Lost In Beauty-

Wake up early at honey's house today. For once i was warm because of her comforter(blanket) so her fan was more or less unaffecting me at all. 8am, i wake her up but she was bit lazy in bed and said she had headach. Aw, sayang her back to sleep. I just want to watch her cause she is kinda cute to me when asleep. Though of blogging but the pace of updating just kill the mood to do so.

Haha, finally my sleeping beauty woke up liao wor ~~! 11+am, guess you could count that as lunch time liao ba. As usual when to nearby KFC to eat. Tho i left not much money but well, for my honey, who care even if i goes pok ar. Think she just kinda addicted to the boxmaster liao ba. Spicy but somehow she starts to take it somemore eat the whole of it herself *wow*. Well there is her cheesefries also to go with it ~~ *yummy*

Sadly, i had to go homey soon, kinda "promised" to go training cause sir wk held it just cause got people going ma. Not good if last minute say not going and waste his time after work just to train us. Haiz ... honey can't pei me due to the lateness and traveling distance back home for her.

On the way back home, bear bear sleeps, energy bar charging back up. Doesn't have much sleep cause yesterday been crying and not proper sleep(having nightmares). Reach back home are 3 plus ba then rest until 5 before tidying up my room and stuff for training later.

This time i remember to tell my honey what i'm doing so she will not be worried about me ^^v Training is bit fun ba cause of those new combos footwork and things ...... bit funny to see weird things pop out when you can't do them ba. Thank that i didn't injure much but a sore thumb from stanley's kick(turning kick also can off aim hit my hand) *ouchs*

When home to eat cause want to save money to spend on my honey. Reach home, eat finish and rest before going bath ba~

I am a jinx ! Those that are close to me always had troubles befall on them ! I do not wish to see those i love get hurt !

Honey called me. Wonder why does she call me, looking at my phone, there is no mis-message. Puzzled, i took it but all i heard is weird noises. Listen closely, she is crying..... I was like WTH, why is she crying. Only then i was put on loud speaker with her parents. Then i knew she been skipping school for 14 days. WHAT ! i no idea when she got skip so much beside one or two day that she said was headache or late for school no attendance.

Her dad keep asking me if i knew she skip school, asking if i think that was right, asking if i the cause of all this. I was dumbstruck to even knew what i was replying but i think i was totally calm then and fend off every question without his anger from raging(could hear from his tone) or getting honey into trouble. Try to convince that her being sick was more of reason not going school. Wonder what i am doing.

Guess my nightmare came true.

Know what my nightmare ? I been refusing to tell honey cause i was scare every time. For info, i never had dreams but IF i had, it would 100% came true with 1 week-3 years. Ever seen i'm small, I could see bits of piece of future(i not fortune teller, neither am i physic). You could just say it is Dajavoo or daily life reflects but i'm sure is not. I could always feel cold for no reason frequently even on hot day. Is like from inside out. I had this dream yesterday that i been chased out by her parents while they slam the door at my face. Fearing it may come true, i decided not to say a thing hoping reality would be opposite of what you dream.

I couldn't sleep, too worried, too fan, too confused, too scare ...... i just want help ...... felt like drowning ...... my tears keep flowing out. I just ...... i ...... i

~the beauty exposed~