Words cannot even begin to express how lucky I feel. I am so in love with my little girl! Dustin is as well. He is wrapped around her little bitty finger already.
She is starting to smile! I still have yet to capture it on a camera, but just know that it is BEAUTIFUL! :) She mostly smiles at her dad (which breaks my hert for me) lol. But it is good to know that she loves her daddy! I will try and get her smiling on camera soon.
I came back to work last week and its so much harder than I thought it would have been. I knew that I would miss her, but I didnt know that my arms would ache to hold her like they did when she was still in the womb. I miss her like crazy! I am just so glad that I have an amazing family that is so willing to help watch her while Dustin and I work. I am glad that she is away from us for only a short time. I feel that it is important to have at least one parent with her. (if possible) We are a family that needs to work and I know that there are a lot of moms that need to work and I now know how hard it is to be away. How hard it is to have to work. But I am greatful that I have a job that allows me to work swing shifts. It is a ton easier than early mornings and late nights. And also good for Dustin to be able to have daddy time with her. He enjoys it and I know that she will need it growing up. A girl needs her daddy. I love to see when girls have such loving and great relationships with their dads. I being one of them. :) I love my dad! He is the best I could have asked for!
Updates to come soon!
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
4 Weeks Old!
Little Miss is 4 weeks old! I cant believe how fast time has gone! I want time to slow down.
I have found that being a mommy has got to be one of the best gifts in life. I feel truely blessed to have this little baby in my arms everyday! I look at her and just think of how I lived without her for so long. And how I would never give this up. Even with the late nights, no sleep, and fussy baby. :) I often look back on the day I delivered, and think of how much pain I went through. It was so worth it! Broken tailbone and everything.
Here are some pictures from her newborn session we did last week. Pictures are taken by myself and my sister Amber.
So glad we got her smiling!
Ha ha little miss fussy! But she is still cute when she cries!!
So sweet!
She looks nothing like me in hese pictures! Totally looks like Dustin.
She does have my toes!
My two favorite pictutures!
I have found that being a mommy has got to be one of the best gifts in life. I feel truely blessed to have this little baby in my arms everyday! I look at her and just think of how I lived without her for so long. And how I would never give this up. Even with the late nights, no sleep, and fussy baby. :) I often look back on the day I delivered, and think of how much pain I went through. It was so worth it! Broken tailbone and everything.
Here are some pictures from her newborn session we did last week. Pictures are taken by myself and my sister Amber.
She was not too happy at the beginning. We were lucky with what we got!
I love her little head! Her hair. Her hands. Her nose. Her everything!
How did I get so lucky!!
I love my baby girl! She is the best thing that has ever happened to me! (along with Dustin of course!) We feel blessed to be her parents, and we cannot wait to see what the future brings. A couple more kids? Moving? New jobs? We are not sure. But are along for the Journey! It's totally worth it.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
April 24th, 2011 Our lives changed forever. I found out I was expecting our first child. :) One of the best days of my life. I called my OB office the next Monday and made my first baby appointment. May 26th. I should have been 10 weeks and a day along, but my Dr put me back 10 days.
It was about weekd 11 I started getting really bad morning sickness. And that lasted till week 22. I lost 20 pounds in that 11 weeks. I lived off of milkshakes and french fries. Oh and Diet Coke. lol. By week 25 I was very hypertinsive. My blood pressure was 150's/90's and never really went down.
This was me at a wedding I was shooting. I was 20 weeks along. Shooting a wedding in the middle of August outside while pregnant is not ideal! lol It was a very long day.
This is me at week 30 and feeling very pregnant. Blood pressure still high, but still able to work.
This is Brittney and I meeting our favorite singer David Archuleta. She doesn't know yet that he is her favorite, but in time she will! lol
And now I am at week 36 and now on bedrest! My blood pressure was up to the 170's/90's. Dr. Kaelberer was worried and asked me to go on bedrest. I was being monitored by MFM by doing non-stress tests twice a week since week 35, but my BP was too off and on.
As much as we need the money, I am glad that I was put on bedrest. It gave my baby girl enough time to grow and be healthy. Although at the time I was MISERABLE! lol But looking back, I appreciate it.
At week 37, my Dr. told me that he was comfortable taking me anytime. It was hard though because my cervix was doing nothing. I was still at a 0 and 0%. SUCK! I was that way till the day before I delivered.
