Sunday, November 11, 2007





back to d2!!

Been watching Advent children again and upon closer looks, some parts are really fantastic, like how sephy fights. haha.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 6:49 PM

Tuesday, November 06, 2007


我一直在试，在体验。 希望有一天，能把你们推上巅峰。不会让你们的时间，经历和精力白费的。


这几天有几个人告诉我他们的心事。
别人找我chitchat, 跟我透露心事。。。难道我就没有吗？


MRT trains are actually very bored. THey do the same procedures over and over again, and its gna go on for a very long time.

The Trains are sluggish at first, but they pick up amazing speed later on and go zooooom! Maybe that's the peak time of an MRT.

Nevertheless they will eventually have to slow down, not because they dont like the speed and fun of riding so fast, but because they have to let people board and alight. I suppose they are very lonely too.. They cannot communicate with huamns, and the only time they meet their own species is that 0.01 second they pass one another. When they reach the final control station where mrt trains are parked, they have to rest and sleep to prepare for the next day.

I think they're sad, but many trains can keep their feelings very well. They dont show it at all. But that day, i saw one train cry. It was on a rainy day, dno if it was tears or the rain. The wipers were wiping very very fast, but water still kept running and running down....

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 8:47 AM

Monday, September 17, 2007


Here are the rules:
1. Each blogger must post the rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write on their blog about their eight things and post the rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagegd and list their names.
4. Dont forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

Eight random facts/habits about me;
1) I love pizza
2) I love One Piece!
3) I'm watching a show now
4) 16 going 17
5) 176cm tall
6) Loves walt disney
7) Tony Leung, Clark Gable, Jacky Cheung, Faye Wong Fan
8) Final Fantasy gamer

Yay!

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 5:38 AM

Wednesday, August 29, 2007





Another performance down, ACT 20. Which may be the last performance i may have for years to come.

"It's about how strongly you feel for a certain thing and how u portray it out. That's the only way you can get messages and things across to people"

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. "


They say people dont come back from 2046 unless they have found what they want( my version). Is anyone back from 2046 yet?

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 5:51 AM

Monday, July 23, 2007





Happy 10th anniversary One Piece!
It's not just a great comic series, its really memorable too.
Kudos to Echiro Oda, the creator of this masterpiece.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 6:59 AM

Monday, June 25, 2007







africa,africa...
ndkunda iwewe.

By now, all the hype about Africa should have been over. All the excitement over how the cargo got misplaced on the first day of arrival. How cool Matt, Ros, TK, Laban are. How we survive 10 hour bus trips with occasional stops for bush toilets. Watching hyenas, buffaloes, giraffes, birds, truck crashes, marvellous scenery.
How we pass by airport securities like VIP. How we meet up with UN officials. How we do 100 m free fall gorge swings. How we meet up with Scottish, Lebanese, Hungarians etc over pool games and beer rounds. How we can say hi to any random person. How we can wake up every morning to see different animal guests to our campsite.
How we go for Boma dinners with exotic meat and 2.02 m chefs. How we receive more than we give to the kids. How we manage to evade brunt of student riots. How we sleep for so little, yet remain so energetic.
How we look into the eyes of the kids. How i wont evert forget prema.How we are so adaptable.
How we are stunned by the sunrise.
How we adore the night sky.
How we can see the stars.....

Stars under the same sky. Wonder if the others in african team are looking up the sky. Are we gazing at the same star? If we're looking up at the same star, can we feel it? Does looking at the same star make the distance less between us? If so... I'd be always looking at that star.

Jasmine in Aladdin sang: "Indescrible feelings. Soaring, tumbling reveeling on an endless diamond sky." Not exactly that brilliant sky. Africa was a troubled place, is a troubled place and will always be a troubled place due to all the HIV, poverty, civil wars and stuff. Yet the eyes of these kids and people in dire situations still twinkle and their smiles brighten up ur day.... How did we in singapore manage to get so sad..?

