=-Aquarian-=







Queen scribbled at 10:10 PM.
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haven been updatin lately.. gettin quite lazy.. so i will make a short 1...

A Qn to leave u ponder......"if u come across 2 guys, will u choose the one whom u always think of when u r happy.. or would u choose the one whom u always think of when u r sad?"

my answer is.. i will choose the one whom i think of when i m sad.. coz this shows that he will always be there to listen to me n cheer me up when i m down..

hmm..wat about u?

Queen scribbled at 2:31 AM.
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12.27.2003

juz talked to 2 of my juniors who are experiencing love problems now.. hmm how troublesome relationship can get so its still better to remain single.. Benefits of being single : Freedom to look at cute guys.. Freedom to haf crushes.. Freedom to go out with frens... juz FREEDOM~ =)

Queen scribbled at 2:35 AM.
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12.24.2003

"A CHAMPION IS NOT SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT FAIL, BUT SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT GIVE UP...Perservere & Be Brave...!" a msg from my art teacher..


Queen scribbled at 12:07 PM.
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wat happened to my text colour of e previous blogs? wonder how come it became orange... hmmmm... strange~ ahhh.. wanted to blog more.. but comp hanged! again! sigh sigh.. stupid comp.. irritated me again.. wanna get a laptop! n a digicam! muz start saving up now.. hehe can do many things with a digicam.. wanna take lots of artistic shots, n wanna take e sceneries... everyth.. sometimes photography can be a good way of expressing thoughts. hmm everyth abt art is juz soo gd.. ! haha kk.. to my fren who's feelin a lil down... hope things are ok! CHEER UP gal.. !

kk think i shld sleep now coz dun feel so bloated alr.. haha
MERRY XMAS once again n best wishes!!

Queen scribbled at 3:04 AM.
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bought 2 CUTE xmas prez.. but lost it! ARGH~ dishonest singaporeans! Liked it sooo much that i even wanted to get 1 more for myself! but well....... it doesnt pay to be kind.. coz i always return things to pple if they are not mine. Found a hp at sch toilet but returned it to owner.. y dont pple return things to me?! haizz... v sad....... coz the prez are really cute!! muz go down n get it soon.. but dun think haf e time tmr.......... maybe shall delay exchangin xmas prez.. =p blame it onmy carelessness too..

besides the mood-dampenin event, it has been a great day..Met up with frens and had steamboat at marina bay.. food was OILY!! put too much butter.. still quite full now.. thats y i m still awake at this time...!oh yah.. i received my art tcher's msg today.. was really glad! haven seen her for a looong loong time~ miss her lots. n miss art days.. sigh.. still rmb e days complainin how stressful life is in jc.. but really miss it alot now.. coz at least i get to do what i liked den.. hope can meet up with her n her baby n the other art gals soon!! >.<

some1 sent me this url.. quite longwinded.. view if u r bored..
http://members.cox.net/impunity/endofworld.swf



MERRY XMAS TO ALL MY FRENS AND HOPE U ALL WILL ENJOY URSELF TO THE FULLEST!! Haf a joyous hol......!


Queen scribbled at 2:48 AM.
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12.22.2003

ahhh.. was experimentin with the html codings and stuff.. quite scary.. coz everyth was not aligned when i typed someth wrong.. so confusing.. hmm.. maybe i should not attempt to change anyth now in case everyth go missin again.. hah glad everyth is back~ hehe ok shall go watch tv now.. blog another day.. =)

Queen scribbled at 11:47 PM.
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Meaningful quotes

True friendship is when two friends can walk in opposite directions, yet remain side by side.....A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else........A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out....A real friend is someone who you can sit in complete silence with and still walk away feeling like you just had the best conversation of your life........

