I am ... .

I can stop it.
There is no point in this, sooner or later something is going to give.
Listen to logic, listen to rational thoughts and stop living your illusions.

I think it is just a small matter but one that might potentially drive things out of hand.
Nonetheless, it is time to find my place in this world, since this might just what I need to get use to, haha.
I miss ... .

I am not here.

and i must say, i am a truly a selfish person
but if i dare to hope, i try and hope i succeed
for you out there are worth trying for

but sometimes i feel so tired
or if not trying is actually easier
so please, forgive me every once in a while

other than that, it is time to plan my birthday present list
:D

I didnt get to go see Taylor Swift live. i hate my sister.

So in the midst of feeling sorry for myself, I stumbled upon this game American McGee's Alice which was a pretty wicked game in my opinion. It is basically a reimagining of the Alice in Wonderland, a dark fantasy of the adventure? A brief sum-up of the game is as follows: 

Alice's house is burned down by an accidental fire, killing her family, and leaving her as the only survivor. As time progresses Alice loses touch with reality. She is institutionalized in Rutledge Asylum, where she is observed and treated by Dr. Heironymous Wilson. Alice's only possession in Rutledge is a stuffed rabbit. Ten years after Alice was committed to Rutledge, she finds herself sucked back into a Wonderland that has been twisted by her own broken mind.

I always love such things whereby you can call it artistically morbid, interestingly dark but captivating in its own ways. Apparently the game is coming back for a sequel and its fans are nothing short of crazy over it. They have made their fan videos and it is rather weird but vague interesting at the same time i suppose.

Does this fall under a similar category like all the countless zombies shows out there? Maybe... Resident Evil was fun at the beginning but it turned into some boring stuff after a while sadly. Silent Hill looks promising but i haven't played any of the games fully though. Or movies like Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street that was not bad, but the person i watched with was totally not enjoying the gore/horror lol. 

I am tempted to type maybe about some warped thoughts about my life here but i shall not. Then again, this is not the post for it haha. We may not be going Taiwan, but there's still so many things that is going happen this year. And that doesnt include celebrating every single day in the month of July. So, i shall continue to ... dream about valentine's day?

CNY is going to get awkward in a few years time :)

Happy CNY :)

At work again

I guess there's no where else to type this and here it shall go.
So you two smsed me at such at nice time, where i super not in control of my emotions due to this particular customer. Whereby i had to resort to typing that he's a cheapskate inside the system, and ruined whatever chances i had of having a smooth conversation with him in my life. I broke all the rules that i can ever break for customer service haha. And yes, it resulted in that sms being sent out which i cant take it back. But i can say i am sorry here.
Sorry for being such a coward to say it on the blog and not to your face :(