PLus.. They need education alot, they really do. Let's show them and prove them how impt an education is by getting good results. I dont really produce excellent results in academics. Bah.. But i'll fold newspapers into paper planes and fly them all the way to Buseko to let them read! Just hope that Frank and the others can keep the newspapers intact! heehee..



I have awards to give to the fantastic fourteen.
Pingkan: Best old man + lyrics changer award.
Ben: Best fantare drinker award.
Kelly: Best auntie award
ChuanHan: Best entertainer award
Hewlett: Best photographer award
Huiying: Best cute award
Caryn: Best daughter award
Weiting: Best singer award
Renying: Best laughing award
Yiming: Best downfeather suit award
Xianghui: Best united nation general secretary award
Wenrui: Best blessings award
Kwanling: Best painter award
Myself: Best taking care of dog award

What people want and need is love. I'm only human.. I can only do this much. All the miracles we need, is just one touch of love. It may seem like a drop in the ocean. But that drop is still important because the ocean would be less of that drop. Mother Theresa's statement never struck me so hard till now.

By now all the African hype should have been over. On the way back home from the 10 hour flight and depature from Africa and everything, countless messages reminding me of my life started flooding in. all the events and activities which im supposed to do right after i came back. For two weeks i've been worrying about nothing in singapore. Seems like even when you're so far away from home.. things still bother you. Hope to go to AFrica again, pour out all my worries through a tape casette recorder and hope it stays there and never come back again..

PLus with blocks and everything else. Mongolia took me a week. It has been more than two weeks now.

BUt now, the African hype isnt over yet. Images still flash through my mind,



I've caught the African bug. It's growing bigger...

THe little kid who's finger got jammed with the wood fragments, i hope you're alright now... THe infected HIV babies @ mother theresa's home.. I really hope you people live strong..! the adults too..THe two little dogs @ the campsite, pls pls dont die of cold. Hope my hwachong t-shirt and track pants help... Kids at buseko, thank you all so much for what you have given me. So different.. so real..so small yet so huge.
dont cry so much too... just stay strong when you guys fall. We dried your tears for you when we were there... but now we;re not there.. stay strong!

THey say everything has an expiry date.. If memories had an expiry date, i wish it to last long. If this african trip has an expiry date, i wish it to last 10000 years.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 3:50 AM

Friday, June 01, 2007

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 12:45 AM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007




岁月不留人。12 年就这样过了。。。以前每次演出完后，都会抱人哭，现在呢？看来我们都长大了。长大了，什么都不一样了。


这几天一直下雨，把气氛搞得死寂沉沉的。不过下雨也好，我喜欢。没有雨天，就不知道太阳有多温暖。

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 8:53 AM

Monday, April 16, 2007


刚才冲凉时，突然间想。。。在世界的另一端，在海上的水手们都在干吗？

他们是在挑战眼前的暴风雨吗？
还是在喝酒，开玩笑，打牌？
还是在游泳？
还是他们遇到了精灵？水怪？？
还是他们在平静的浪花中吹吹风。。
还是他们都不在了。。。

想着想着。。才发现到自己在发白日梦。。快点冲凉。快点冲凉。不要浪费水。政府说要节省水。10mins of bathing can fill a child's water bottle for 90 days.　快点冲凉！

回去做自己应该做的事，喜欢做的事，等到把所有的事做完了，才去做一个professional水手。

这几天一直发呆，发白日梦。我希望这是我最后一次发白日梦了

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 6:59 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007


My room has been very unhappy these past few weeks. Complained to me that i dont come back home early and that no one uses the room at all. My room told me that other than the toilet opposite her, there was no one else to talk to. Didnt really take it seriously until she cried yesterday.

My room leaked and leaked until i put a stop to it by saying i'd stay home for the whole day tomorrow and talk to her. Clearing up the water, i wondered why my room was so special and emotional, because there are other plenty of rooms outside there who have owners who dont return early too, yet they dont cry.

Maybe its because rooms share emotions with their owners.. But maybe not. Because in that case, many other rooms would be leaking too. Hmm i wonder why..

