again

just pipak my bro again...mb i should stop trying to make him study....

or listen to me.

its making me tired and older( angry)...

sigh,

should just stop expecting and care.

5th Dec

Just came back from outing with friends. With Kf and Lok, just the 3 of us.

Only us left in Miri i guess...

Had a great lunch at citrus, kolok is still funny as she always is..hahaha

Then after Kf and us meet up, we went for a movie...guess which movie is that....

"New Moon"...i'll prefer to see the new moon on the sky, seriously..lol

no offence meant but it's just not my type of movie... its quite boring and dull. (kolok, dun kill me..XD)

untitled

back here for one week. the old house still smell the same, the activity is the same.
Oh, the house have got a dog now... a white dunno what breed dog. lol

the name's apprie.....guess the gender? its a male (==)".
Well it's not my dog so nevermind. but i'll just call it pigtail since its tail is always curled up like a pig. hahahaha

i'm bored.

back to the old life.... <<<<>

and got my results yesterday... extra extra bad.

well i admit i didn study much for the finals, but the assignments wasn't that bad....

but oh well, i passed....

so no supplementary or repeating course...that quite good, right?

nop, for those who always got good results out of hard work, thats not good at all. because that means i never work hard for good results! ok, i don't think i worked "hard" either, but still, i worked.... a little.

guess i didn't change a bit on my studies, haha....still a lazy bum

1st year and i got such results, no hope for the rest of the years eh?

sigh...

next year will be my 2nd year and worse year...lonely year,

well maybe lonely for half a year...

hopefully.

hey hey

wow, its been long since i last update this blog.

ok, now its near to final of my sem 2. wow, time flies.

and today is the 1st day of october...so...ya, nothing special, just assignments and final is heading my way...AGAIn.

didn't went out at all during raya hols... stayed at home and do assignments. What a nice holiday...
well i've have nice time facebooking...haha, i've always have.

now reading my previous post...now i can't guess what does that short form of letter means either...so it will remain a mystery here, i guess..

wee, what if i just want to stay in the old self...that's bad. Skip the conversation.

and tada, we have come to an end to the latest update of this blog.

See you guys...soon. (not sure how soon is soon) Its a very subjective word. Xp

byeeeeee~~

update

back in kl and started course yesterday...
not sure why but have no good feeling at all..

phy, stat and eng..my gosh...what kind of 2nd sem.

hi guys....i am back.


wiml~~don't think anyone can guess whats this...lols!!

damn it

damn i hate that old woman.

this morning

i woke up at 5.45 so that i can warm the porridge for my bro...
baka, he got sick.

then 6.15 sent sis to school...then i didn't went back to home..

guess where i went..
i went to the bank! what a boring place...it was 6.50 at most and what am i doing at the bank which normally opens at 9.15?

for the ASM thing..haih....waited so long but there is something interesting to see..

those ah gong ah ma and aunty...lols.

some even went to queue up outside the bank at 5am..so i am not the earliest...

they almost had a fight when someone who came later stand in front.
the woman said: this is your place mer? this is a public place! i want to sit here knot ar?

i dunno what happened next but there wasn't anything big la.
then later one uncle in front starting to give out numbers..lol

not the bank officer but the orang awam..funny gesture, and quite a lot of ppl agree with this so no one can cut queue...

what ppl can do for money eh~haha

and i came back home around 10.30am...haih

tiring larr

4 new tyres

woke up at 6 to accompany sis go school cos she drive there and i drive back. haha

so we went to fill the oil 1st because its running low and i find that the front right tyre needs some air so i ask her to pump it, but i don't know y its not working and gave up..

then we go to her scl and on the journey back i heard the weird noise..
i keep driving ler..hoping i can reach home but then the noise gets worse so i stopped the small kancil lo..

and guess what, tayar pancit.

i think she let out some air instead of filling..
LOL

thats not the worse thing, when i touch my pocket...didn bring phone..cant call dad for help...and one apek on motor ask me, xiao jie..what happened ar? you dunno how to change ar?
"i think i don't have the equipment to change"
apek: "o"..then he went away....i was thinking to borrow his phone...cis

i thought there is no equipment to change the tyre ma...so i tried to borrow the phone from the house i parked in front of..no one answered me..

so i walk to the neighbour house lo. and his front gate is open, haha. God loves me.
and i borrowed the phone and called my dad..i think my voice is shaking...don't really know why...i am not nervous or whatsoever ler...and then i found out one very paiseh thing...my t shirt was terbalik...

