<body> Lost In Beauty-
Know me ......

SRMF
Lee Wei Xiong
aka Bear Bear

~Male
~24 years old
~31th August 1990
~Virgo
~bearbear_1990@hotmail.com
~98256734

 

Touching......


  • January 2010
  • February 2010
  • March 2010
  • April 2010
  • May 2010
  • June 2010
  • July 2010
  • August 2010
  • September 2010
  • October 2010
  • November 2010
  • December 2010
  • January 2011
  • July 2011
  • May 2014

  • Open heart......




    Warm hands

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    31 October 2010


    My whole body all sore and aching from monday + wednesday training ...... can i dun move at all ?


    NO !

    ~the beauty exposed~

    27 October 2010


    Bad things doesn't came alone.

    I lost my thumbdrive with my project inside. Die !

    ~the beauty exposed~

    26 October 2010


    The start of my bad week and it just the beginning of a snowball.


    Got kick out of class for playing.

    ~the beauty exposed~

    23 October 2010


    Teehee another fun day watching movie time. Gone early to causeway point end up that joey ar ... want me to find her in that mall. So i walk around shopping for like 45mins ...... still can't find her ...... wa lao, die die also dun want tell me where is she...... hungry hungry. At first want meet early so can go eat but seen they eaten liao then nvm lor ...... hungry bit bit wouldn't die la hor .....

    While walking saw kevin at 4th floor then i call him, only then their location exposed cause i saw them also ... wakaka ! We go watch paranormal activity 2 which was quite a sudden shocking movie. Not horror in storyline sense but the sudden happen and waiting that made it horror. Brought popcorn and drink in sharing but end up i eat only >.< Think we got too comfy together or wat that we like half watching the movie only. It's really addicting. When come out of the movie, my index finger bit hurt cause someone bite me when i feed popcorn (see i so good) but is ok la ..... no one actually bite my finger before. So that's prolly the first time someone ever did it so daring !

    Shop around before going home. Missed the chance to ask something which i think i need to. haiz ......

    ~the beauty exposed~

    21 October 2010


    Haiz today iis such a boring day .... wait wait ... no no ! Going to meet Kevin to skate ... haha so good chio me out seen he having BBQ with friends at ECP. Favorite place doing favorite thing~~~

    Haha we meeting at mac but think they alight very far end so wait for him to slowpoke walk here ... haha ... Finally saw him and OMG is her. Wa~ joey ar joey its like soooo long seen i see her during training below block. ME and kevin teach her skating at the beginnger's skate area or should i say pro ? cause everytime i saw only pro down there do style (wish i could be like them).

    Met marcus, a guy which i lost touch with ... quite sad thing but wonder why he looks so ... hagger. Then know sad thing is that he had around 13 months to live and planning to do all things he wanted to do during that 10months time. Leave his skate manager business and go oversea skydiving, have alot of things. Right then i wish i was him. I know having a deadline at your life is sad but for me, that time left and thing i doing is much worth while then living alive but dead bored. Wonder who will be sad for me when it does.

    But well seeing joey fall down again and again kinda of want help her but funny same time that it pushed the sad things aside. It's her first time skating anyway, it good improvement already. We skate and walk around and around. Somehow during that time, magic happens. I do not know why but kinda like the feeling, having someone holding my hand, like caring if i fall down anytime. Dunno wat kevin and joey whispering ... damit can't hear. I tickle joey wanting her say but failed >.< .... Reach BBQ pit we stayed down there but playing monopoly deal, poker.

    Quite late so me and kevin sent her to bus-stop. Seriously ar the slope scary when going down and the pavement around HDB like so dangerous for nub skaters like me X.X got bit unwilling to end the time we 3 together. Hope we see each other again like this soon (haha i really want it soon)

    Took cab home with kevin's friend seen he living near TP also ...... my former sch ...... haiz ...... that time keep msging until got home and sleep

    ~the beauty exposed~

    17 October 2010


    feeling so lonely
    ......
    the time brush pass me, place brush pass me, people brush pass me
    ......
    a big big guy in a big big world is not a big big thing

    ~the beauty exposed~

    15 October 2010


    friday is just a "no sch day" for me ^^v dl maple soon to play with my mei fatfat and lyn they all. guess going create new one ba ... first i have to fit my account problem >.<

    Not eating anything seen 11am and training is really ... hard to take it ... stomach rawr-ing ..... but after that got food but no appetite to eat ... ai yo ....