Kinda worrying. When humans cry, they can use tissues to dry their tears up. but when rooms cry... .. It'd need a human to take care of the mess.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 9:20 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007


Hectic hols just passed. Back to school.

A few days ago,

I Dreamt that a person kicked me very hard in my ribs.

" wake up la".

" No excuse anymore. So what if you have school and training? Make out time for it. Lagging behind so much liao. "

" Dont regret saying you've not done enough. Not much real experience already still doing mundane stuff. "

"wake up pls."

Then i woke up from the dream!

Hectic hols just passed.. Back to school, again.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 5:15 AM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007


路上小心。

[when someone leaves, how great he is is measured by how deeply people cry. ]

你真的很伟大。

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 7:43 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007


Ares is the god of war? YA RITE. Ares is more like a god of everything. Seriously.

Anyway Dramafeste is over, mixed emotions. Like i always do after every show or production. There's always this " Have i improved ? Have i learnt anything?" feeling clashed with " I should have done more for the people in my cast, in the backstage". So should i have done more?

OR maybe its time to just feel that: "Its already over. Just treasure the times you had and keep it as memories."

Cheesy?? Maybe.

Anyway, now that dramafeste is over, next up is CNY dance, Softball trainings, Char's rehearsals, jingtuan and the august+sept production. This probably indicates i'll blog for around six more times for the year. Haha no la no la ill try to blog more.

And this will be a very abrupt ending to my blog post.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 8:20 AM

Friday, January 26, 2007


You know you want to cry when your heart tinges a bit, and when your nose has a wierd sourish feeling, and when you feel tears welling up, when you bite your lips to not let your tears fall....

i did it again, i went to watch da chang jin.

Cry and cry and cry.

like all the feelings bottled up inside just poured out.

But cant help it la really very touching.

okay dont get misconception im not a person who cries easily ok. I LAUGH EASILY!! whee! Okay laugh more yuxuan, later people think you're gangster or you are very dao. SMILE !! : ))

and pls yuxuan, DONT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE OVER AGAIN.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 8:31 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007


why orientation with ogs three days onli??

HAR!? WHY THREE DAYS ONLI??


og 22 just cant be anymore better : )


and i gotta apologize to someone... for not listening to him. sorry >< im still a kid and some decisions i make might be wrong.. but i'm still not that mature, sensible and "hard-hearted" in a way. Its happened, so i will deal with it, and i'll have to zhang da more.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 8:06 AM

Monday, January 01, 2007


Happy new year.!

Its gonna be 2008 very soon. Treasure time pple! : )

the above is so deja vu... **

Anyway, new year resolutions are as follows:

Be a bit less wierd, dao, dumb, insensitive, rash, kiddish, immature, procastinating.

Be a bit more humble, honest, and dont tell lies( IMPOSSIBLE right, mum?)

Oogle at Yvonne.

SMILE MORE

play only the classic games of ps2 and ps3. DONT SPEND TIME ON 5/10 games. CY HELP ME OUT.

kill less mosquitoes.

fall sick lesser times.

Find all the yummy food and eat them. the more the merrier.

Learn more about drama, productions, acting etc etc

Remember to treasure those around you and musnt lose contact with them.

Ok that's about it.



** scroll down to see jan 02 post, 2006.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 10:18 AM

Thursday, December 21, 2006


I was all alone in vietnam : ( okay at least i thought i was all alone.

Universal tour group consisted of nineteen people but all who have their age twice or thrice or even four times of mine. NONE ( other than me) had age starting with 2 or 1. wahhh songbo all aunties uncles. buay song : ( okay using age as an excuse but i tried talking but just casual talk : p

At least parents were here.

But well, five days in the land of motorcycles and with a psi of 9 million is quite a new experience. Trishaw rides, gondola rides, sampan rides, walking through dilapitated houses and alleys, eating food squatting in the open, playing chaptek with the village kids, praying to ho chi minh's real dead body in a glass coffin. Wow they're just the sex.

Saggitaurians really love to travel huh?