**wondering if that has anything to do with the weird faces from the house owner...HAHA

okok...too much details.
then i wait lo...while waiting i was too bored then check the back of car..got the equipment ler...so take it out lo, but not sure if the place i put is correct. so i continued to wait.so lonely waiting alone in kampung kampung place...



haha, dad came and find that the tyre has no 'wind' inside...need to wait him to go pump and come back again...

after he is back... the tyre is expired so went to change all 4 of them.
wee...4 new tyres.LOL

540...haih, so expensive lo. with nitrogen inside...does it mean i can't go normal gas station to pump?

after changing the tyre went to eat roti telur went home and then asked my bro to wash the car. I got wash together a, not like he will wash if i am not washing.

Just after that, my sis called and i need to be driver again.So ngam ho, she always know how to pick the right time. can't even rest a while..
So off i go.

hmm...thats my whole morning. Don't think my next half of the day will have anything to blog about. haha

~

aiyo what to blog bout ler?

so long didn't update..
so ya, in Miri for about 2 weeks now.

1 week left before going back to Subang..

surprisingly i am not bored at all.
time flies in front of comp and tv..

and the time for driving and cooking..so not bored actually.

Didn't went out that much...haven't seen the new parkson.
Cos me lazy. hehe

so to me, Miri hasn't change much..

right...and Kf says that i am predictable..JB also says that...
i am that predictable mer...so lao yar o?


haha... random posting cos nothing to write.

update

scie1000 not yet out...so


PLEASE DON"T LET ME FAIL>..haih

oh!!!!

and i forgot to say!! my result is out tomoro!!!! please don't let me fail.. PLEASEEEEE~~~~~~~~

back in hometown

so i am back in hometown. lols, arrived saturday.

Miri didn't change much, at least for my area. I think..haha

right maybe i should write about what happened in the airport.

My flight was supposed to be 3pm, and so i think i boarded the plane at 2.30 or something, after sending a few sms..and reading some sms... i off it only when i am in the plane. ^^, bad citizen.

ok, after waiting to take off for 30 minutes. an announcement was made, the right engine was found to be leaking oil. So they have to ask their engineer to check the plane.

after another 10 minutes of waiting, common sense la...we need to get off the plane and wait for another flight.

and i, being so addicted to facebook, of course won't missed the opportunity to online, lols.

so actually i didn't mind the waiting. haha

the funny thing was i actually was thinking if something happen during the flight what will i write as my will and my last words?

I was thinking what to write actually and not long after that the announcement was made.coincidence? haha XD

anyway, i am safe and sound. in front of the laptop...
playing fb..

101 post

is it alot or little??haha

oh well, currently on holiday. doing nothing except wasting my time playing fb>>>which links to Mh. hehe

if you don't know what Mh is, nevermind. ^^

lallaaaa..then going back to Miri this Saturday.

cham lo, finished pi zi ying xiong already..no drama to chase...

how ar?

i don't want to be bored!

Alice Yong = Baka

well, this is an emo post so if you are happy please don't read.. cos it will make you unhappy.

and if you are unhappy, don't read cos it will depress you. So the conclusion is ==== skip this post. lol

THen why am i writing this?
to remind myself i am cold blooded.

I always thought of myself and not for other ppl.
I thought that my problem is the most serious problem

Dang, i am so dang selfish.

Never thought of other ppl's prob.

When i emo or need to talk to, i can only go to one person.

She always tried her best to pull me out of the emoness.. sometime it works...

it is always good to have at least one person to talk to...
if i have no one.... i don't think i will be here.
Having no one will make me meaner and more selfish.

i am already like that in personality, it will be worse and can be worse if i have no one.
If i am hurt , i will try to increase the defense 10 times or 100 times... note that "try"...
but in the end.. guess what?
I am the one hurting myself.

And now that person may be in trouble but i can't help anything.

I am a jerk that can do nothing.
Jerk.

maybe i should change my name..Jerk Yong...
not bad...Jerky then. cos Jerk sounds guyish

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Yay?

finished my final today..oops i mean, yesterday.
Not relieved no nothing.
Just plain tired and after that i got headache.
What a life...lol

hahha

The comment for this Final?

If i can pass all of them i will be very happy, especially for the 1st paper and the last one.

haih...