Queen scribbled at 11:09 PM.
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12.21.2003

LOTR ROCKS~



Queen scribbled at 10:05 PM.
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12.17.2003


Designed this logo for my fren's video project.. My fren says it looks professional.. hehe quite happy to get this kinda comments. an art piece will be successful when it reaches a point when no further details need to be added to enhance it.. which means.. when it is complete. I'm happy with this work. whenever i'm designing, i feel motivated n inspired.. and will always be contented at the end of they day... if only i can treat physics n stuff as someth i like doin.. den maybe i'll score well... hehhehe will try likin it next sem..

went to sch to be a painter today.. tiring! ahhh wonder how much the principal paid the designer... hmmmmmmmm...........

hmm................ still wonderin .. heehe

ok overall nuttin much today too.. quite tired.. after a day's experience as a painter.. ahh~ dun think wil go back to paint anymore...

to my fren who turns 19~ HAPPY BDAY!

a cake for u.... hahhahaha..dun think crooked leh... didnt choose this cake purposely de.. it juz happened to look nice.. den turned out to be a strawberry cake!!

kk going to sleep....... nitezz~~
>.<

Queen scribbled at 1:34 AM.
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12.16.2003

Had a bit more thoughts yest.. got abit too emotional yest ya? Anw to one of my fren, thanks for the swweet 'huggies' msg that u sent! really brightened my day! *huggies back* hehe got this from my fren's entry..."quarrels r unavoidable.. in e end, u'll realise the frenship grew stronger when u guys sorted tings out.." ya totally agree with that.. glad that things are sorted out now. Was quite shocked when i realized i made her angry unknowingly... but well things are ok now... i hope....... Friendship that ceased would nv have existed in the first place...my msg to my frens esp to some1 whose bday is comin.. hehehe if dere's any pt of time u need a fren, i'll b here as well.... !!*winkz* thanks 4 everyth..


hehe ok had a loong day again today.. went to register my subjects tt i need to retake in school and it took a freakin 5 hrs.. juz to register n get everyth done! haaha.. coz was figuring out with my frens if there was a possibility in changing class.. (so that we can be in e same class next sem)... managed to be in the same class with her for a few modules.. but better than nuttin leh.. hehe.. Its always a hassle to make decisions coz i'm always indecisive.. like for eg.. "shld i overload n clear 2 subjects that i failed next sem" or "shld i juz try to clear 1 first?" talked to my "laoshi" n his advices made sense.. " u shld decide for urself, if u feel that u can clear all the modules next sem go for it.. if not, u shld juz concentrate on 1 coz ur grades will determine which sch u go to in e 2nd yr" managed to struggle out of the dilemma n came to a final conclusion... i juz gonna retake 1 mod.. 2nd dilemma was whether i shld pay $10.40 to review my subjects so that instead of an 'E' grade, i could haf gotten a "D"... my "laoshi" says that chances of gettin a better grade are slim and there is a 50-50 probability that an "E'' grade will end up "F" or someth worse... hmmm........ tossed a coin to decide but still chose not to review in e end... coz would rather get 2 Fs den 3 straight Fs!!haha.. think i deserved the E grade.. dun expect much for this exam either... so well well....

hmm ...Was Late again today, bus was late.. argh~ quite sickenin to stay in this ulu place where i have to walk some distance before reaching LRT .. wait for the train to come.. take a bus... walk again.. tedious n tiring~~ its all about waitin n stoning n walkin.. legs aching alr.. was already quite late den i was held up for a little while longer coz i bumped into my ex-boss, a nice n frenly person, capable n young as well! *WinKz* kk overall think i was late for half an hr...feel so guilty abt that... will try to get out of my house earlier next time. Went for an interview n met up with my pri sch frens..... its nice tryin to recall all the names of e pri sch peeps in class coz i haf memory like a goldfish~ hahaha had long talks too......... talks about things that i nv had the chance to realize until today

