Friday, April 22, 2005
hmm..ytd was syf...and co got silver!!!! we did it!!! dunno what cck co got..want them get bronze manz..
since they always mock us say us lousy..
hmmm..then today so tired..got 2 test during the first 4 periods of sch today..
think i wun do well =(..
then after sch..i went home with kai shin..skip chi compo writing, lit and eng remedial..
couldnt tahan any longer liaoz..was falling asleep all the time..
so i went home sleep till 4.30 then went for piano lesson..lolx
then i went to cut my hair..and the person cut till super ultra short..
like mushroom head..so sad manz..
then all my rebonded hair cut off le..=(
but nvm..no use crying over it..my hair will grow back in time one..
so er..been online for quite time time le..my dad very bui song le..
so tot ziens
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9:28 PM
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
tml's SYF already!!! really cannot believe it seriously..
juz a few more hrs only!!! ah...
everyone has been so supportive..wishing me luck and all tt..
thanks guys!!
hmmm..supposed to sleep early at 9 tpday but i want to watch amazing race..lol..after tt i will surely sleep de..
then having large grp chat on msn..with my co mates..hahaz..
hopefully can get more than silver bahz..
since christ church managed to get silver..
so why cant we do better right??? yep..
so jiayou SCCO..we can do it!!! all the best!!!!!!
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8:32 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
really wonder if i am chor lo (uncivilised)..
i mean as in the way i sit and walk and talk..
can't be tt bad till i can be said to have undergone a sex change right??
candice gave me tt 'dotz' face..when i pulled out the insides of the correction tape after finihing it..and started colouring the cover with my black marker..
she says tt is chor lo..huh??
then during recess today, candice and shuli go down canteen eat but i stayed in class ma..
so the guys started bullying me..call me dog..female dog as in bitch la..
always make fun of my actions and the way i tie my hair..
eg. i tie my ponytail to one side= i have a mental prob and wants my brain cells shifted to one side
stupid logic siah..lolx..
but well, i am not a petty person and i always kana suan by pple already..
yep..so =)
then ytd went out study with shuli again..study 2hr liddat then went imm..
and i spent so much money on food manz..
i ate at the cafe in the jurong east lib..bought Anderson's Icecream, bags of lollipops, teddy bear biscuits and m&ms..worth up to $15..
then when goin home tt time..shuli told me to take the wrong bus and i went all the way to pasir panjang..a very deserted terrace estate there..
then so scared i cry..so stupid..
but i wiped away my tears..took another bus back to cck tt took me bout 1 hr..
i'm a strong girl =)
and on sat after co i went home change and headed out with biwei, jisun, sirui and shiwei go bugis buy the passing out present for our instructor, conductor and juniors..
well..bought a huge forever frenz bear for mr poh..so cute..
but havent buy anything for mr lee..
anyway gtg le..dad has been nagging at me again..
so irritating..so bye!
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9:16 PM
Friday, April 15, 2005
have been busy this week..juz like all other weeks..
then dun even have time go get a new water bottle..
actually went to westmall on wed with jonas..
since he say there should be got..but dun have..
so wasted my time and effort..
hmm..then i went home tt day and decided to bake a strawberry cake..
and i brought it to sch on thurs,which was ytd..
and the entire box of cake was eaten up =)
i cant believe i am such a great baker..hahahaz..
then tt day went mac after sch eat with shuli and we ate french fries, icecream and drank ice lemon tea..
the more i think of it..e more i feel i am growing fat..argh..
hmm..then ytd ran 2.4km for napfa..got 7th place amongst the e1,e2,e3 girls..
but not exactly good la..since those pple who got A grade dun need to run..
then er..ytd after sch also wait for bus..then so crowded with pple..had to let 3 buses pass..
so razi and i decided to walk further to another busstop take bus..
and he say i siaoz walk so fast..
but its juz him..not enough exercise la..too bad for him..=)
and then today is international friendship day..woke up at 5am go sch early to study physics..since i stupidly forget to bring txtbk home..
end up mr wee purposely test other topic nv tell us..so irritated!
and had geog test today too..brain exploding with info..
hmm..had a turkish icecream seller come to our sch today for the friendship day..
wanted to buy one but so many pple queueing up..
so shuli say we one day go outside eat together..lol..and go alter our long skirts together..
hmm..then after sch the teachers also put up a performance beside the sch pond area there..so cool..i watch from second floor along with like so so many pple around tt area..
and i felt tt our sch had sch spirit..for the first time..=)
then band got gold with honours for syf..wow..hopefully our co can do well too..or else really lose face manz..
we had better get silver and no less than tt..
then tml after co cant go out with him since he say he go study with frenz..
haiz..like drifting apart..only talk through sms..
and while listening to lonely by akorn..i feel sad but at the same time happy becoz the song very cute!!
and i think i can start decorating the table beside shuli's table..it has becomed my permanent seat already..=)
gtg..bye!