*praying*

^^

update~

er, am having Final now ...3 days continuously... SO SOSSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO tiring!!!

so slept at 2am for 2 days and yesterday i slept at ..i forgot..
sleep for 2 hours b4 waking up, never felt so tired before..

i love sleeping!! i hate exams!!! and the 1st paper is a nightmare!!! if i can pass the course i will Praise the Lord!!!

currently 3 down, 1 to go..chemistry on Monday..been sleeping and playing around the whole day today after the bio1030 paper.
So tomoro need to start revising again...which means ...SLEEP LATE AGAIN!!!! T.T

i hate finals, especially those you need to pass the exam then you pass the course...i hate it

Oh Lord, please let me pass SCIE1000..

i don't want to repeat it.

Please~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

..hmm

wondering is this my latest time staying up.
now is 3.17am..
lol....ahhhhhhh

did something like this b4. want to try it out?

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

what the!!!

i am confused...well well.
i talk bout the gays wannabes before right?

now they are fighting.
for me there is no obvious reason for them to fight..

ok..the main point is.

while in the it lab doing our assignment and big project..
the shorter one,i'll call him M from now on and that tall one A .

ok
M came to find A and keep calling his name....i was sitting next to A
A,A,A,A..u get it.
but A just ignore and continue his work

me sensing something is very wrong...quickly go the other edge for help .
just want to get out of that place la..
then M stay there for quite a long time while another classmate S tried to solve the situation...

much more later, M walk out with S. most probably to cry somewhere.

then i just move back to my place and ask A why don't he just forgive and be friends again??
cause its scary.
but he didn't say that he want to... then i called him big meanie.

then M came back from somewhere and poke my back.
and i was scared and confused..so just go to his place and guess what he ask me?

what did he tell you? he tell you a lot isn't it?

me: no, he didn tell me anything. (well seriously i don't think he tell me anything very important wor.)
M: your lying. i know you are..
me: i have no reason to lie to you.
M: your lying. then why did you smiled?
me:*dumbstruck*. i was talking to others , i can't smile??"
M: really? fine.you can go back now. sorry a

me: what the!
what does it have to do with me????? sheeeeeeeeeeeshhhhhhhhhh

its not the end yet.

after i sit down. M came over again and ask A look at me, look at me, look at my face.
A, i am talking to you. Look at me!

now i am very smart and i started packing right away after logging off my comp.
n i say i go 1st to A.

n relieved when i got out.

what a weird situation.

and seriously i don't want to be involved in it at all.

something new

learnt something from a friend today.asked her cause curious and i want to know.

so there is something that can't heal even after a long period of time.

u just forget but it never really heals. thats sad~

mb because not you who end it then its more painful? thats what i asked her.

and she say yeah. i think so, cause when i dumped the other 3 i don't feel that sad.

wow~~thats just cool

lalalaalala..what shud the title b?

since i signed in..so just blog a little..lol

ok..life currently is hmm..different?
mixed with ppl that under normal condition i wont mix with but thats cool.
lol

they are nice ppl.

currently obsessed with facebook games..

currently regarded by classmate as robot, cold blooded, mean ...lol

what else..

currently rushing 2 assg..

the so called gay couple sort of broke up.. i don't really know y but...none of my business right?

shouldn't kepo too much...if not i will have trouble myself again.

oya..i like bubbly

funny~

lol! just now went to the korean restaurant "the street" i think with duxin since he is a bit hungry.

i am not hungry so i just ordered a drink and he ordered the rice cake.

the funny thing is this~


well~ actually that drink has only one straw~but later the waitress just come over and poke another straw into it~
we were like~er....

then burst into laughter!!!hahahaha

i end up drink the citron tea with 2 straws...haha

and then before the rice cake come~
they prepared 2 sets of chopsticks and spoon for us~
lol!!!

well, duxin treat me that drink so i think that waitress will think that we are a weird couple.

but we are not.
lol!

this week~

watched a lot of we got married.
the sang chu couple.

lol~liked them.
liked how the guy acts..haha

so funny!

maybe i got influenced by it~
my classmates says i am getting funnier everyday~

well, am i?

oh! and my group mates say i am mean and cold hearted! lol~

they say i am too honest and no expression when i am saying things.hahahahaha

last week~

er~ i think its friday~

lol!

meet with my old friend from NS aka plkn aka national service.

its been a long time since i met her~
2 years already i think.

thats a long time, don't cha think?

