Can I say that I really needed that hug on Monday.
Thanks for coming over to hug, which was definitely a shock for me.
Frankly I didn't realize you were coming over to give a hug.
And the whole process was so awkward.
It was so embarrassing to cry, I should have hold it in a little longer.
But definitely, I was contented in seeing all of you for the last time.
I was bidding my goodbyes.

I'm not the one who initiate and I always let my chances flew pass me.
Crushes, what are crushes?

I want to fall in love, pretty pretty please

Give me a little of your attention, will you?

It's February 2nd.

Yes, just another day, a day when you are born to this world.

Sounds so cliche, but whatever.

Nevertheless, today's a day where I vowed to really move on.

It still hurts sometimes, still hoping and thinking what do I even mean to you.

Things like, "text you ah", I used to have faith in them. Gradually, it's just became a norm to me. I know you won't do it, and you will never will. Tonight, I shall stop, stop searching for that light of hope. It'll be alright, I need to believe in this. I will mostly definitely miss you, but for now I'm saying goodbye to my feelings for you.

"Never say goodbye, cos goodbye means leaving forever"

I can't, I need to leave now.

I'll miss you, friend, pal and a young crush of mine.

What else can I say?

Disappointment is all you left for me.

I no longer, or rather, I am so tired of always hearing you say, yet you don't do.

If I were to meant something, even being a good friend, you'll do whatever it takes to own by your words.

But I guess that will never ever happened.

Tell me, how many times had you promised something yet did you actually fulfilled it?

I am so disappointed in you, I really am

I have bad mood swings. Yet, every single time I'm really moody and I can't seem to smile, you appeared. Every silly actions of yours tend to make me laugh. It's like I can't be mad nor am I moody any more. You always appear at the right time whenever I'm not thinking about you.

But I know I'll always be just a good friend of yours that you're keeping me around. Devastated, but thankful you're around.

I miss you, friend. I really do.

With this late night doing work, I kinda miss you.

Missed being just a friend.

My luck will come, soon enough (I hope)

I want to feel lucky too.

God please don't let me wait too long, and help me brave though this hectic week.

Today is one of those days where things doesn't go my way, but yet I had some little moments in which I'm thankful for.

*Seriously, my dear fujitsu, please stop all your nonsense. And do I have to say, you always choose the wrong timing.

Yet, I was so thankful for a great brother I'm blessed with.

He tried every single way to calm me down. Did I mention, he even helped me in my exploratory paper? What would I do without him?

Lastly, I would never expect that text from you.

I think you're weird.

Sometimes you are all around, yet sometimes you just disappear.

But I have to say, seeing that text, there was a warm fuzzy feeling.

It's like you're telling me that you still care (even just as a friend)

*I can't keep up with your turning tables; Don't forget me, I beg