Cameron would be five today. Can that really be true. I had to backtrack to each of his birthdays and count...is that really right, and it is. I cannot believe it has been more than 3 years since I've pressed my forehead to his and heard his little voice. I miss him just as much as I did 3 years ago. The missing is just as strong the hurt has subsided some. Time is such a strange measurement. I remember reading somewhere how time feels foreign to us because it is only a mortal measurement not an eternal one. I think about this when I think how long it's been since I've had my Cameron and how much longer till I see him again. I also think of this when I worry about him missing us. But today I will try to be glad for the time I had with Cameron, for the memories we made together and knowing that one day we will ALL be together without time in the way. 
Monday, October 26, 2009
Time
Happy Birthday Cameron
We miss you so...
And as Josh says, we hope you enjoy your balloons in heaven above the clouds and up by the moon.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
from the mouth of Josh
A couple of weeks ago my dad took Josh on a horse ride. When they got back Josh got down and my dad, holding back tears, related the following conversation...
Josh tooted and then asked Papa, "Did you hear that?"
Papa: "Yes Josh, I felt it."
Josh: "I tooted."
Papa: "You did?"
Josh: "Yeah, I have another one coming. It's a big one, are you ready for it?"
We all laughed until we were crying. I do not know where he comes up with this stuff.
A Boy and his Bike
I have been wanting to buy Josh a bike for awhile. I am so glad I finally did. He loves it. It took him no time to figure it out and now he cruises. The first week or so he would fall coming down the driveway or if he turned a corner to sharp, but now he rarely falls and he goes down our driveway all by himself. 
Last week we went up Hobblecreek on the trail. There were lots of hills but he did awesome.
He was careful going down and put his brakes on and then used his "mountain" legs to power up the hills. I was pretty impressed (not bad for a 2 year old). 
And it was such a beautiful Fall day.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
We went to the zoo to see the baby elephant. He sure was cute. 
Riding the train with Grandma.
Look I'm a gorilla.
These howler monkeys were going crazy, screeching and singing. Wes was amazed and was trying to talk back to them.
My cute boys!
Helicopter
We were driving home from a picnic for Ben's school and saw this helicopter in the parking lot of BYU stadium. We decided to stop so Josh could see it. I think we just barely missed it landing. Josh loved it!
Playing with May and Alice
Brothers
Cute Josh with messy hair.
Feeding the Fish
Giving Dad Five
Laughing with Alice