.. talks that left me laff... talks that make me ponder.......Why do MEAN pple exist in this world? These unfeeling things shldnt deserve to stay in this world at all. Sometimes they should think abt others feelings before they talk coz ey'll nv noe how e person will feel unless they put emselves in e scenario.
at that pt of time, i thot.. i realli didnt do my part as a fren. She was always there for me when i needed her, sided with me, cheered me up when i was sad, but wat haf i done for her since sec sch? i didnt do wat a gd fren could haf done.. she has been thru alot and i only knew today.. wat haf i been doin? i was just not there for her.. Why didnt i show more concern?? think she must haf been soo disappointed with me den...i'm disappointed with myself .. A message to this fren: I'm sorry i was not there for u to console/listen to u when u needed me. If time could turn back i wish i had the chance to shout out these words "GET LOST" to e meanies. Glad tt we still keep in contact now.. dun ever wanna lose contact again..


wanted to write more.. but gotta wake up early tmr to be a "painter" for my jc tmr morn.. meetin the designer at 9.. hope i can wake up on time! >.<

Queen scribbled at 1:28 AM.
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12.15.2003




Artist: Richard Marx and Donna Lewis Lyrics
Song: At the Beginning Lyrics

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

I wish i could be someone stronger, someone who is able to express myself better.. its hurting to always keep things within me n not let anyone noe. i dun show my emotions but i'm not someone without it.. i'm not unfeelin .. maybe juz a little expressionless.. i care but my ways of showin r not in e form of words. i'm not good at talkin but i really do care. can u feel it? i understand how u feel but i'm at a loss of words...

Friends build bridges not walls... once a wall is erected betw a frenship.. thats the time when friends become acquaintances..

Queen scribbled at 2:35 AM.
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12.13.2003

freshmint
You are Fresh Mint.
You are caring and friendly. You have a nurturing
personality and always help out a friend in
need. You are fairly outgoing, and always show
a friendly face. You truly care for other
people, and you show it. However, you may
neglect your own responsibilites or become over
involved in your friends' personal affairs.
Most Compatible With: Orange


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Queen scribbled at 9:10 PM.
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Lovely poodle puppies~ love doggies! woof~~ hehe.. feelin so relaxed today.. coz was seldom home on a Saturday.. Went to work out n feelin quite lazy now.. body aching.. chatted with tingting, my pri sch fren over msn.. realized we haf quite alot to talk/gossip abt even though we didnt contact for like.. 5 yrs +.. "this shows how lastin our frenship can be.." i agree with that.... thank god for that.. glad that i still haf things to talk about with my pri sch frens..been thinkin alot lately.. since pri sch till now.. i have made many frens sometimes i wonder..who are my true frens..? sometimes time causes us to drift away slowly.. n before we realize it.. friends become juz acquaintances

some meaningful quotes...

"True friends are never apart, maybe in distance, but not in heart" "The friendship that can cease has never been real."- Saint Jerome
Forsake not an old friend, for the new is not comparable unto him. A new friend is as new wine: when it is old thou shalt drink it with pleasure.~" The Bible

To all my frens(if u happen to read this..)... i may not msg u everyday to ask how u r doin yet in my heart i do care n remember u.. .. Love u guys lots n thanks for being there 4 me.. !

Queen scribbled at 6:22 PM.
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Invisible - Clay Aiken

What'cha doing tonight?
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
You're stealing my dreams
Why can't I dream you into my life?
What would it take to make you see
That I'm alive?

(Chorus 1:)
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait--I already am

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read
What goes through your mind (oh, baby)
Wish you could touch me
With the colors of your life

(Repeat chorus 1)

I'd make you mine tonight
(Invisible)
I'd make you mine tonight

(Bridge:)
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through

(Chorus 2:)
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible

I'd make you mine tonight
(If I was invisible)
I'd make you mine tonight
(If I was invisible)...



Queen scribbled at 6:18 PM.
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*sneeze* think i caught the flu durin my shoppin trip.. hehz but shopping was great.. bought a skirt, a 3/4 pants, 2 tops n a belt! =Pjuz couldnt resist the temptation coz bought everyth at 50% discount~ whee~~ so happy now.. mum says i'm a shoppin queen... maybe i should stop spending money on clothes now else my mum will start naggin again.. looking forward to the next shoppin trip~ need a sch bag.. hmm still wonderin if i should get a backpack...? or a slingbag..? sighz.. both are nice.. maybe i shld start saving n buy both?? hmmm..

