term assesment. Darn. Anyway, I got A1 fer englsih and chemistry, and B4 fer Tamil B, Physics and E Maths. C6 for Add Maths. Stull dunno my Bio marks, but got a very bad feeling about it. As for Combined humanities... really dunno what to think. Its always the most unpredictable paper.
X-country is tomorrow. Alright. This is gonna be it. If I screw up, be it. But I tried. Heard soemthign about other schools joining. Dun really care. Was training recently. Yesterday i nearly threw up while running. Long story. But in summary, i was desperate to get soem training done, but went for my grandma's birthday instead. And after that heavy dinner I still wanted to do my runs. Yeah. Stupid. Now I know why I'm in St Pat's. Cough cough!
Piano exam next saturday. Shit lah. Got class in half an hour. Nothign else to do but Prey i guess.
Scouts suck. After X-country need to stay overnight and do pioneering training. Bleah. Until saturday! Then saturday morning leaving staringht fer Chung Cheng fer FDI, which I violently object to being in!, and coming home for studying.. I wish. Karang Guni man's coming to school tomorrow.
Social studies homework. Dues tomorrow. Havents started yet. Hopefully Ill do after me piano class.This is part of the long story i mentioned earlier. Its a long story lah.
Drama. Yeah, got drama after school tomorrow. Craziness. Then after X country goign fer romeo and juliet play. If you noticed there are alot of overlaps. So what. I paid fer this. Screw scouts.
Prefects. Screwing up every now and then as usual. Its honestly anyone's game fer head prefect. You never know. I need to do the plans fer the booking system, which i proposed. Soon. In the head prefect interview, i'm gonna bring the group system and booking sytem to my credit. hah. And why not. I did, think of it, and do most of the work.
Oh yeah. They said, i couldnt do it. But I did. This time Rishik menon has proved himself worthy! He is the two year holder of Number 1 in TLB! And this time i got competition. haha. Not so embarassing as last year. 1/6, is much nicer looking in the report card then 1/1. haha. ciaoz.
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