Thursday, April 22, 2010
i don't know where to start, because lots of things have been going through my mind lately. perhaps, this blog can act as an avenue for me to ventilate my thoughts. i felt that im no longer my usual self where the norm of cracking of jokes, being random and the ease of relating with others in a conversation is absent. i felt becoming more introvert and reserved than i used to be. it may be my imagination or being too sensitive, but certainly im finding it difficult to relate with friends now in a conversation. apparently i don't think anyone understands what im going through and i guess im all alone. history merely repeats itself and i've given up trying. and no, this is not meant to be a melancholy post or whatsoever. just a mere reflections on my emotional thoughts. however anti-social i may be currently, i still value all my friendships and i will be there for all whoever needs listening ears or advices, i promise.
the main cause of my such thinking may be due to my reminisce on my past wonderful nostalgic memories. it may be rather naive for me to be thinking that such wonderful moments can still remain as it is. but no matter what, the saying stays true. the only constant is change. theres always changes in the lifestyle you'll be having, the people you will meet, the time u will have with your different cliques, and even the type of person you are. however hard u may be trying to stop change from occuring, it will be futile as the clock never cease to tick, memories continues to fade, friendship can be distancing or the antithesis, aging persist within humanity.
on a lighter note, apparently im one of the top 15 performers in my school for 2009 GCE A levels and together with me, there are 3 more from my class 07b2, namely jasden, shih hui and victoria and at the same time i would like to congratulate them regarding their hardwork paying off, not to mention that they are smart. but unfortunately i'll not be able to attend the institute day on 8th may to receive the award. oh well. as for my university admission, so far i've not receive any news from ntu and nus which kind of makes me worry, but tmr at 0930 i have an interview with smu school of accountancy. even though its the course that i desire, but i dont really like smu due to the competitive culture in the sch, the lack of sporting facilities in smu and probably because of the campus is very dispersed, might be lacking of campus life in my opinion. nevertheless, wish me luck.
my professional term in specialist cadet school is coming to an end after my overseas training. duration of the trip(classified), time frame(classified), location(classified), flight(classified). nonetheless, i'll be looking forward to combine arms term and after which would be the graduation parade, getting my rank. thus that would be what keeps me going and endure through the overseas training. oh yea, my tp are dated on the 17th june! i hope i can pass this time round, my 2nd try!
all in all. i would wish to reiterate that im not emo, merely stating out how im feeling. it doesnt really affect me that much. i cant say if im still as optimistic as before but im certainly not pessimistic. so dont worry so much! rmb to smileee as usual guys. :)
TianShui was here =D
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