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Blogged on : Saturday, June 15, 2013
Blogged at : 12:15 AM
Just really glad that the blog havent been removed.
Could just take this little space to vent and complain a little.
Who knows? Maybe she'll be here reading all my vents.
To be in a point of direct tone,
i've been hurt, i've been abandoned.
but why? why do i still feel so much for you?
I tried giving myself some time.
Some time to lead my own life without you.
What i realized is that it's getting harder each day.
Every time i read a tweet that you post,
Sad. Tired. Sick. Moody.
My heart would automatically sink.
心软? Totally.
I asked myself, if i'm stupid?
Stupid to still care so much..
My heart responded. No.
It's what ive been doing,
it's what that i want to do,
and what i need to do.
Fact:
I miss you. hell of a lot.
its like, every single thing that i do, will remind me of you.
lets just name some of the basic things i do daily..
Sleeping: Dreaming of you.
Before sleeping: hugging the pillow you gave to me.
Bathing: putting on clothes that you bought for me.
Playing Computer: Using the keyboard that you bought for my birthday.
Going out: The sling bag you bought me for my birthday.
Working: Reminds me of us working together.
Taking bus: Looking at the empty seat beside me that you usually sit.
Using my phone: Would randomly just pop my mind to think about you.
I have been trying, trying real hard to keep myself busy.
Hoping that one day, i'll slowly forget and start moving on.
But as i looked at the calendar, i've got mixed feelings coming in.
1st July's approaching.
I don't know if it'll affect you or not, but i got affected A LOT.
Happy memories that we have keep coming to me.
While thinking back was putting a smile on me.
But when i came back to reality, sane, awake,
i have to face it, that it's no longer the same..
Every night when the time hits 12,
its another day nearer to the date.
Are there anything i can do? on this Special day?
Friends that have been enlisting this week.
They all got something i got real jealous'd with.
Shaving their heads before going in,
having their love one there to witness their entry to NS.
Me? I'm all lonely, hoping that things would get better, maybe one day..
Really not sure, and wanna know how have you been doing.
I wanna know what youre thinking.
Am i still there in your heart?
I really wish to know.
Because ultimately, no matter what happens,
you still own my heart.
Owning like a fucking champ.
Jaylus ):
Blogged on : Monday, May 13, 2013
Blogged at : 4:02 AM
All that i've got to say is on this song.
Blogged on : Sunday, May 5, 2013
Blogged at : 3:03 AM
This photo was taken last year september,
when me and my dear baby girl went over to USS.
"I am, and always be happy when i'm around you,
'cause you always have the ability to make me happy."
--
Woke up rather early at 7am today, feeling kinda retarded waking up so early.
guess what i did? hehe, just went back to sleep.
After that woke up, as usual, first thing check my whatsapp.
Always bringing up my smiles first thing in the morning,
always giving me the motivation to move on with the day, happily! :D
Today's the #Day7 where my dear baby bibi went Japan for holiday.
My past 6 days was past with a lil misery.
Couples that appears infront of me exchange hugs and kisses.
and all i could do was to watch and envy.
Really hope that the days past faster and i would be there,
at Changi Airport, fetching my dear bibi from the flight.
Went to meet BoonKeong at around 5pm today to go over to bugis!
Went to look around at BugisJunction to walk around for a lil,
before finally moving over to Bugis+ to look for jobs.
Wasn't a really great timing as it was quite crowded.
on a Saturday evening some more. hahaha.
so what i did was just walk around and look at them F&B shops.
After that took train back to Changi Airport to have dinner.
Ate KFC w boonkeong and i ate the ultimate zinger box!
although i just recovered from sorethroat, flu and cough,
but, YOLO, i will just have to drink more water after that. haha!
Went to look around for starbucks but they were all really crowded as well!
so as i shared my story of working at Earle's with boonkeong
we slowly moved towards T3 and to the restaurant.
As we slowly approach the restaurant, some memories struck me.
Memories of me working at that restaurant,
fun or tiring, slack or busy.
all came back when i was sharing my working story with boonkeong.
I Might be going back there to work.
depending on how much they are willing to pay me,
i have convinced myself,
it will be better to work there since i already have the experience.
As well as some encouragement given by my dear baby girl,
i think, i may go back and work. :P
Finally, before going home, talked w my bibi over the phone using Tango.
Was really nice to hear her voice, even thought its for awhile.
my heart aches when i heard her soft weak voice.
She's sick, on medication, having flu.
kinda sad not being able to be there and take care of her.
will be going to have Dim Sum buffet with my family tomorrow.
to celebrate mother's day in advance.
think im gonna eat as much as i can and fill my stomach!
A pity my dear bibi isn't able to join us,
but i promise, will bring her there one day and eat together! :D
I miss you, i really do.
i wished, i was able to hug you now.
ive been thinking of you every moment,
every single thing i do, it reminds me of you.
i love you for who you are,
i just wish for you to be happy. ♥
Jaylus (:
Blogged on : Friday, May 3, 2013
Blogged at : 1:12 AM
Got this photo that we took when we were younger!
i went back to my facebook and saw this photo which i thought was damn nice!
me looking a little dashing, and my dear baby girl look so cute! :D
Yupp. So today was #Day3 that my dear bibi is at Japan.
Definitely missed her lots, i even dreamt of her! :P *secret!*
Had my last event, IIT Dialogue today (was day one, one more tmrw)
It went quite well, and the attendance was considered not bad!
saw quite a lot of familiar faces that want to run as a main comm!
Not bad! (Willie, Cintaka, Sylvester, PaoHup...)
Tomorrow will be the second day of the event,
as well as, probably the last day as a Management Committee (Main Comm) AY12/13.
Hopefully there will be more familiar faces on tomorrow's session!