but i guess will be meeting a lot of my friends like that~

not everyday anymore but after a couple of years then we will meet once.
hahaha~ sound sad isn't it? or is it?

she changed a little but the voice is still the same and still funny and cute, lol.

black bunny.
never thought we could just spend about 3 hours merely talking.
of course, she did most of the talking. about 95 %.hhhahaha

we met at midvalley
n she treat me my lunch.hahaha~so i saved money!

n that lunch is not cheap~
its a restaurant named delicious i think~
but its not that delicious to me since i never liked spaghetti.

well o welll~

i'm happy when we met,haha. the 1st question she ask me when we met is

"why u kept long hair?"
lol!!

i say, i kept long time liao lo.

"i keep finding someone with short hair."
haha

funny bunny~

taylor management ~~my GOSH!

what the heck lar~really pissed off now...

ok, tell me..whats the month now??

ok ...its may~ and when did i started my degree after so many problems?

march. MARCH!

guess what~

just got a phone call saying that i have not paid anything for biomed and everything is STILL under UNISA. AND!!!! she wanted ME to go and ask the UNISA person when they will transfer!AND maybe i will have to top up the balance that is still unpaid~yaya~~unpaid ur head!!! oi!!! i paid 16300 ok! for one semester! and the guy said Taylor's will transfer ALL of that sum for the biomed fees!what the!!! now a girl just called and say oh, your receipt has no value now.can you ask the i dunno what name when they will transfer to the biomed account?

ISNT that SUPPOSE to be YOUR JOb????????????????????????????YO! WHAT THE HECK !!!

the guy in the student said that it will be transfered in early march. what date is today??
oh~ 8 of may..still very early.. 2 months later !

shoot la~

seriously want to punch ppl now.

accident~

yesterday i am involved in an accident~well for those who already know..
its not interesting anymore~lol

well lets begin the story~
yesterday was a normal day for me except that i had a mid term exam for bio1030~
it was tough by the way, the short question part.ish~

before that things was not that smooth for Dr Deepa~ there is some prob with the com and
no one has marker for her to write on the white board and when she tried to draw on the paper
the marker has no ink...oh well~

then i need to go and do the interview with mns with the group members.
there are 4 of us.

went kl central by ktm and took a taxi.
taxi...

That stupid taxi driver~!!!!!

he drive like he thought his in the race and what the... he like to reverse a lot!!!!
he even tried to reverse in the middle of a highway..what an idiot!

and he take us round and round for almost one hour in his bad condition and smelly taxi~
shoot him la..

and for that he charge each of us rm2 extra because of his stupidity.

the MNS office was just at a turn of the road and he is the one who refused to go there when we asked him to.

I was suspecting he did that on purpose so that he can charge us extra.'
what kind of person.

and my coursemate asked his number so we can call him to pick us up after we are done with the interview. Luckily...he cant come and therefore we choose to walk since the MNS staff told us its actually not far from Sentral~

and not so lucky here...

we crossed 2 roads safely..but ...the BIG but....one of the group member got hit by a motorbike..it just happened in front of my eyes..sort of drama~really..just like 2 to 3 meter from where i stood.

when crossing the road the bike~well its an old bike~ the old guy was sounding the horn when i was crossing and i was wondering~horn for what?

and when i turn~he hit my classmate and she fell down..heard him screaming~

someone called for an ambulance~but they don't know where we are~then after a long wait, a taxi stopped and some of the guys that stopped help us to carry her into the taxi.
well almost all of them are Malays and indians..don't remember there is any chinese there.
some are really trying to help while others are just being busybody.

originally in malay.
"what happened?"
"she got hit??"
"how did it happened?"
"ooo~then i go 1st lah."

this particular taxi driver was very kind. He didn charge us for sending us to the hospital. If for that distance, i think the drivers in subang will charge for rm10.

this is the pic of that taxi..

well, shes ok yesterday.did a x-ray scan and got discharge.
but it took 3 hours and we missed our 3 hours chem lecture...

and guess what. u have to pay for everything before you are treated.

1stly, registration,20 bucks.then pay for x-ray and get a chop on the card then they will do the x-ray..next take medicine.pay 1st then medicine...

wondering what if she's very serious and can't wait? still need to pay and wait??
what kind of hospital.its PP something..university Malaya something....can't remember..don bother.

but today she felt dizzy and start vomiting and so did a ct scan ~
hope she will be fine.

laughable ~~lol

well~i am actually happy today~lol
only because of one talk...an honest talk.lol
actually its suppose to be about our modeling ~
oh well i like the old guy who gave the talk~
He is the director of some consulting company. Of course he owns the company.

he is 51 and rich...

