Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Thrive update - 10 days in
Well...I am really trying to be positive and stick with the Thrive Le-Vel experience. However the last few days have been rough. I am still off coffee and tea but I am way tired I am not sleeping well and some days I have energy to make it but days like today I am just tired. (same as before). I have had some good days energy wise but my sleeping habit is horrible. I have started only wearing the patch during the day and I take it off at night to see if that helps. So far I still haven't been able to sleep. Most of the stuff I read say people felt great after 5 days I am on day 10 now and today in paticular I feel very sluggish....I wills tick it out for 8-weeks but today isn't a good day for an update :)
Monday, November 9, 2015
Final Day 1 and Start of Day 2
So yesterday (day 1) started out great but by 2:00 I had my normal "down" meaning I lost energy and felt tired and sluggish. (normal for me). I had a hard time falling asleep and didn't sleep very well.
Day 2 - Today hasn't been great...I started the same as day one but by 7:30 I was feeling very anxious, agitated, heart racing "high" basically (still no coffee though and I am fine energy wise without it and my headache (so far) is only the minor one I deal with everyday nothing to bad). I took off the patch and have been drinking a lot of water. It is now almost 10 and the feeling has subsided a little bit. I feel pretty good now with an average energy level. I am thinking I may need a pick up for this afternoon because I am feeling the effects of not sleeping last night a little tired and out of it.
Tomorrow (day 3) I am going to only take 1 pill and half the shake and continue with the patch and see how that goes.
Not giving up yet just a bad day...
Day 2 - Today hasn't been great...I started the same as day one but by 7:30 I was feeling very anxious, agitated, heart racing "high" basically (still no coffee though and I am fine energy wise without it and my headache (so far) is only the minor one I deal with everyday nothing to bad). I took off the patch and have been drinking a lot of water. It is now almost 10 and the feeling has subsided a little bit. I feel pretty good now with an average energy level. I am thinking I may need a pick up for this afternoon because I am feeling the effects of not sleeping last night a little tired and out of it.
Tomorrow (day 3) I am going to only take 1 pill and half the shake and continue with the patch and see how that goes.
Not giving up yet just a bad day...
Sunday, November 8, 2015
Thrive Le-Vel experience
I am going to document my Thrive Le-Vel experience on my blog. This is a journal for me since I hate clutter it is easier to document electronically.
A little background, why I decided to start this journey. When I was about 21 years old I started to feel off. I would feel like my heart was racing all the time even when I was relaxed. I would loose weight at a scary rate (granted I always thought I was fat but looking back at pictures I was pretty thin) and I felt amped up all the time. My body felt like it was working on overdrive all the time. At times I felt like I was burning up from the inside out. A few years later I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism. I went through many doctors and many medications but nothing seemed to work. It got to a scary point when I was told you could have a heart attack and your body can start shutting down from being over worked if you don't get this taken care of. So, even though I was scared to go without an organ that is required for you to live on, I opted for surgery to remove my thyroid. After this things went from one bad thing to another. Now I am tired all the time, run down, no energy, I feel like I am walking around in a daze all the time and I can't focus and I have body aches all over all the time. Through the years after surgery, even with my levels being "normal" I still feel like crap. I have high anxiety (worse then when I had my thyroid) and it continues to worsen as the years go by.
In September of 2015 my life went down an even darker path. I lost my precious baby girl from an auto accident one day before her 19 birthday. All my life I have always said my biggest fear is loosing my child. I never thought I would have to experience this. The pain of this I can't even explain. There are no words to describe the emptiness and heartache I feel. The darkness that I am living in now is so painful and lonely it tears me up. I try to be strong for my family but I just feel lost. I have never really believed in depression until now. It is such a dark place and you feel helpless and like you can't go on anymore. I don't want to wake up from my dreams because my reality is the worst nightmare I have ever experienced. So now I not only have all those issues that I described above I have a darkness that I can't escape from. I don't think anything will remove me from this darkness but I am hoping this experience will at least make it so I can function in my life. I know I need to move in a direction where I can see MaKia again. If I keep sinking into the darkness I know I will not live up the expectations necessary to be with her again.
So here we go Day 1:
It is still early in my experience but I want to make sure I document the first "feelings". I took the 2 pills and then drank the shake and then put the patch on. No coffee. Within about 15-20 min I could feel the energy. It felt equivalent to a pot of coffee. Not shaky or anything just amped up. I felt like I had enough energy to run a marathon LOL. This is with no coffee at all....(remember I have been drinking coffee since 11 years old. This is a serious addiction for me.) As the time progressed the amped up feeling seems to subside but I still feel like I have energy to function. I still feel hazy but I can also feel little glimpses of clarity. Hopefully as the days go on this clarity will get better. I don't feel shaky or anything just like I have "natural" energy to function throughout my day. (still no coffee). I started to get a little headache forming but it has seemed to subside with just drinking water. I am thirsty so all I have been drinking is water.
