Spinning out of control...

I was reading a few friends blogs and was inspired to write one. It has been many months that I last posted. Since October my life has been spinning out of control. I have been living on no source of income, despite my vigorous attempts of finding a job. Being a mother, it is humbling to not be able to give your child what you want. I am thankful for my Church, for giving hope in times of need.

My world has been turned upside down. Many chapters of my life are ending. It is very sad to me. I know that this grieving process will soon pass. I keep reminding myself that with every door that closes, another one opens.

I am posting this to expose that not every moment is great. You are not always going to be a super hero. But that there is a lesson in EVERYTHING. I have this quote on my desk, "Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better."-Samuel Beckett

I am torn going back to work, being excited to be back in the "adult" world and sad about not spending as much time with Caden. I am hoping to go back to school in the Fall, so I can finally get a degree. It is so hard being a single mom.

I love reading other blogs. It gives me hope that it is ok not to be the "perfect" mom. I love when the blogs are honest and raw. I love to relate with the mom who uses tupperware for a cereal bowl, because all the bowls are dirty, or the mom who had to order pizza, because she burnt dinner while giving her kids a bath. I love celebrating their accomplishments when they feel that they made it through the day with their heads still attached : )

I am hopeful that I can get my groove back. I am thankful for all those that open their lives to me as an example. I hope to catch up on my blogs. I have plenty to post.

Hope you enjoyed reading my late night rants : )

Until another day,
Caden giggles