半个小时过去了，
血，还是一直不停地流，
纸帕上的红点都快要比天上的星星多了。
不了解今晚发生什么事情？
我想血是为它哀悼而流的，
应该是痛的，可是内心的悲痛是无法相比的。
我知道它一定会哭，身为万灵之物的我又怎么能忍受得了。
一个太懂人性而让我感动，一个太不懂人性而让我激动。
虽然短短两年的日子，可是却机遇坎坷担惊受怕的过日子。
难得投靠好人家却因命不好而无法在得到幸福的依靠。
不要害怕，我会为你祈祷，希望来世会过得更好！
我哭了。
血还没止，
我希望用血换回一个微小的性命。
没想到当我在与billy玩的同时失去了它，
这个感觉好奇怪，我不喜欢。
我在地球的另一半同时拥有和失去一样东西。
虽然相隔遥远，但是我完全能感受大家的痛，我很痛！
我实在受不了了，
可爱的脸不断在我脑海里出现，
眼眶盈满了无奈悲痛的泪水像山水般的流入河里。
我没办法告诉任何人只因我不想流泪满脸地影响别人情绪。
情绪，压力都在我力不从心之下控制不了而不知不觉地提升不少，
不是没有解压方式，而是过于自信自以为是地认为自己没压力，这才叫危险地带！
这是太过分的隐形且招招中要害的~~
不想打回去，可是还是要打，
我觉得大家都可能缺乏一种非常重要的爱。
爱的沟通，爱的了解， 爱的想法
有可能我不是在一个被爱的环境长大，所以我不懂得怎么去爱一个人，
一些我应该爱的人。
越是在意，却越搞越砸！
难以平复的心情实在无法寻求镇定剂，
遥远的我隔离了
心爱的人，
心爱的物，
心爱的事。
冷泡梨山茶果然非同凡响，
但是因为环境的不恰当而把心情越拉越沉，灵魂孤寂的漂泊在四头无岸的海上，
看见百思不得其解地涟漪，非常有纪律地往外走，一去不返的走了。
就像失去的人与物。
血终于干了。
您的也该干了，安息吧！
阿弥陀佛。
沉......
.......重
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
天涯海角，中秋之月，皆是一样圆。
中秋之夜，
大家总算团圆，
华人的团圆。
差一点就忘了中秋节，
一个对中华子弟非常重要的节日。
星期六，台湾学会会长邀请我们出席一个烧烤会，目的是为了庆祝中秋节。其实，当初我也不怎么想去。可是就是不知为什么在短短的时间以内便答应了别人，而且还帮忙找人一起去。可能就是赏面赏面吧~~
后来才发现当天的烧烤会并没有我想象中多人，可能是下雨的关系吧。人虽不多，但大家在乎聊天，害得那个台湾学会会长在雨中帮我们烧烤食物，实在过意不去。结果，他第二天果然生病了。可怜哦~ 会长果真不容易当啊！
那天大部分的人都是台湾人，只有我和benjamin是来自马来西亚因为我们都被那个uncle跟stella放鸽子了，过分！刚开始聊天时，没有人发现我们不是来自台湾，再加上我又能随是抛上几句闽南语，所以就更加没人知道我们是特别的，哈哈！这次的烧烤会，我都认识了一些可以说是非常经典的朋友。首先，我就要向大家介绍一下uncle jeft，这位年纪将近五十的英语班学生。他在台湾已经拿过了很多个学位，现在就在我们的大学里修英语。听起来有点奇怪的感觉，当初还以为它是哪间大学的教授呢？他这个人跟幽默而且很健谈，在加上学历丰富，说起话来就有一定的影响力和吸引力。更不同凡响的是，他爱喝茶和摄影，这就让我对他整个人都改观了。我真的发梦也没想到在美国可遇见茶友，而且是爱喝阿里山茶和梨山茶的台湾茶友。其实内心的兴奋不是真的遇见茶友而兴奋， 而是有台湾高山茶喝所以如此的兴奋！！！ 哈哈, 这太过分了！paiseh la, 我也是因为茶瘾难耐才导致如此下场。然后，我们也认识了一位语言天才。听他的口音，就知道他是在美国长大的华人，他对我们说他爸爸是广州人，他妈妈是泰国人，所以他就能将蛮正统的广东话和泰国话，而且他又能与其他人一起将中文，还讲得不错。结果，我万万也没想到的就是他还会说马来文呢！这太恐怖了吧！他可以同时说五种语言因为他在平均每个国家都住过差不多五年，那岂不是比我们所谓自称厉害的马来西亚人更厉害吗？而且他对每一种语言的发音都很准，不是开玩笑的哦，中文字还比我写的美哦！！ 当时，我真的被他的马来文吓着了。另外一位就是中文讲的超好的香港人。如果他不说他是香港人，我还真的以为全部人都是台湾人，除了我和benjamin之外。
最后，我们到其中一位台湾人的家，喝茶又唱k, 那天晚上让我不亦乐乎！四个星期后，终于让我喝出了那个味道，那个一直以来让我回味无穷的味道。虽然喝茶的环境并不完美，而且泡茶的人也正在喝啤酒，所以几杯阿里山茶下肚之后，我便转移视线，唱k去了。
不幸的是，那天晚上回到宿竟然把整个微波炉给烧了，他妈的！
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Family Tree in UCO
Jasmine = Auntie
Chewy = Ah Ma (grandma)
Wai kit = Uncle Yong
Benjamin = Uncle
Stella = Auntie
Larry = Lao Ye (grandpa)
Currently, everyone is the Board of director for MSA.