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9:21 PM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
my nose is killing me..all ivan's fault..he pass his running nose to me..lol..
jking only..
hmm..auntie is leaving tml..will miss her..
after all, she has lived with me for 2 whole yrs..
already treat her as family..
but i cant send her off at the airport tml since i have sch..haiz..
hopefully can keep in contact still..
and i gotta try to accept my new auntie for the next 2 yrs..and learn to do household chores becoz i cant expect to have an auntie to do things for me all my life..
then ytd after co went to sirui house for fun..
and then go walk walk and i bought colour contacts for fun..
wanted hazel colour, they dun have..
so i said i wanted green colour then they gave me grey one instead so i suibian lor..
and then, when i tried them on and stared at my reflection in the mirror, i freaked myself out u know..
thought i looked extremely scary..my pupil looks dead..
but i want wear go sch tml for fun..can imagine the reactions i get..
like shuli will maybe say something like," diana! what happened to ur eyes?? they look...., ur eyebrows already make u look fierce..now this er....."..hahahaz..
okie..tml then we'll see ya??
so i gtg now..bye!
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10:24 PM
Friday, April 08, 2005
i have to check up on chopin, j.s. bach and bartok for piano lesson..so i am like seraching the net and all i get is long lists of how these composers write a particular piece of music or whatever..
search until very sianz..like a whole page of info only a few sentences are relevant..
okie..shouldnt get angry over something liddat..lol..
hmm..last few days i have been hysterical..laughing my head off at everything..making shuli laugh till she cant take it either..
here's a list of stupid things i did:
1)pasting star stickers all over my waterbottle so now it looks like a pri sch kid's water bottle
2)pasting star stickers on my fingernails and claiming tt they were DIY manicures to all my frenz..which in response they gave tt 'dotz' look on their faces
3)drawing all over my pencil box with black marker..candice see already speechless..
4)making a placard and placing it on my table saying 'mr wee' on one side and 'sux' on the other..and mr wee took it away..whole class protested against him for me..aww..p
5)writing a fake love letter to shuli tt was eventually passed on to wenfeng and weishun..and i turned from a secret admirer to janarbanana..
6)trying to walk sideways like a crab
7)taking a picture of me trying to eat shuli up with my mouth wide open..i looked like a dog literally
8)running across the street from cold storage in the middle of the night like some animal tt escaped from the zoo, with my herd of lit classmates during the twelfth night play interval..
9)jumping around like a zombie after shuli pasted a fake talisman on my forehead..tt was extremely stupid..
10)singing 'somewhere out there' in a high pitched chipmunk voice in class..irritating shuli, hafidz and kok hien..
actually theres more but i cant rmb lahz..i juz know tt i have been even more lame lately and i am driving pple nuts! hahahaz
then my stomach aching from dunno what..since morning..and i have been tolerating it..maybe i suffering from some serious illness siah..
but cannot anyhow say la..becoz of coz i dun want to be sick right?? lolx..
hmm..maybe if tml still pain better go see doctor..yep..
then love the song 'lonely' by akorn..very cute song..listen everyday will bob my head to the music and start singing like a chipmunk..hahahaz..
hmm..got back my hp too after writing a 6-page essay to my parents explaining the way i feel and why i react the way i do to the things they do..
so yep..it worked i guess..=)
anyway..i very sianz to write le..
juz wanna end off by sayin tt i miss ivan..lol..nv see him one week le..
nv told him tt before becoz cant bring the words into my mouth or msg..
sounds weird mah if i suddeny say' "hey, i miss u lehz" or something liddat..
so i write here for myself to see..and if he does see..well er, i dunno..lolx..
okie..tot ziens..
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10:07 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
haiz..my life is juz a wreck i dun know what to do anymore..
juz a few moments ago, my mum hit me and threw my hw, bks and calculator at me..
it hurts so much now, and my wrist is bruised..
i feel so helpless..
pple blame me when i talk too much..so i shut up..but u blame me again for not talking..
so what am i supposed to do now??
i seriously dunno dunno dunno why i am so pathetic..
and i have no one to turn to..
and all i ever do is cry to myself all the time when no one's looking..
haiz..why am i so useless???
everyone thinks tt diana is someone with a happy family..
see her so cheerful all the time in sch..
whole day smiling away..
yeah..playing disguise so so much fun..
i love my family so much..they really treat me so nicely..always buys things for me..always encourage me..be there for me..
i juz love contracting myself..
