8.22.2004

was out in town today.. weather was soooooooooo hot. walked aimlessly in town n frens suggested goin cine to rot.. so we braved thru the VERY HOT weather by walkin v v fast, nearly melted under e hot sun. hl said he saw me n i ZOOMED past taka fountain... haha didnt get to see him in e end even tho i walked back again! haha thought he melted under e sun while promotin phones.. or eatin snake somewh.. oops! ;p

saw an interestin ad. SLOW is a four letter word Nike. hahah bet frens who call me slow muz be laffin now. publicizin for me too eh? (",)

had a bad encounter today and got freaked out by a lizard. not goin into details coz the thought of it makes me feel uneasy. wonder how i'm goin to take the lift next time. can film it into a scary movie. .. aahhh HELP. hmmm.. shall not keep thinkin abt it. >.< -ERASED- hmmm.. maybe the fact that i haf selective short term memory will make me feel better?? coz i will forget it soon. HOPEFULLY.

Queen scribbled at 12:23 AM. +++

8.21.2004

abit clearer of wats happenin.. n no longer that confused.. life's journey is long n nobody can predict e future, juz take things as it comes... thinkin too much into a problem might juz lead to more problems.. "things always happen for a reason" so shall not think too much. Juz like solvin a maths prob, a easy qn it may seem, however u think of all complicated ways to solve it, assumin that things arent that simple..

sometimes u gotta believe that things are simple and dun try to complicate them.. as it will lead to more n more confusion...............

however in studies, everyth juz seems COMPLICATED, no matter how i view the tutorial qns/ lecture notes. haha muz admit that i'm slow. but i'm not stoppin. coz i noe that once i stop, the finishin point will be even further away.


Queen scribbled at 1:00 AM. +++

8.16.2004

a short meetin with some1 that i totally didnt expect. the msg juz came at the pt when i was about to board the bus.

happy to meet up but of coz some unhappiness caused as a result too.

i dunno how i feel now.

recollection of all the memories...

lost. maybe i think too much.

WN! SHD STOP IT. >.<"

i tried.

the best way to think of solutions to all problems is NOT to think at all. a form of escapism u might say.

such a coincidence that some things are so familiar. n i cant help but start to wonder.

cant see wats ahead of me.

Queen scribbled at 8:01 PM. +++

8.15.2004

Things always happen at the least expected time. when u wish for someth to happen, it will only happen when one day, u forgot that u wished it had happened. saw someone online n talked for some time.. realized it has been long since we last contacted... was supposed to meet up last week but someth cropped up n i forgot about it.

maybe it shd stay this way?

one thing i'm certain, e memories will stay forever. as it was someth significant n someth that has left a big impact in my life..



too many maybe(s), too many questions that i dared not ask.


Queen scribbled at 9:24 PM. +++

8.05.2004

Had a bad start today... coz i met one of my sem 1 classmate while goin for class. this is how our conversation goes. already didnt haf a gd impression of him durin first yr, he was quite arrogant. maybe he was tryin to act cute n be funny. but i cant take it.

Him: Hey~
Me: Hihi..! so how r u?? where are u streamed to??
Him: MPE, wat about u?
ME: EEE
Him: wah!
-silence for a while-
Him: Aiya..EEE, die already la.
*me started to be pissed, first thing in the morn he said someth like that. kinda spoilt my day*
Me: hey.. dun anyhow say leh. i alr v stressed leh
Him: huh? i think watever schools u are streamed to, u will be the same. u will still be stressed as usual.
*tried to be funny but his remarks seem sarcastic. hope he can disappear and get out of my sight.*
That was sooo "encouraging" ! >.<
*feel awkward and didnt want to talk to him after that... said bye.*

After he left, i wished i didnt meet him.

After my lesson ends, he walked past me again!

*gave him a "huh? U again?! look* and said i'm in a hurry

OMG, guess i will be seeing him every thurs from now on coz he will be usin the same path. will avoid as much as i can. n keep conversation short. Nopezz... no conversation at all.
SEE NO EVIL, HEAR NO EVIL, SPEAK NO EVIL

IRRITATED.

but alright now. hehee..
will survive....



Queen scribbled at 10:34 PM. +++

8.03.2004

ahhhhhhhhhhh~ had the most stressful tutorials n lab.. this is e beginnin of my nitemares.. entered a tutorial class with my classmate n guess wat! sooooooooooo many scholars in the class, mostly china people.. n indonesia. OMG! they did all the tutorial questions. one of my fren asked the scholar for a maths solution n he said,"Huh? i dun haf the workings/steps for this solution.. i only haf e answer." omg. that means he process all the workin in his brain!?

One more stressful thing to add on.. the electric circuits tutor who taught me last sem, is my tutor for this yr's engineerin maths! Sighs.. 1st yr attenting her tutorials was disastrous, she is someone quite blur n juz teaches wat is in the transparencies, anyth beyond her transparencies, she cant answer. Was prayin n prayin that we wont get her but.... >.< color="#ffff00" size="5">stress

Laboratory today didnt turn out that well. my partner was juz as lost as me. n we were juz tryin all sorts of places to connect the wires into the bread-board. RISKED BEING ELECTROCUTED. Lab technicians gave up on me n my partner coz we kept askin questions.. n even when there was no questions, the technician juz came to us and SIGHs away.. it muz haf been the invisible question marks that we gave with our LOST looks.


TOTALLY LOST!
NO MOOD.
Queen scribbled at 8:21 PM. +++

8.02.2004

TUTORIALS have started! SIGHs.

TIME NOT ENOUGH

Modules that i m taking this sem.

Engineering Mathematics (ahh.. still dun understand wat is FOURIER SERIES. dun understand tutorials as well.. Rating 2/10)
Signals & Systems (still quite ok with this course, lecturers can explain well. Rating 5/10)
Laboratory 2a (hate it. 3 hrs a week. always hoping that 3 hrs will pass v fast. lab report will make me go crazy! rating 3/10)
Life Sciences (exams will be MCQ.No tutorials for this mod. Lectures are juz so boring. Juz read from textbook. thats my seniors' advise. hehe.. rating 7/10 )
Maths 1 (my yr 1 subj that i haf to retake. damn stressed now, coz they changed the syllabus! tutorials questions are no longer the same.. new tutorials n i got no reference! rating 4/10)
Statics (very tough................ rating 4/10)
Engineering Chemistry (no background durin A levels. lecturer cant express well, thot that i could pass this module last sem, was confident, paid $10 to review this subj. but still failed. rating 5/10)
Communication Skills (hmmm.. project work. no comments yet. but time consuming...rating 4/10)

Where m i to find time?????????????????????????

1st week of orientation has passed. its time for proper sch work. Sigh.. tutorials makin me crazy.. n sleepy at the same time. Been staring at the questions but seems to have no solutions...tutorials' tmr.. sighs..shall pay attention in class den.. hahaa hmmmmmm... better catch some sleep.. got lab tmr, Electrical lab staffs are mean pple.. sigh.. hope all turns out well tmr! *prays*
Queen scribbled at 11:14 PM. +++