The week I delivered, I was in L&D everyday. Monday I had a Dr appointment and my BP was elevated. I was sent down to check my labs. This was I think my 5th trip to L&D. The next day, I went out with my mom and that night, I started contracting. They were 3-4 minutes apart and lasting 45-90 seconds. After 2 hours, we called my Dr. and asked him what to do. He said that he would like me to go get checked. I waited another hour and went in. After 3 hours of that, I thought I was going to die. I was so uncomfortable. Thats why I was SO MAD when my cervix was still not changed and they sent me home! I was told by my nurse to make an appointment with MFM the next morning. I was not given an order so I had to call my Dr office to get them to order it. About 10 minutes later, Dr. Kaelberer called me and told me that he would be willing to order me to be induced the next day. I would have to go into the hospital that night and get a medication to help soften my cervix. He warned me of the risks of doing this due to my cervix not being favorable. My risk of needing a C-Section was 50%. But at 39 weeks I was willing to do anything!
It was about weekd 11 I started getting really bad morning sickness. And that lasted till week 22. I lost 20 pounds in that 11 weeks. I lived off of milkshakes and french fries. Oh and Diet Coke. lol. By week 25 I was very hypertinsive. My blood pressure was 150's/90's and never really went down.
This is me at 25 weeks in Phoenix. And I absolutely love this picture! I love the dress too! I was feeling pretty good at this point. I was feeling her move a lot too. That was the best part.
As much as we need the money, I am glad that I was put on bedrest. It gave my baby girl enough time to grow and be healthy. Although at the time I was MISERABLE! lol But looking back, I appreciate it.
At week 37, my Dr. told me that he was comfortable taking me anytime. It was hard though because my cervix was doing nothing. I was still at a 0 and 0%. SUCK! I was that way till the day before I delivered.
The week I delivered, I was in L&D everyday. Monday I had a Dr appointment and my BP was elevated. I was sent down to check my labs. This was I think my 5th trip to L&D. The next day, I went out with my mom and that night, I started contracting. They were 3-4 minutes apart and lasting 45-90 seconds. After 2 hours, we called my Dr. and asked him what to do. He said that he would like me to go get checked. I waited another hour and went in. After 3 hours of that, I thought I was going to die. I was so uncomfortable. Thats why I was SO MAD when my cervix was still not changed and they sent me home! I was told by my nurse to make an appointment with MFM the next morning. I was not given an order so I had to call my Dr office to get them to order it. About 10 minutes later, Dr. Kaelberer called me and told me that he would be willing to order me to be induced the next day. I would have to go into the hospital that night and get a medication to help soften my cervix. He warned me of the risks of doing this due to my cervix not being favorable. My risk of needing a C-Section was 50%. But at 39 weeks I was willing to do anything!
I was admitted to L&D (For the last time) at 730 PM on December 21st, 2011. I started the medicine soon after and was hooked up and strapped down (for lack of better words). My mom and Dustin were there with me all night. I was too nervous to sleep. I was up all night. I got up and showered about 330 and when I got back into bed, I got my 3rd dose of medicine. I started to contract really intesly. It was about 4 AM when it started. I tried SO hard to not complain too much because my mom and Dustin were finally asleep. But about 30 minutes into it my mom was awake and My back labor was literally killing me. They kept asking me if I wanted my epidural, but I didnt want to be weak. I lasted till about 5 and had to get some relief. I then opted for my epidural. Getting the epidural at least made me think about something besides my contractions! lol
Dr. Green was the Anestheologist. And can I tell you how bad I wanted to hit that man! not even kidding. I dont know how many of you have had an epidural or a spinal tap, but they are not fun! I kept jumping and all he said to me was "It goes in better if you hold still". All I could think was, "well then stop tapping my nerves and get the freaking catheter in the right spot!" Poor Dustin, he was trying to hold me still. He was shaking so much. It was even harder cause i had a huge lump in the way.... I think we call that a baby! lol. But he finally got it in and there went the feeling from the belly down. It was a relief but a burden at the same time. I soon after got a foley and was in bed the rest of the day!
Dr. Kaelberer came in at 7 before clinic to check in on me. He checked me and I was still just a 1 cm and 50%. He put in a bulb that went above the cervix to help the dilation along. I was feeling pretty good.