Guess what... i finally cleaned up my messy room.. used to be in a "war-zone state", with all my physics notes lyin in every corner of my room.. BUT.. now my room is sooooo NEAT n tidy!!! cant believe it myself too.. been wanting to clean up since exams end but always end up not tidyin.. will always find some silly excuses to leave things lying ard. coz i'm juz plain lazy.... but got a headache when i stayed in my messy room so i decided to be a gd gal 2day... wonder how long this tidiness will last......... hehehe

ok i'm tired now.. meetin my fren early tmr morn..
thats all for today.. borin entry..... >.<

Queen scribbled at 12:44 AM.
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12.11.2003

Had a lazy day today, woke up at 2pm.. had lunch and took a nap again.. ! hehe Went to a bash yest nite at zouk.. it was soooo crowded.. went in Phuture, music was fabulous but it was way tooo squeezy so had to squeeze all the way out... met up with my 'xiaodi' as well, one word to describe him.. Blur~ haha he loses directions easily.. thought i'm already quite jialat case but there is actually someone worse than me! haha (hope he's not readin it..)

Judgement Day
Its 11dec.. my results are out today.. wonder how many subjects i'll fail..? quite scared actually n dun wanna check.. but have to face reality sooner or later.. Take a look at this quiz while i present my lousy grades to u..


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maybe i shouldnt publish my lousy grades online.. ?? its sooo embarassing..! ahhhhh.... oh well.. here goes...


Name: ***
Course ENG Year 1

Exam Yr Semester Subject Code Exam Grade

2003 1 G140 Communication Skills C

2003 1 G143 Engineers and Society B

2003 1 G160 Electric Circuits F

2003 1 G162 Statics E

2003 1 G164 Mathematics 1A F

2003 1 G166 Engineering Physics D

2003 1 G170 Engineering Graphics D

2003 1 G171 Laboratory 1A C

Quite demoralized to see such kinda lousy grades. Failed 3 out of 8 modules.. was quite surprised that i passed PHYSICS~ that was supposed to be the toughest!! i cant decide if i am happy or sad now. I expected to fail 4... so since i failed 3.. i should be happy? heh i'm not sure.. maybe i'm not cut out for this course? maybe i'm juz plain lazy? Well.. guess i deserved these coz durin this exams, i didnt really put in much effort coz i just couldnt focus.. wonder y.. i tried but failed... there are many times when i feel like giving up too...
Normally any1 faced with this kinda lousy grades will be v depressed.. i'm immuned to failing i think thats y i'm not too affected now.. took half a day to get over this sadness.. Talked to my frens over icq n fone.. have to thank them for encouragin me n motivatin me.. someone asked me "so are u changing course?" i dunno how to answer.. i'm scared to make changes at this time..my passion is still in art n i haf the confidence to excel in it but if i change course now.. its juz a sign of escapism.. i shouldnt give up hope now.. i will give myself one more sem before i make any decisions........

My class will be splitted next sem..juz managed to make some gd frens but haf to be separated so fast... gonna miss all my frens... the peeps in my class are realli nice and are always so willing to teach even if i ask them to repeat the concepts over and over again.. wonder if i can get such gd classmates next sem?? Why muz there be separation? Pri Sch - Sec Sch - JC - Uni.. Juz when i have made many close frens, its time to part.. sadness


Queen scribbled at 10:05 PM.
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12.10.2003

Gathering

Its been a looong day.. went for interview with my sec sch frens dot n huiyi in e afternn, it was crappy.. the manager who looked like a china con-man spoke to us in a casual manner that seemed abit inappropriate.. thought managers are usually serious? Some sort like network marketting, sellin some magnetic stuffs which will aid in blood circulation... Dun wanna get the sales position hope i will get the admin job and start earnin some money coz there are too many things i wanna buy! The interview dragged for 2 n a half hours.. waste of time.. coz made an appointment to meet my best fren at 330 but he kept on talkin... was v late....

