Revolution's not easy with a Civil War on the inside

Breathe- Anberlin

One of my best friends introduced me to this band, and I seriously can't get enough. It's one of those bands you have to listen to when you're in a B.A. mood, which I'm not quite there but it's working so far.

So anyways, this past weekend was awesome! It was just me and two roommates and we had so much fun! The following are a couple pictures we took for fun.

My roommates will all agree that I am the most childish of the bunch. That's okay with me. It means my boyfriends can be fictional characters, which is just the way I like them.

Aren't they just gorgeous? And I'm the smurf.

So, it was my first real weekend of not going to bed until 2 am and eating who-knows-what. But I love it. I find that I'm meant for the independent life. I am so much better at it than I thought I would be. And let me just say, thank goodness my momma taught me to cook.

How many college kids can do that all by themselves?

School is crazy. I'm already a third done with this semester. Only six more to go. I've found that I am the kind of person that has trouble living in the present and anticipates the future. It's hard to find the balance between the two, but I am working on it. Everything about school is learning to balance. Balance social life and schoolwork, balance sleep and working, balance boys and girl friends, balance balance balance! But I do love a challenge. Life is boring without them.

Speaking of balance, I have this Yin and Yang pendant that I wear every day. I'm not a part of that religion or belief, but I admire the representation of good balancing evil. In today's world, it does feel like there is way more bad than good, but I think that's part of why living in today's world is such an adventure. Finding the good things in life takes a lot of effort and, with practice, becomes easier and easier. But it makes those small shreds of goodness so much more worthwhile.

Balance+wolves+school= my life.

I will praise you in this storm

Praise You in This Storm-Casting Crowns

Just a heads up, I'm not one of those people that has trigger happy syndrome when it comes to cameras. I am more of a writer. But, I will try to snap a few shots of my life here and there.

So anyways, onto the music! Since it is one of my addictions, each title and focus of my posts will most likely revolve around a song. I will run out of feelings before I run out of music. For today, I chose one of my all time favorites from one of my all time favorite Christian bands. I am most definitely not one of those people that listens exclusively to religious music, but over the years I have found some amazing songs by people that love my Heavenly Father as much as I do. This is one of those songs. My favorite lines are:

And it's still raining, 
But as the thunder rolls, 
I barely hear your whisper through the rain
I'm with you

I have had a semi-rough time adjusting to solitary college life. I love it here and I love being in a place I feel safe to stretch my wings, but it has been rather lonely and a tad stressful. I have had a heavy work load, and not much time to try to make friends. Socializing has always been difficult for me, and everyone here seems to have a best friend already. All of my previous best friends have all deserted me, and I do have some trust issues. But being surrounded by people that have the same values I do and are striving to be the kind of person I want to be has just made me lean on my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ so much more. I feel so much closer to Him and so much more at peace with the amount that I have had to lean on Him these past few weeks. At first, I was skeptical. I thought that what I needed was miniscule to what other people needed or that I was just being silly, but it got to the point where I would kneel down at night and just cry to Him, asking Him to just help me. I didn't quite know what I needed, but He did. And day after day He sent me these little messages and signs to show me that I am not alone, and that I have a purpose. Today I was having a panic attack about having too much to do, and I was walking home, praying that I would figure out what I needed to do, and this wave of calm just washed over me. I felt the wind brush through my hair, and I could just feel Him.

Even now I can't describe the happiness I feel at knowing He is rooting for me, always there and willing to help me with the smallest little problems. Since moving here four weeks ago, I have talked to Him more than anyone else, and I just know that being here, I will be able to do amazing thing with Him on my side. He is my best friend.

I will praise you through this storm,

Introducing me

Welcome to my blog! My name is Kayla. Let me tell you a little bit about me.

I love the Ninja Turtles. Leo was my first crush (and still is).

I love to draw (mostly ninja turtles).

I'm addicted to pizza, peach rings, and Dr Pepper. But, sadly, I am a poor college student and forced to live off of Spaghetti-oes and re-fried beans. Yum.

I am an aspiring medical illustrator. I love science (mainly biology) and I love to draw. The perfect combination.

My favorite person in the whole world is my mom. She rocks my socks.

I want to live in New York City. So. Flippin'. Much.

I am a dwarf/smurf/shortie. Life's better down here.

I love being outside. My favorite place to be (besides NYC) is Yellowstone. And watching wolves is the best part of being there.

I am partially deaf, and deaf jokes are the best.

I love to write (again, mostly about Ninja Turtles) and daydream.

Hockey is my favorite sport.

I am a huge nerd, and Ned from 17 Again is my ideal husband.

I'm also addicted to music, and thankfully Spotify doesn't cost anything, or I'd be in trouble.

Welp, that pretty much sums up the fun parts of me. I guess we'll see how motivated I am to update this on a regular basis in the next few weeks. Peace.