At 11 AM they started me on Piticon (Pit) by IV. My contractions were getting pretty irregular. I didnt know what to think. I was nervous that nothing was happening. They checked the bulb at noon and it was doing something. YAY! Around then, my left side was waking up. I felt every contraction and it was horrible. Again, the back labor was the worst part. Dr. Green came in and gave me a huge dose of some sort which made me COMPLETELY numb. But it sure felt good! At 1 they checked the bulb and it was still the same.... or thats what we thought. I was told that when the bulb came out I was going to be a 3. I was disappointed when she said it still wasnt out. But when she checked it, my legs were dead and one was on top of the other. Dr. Kaelberer came in half an hour later to break my water. When he checked, the bulb was out and my water had already broke. I was now at a 5cm and 90%. My stomache was turning. I couldnt believe it was really happening. He said it was going to be between 3-7 hours before I start pushing. It wasnt 2 hours later that I was a 9 and 100%. Again my epidural was not working on the left side and Dr. Green gave me more medicine. This was the 3rd dose. This time he pulled back the catheter. 10 minutes later I was 10cm and complete! I had the need to push. I never fully went numb after this dose. I pushed for an hour before Dr. Kaelberer came in. And by this time I felt everything! I mean EVERYTHING! I wont go into details, but I felt it all. Again, I will tell you that BACK LABOR SUCKS!! It was the worst part. And I felt it the entire time I pushed. I pushed for about half an hour with Dr. Kaelberer doing what he does. I felt so much pressure on my tailbone, I started screaming. I have broken it 3 times before and I was told that I would probably break it with every child. Which is what I was feeling, it breaking. I am about 95% sure it broke. While I was screaming, Dr. Kaelberer told me to "Just push through the pain". I thought to myself, "I'll show you push through the pain!!" I wanted to kick him upside the head! And at this point I could because my epidural was completely gone. So much for getting one, huh. I was in so much pain at this point that I'm not really sure what happend next. I remember hearing "just push through the pain" and "come on, just one more" and finally "Emily, just give me one more little push, her head and shoulders are about out." And then, nothing. I didn't hear her cry. I looked and saw Dr. Kaelberer suctioning her, but no sound. Then I felt a big "Plop" onto my stomach, and there she was.... in all her glory. I remember yelling "SHE'S HUGE!!" I can just remember how heavy she felt. And yes, I was right. She weighed a whopping 8lbs. 11oz. and was 22 inches long. They took her away from me to give her some oxygen. That worried me a little. She did look pretty greyish. All I can really remember at this point is Dr. Kaelberer finishing the delivery. Then sewing me up. Ouch! Dustin came back and forth between me and Brittney. After they cleaned her up a little, he brought her over to me and he had a few tears. What a proud moment for him! He came over and showed me our Brittney, and what a beautiful moment it was. I was finally all put back together. I got myself sat up in bed and Dr. Kaelberer came back in. I told him that next time, I WILL NOT go to 39 weeks. He will induce me or I will find someone that will. He laughed. I looked at him dead in the face and said, "I'm serious". :) He told me that she would be small because hypertensive moms have smaller babies. Not in my case. I am pretty sure that the 3 weeks of bedrest gave my blood pressure a rest and gave her time to grow properly. Which is fine looking back on it. I wouldn't change anything. Even the epidural part. I got to experience birthing a child all natural. Sure, I didnt labor all day in pain, but I got to feel what it is to truely birth a baby. What a blessing.
Below are some pictures of the birth day. Pictures taken by my sister Amber.
My Mom feeding me ice!
I LOVE my husband! He is the greatest!
Trying to rub my back with my back labor.
Dr. Green trying to adjust the catheter for the epidural.
My contractions were piggy back at the end. felt like one constant contraction.
Me deciding if I want to start pushing.
Again, I LOVE this man!
I just love this picture with my dad!
And that is the story of how we became parents! It was a long day, 23 hours in L&D in fact. I spent 2 more nights in the hospital. I was released Christmas Eve. When we got home, we had family there to greet us and open presents. I couldn't have asked for a better Christmas.
Friday, January 13, 2012
A Little History.
Dustin and I met in 2006 at the Old Cottonwood hospital. I was working in the OR and he was a Security Guard. (and the best looking security guard you'll have ever seen.) I, soon after meeting him, moved up to McKay Dee Hospital in Ogden. We barely knew eachother, but everytime I saw him, I knew that he could be the one for me. It wasnt until 2008 that my life would change forever.
I came back to the new Cottonwood hospital called Intermountain Medical Center back to the OR in late 2007. That was the best decision of my life. I saw Dusitn one day walking down the hallway and I whistled at him. As he turned around, he smiled at me and my heart melted. I knew then that I wanted him in my life.
I can remember one time Dustin and I, Matt and his friend, and another friend of mine went up to the Crystal Hot Springs. That was the first time he held my hand. And yes, call it what you will, but my hand fit perfectly in his! From there, we fell in love.
Something you should know before our first date. Dustin had a pet Black Widow Spider.... I HATE SPIDERS!!
We had our first official date on Feb. 7th 2008. We doubled with our friends Bryce and Brittney. It started with dinner and bowling. Then we went Dustins apartment and watched Hairspray (the musical.) and the boys LOVED it! lol Not. After that, Dustin told me that the spider could die if I killed it. I then proceeded to spray the inside of the bowl with hairspray and light it on fire. Creeped me out. We went to flush the thing down the toilet when Bryce and Brittney shut the lights off and locked the door. They told us that we could come out after Dustin kissed me. That was emberassing! Soon after trying to get out, we shared our first kiss. What a great first kiss. What a way to end the perfect first date.