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9:59 PM
i dunno what is driving me to do things..i only know i went church early in the morning again today..
missed bible study but got to know alot of new pple today..was like shaking hands with everyone the entire time..knew a bunch of girls from mgs, someone who writes for the TODAY paper, a sec4 teacher for lit and eng. who said i could go to her 4 help whenever i needed help..
nice pple..
but..the day had a really really unlucky start..i washed one of my contacts down the sink..which was really devastating..becoz i rmbed myself actually sittin on the bed staring into space trying to get over the lost of my contacts..
and i came to the decision of goin back to wearing specs till i am willing to part with bout 70 bucks to remake tt missing contact..
haiz..yeah..i guess tt's it..
but luckily i can get new specs..juz tt i dunno when i will go and do it..
haiz..heartache tt i literally washed my money down the drain..
anyway, to make this entry not turn into another one where i do not lose my temper..
i will talk bout othe stuff..
like, i went lib to study with shuli after church..after a mere 30 min,she say she cold, so we went mac to do hw and eat, but then no mood to do work..
and we ended up walking in popular..for an hr..
stupid right?? lolx..then shuli spent $40+ on stationery..dunno how she spend money..
actually i also dunno how i spend money..spent $10+ on colour pens tt i dun really need..spent a total more than $20 today..
really gotta learn not to anyhow slurge..
and be careful when go out with shuli..hahaz..can't bring too much cash..
yep..so i goin out to eat with my family again later..boring as always..
since i can nv seem to talk to my parents, get along with my sisters..and accept my family..
really prefer avoiding them like i always do, minding my own business..
becozi dun need their encourgaement or care..or u can say they dun give me any..and i have learnt to live without any..
yep..may god be my light and guidance..
tot ziens~
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5:59 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
juz came home and had an urge to write this entry becoz i have something to say and my fingers are juz dying to do some exercise..
well,as u know, the world is so freakin unfair..
certain pple have luxurious and wonderful perfect lives while the others are juz subjected to a condemned life..like me for example..
tt's right..
this world is so full of bias, pple are nv treated equally..
some born pretty and clever and intelligent..while those like me are not..
i am an imperfect person with a screwed up life,and i nv ever get things done..and all i do is procrastinate..
you know,i am juz so fed up with my life i hate myself..
also, as u can see, my blog dun have much vulgarities or any swearing words whatsoever..tt's juz me now..after i changed for the better a yr back..
but somethings juz dun change at all..
esp the way i feel bout certain issues..and the thoughts tt i can nv get rid of..
so, tt's what i wanna talk bout today..its bout u..
ya, u are so freakin secretive bout everything..hiding this and tt..
u make me wonder why i even bother to ask u ques tt u wun answer..
i know i am feeling rather stressed up..
so sometimes i rather choose not open my mouth to talk..and u becum buaisong and ur tone is freakin sarcastic..it irritates me..
but i dun show it,i smile and laugh..put on a show when in my mind,its a diff story..
and,sometimes i wonder what am i doin..tryin so hard to make things better..
becoz i see u 'so often'..and judging by the way i see it..
i dun think i can communicate with u..
maybe i feel this way becoz i am not in a good mood these days..
but i always try to put on a smile on my face and urs..
i always make it look okay..
i always nv complain bout u doin certain things tt i find annoying..
so i juz hope u learn to appreciate..
becoz although my tolerance is high..it doesn't mean long term tolerance..
and it doent mean tt i trust u..in fact i dun honestly..
so yep,tt's wanna i want to say..tata~
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5:48 PM
Friday, April 01, 2005
stressed!! ah!! if this cont. hor..i really will pull all my hair out!!..
okie..i am exaggerating..lol..
but really been so busy lately..esp today rushing everywhere i got a headache..
not goin to explain the details..no one will be interested to know anyway,,i am a lazy person too..so ya..
onto what i wan to complain today..the OL..
she's a freaking bitch..not tt i wanna talk bad bout her behind her back..
but she is freakin unreasonable..
ya,i admit to eating sweet in co tt time, but what bout my cello teacher..??
he every week also eating curry puff or dunno what in co room..not one say anything..
then he gets away scot-free..
all tt bout setting good examples is crap..becoz why should i set a good example when my teacher doesn't do so huh??
and even if u hate me or have whatever grudge against me..u dun have to be so so rude as to ignore me..
ya, i am a insignificant little nobody in co..but u dun have to ignore me when i say hi and roll ur eyes..its so unlike u is the past..
u were nv like tt be4 lo..maybe u got posessed or u have pms..i can give excuses this time..but if u cont. having something against me and make my life miserable,i tell u i scream right at ur face even if u are my OL..
anyway..i am a sec4 too..u are not my senior..plus, so what if u tell ms lim i hate u or whatever crap?? nothing will happen to me right?? i wun lose anything,maybe u rob some of my frenz..but so what?? i cant be bothered..with someone like u..
so freakin bias..
bye! hope i dun have to see ur ugly dao unfeeling coldblooded looking face tml during co..it turns me off..
juz cover ur head with a paper bag manz..
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10:27 PM
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