So far so good. Lets see what this week brings I will keep updating :)
A little background, why I decided to start this journey. When I was about 21 years old I started to feel off. I would feel like my heart was racing all the time even when I was relaxed. I would loose weight at a scary rate (granted I always thought I was fat but looking back at pictures I was pretty thin) and I felt amped up all the time. My body felt like it was working on overdrive all the time. At times I felt like I was burning up from the inside out. A few years later I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism. I went through many doctors and many medications but nothing seemed to work. It got to a scary point when I was told you could have a heart attack and your body can start shutting down from being over worked if you don't get this taken care of. So, even though I was scared to go without an organ that is required for you to live on, I opted for surgery to remove my thyroid. After this things went from one bad thing to another. Now I am tired all the time, run down, no energy, I feel like I am walking around in a daze all the time and I can't focus and I have body aches all over all the time. Through the years after surgery, even with my levels being "normal" I still feel like crap. I have high anxiety (worse then when I had my thyroid) and it continues to worsen as the years go by.
In September of 2015 my life went down an even darker path. I lost my precious baby girl from an auto accident one day before her 19 birthday. All my life I have always said my biggest fear is loosing my child. I never thought I would have to experience this. The pain of this I can't even explain. There are no words to describe the emptiness and heartache I feel. The darkness that I am living in now is so painful and lonely it tears me up. I try to be strong for my family but I just feel lost. I have never really believed in depression until now. It is such a dark place and you feel helpless and like you can't go on anymore. I don't want to wake up from my dreams because my reality is the worst nightmare I have ever experienced. So now I not only have all those issues that I described above I have a darkness that I can't escape from. I don't think anything will remove me from this darkness but I am hoping this experience will at least make it so I can function in my life. I know I need to move in a direction where I can see MaKia again. If I keep sinking into the darkness I know I will not live up the expectations necessary to be with her again.
So here we go Day 1:
It is still early in my experience but I want to make sure I document the first "feelings". I took the 2 pills and then drank the shake and then put the patch on. No coffee. Within about 15-20 min I could feel the energy. It felt equivalent to a pot of coffee. Not shaky or anything just amped up. I felt like I had enough energy to run a marathon LOL. This is with no coffee at all....(remember I have been drinking coffee since 11 years old. This is a serious addiction for me.) As the time progressed the amped up feeling seems to subside but I still feel like I have energy to function. I still feel hazy but I can also feel little glimpses of clarity. Hopefully as the days go on this clarity will get better. I don't feel shaky or anything just like I have "natural" energy to function throughout my day. (still no coffee). I started to get a little headache forming but it has seemed to subside with just drinking water. I am thirsty so all I have been drinking is water.
So far so good. Lets see what this week brings I will keep updating :)
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
2014 Christmas Letter
I am a total scrooge this year. I didn't decorate (Scott made me put up the "kid" tree so I guess I did a little bit), no Christmas picture and I am not sending out Christmas cards....Ba Humbug I know...Anyway, for those of you that just can't live without my Christmas letter I will not disappoint it will just be online instead of in the mail :). (sorry for the picture overload)
2014 has been a very busy year. Looking back over the year we did a lot more then I thought....We took a few trips (Scott and I got away 3 times with just the two of us it was nice). We spent our anniversary in Las Vegas, we went to the Wine Festival in Park City with my friend Heidi and her husband Mike and we spent a night in Snowbird for Oktoberfest over my birthday. Scott transferred jobs, he no longer works for Champion he is now working for an environmental company called H2O. They recently moved back to Utah and he is the Manger over the Utah branch. This keeps him very busy and his stress level has been pretty high getting this up and running. I am still working for Corrections and I went back to school this year. I figure I will be paying on student loans for the rest of my life may as well finish my education correct. I am hoping to obtain my Masters Degree. It will be a long hard road but I am in no hurry so I will just take my time and get it done rather then stress out trying to get it quickly.
MaKia is a senior this year and went back to finish school. She is struggling after taking a year off but is confident she will be able to graduate with her class. We are all cheering for her. She has worked a few jobs this year and is currently working and attending school. It is hard on her but she is doing well. She did get to go to her Junior Prom.
McKenna is also a senior and only needs a few credit to graduate. She currently is taking only 6 classes (3 a day) at school and one of them is helping in the preschool at the high school. She enjoys being around the little kids. She babysits Aliya after school and decided Aliya is better then getting a real job so she continues to help Sadez out.
Kaden played football again this year and even was able to play in the Mascot bowl at the High School. He only injured himself about 3 times but it was minor. He is in 8th grade now and like any teenage boy doesn't think school is very cool. He is growing up to fast and soon will outgrow all his sisters :). (in the picture he is on the bottom #85)
We hope everyone had a safe and happy year and we wish you the best in the new year.