Chewy = Ah Ma (grandma)
Wai kit = Uncle Yong
Benjamin = Uncle
Stella = Auntie
Larry = Lao Ye (grandpa)
Currently, everyone is the Board of director for MSA.
Stressful + Blissful Life
Stress! Stress! Stress!
During the first week studying in UCO, I really felt that is kinda relaxing studying here. People is nice, lecturers are friendly, officers are always with a smiling face and guess what, I love the environment here especially the university's facilities. For instances, there are computer lab which has free internet-access, printing for free so that you do not have to buy your own printer (lucily I did'n bring my printer), gym & wellness center, dancing studio and swimming pool. I would say they have basically everything that I need. In a nut shell, I am HAPPY! hahaha... United States seem to be very careful of disease transferring from other countries. Each and every international student is required to get an injection on the first day they arrive at UCO. Thanks to the government's awareness, I have got 2 shots on my left hand at the same day. The worst part is I still have 5 more shots to go in October and next year. >.<""""
Well, since everything is so fantastically nice here, why am I so stressful???
I would say my life is getting more and more busy then the first and second week I got here. I have 2 tests coming up next week. There are 5 chapters for Sensation & Percepetion and 3 chapters for American History to study. Yet, I havent get my lap report and lab notebook done which the due is on friday. Apart from that, I just got elected as a Vice President for Malaysian Students Association (MSA) just now. I won't say a lot of stuffs to do but still a few activities are coming up next month. Then, I feel that the mobile phone usage system is sucks here in US. They have some sort of very complicated way of purchasing the plans and weird phone billing system. I don't understand why do we need to pay for the text messages that we receive from our friends. That's stupid! Well, I bought the plan which has 600 minutes to talk on the phone for a month without free in-coming calls. Therefore, I will get charge if someone call my phone. It has been troubling me all the way just because of the phone thing. When I finished my minutes less than a month, i went ti refill my minutes for 10 bucks. Who knows, it finished up less than a day. Damned it! So, I can only receive phone calls at night because they don't charge you at night. Gosh~~ Why is everything so troublesome???
Furthermore, I have another problem which is related to the bank that I am using now. Currently, I am using the Citizens Bank of Edmond here because the location of the bank is just right at the center of the university. I am thinking of changing another bank because others provide higher interests. I wont say I have lots of money but still I wish I could get more interests if I am in the position to decide where should I save my money. Ahhhh~~~ I just remember one thing. I haven't get a pin number yet for my debit card. It was such a embarrassing moment when I wanna try to use my debit card to make payment at the market. Then, only I realized I actually need to have a pin in order to make payment. So end up I paid by cash. I can't stand myself somehow.
Actually I dont know what happened to our internet wireless system here. You will never know when it's gonna work. It will be very fast if is working. But it will make you very frustrating if is not working like now. That's why I am blogging now in the computer lab. I would like to upload my birthday photos on facebook because I love those pictures. I have never thought of having such a birthday party in US when I was Malaysia. I have been worrying how am I gonna celebrating it since I am all along to study abroad in a strange place. Some more, I got an iPod for birthday present. Wahahaha.. (laughter is abit too evil) Actually I celebrated my birthday for 3 days on friday, saturday and sunday. (I was hecking surprised!) Me and my friends went to a Taiwan cafe for bubble teas after my work at night. Everyone was playing cards and I taught them the my co-called UNO style game. After that, we went Benjamin's house again for dinner which we cooked by ourselves. We had curry chicken and chinese ABC soup and also a kinda failed salty egg cooked by a guy from China. On Sunday, I was too tired to get my ass off from my bed. But everyone seemed to insist me to go out for dinner at Chewy's place. Well, since the cafeteria was closed I have no choice but to follow them. When I reached her place, someone asked me to grab a cake inside the fridge. That was how I got my birthday cake and iPod. Luckily I am good keeping my emotions and strong enough to control my tears of joy.
