There are a gazillion things that I could be doing now, but I just can't seem to stop procrastinating. The reluctance to start doing anything is probably costing my sleeping time - and the amount of uncompleted work keeps pilling higher. (Even now, I'm supposed to be doing my work and yet here I am, blogging again after so many months.)
It's definitely been a while since I've last blogged. In between then and now, I've travelled to three different countries and I've finally started school. To be truthful, I kind of miss the non-studying days, but I'm seemingly more productive than I've ever been in the past two years. It's still a little hard to gain back the momentum of generating new ideas for my projects and basically school. Hopefully I'm able to be rid of the rustiness.
I miss travelling so damn much. It's costly yet it helps to revitalize oneself. I wish to travel, yet money is a huge issue right now - with school being so damn costly. *sighs*
"Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there’s no room for the present at all."
And, how I wish I could just slack and relax, without all the stress.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Saturday, March 1, 2014
"You know you're on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back."
Hope, is an ugly thing. It builds up constantly overtime, and when the painful truth is finally out, everything just comes crashing down. Though, hope is unavoidable. And all I can do now is to see where fate leads me to. Keeping my fingers crossed, for sure.
On another note, I can't wait to be over and done with with my current job. It just shows how terrible it is to be working in a job that you've absolutely no interest in. And the need to escape reality, to travel itches so badly.
Well, at least I just need to persevere for another one and a half months, I can do this. Especially since... *shrugs* :)
"내꺼 하자 내가 널 사랑해 어?"
On another note, I can't wait to be over and done with with my current job. It just shows how terrible it is to be working in a job that you've absolutely no interest in. And the need to escape reality, to travel itches so badly.
Well, at least I just need to persevere for another one and a half months, I can do this. Especially since... *shrugs* :)
"내꺼 하자 내가 널 사랑해 어?"
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Monsters in our head.
Thoughts. When the line of thoughts manifest into something nasty, it's hard to keep them at bay. Instead, it invades our minds and replays nonstop for days. Becoming paranoid at the littlest things, hoping that whatever ugly thoughts that found its way into our head will never, ever, ever happen. Not now, and not in the distant future either.
It's so hard, extremely hard to dismiss those thoughts, especially once you register a hint of it lurking around the corners of your mind. In a way, to keep those unpleasant thoughts away is like fighting a tough battle you know you can't win against.
Unfortunately, those type of thoughts are the ones that seems to become reality as time goes by.
Saying to be optimistic, to think positively, is easy. However when it comes down to actually thinking positively is almost impossible with all those negative ones prowling at the edge, waiting for a chance to strike.
So, how do we get rid, of the monsters in our head.
It's so hard, extremely hard to dismiss those thoughts, especially once you register a hint of it lurking around the corners of your mind. In a way, to keep those unpleasant thoughts away is like fighting a tough battle you know you can't win against.
Unfortunately, those type of thoughts are the ones that seems to become reality as time goes by.
Saying to be optimistic, to think positively, is easy. However when it comes down to actually thinking positively is almost impossible with all those negative ones prowling at the edge, waiting for a chance to strike.
So, how do we get rid, of the monsters in our head.