From there, it was a whirlwind of a romance..... or something like it. :)
We became "official" Feb 15th. I told him I loved him 6 weeks into our relationship. I told him, and he sighed, like it was a huge disappointment. Poor guy, I bombarded him with my love. I knew he wasn't ready for anything serious. He was never the type to be serious. I was his first girlfriend. But its a good feeling to know I was his first. :)
We dated for 8 months before he proposed on Oct 25th 2008. We were married 6 months after that on April 25th 2009. That day was the best day of my life. It was the day I knew that I got the opportunity to spend the rest of Eternity with my best friend. Dustin Brooksby is my one and only. And I knew it from that first kiss. :)
That day was also the last day I would see Bryce Moss alive. Bryce was a dear friend who worked at the Hospital with us. He was security with Dustin and Matt. He was my little Mario. My friendship with Bryce was rocky most of the time, but he was one of the best people to come into my life. Bryce was diagnosed with a cancer that is brought on by transplants. When he was a kid Bryce had 3 kidney transplants. He, from there, became 3KT. They say regrets are what form us for the rest of our lives, and I have regrets with Bryce. And I have learned that life really is too short. And words will stick with you for the rest of your life, even when you are the one saying them. I wish I had more time with him. I wish I could tell him I love him one last time.
Dustin and I lived in his little one bedroom apartment for a few months until we could get the 2 bedroom apartment around the corner. We were there for a year and a half. We bought our first house December 2010.
In April 2011, we found out that we were expecting out first child. I can't even begin to tell you how ecxited I was! We found out actually on the day we were celebrating our 2 year anniversary. And to be honest, I couldn't have asked for a better present. That day changed our lives forever!
I came back to the new Cottonwood hospital called Intermountain Medical Center back to the OR in late 2007. That was the best decision of my life. I saw Dusitn one day walking down the hallway and I whistled at him. As he turned around, he smiled at me and my heart melted. I knew then that I wanted him in my life.
I can remember one time Dustin and I, Matt and his friend, and another friend of mine went up to the Crystal Hot Springs. That was the first time he held my hand. And yes, call it what you will, but my hand fit perfectly in his! From there, we fell in love.
Something you should know before our first date. Dustin had a pet Black Widow Spider.... I HATE SPIDERS!!
We had our first official date on Feb. 7th 2008. We doubled with our friends Bryce and Brittney. It started with dinner and bowling. Then we went Dustins apartment and watched Hairspray (the musical.) and the boys LOVED it! lol Not. After that, Dustin told me that the spider could die if I killed it. I then proceeded to spray the inside of the bowl with hairspray and light it on fire. Creeped me out. We went to flush the thing down the toilet when Bryce and Brittney shut the lights off and locked the door. They told us that we could come out after Dustin kissed me. That was emberassing! Soon after trying to get out, we shared our first kiss. What a great first kiss. What a way to end the perfect first date.
From there, it was a whirlwind of a romance..... or something like it. :)
We became "official" Feb 15th. I told him I loved him 6 weeks into our relationship. I told him, and he sighed, like it was a huge disappointment. Poor guy, I bombarded him with my love. I knew he wasn't ready for anything serious. He was never the type to be serious. I was his first girlfriend. But its a good feeling to know I was his first. :)
We dated for 8 months before he proposed on Oct 25th 2008. We were married 6 months after that on April 25th 2009. That day was the best day of my life. It was the day I knew that I got the opportunity to spend the rest of Eternity with my best friend. Dustin Brooksby is my one and only. And I knew it from that first kiss. :)
That day was also the last day I would see Bryce Moss alive. Bryce was a dear friend who worked at the Hospital with us. He was security with Dustin and Matt. He was my little Mario. My friendship with Bryce was rocky most of the time, but he was one of the best people to come into my life. Bryce was diagnosed with a cancer that is brought on by transplants. When he was a kid Bryce had 3 kidney transplants. He, from there, became 3KT. They say regrets are what form us for the rest of our lives, and I have regrets with Bryce. And I have learned that life really is too short. And words will stick with you for the rest of your life, even when you are the one saying them. I wish I had more time with him. I wish I could tell him I love him one last time.
Dustin and I lived in his little one bedroom apartment for a few months until we could get the 2 bedroom apartment around the corner. We were there for a year and a half. We bought our first house December 2010.
In April 2011, we found out that we were expecting out first child. I can't even begin to tell you how ecxited I was! We found out actually on the day we were celebrating our 2 year anniversary. And to be honest, I couldn't have asked for a better present. That day changed our lives forever!
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