There is a chinese saying, people needs parents at home, but they need friends when they are out of the house. I am grateful that I have my friends here in UCO. I really cherish the friendship that I am having with my friends. We do almost everything together just like a family. Well, we already have family name for each of us.
I'm tired but I'm joyful!
During the first week studying in UCO, I really felt that is kinda relaxing studying here. People is nice, lecturers are friendly, officers are always with a smiling face and guess what, I love the environment here especially the university's facilities. For instances, there are computer lab which has free internet-access, printing for free so that you do not have to buy your own printer (lucily I did'n bring my printer), gym & wellness center, dancing studio and swimming pool. I would say they have basically everything that I need. In a nut shell, I am HAPPY! hahaha... United States seem to be very careful of disease transferring from other countries. Each and every international student is required to get an injection on the first day they arrive at UCO. Thanks to the government's awareness, I have got 2 shots on my left hand at the same day. The worst part is I still have 5 more shots to go in October and next year. >.<""""
Well, since everything is so fantastically nice here, why am I so stressful???
I would say my life is getting more and more busy then the first and second week I got here. I have 2 tests coming up next week. There are 5 chapters for Sensation & Percepetion and 3 chapters for American History to study. Yet, I havent get my lap report and lab notebook done which the due is on friday. Apart from that, I just got elected as a Vice President for Malaysian Students Association (MSA) just now. I won't say a lot of stuffs to do but still a few activities are coming up next month. Then, I feel that the mobile phone usage system is sucks here in US. They have some sort of very complicated way of purchasing the plans and weird phone billing system. I don't understand why do we need to pay for the text messages that we receive from our friends. That's stupid! Well, I bought the plan which has 600 minutes to talk on the phone for a month without free in-coming calls. Therefore, I will get charge if someone call my phone. It has been troubling me all the way just because of the phone thing. When I finished my minutes less than a month, i went ti refill my minutes for 10 bucks. Who knows, it finished up less than a day. Damned it! So, I can only receive phone calls at night because they don't charge you at night. Gosh~~ Why is everything so troublesome???
Furthermore, I have another problem which is related to the bank that I am using now. Currently, I am using the Citizens Bank of Edmond here because the location of the bank is just right at the center of the university. I am thinking of changing another bank because others provide higher interests. I wont say I have lots of money but still I wish I could get more interests if I am in the position to decide where should I save my money. Ahhhh~~~ I just remember one thing. I haven't get a pin number yet for my debit card. It was such a embarrassing moment when I wanna try to use my debit card to make payment at the market. Then, only I realized I actually need to have a pin in order to make payment. So end up I paid by cash. I can't stand myself somehow.
Actually I dont know what happened to our internet wireless system here. You will never know when it's gonna work. It will be very fast if is working. But it will make you very frustrating if is not working like now. That's why I am blogging now in the computer lab. I would like to upload my birthday photos on facebook because I love those pictures. I have never thought of having such a birthday party in US when I was Malaysia. I have been worrying how am I gonna celebrating it since I am all along to study abroad in a strange place. Some more, I got an iPod for birthday present. Wahahaha.. (laughter is abit too evil) Actually I celebrated my birthday for 3 days on friday, saturday and sunday. (I was hecking surprised!) Me and my friends went to a Taiwan cafe for bubble teas after my work at night. Everyone was playing cards and I taught them the my co-called UNO style game. After that, we went Benjamin's house again for dinner which we cooked by ourselves. We had curry chicken and chinese ABC soup and also a kinda failed salty egg cooked by a guy from China. On Sunday, I was too tired to get my ass off from my bed. But everyone seemed to insist me to go out for dinner at Chewy's place. Well, since the cafeteria was closed I have no choice but to follow them. When I reached her place, someone asked me to grab a cake inside the fridge. That was how I got my birthday cake and iPod. Luckily I am good keeping my emotions and strong enough to control my tears of joy.
There is a chinese saying, people needs parents at home, but they need friends when they are out of the house. I am grateful that I have my friends here in UCO. I really cherish the friendship that I am having with my friends. We do almost everything together just like a family. Well, we already have family name for each of us.
I'm tired but I'm joyful!
Monday, September 8, 2008
UCO - Go Broncho!
I am studying in University of Central Oklahoma. People here is all very nice and friendly. Well, I love this picture because many of my friends say that I really look like a very hardworking university student. Hahahaha... which is not completely accurate.
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