"well i am 51 but in my heart i am the age of you guys but my body is old.."

then he talk about some examples using the computer program and its very cool...

After that " the project in M'sia is stupid! all stupid...u know wat wat wat project? thats another stupid idea. They don't find the source of the problem, what they want is money. Its like you want money? ok i give you some project la. Its all corrupted.." "You can see that we are wasting a lot of money.."

well the wat wat wat is bcos i forgot what he said~

then he said " you know that i was a student in japan and i lived with a very rich host family, and the host tell me that the death duty in Japan is very high, if you are very rich, the government will take almost all of your wealth you know. That's why in Japan there is not much rich people.Or in the western country, they don't have to worry much when they get old that's why their tax is very high! 40 to 50%. But in m'sia, they abolish the death duty! That is so stupid!!!how can you abolish it?? well, it's basically that someone saw that i already make this much money but when i die the government will take it and give it to public? No! that is why it is abolished."

so entertaining~
haha~
then this is the best part~ one of the Mara student ask,
" Sir, just now you said that all the project is bad right? Can you give some example of good project?"

He took a while and said.." Well the project the government did to build up this colleges is good..."
Mara student" nono, i am asking like..erm ...the good project for development."

"oh, oh, you are asking whether there is any good projects.."
after a moment...
"well i can't think of any!i am sorry ah, but what i am saying here is the fact."

lol~
Don't know whether the Mara students get who he is shooting or not.^^

Susan Boyle~Cry me a river

Now you say you're lonely
You cried the whole night through
Well you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
Well you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me
Nearly drove me
Out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember
I remember all that you said
Told me love was too plebeian
Told me you were through with me and
Now you say you love me
Well just to prove you do
Come on and cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me
Nearly drove me
Out of my head
While you never shared a tear
Remember
I remember all that you said
Told me love was too plebeian
Told me you were through with me and
Now you say you love me
Well just to prove you do
Come on and cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you
I cried a river over you
I cried a river over you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jI2DxkrgpgQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

I dreamed a dream from Les Miserables

i miss u guys!!!

i miss the girl who always sat beside me and like to criticize how ppl wear clothes and who has 'jie pi' ..well she never drink the water from Taylor's water filter.

p.s everyone in my class refill the water there.

i miss the crazy korean who is a TVXQ fan and go all around publicising them and dance a lot..
Misss the arirang dance...lol

i miss the miss perverted in our class who always is perverted and likes to 'blow cow'.She and CT blow cow combination is unbeatable. She is also the founder of Keohism.

i miss the fish in our class. She can be big fish and small fish at the same time..Shark and 'bai chang'..
oya~she can be a pig too~a pink pig.

i miss another korean girl who 1st impression she gives ppl is Shes TALL! and she will be crazy sometimes by dancing arirang with the smaller korean...
oh~she always makes us laugh in class because she is Super Duper blur~

i miss the china guy who always sit beside the smaller korean girl and likes to go 'haiya~" with his hand on his waist..

i miss the seremban guy who always sing out of tune in the class...
although if he sing properly its quite nice.

who else did i miss..
oh!
the guy that has a lot of scars and can be crazy when playing...
and the one always sitting beside chuantung
and a girl that always made us speechless in her very polite ways..

lol~i miss almost everyone...i miss PM15

just to entertain a pig if she reads

so i said i have nothing happy to blog about..
and someone said i have!
that is chatting with a pink pig...lol

this is funny.

sleeping late for facebook everyday~

yah~i am a loner!

haiyo
how come so long don't have something happy to blog about ler....
cos i have nothing to say bout my new coursemates??
cos i can't even mixed with them very well?
missed PM15 so damn much!!!

talk bout coursemate, there's one TVXQ fan...almost as crazy as ah hyun..
but the diff is she's a Malay and she don't dance ....but she's a korean freak...
then i talked bout the 2 gays wannabe...
then there's a bisexual in my class that has the same name as me...
she openly said that shes a bi and i keep on thinking she's joking but she insist its true...
still i dunno its real or not..