    ~the beauty exposed~

    14 October 2010


    mymy ... i'm always late for school >.< if i never late mean i must be going to sch early on purpose but well ... school definitely wouldn't and will be the one for me to go early. Pretty much nothing for whole day expect S&W where we play frisk-bee. Quite fun and plus i'm pro ... muahaha ...

    My class already end so early 5 but still like 630 then training so wait quite sometime in cafe2 before the rest come join me slackslack go up. Today mostly is light sparring lor ... haha ... aloy ar ! die ! revenge ! ... teehee ... he quite scare of me seen he hit me late time so pain down there then dun want fight me already >.< .... seen long time ... want fight him for real 3min. Too bad cannot. Performance quite bad actually 3:1 i lose ...... dam wasted giving first 2 points. Grrr only last one i got slow down and think a bit before executing any defense kick.

    Ya well poor result of cuz end up some "talk". OMGOMG ... spar with sir >.< eeeeee dun want pain pain. However must thank him for all those training and teaching us all 5 to be a better player in and out of mat. He do say left 5 month but to me ar ... deadline like 2month to tiptop. Bit hard and seen impossible but least, least reach for it. So it end around 11+ and with my right hand cannot hold anything ... wonder how am i going to do in tml training again .... no idea ... still have to think through my whole skills.

    Message someone but seem like ......... i dunno ......... just can't press the send button and cancel whole message. Was hoping she would be the first ......somehow just didn't came ...... how i wish there is someone there to control me every second.

    ~the beauty exposed~

    13 October 2010


    "A little longer, a little longer" -- It just seen too fast like lightning swept across the sky

    "I miss you, i miss you" -- It just stay put there like it never moved before.

    ~the beauty exposed~

    11 October 2010


    First day of school reopen, the feeling of a newbie going to school again. Single and alone, easy and carefree. Wondering if that's a good thing. Caught up with yik and group in interchange and go school. Same old shirt, same old day, same old bus, different old me. How much had i change in short while ? i do not know but i would be seeing a strange me. A me that i do not even recongise myself.

    After lunch, i saw her. With her group walking around in cafe 1 looking for seats. The stupid me splits again. I try act i never see her again(i know i know why must like this). However, i just can't control and keep looking in her direction. Well ... she caught me like last time. I waved back, wishing i could eat lunch with her alone. Talking to her like the world only have 2 of us. Haiz what i thinking ... she with her friends le ... there i when off to co-op to buy drink.

    Somehow my life in sch always been "running away" mode. Ya right ! sleeping, dozing, resting, what ever you call it just a nice nice name for it.

    Well mr quek come find me again. My parent thinking "If you never do anything wrong in school, there is no reason why teacher would call for you or us". As predicted like what he did half year ago, he pass me popular voucher as reward for scoring well in my exam. Saying about that, i thought i screwed up my exams totally in that ... ok depress period ...... by chance, it seen like everyone doing worst than me but exceptionally better then other class. He just ended class so prolly she just ended class.

    When to bustop but 31 had left so i msg her. Wonder if i should be worried cuz she said she is sick but with the last part, i start feeling kinda very ......sad. Now thinking of that, she refused many times. Friends, study, family, wondering which is real ?

    Maybe that the difference why i can never be the one instead

    ~the beauty exposed~

    10 October 2010


    今天是 10/10/10 10:10 是个十全十美的一天。有个sms是这样的:

    Hey kids,
    Today is a special day. 10/10/10 rmb to say something special to your special someone. as YOU ARE REALLY SPECIALL!!! I LOVE YOU

    我在几天前就plan好了要和她度过但我偏偏发不了sms。 我的手子一直停在send上,没按下。不知道我是怕被reject还是早就知道她会说没有空。没有你在我身边,每一样东西都不完美。

    好想好想你,但知道我是不可能有你。

    A perfect day for a perfect celebration for a perfect reason for a imperfect me. Will my days after today be perfect ?

    ~the beauty exposed~