2014 has been a very busy year. Looking back over the year we did a lot more then I thought....We took a few trips (Scott and I got away 3 times with just the two of us it was nice). We spent our anniversary in Las Vegas, we went to the Wine Festival in Park City with my friend Heidi and her husband Mike and we spent a night in Snowbird for Oktoberfest over my birthday. Scott transferred jobs, he no longer works for Champion he is now working for an environmental company called H2O. They recently moved back to Utah and he is the Manger over the Utah branch. This keeps him very busy and his stress level has been pretty high getting this up and running. I am still working for Corrections and I went back to school this year. I figure I will be paying on student loans for the rest of my life may as well finish my education correct. I am hoping to obtain my Masters Degree. It will be a long hard road but I am in no hurry so I will just take my time and get it done rather then stress out trying to get it quickly.
Snowbird for Oktoberfest
Wine Festival in Park City
As a "family" (Kia didn't go on these trips with us and Sadez missed one) we were able to go on 2 trips. We went to Universal Studios Hollywood and to the East Coast. We started our East coast trip in New York and ended in Maine. My brother went with us, and I was able to see a Patriots game at Gillette Stadium. It was AWESOME. My favorite city was Boston. We took a day trip to Hogle Zoo (Aliya's first time at the Zoo). We spent the 4th of July testing out the fire pit I bought 3 years ago and we sold our trailer and Scott's bike and bought a swim spa.
4th of July
Boston!!!
Portland, Maine
New Castle, New Hampshire
Gillette Stadium Fox borough Mass
Swim Spa
Salem, Mass (Witch trials :)
Universal Studios Hollywood
ZOO!!!
Mersadez and Aliya: Alyia turned 1 this year it's amazing how much she learns everyday and how smart she is. She is a blast to have around even though we call her mini tornado. Her favorite things are Frozen (Olaf) and Princess Sofia. She has everyone wrapped around her finger of course and is a very happy little girl. Mersadez started working full-time this year and it has been an adjustment for her. She still lives at home with us and everyone pitches in to help with Aliya so she can work and try and have a social life. My mom and Kenna are currently babysitting for her.
MaKia is a senior this year and went back to finish school. She is struggling after taking a year off but is confident she will be able to graduate with her class. We are all cheering for her. She has worked a few jobs this year and is currently working and attending school. It is hard on her but she is doing well. She did get to go to her Junior Prom.
McKenna is also a senior and only needs a few credit to graduate. She currently is taking only 6 classes (3 a day) at school and one of them is helping in the preschool at the high school. She enjoys being around the little kids. She babysits Aliya after school and decided Aliya is better then getting a real job so she continues to help Sadez out.
Kaden played football again this year and even was able to play in the Mascot bowl at the High School. He only injured himself about 3 times but it was minor. He is in 8th grade now and like any teenage boy doesn't think school is very cool. He is growing up to fast and soon will outgrow all his sisters :). (in the picture he is on the bottom #85)
Friday, August 1, 2014
2014 - Half year Review
So I haven't posted anything in 2014...To sum it up in 10 things (tells you how boring we are huh).
1 - Being a grandma is AWESOME even when your only 35 and people look at you like your crazy when you say your a grandma.
2 - Universal Studio is so much better than Disneyland
3 - Summer in 2014 was very un-productive we had no trips planned all summer and basically chilled at home
4 - Swim Spas are AWESOME they are a swimming pool and a hot tub in one and I love having one in my back yard.
5 - Park City Wine Festival will be a yearly adventure for Scott and I
6 - I can't believe I haven't been to Park City before one of my "new" favorite places in Utah
7 - Oktoberfest at Snowbird is earlier and longer this year!! More time for FUN
8 - New England trip is planned and I was even able to get game tickets. No not together we are spread apart but hey we will be there right!!
9 - Finished the Discovery of Witches trilogy - great books, sad it's over
10 - Getting out of debt is hard work!! Once you see the light at the end of tunnel you realize it's a train and your pushed back again....Never ending with life/kids/house etc. Maybe getting out of debt is a pipe dream I need to wake up from.
So there you have it. We are way boring this year but we have been busy and the year has flown by.
1 - Being a grandma is AWESOME even when your only 35 and people look at you like your crazy when you say your a grandma.
2 - Universal Studio is so much better than Disneyland
3 - Summer in 2014 was very un-productive we had no trips planned all summer and basically chilled at home
4 - Swim Spas are AWESOME they are a swimming pool and a hot tub in one and I love having one in my back yard.
5 - Park City Wine Festival will be a yearly adventure for Scott and I
6 - I can't believe I haven't been to Park City before one of my "new" favorite places in Utah
7 - Oktoberfest at Snowbird is earlier and longer this year!! More time for FUN
8 - New England trip is planned and I was even able to get game tickets. No not together we are spread apart but hey we will be there right!!
9 - Finished the Discovery of Witches trilogy - great books, sad it's over
10 - Getting out of debt is hard work!! Once you see the light at the end of tunnel you realize it's a train and your pushed back again....Never ending with life/kids/house etc. Maybe getting out of debt is a pipe dream I need to wake up from.
So there you have it. We are way boring this year but we have been busy and the year has flown by.
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