Finally get to meet my looong lost pri sch best fren, moemoe !! As mentioned earlier, due to e crappy interview, i was late for nearly 1 hr.. (P/s:moemoe, if u happen to read this.. wanna apologize..sorry to keep u waiting! hehe.. ) went coffee bean at taka n chatted quite long... really had so much things to talk about.. egs..our pri sch.. our tchers, frens.. n updatin each other w our lives! Though we seldom contact ever since sec sch, she will forever remain a special fren of mine.. someone who is so true, someone who understands me e most and someone whom i always miss...Its been 5 or more years since i last met her! real glad i found her thru frenster and started contactin each other.. hope will get to see her more often before she leaves for australia in 3 mths time! Took many neoprints with her too..



Went HMV n ate at cineleisure KFC! haven had kfc for a loooong time.. yummy! Met up with her fren jow.. looks like abc... kawaii~ haha Went KTV for e 1st time and was glad n honoured to be the audience of 2 future-2-be singers! Missed e songs that she sang to me in pri sch... overall she has improved tremendously~ on the way to become part of S.H.E~ ! n jow.. he can take over jay chou's place already.. sings even better than him! (sorry to jay chou fans out there~) =P Met up with moemoe's bro, sithu, who is also from the same pri sch.. he hasnt changed too.. 4 of us watched Wishing Stairs together..

Wishin Stairs.. a freaky n psychotic show.. scary!! was tryin means to cover my eyes n prevent shocking myself to death... 2 many gruesome parts! haha but many would think.. why watch a scary movie when u r so scared?? Juz learnin to be brave... heh

A memorable day indeed...
Tired..
ZZZZZZZzz

Oyasumi Nasai (^.^)

Queen scribbled at 4:05 AM.
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12.07.2003

sorry seems 2 b the hardest word

what i gotta do 2 make u love me
what i gotta do 2 make u care
what do i do when lightnin strikes me
and a way 2 find wen ure not there

what i gotta do 2 make want me
what i gotta do 2 b heard
what do i say wen its all over
sorry seems 2 b the hardest word
(thats rite)

its sad
so sad
its a sad sad situation
and its gettin more and more absurd
its sad so sad
why cant we talk it over
always seems 2 me
that sorry seems 2 b the hardest word

what do i do 2 make u want me
what i gotta do 2 b heard
what do i say wen its all over
sorry seems 2 b the hardest word

its sad
so sad
its a sad sad situation
and its gettin more and more absurd
its sad so sad why cant we talk it ova
always seems 2 me
sorry seems 2 b the hardest word

yeeeeah

sorry

what do i do 2 make u love me
what i gotta do 2 b heard
what do i do when lighting strikes me
yeah
what av i gotta do
what av i gotta do
when sorry seems 2 b the hardest word


How many times do u say sorry n how many times do u actually mean it? You can say a thousand apologies n yet not be forgiven coz the sincerity cant be felt, if u r not sincere, forget all about bein sorry. I can feel it. Indeed, sorry is the hardest word to say, if u keep repeatin, there goes to show how insincere u are!
I'm angry but i say i'm not... sometimes its obvious that i'm lyin coz i'm sure u can feel it.. otherwise u wouldnt apologize. I'm still angry... over someth insignificant to u... if u were to put urself in my shoe, u'll understand how i feel. Life is so full of contradictions..

Queen scribbled at 3:03 AM.
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12.28.2003

The Magician With The Magician as your Daily Tarot Card...


(This card says: I can CREATE my own reality!)


Take action today! If you've been waiting for the best time to initiate something, know that now is the time to act! Summon up the confidence, courage, determination and willpower to create your dreams! And don't think that you're lacking some key factor...for you already have all of the "tools" you need at your disposal today!



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Tarot interpretations © 2003 Kim Jana Kucera


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