What else..oya
i got 4 seniors in their 2nd sem who is going to aus in their 3rd sem....
n the bi is one of them.

and more ridiculously 2 of the seniors keep hinting that senior likes me...
which i don't believe at all cos she told me who she liked..haha
still.....dunno how true is that.

others...
i dont mix with them...so i have nothing to say...
the ppl above is the only ones i talked a tiny weeny bit with
so u see...
I am a loner now..
hehe...
my 1st time...a new experience really...
wonder if in Aus it will be the same...
a loner....
great!
it suits me...
i even brought this identity home...
only chat with my roomate..
others just sometimes.......
but it is still better than scl since i feel comfortable at home...

to you~to me

Sad to say..
to you, its only a dream.
When you are awake from your sleep..
Its finished, done...
Just a dream

But..
to me..
i am in coma...
waiting to awake from this endless sleep...
and ..... dream.

gays to be~

well well~
there is 2 gays going to be in my new class.
too much hugging~
too much skinship~
Y is tall
M is petite type of guy~
and not that guyish~
so~
wont be surprise if one day they say~
"we're together"
oh well~
what has it got to do with me?
lame~

warning!

never go to sunway Ultimate sales and services to buy a laptop !!!!
they are liars!
just bought my laptop 3 weeks ago and just registered the warranty thing~
when i bought it they said it has 2 years international warranty..
but when i registered it...
it has only ONE year of international warranty!!
2 years become one year...wth!
and its not a new one,its the display laptop!
^%$%$^%$^%#

trophies from a paint ball game~

others didn get this serious~~
wondering~
looks scary eh

april's fool

1st~~tada~lvc
2nd~~goes to ~eddie
3rd~~bai chang
4th~raymond
5th~wonder who would it be....ah hyun!
hehe next,6th....may wong..
7th~Alice Yam
8th~~jb!haha..chat so long then discover

P.S. i got pranked by lvc..stupid website http://residence.educities.edu.tw/eden830610/new_page_8.htm

mao!!!

haih~~what to say..
never knew i will be like this
a little down after missed a phone call..
is it a little??
whose phone call is that?
well its teng mao ing..
i missed your call.
damn!
thought you saying your flying at 9 thats why i thought i can wait a little...
And by the way, i am not sleeping when you called...
was downstairs with the phone on my bed..
aish....
at least now i know i am not that cold blooded..
i know we still can meet....
but then...
hmm...
down...
nevermind....stupid mao!!
go in so early for wat!
ish

..chat at msn then..haih

quote

sudden inspiration in a bio class


Don't say your not strong
Cause you've been strong at least once
That's why you exist today.

in taylor's....again!

so ..erm..its been long since i last update this blog...
so ya..in taylor's again
3rd week now i think...
assignment due 10th of april...
a video to do...
assessment to do...
ooo.... i have a lot to do but no laptop...
sad...
yeah..anyway..

乱

很乱
圣经上说，
好树结好果子，坏树结坏果子。
是这样认召会。。。

那我在对的吗？
我因为家里的事跌倒了。

我所在的召会是对的吗？
那为什么我看到的是坏果子？

如果我错了，
那对的又在哪里？？

祝君好

聽　你不斷呼叫我
劃破　寧靜　我的心下墜
在難過　講　不出愛沒結果
口和唇　緊緊閉鎖

哭　也一話都不說
害怕　連累　你一生日月
憾無缺　只差跟你曾遇過
給過你　太多波折

＊寧願沒擁抱　共你可到老(能夠終老)
任由你　來去自如
在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到　他比我好
只望停在遠處　祝君安好
雖不可(多麼想)　親口細訴

說　太多話我想說
但我　還是　要啞口道別
任由我　天空海闊流著血
只要你　白似冰雪

选择

去了海边过后想一想，
也对。
其实并不是很大件事，并没有什么大不了。

那只是年少无知。。是这样说吧？
但我不能说我无知，因为我是知道的。
只能说天真，认为一切都可以回到原点。

我忘了这不是游戏，死了过后不能从新开始。

也能说我自大，认为我能够回到最初的那个我。。

原本的那个我。


现在才发现，不能。
要怎么做？
我是知道的。

可是做不做得到。。。。。
是另外一回事。


可能我了解那份用心。
但了解是一回事，
感觉又是另外一回事。

　悲伤已经慢慢的淡了。
但是忘记是不可能的。
放下的方法，还在找。。。。

并没有什么大不了。。。
但是，
两年来很大不了的东西突然之间变没什么大不了。

我还负荷不来。
真的没什么的。。。

时间是解药还是毒药。。。。
都是我的选择。

yosh yosh~

i am in a mess...
n i cant get myself out.