If anyone wants to be a millionaire, vietnam is the best place. The exchange rate is one sing dollar for 10200 dong.


天冷就要回家，别在 风中徘徊。

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 4:55 PM

Saturday, December 16, 2006


What he could see was the past.
Through a dusty window pane.
All he could do was see.


Very long ago, if someone had a secret, he would climb up a moutain. Carve a hole in a tree and speak his secret to the tree. He covered the hole with mud. Like this, the secret would never be told, or revealed.



2008. Room Number 2008. Room Number 2008. Excuse me, I dont have the keys for this room.






我把情给了你，身体给了她..

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 5:06 AM

Friday, December 08, 2006


Once upon a time, there was a wierd man. He loved success but expressed it in a differnet way. He loved drinking. Whenever he was happy, he would drink. Drink. Drink and drink. Till he was drunk.

Once upon a time, there was a lonely man. His life was all about pain, sorrow and suffering. Not our typical life. He drank alot to try to aid his sorrow. He would drink. Drink. Drink and drink. Til he was drunk.

One day both of them met. They competed with each other but there was no clear winner. Both men loved the other's style of drinking.

A young man once asked them if drinking was all they wanted. They just smiled and continued drinking.

A doctor once told them about health conditions. THey just smiled and continued drinking.

A soldier once wanted to join them. But they just smiled and continued drinking without him.

One day a woman walked into their lives. Both were attracted hence they competed. They couldnt drink as much as they could. But they still drank. No one won. Until one day one of them failed to meet up many days for the drinking session. The other man thought he had won.

Very happy. Won for the first time. Yay. He went over to the girl and introduced himself. He received a call.

" Hey im bringing a friend over. Best drinker with right style. Just that he's kinda

injured.

Dont
mind?"

OKay. But not okay. Late and still yet bringing a friend over to ruin our friendship? anything.

"sure"

The man at the drinking place continued to talk to the girl until he saw his other friend coming in.

But he could almost not recognize his friend. He was

wheelchair-bound

and needed a tube to feed him.

"Accident!?"




The man in the wheelchair said nothing but wrote a note to his nurse.

The nurse spoke: " sorry bud, pour some of that stuff down my tube! and we can drink again yeah. Like ol' times."

The man sitting at the drinking seat pondered.

to his right was a bottle of beer.

to his left was the most beautiful girl he loved.

He was angry. Why didnt his friend tell him?

He took the hand of the girl and

left the drinking place, without saying anything to his friend.

Before the couple left far, the nurse came running over and handed them a note.

" hey bud.

thanks

for everything.

Hope you're

happy"

THe man just crushed the note and threw it away. Until he felt tears.

He didnt want to cry. So he ran back without the nurse. Back to the drinking pub to apologize.

But he couldnt.

His

friend

died.

In the drinking pub.....

Once upon a time, there was a wierd man. He loved success but expressed it in a differnet way. He loved drinking. Whenever he was happy, he would drink. Drink. Drink and drink. Till he was drunk.

Once upon a time, there was a lonely man. His life was all about pain, sorrow and suffering. Not our typical life. He drank alot to try to aid his sorrow. He would drink. Drink. Drink and drink. Til he was drunk.

One day both of them met. They competed with each other. There was a winner. But there wasnt a winner too.

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 10:31 AM

Monday, December 04, 2006



Got people say i brooding, aiyo where got. I always thinking of nothing one la.

Got people say i emo, aiyo where got. I always so happy. Right?


....right?


It's really so funny. Everytime i hit a new peak and i look up, I whine I cry I lament. Because there is always a higher peak in front of me.

nvm.


Dear missing/s,
How's you? You're really brilliant. Appearing three days in my life, yet staying there forever. Appearing three days in my life, yet taught me so much. Appearing three days in my life, yet painting such a wonderful picture.

I really shouldnt care what people say about me

If i had a chance, I'd grab down all the stars in the sky and decorate it on a bus, then drive it with you to everywhere! cya ;)

-[[ yuxuan_ ]]- waiting fOr you @ 5:20 AM