Army

This might a little difficult to understand.

I have this fear which activates whenever I go back for army reservist. That I will once again end up in the dark and lonely place again. Despite the fact that now the superiors are completely different, and I should actually see it as a new start, I could not see it that way today.

I guess I had been really hoping that as a first year soldier, we will get to take the back seat and relax one corner as one would put it. Well, of course, this will happen to everyone and everyone but me. You would have thought that by now I would digested that but I guess some tiny small part of me was really hoping for something to happen.

Something which never did. I freaked out. And thankfully there were a few people to fall back on and a few others who are still quite okay. I am not quite sure how the 10 cycles of this reservist will go, but one thing is for sure, since there is a second chance to start anew, I should take it. No more running away, its time to grab the bull by the horns and grow up.

Even if it hurts like it always do.

A Poem.

Roses are red

Violets are red

Grasses are red

Tress are red

OMG my garden is on fire!