so i need help...
but no one can help me with this.
because i can't tell no one and don't know how to tell.

there is a very heavy feeling inside but i don't know how to get rid of it.
wanted to cry...
but i can't.
is it because all these times i keep telling myself that crying is weak?
or because i kept telling myself, there is no reason for me to cry.
because i should be happy.

now i am in a confused state of what i must do, what i should do with what i want to do.

the problem is....
i don't even know what i want to do.

its complicated.
i know.
and i am lost

Attitudes Toward Self Test - Report

My Attitudes Toward Self

High Standards	42
Self-Criticism	92
Generalization	81

You have high self-criticism. You have high generalization.

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Stress Management Test - Report

My Stress Management

Functional Management	68
Emotional Management	44
Disengagement	57
Internalization	84

You have medium restraint, however you have high suppression of competing activities. You have low use of emotional social support. You have low mental disengagement. You have high religious coping.

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Motivational Behavior Test - Report

My Motivational Behavior

Behavioral Approach	64
Behavioral Inhibition	67

You do not have a very strong drive for completely tasks that you have set yourself, or even that others have set for you, however you are very motivated by seeking reward for your behaviour. The offer of a reward (such as a promotion for working hard or winning a bet) will keep you motivated to complete difficult activities.

Take a personality tests now or view the full Motivational Behavior Report. UGG Boots UK

Personality Test - Report

My Personality

Neuroticism	77
Extraversion	3
Openness to Experience	10
Agreeableness	11
Conscientiousness	4

You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits. You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

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another emo post~

found something on facebook...
click here click there n poof there u go...

well, i hate myself again.
haha, for having the feeling i am having.
Seriously..
why did i care?
none of my business.
For one year i have been hypnotising myself with this phrase.

10 friends.Perfect 10?
All of them friends before 2005.
Except one of course.

Good job, seriously.

I am the only one thats useless..hah

A-lice

hate myself.....no one can help me except myself.

knew this all along.....

but i am not helping myself...
just hating....continuous hating.

no confidence, no dignity , no pride .
Lost it all 1 and 3 quarter years ago..

thats me

no title

results out...
just as i thought it wont be good.
but it went worse than i thought.

i deserve it, didn't really work hard for A levels.
One and a half year, i wasted it.

If i have matured a little, then at least i get something.
What did i get?

1st semester, was into my own world almost the whole time.
2nd semester, playing around.
3rd semester, what did i do?

past is past, can't do anything anymore.
what i have is future.
i've said this before now it comes back to me.

Curtin? impossible.
engineer? impossible.

where should i go then?
September intake? a bit too far away.
I have little time if i want to get out of here in feb..
very little time

i can't

i know its a good opportunity.
but knowing the percentage of succeed is near to zero,

how can i take it?
what if it make me feel worse?
what if it remind me of the old damn never recovered scars?

i can't.
can't take in another scar from the same person...
i have no guts to take the chance.

another one!!^ ^

this time i just pump air into tyre...
3 at the one 1st time!
actually i wanted to do 4...
but there was a little prob..
nevermind...will pump that one another day~

!st time

everything has a 1st time~

today i had a first time....

~~

i.... changed the 1st tyre in my life!!!

wahaha~~ proudo

dream~

read sin yee's blog

there is 2 about dream.

yesterday i too had a dream, but i don't think its the same kind of dream as sin yee's.

I think there is a reason for that dream .

Because of sms..

i dreamt that i was in a secondary school. ( i think bcos of the uniform)

But not in my ori secondary school, it looked more like my primary school.

Weird dream.

everything was the same, the happiness was the same.

But there is one extra person, a person who didn't appear in secondary.

In the dream i felt.....relieved.

But after i woke up, real life told me that its only a dream.

And it will always be a dream.

I've had this kind of dream a few times now.

And everytime i wake up i asked myself the same question.

Why .... did i have this kind of dream?

updating...

Although only got one follower....
The keohism guru....
still need to update ma.
right?
so me now in hometown,1st 2 weeks watch hong kong drama series.
then grow mushroom since no com to use during tat time....

but..

WOLAH~~~QIANG QIANG QIANG QIANG~~~~

got a new cpu!
although my fren say its expensive la...
but , nevermind !

AT least not bored le ma...
ngiahaha~