Other than IIT Dialogue,
Me, Michelle & Lyo held our last iAwesome together today!
As usual, its captain's ball again! HAHAH!
However, this time round, there was quite a big number of people!
got around 40+ if im not wrong? haha, lots to handle!
So what i did today during iAwesome? Joined in to play! :P
Had my fun time with my subcoms for one really last time!
quite a few new born freshies were here as well, so played together!
However, what saddens me today happens after iAwesome..
I left my phone in the clubroom to charge while i went for iAwesome.
After i came back, Vny (Who was in the clubroom clearing up),
told me that she heard my phone ring and did not dare to pick it up!
The moment i heard that, i quickly picked up my phone to check it!
I was right.. My dear bibi called me and i wasn't there to pick it up!
I missed a chance to talk to my dear baby girl, i was really sad.
She had to sleep early, so i guessed she would only be able to see my messages the next day.
However, i told my self to be happy, at least i receive the messages she sent me!
So after that went to have late dinner with some of them.
(Lyo, ZheHao, Vny, BoonKeong, PaoHup, KahWei)
Ate at haji kadir, even though i still have cough, i just ate! :P
cause i was too hungry!
I remembered once my girlfriend told me before..
"Not hungry also must eat something!"
then at that time i was really hungry, so i just ate!
even though i still have cough and just recovered from flu and sorethroat!
Oh my dear bibi, i miss you, i miss you so bad.
When i realised that i missed your call,
i totally fall into sadness.
but don't you worry, i will still be happy.
because i know i still can hear your voice,
maybe the next day? or the next next day!
just wanna say i will miss you,
and whatever you do, or i do,
all i want is you to be happy.
I love you bibi, and i'll miss you. ♥
Jaylus (:
Blogged on : Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Blogged at : 1:21 AM
so finally after a good night trying to retrieve the password,
i finally approached my dear bibi to help me with the reset of password. :X
it really have been a long time since me,
or my dear baby girl update this old old blog.
So yesterday after sending my dear bibi off to Japan,
i went over to pasir ris interchange to meet up w BoonKeong.
We sat at the playground, listened to some random music,
and basically just hangout and chitchat (mostly talking cock).
So while we walked over to the bus 3 bus stop,
i went to check iris, and it showed that the last bus (bus 3A),
will be arriving in 16 min time.
So we both walked over slowly, talking on the way.
Sat at the bus stop, for almost 10mins and was getting alittle inpatient.
So i checked iris again and they said, "Not operating now"
OHW congratulations cab liao lor, heart really was pain. :/
The today, first thing i wake up in near afternoon,
checked whatsapp and my dear baby sent me a good morning msg.
I was really really happy and it really made my day.
So as usual, took my time and went to school.
When i reached school and our iitsc clubroom,
i realised that there's quite some people inside.
and i saw boonkeong inside, and i asked him,
"who are these people? why some never see before one?"
so he replied me saying that those are people from Ophix
they are meeting in the clubroom before going for their Ophix dinner.
Y'know, that was still find and i'm okay with it.
but what happened is that slowly, one by one of them,
start coming into the clubroom. freshies, OLs, just slowly start to come in.
so the clubroom is like filled up with so many people,
didnt count, but couldve definitely reached at least 25.
After that then i went off to meet JingYang, Alwinson and JiaJie at opp east gate bus stop.
we took bus 291 all the way till tamp while some of the others already reached.
we ate this restaurant called the "Suki-ya"
that me and my dear baby bibi went there for 2 times before.
When i walked into the restaurant, memories starts to fill my mind.
We were split into 2 tables, 5 person to each table.
adding together we almost ate 40 plates of meat! (chicken, beef, pork)
insanely crazy right?! hahaha!
After the filling dinner, we went over to Tampines Sports Complex.
Then while walking over to the Sports Complex,
i talked over the phone w my bibi!
was really really nice to be able to hear her voice.
We chatted through the app called Tango.
And i was really happy that she sound like she's enjoying herself over at Japan!
The group of us then came to settle down over at some area near the playground.
Sat there, talked cock, played w some stray cats,
we were really noisy and somehow getting alittle crazy!
We didnt realise that the time was already 11+ while we were having fun!
then finally we ended off our day, all going back home.
But we had an agreement, which is to play TF2 together tonight!
oh my dear bibi, the actual reason why i suddenly
wanna rebuild this blog is because,
this blog was something that we build it up together,
and i just wished that we could let each other know,
what the other person is doing and things.
I love you, and i always do.
You will always be the only one i love.
and i really missed you, lots and lots!
Jaylus (:
Blogged on : Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Blogged at : 12:10 AM
HAPPY 20TH MONTH ! :D
Hhahahahaha ! I officially revived this blog today ! :D Gosh ! Almost forgotten the password and username ! Hah ! But i still got in !Oh bibi ! Im faster than you ! I update first ! :DHees ! Today as usual, track training !Ran on the track today !But timing not as good ! But i will do my best to improve !Lunch was with my awesome bibi !Having awesome yong tau foo !Bibi's on diet ! Ate fruits !Made me feel so fat !Send me to school to collect my CMSK report !Hhahah . To my surprise, the results was not bad !Hahah . :D yay ! Okayee, im going to bed now !Byeh peeeps ! Update tmr ! :DBibi, 20 months & 7 days now .
It is not easy and sometimes sacrifices are made .
But trust me bibi, i will make those sacrifices worth it
and make your life feel with laughter and joy .
I will prove to you that you wont regret being with me .
Let us continue to walk down this long journey together .
I love you bibi . :D
Blogged on : Sunday, February 14, 2010
Blogged at : 7:22 PM
Yay ! Pics time !
Mahahahahaha . :D
