Thursday, February 28, 2013

I choose (part two)....

So many things are being commemorated today.

My brother in law's birthday.

What would have been the 25th Birthday of an amazing boy named Tommy.

Today is National Rare Disease Day (Henry's Larsen's Syndrome certainly qualifies).

My friend Jennifer brought her little boy Joshua home from Henry's country one year ago today - oh, and he was diagnosed with a rare syndrome within months of being home just like Henry...

Today Pope Benedict leaves the Chair of Peter for a life devoted to prayer.

Today Henry has been gone for 3 months.

The longest hardest most painful three months of my life.

But today I want to place firmly in my mind a commemoration of joy and hope and redemption.

2 years ago today my dear husband said:

YES

to this crazy idea God inspired...

to leave our 6 wonderful children and go halfway around the world to take a baby boy who had no one and no hope...

and make him a cherished son and brother and grandson and nephew and cousin....

to make the second half of what we now know was to be a short life...

into a shining beacon of the value of ALL LIFE for people across the world...

and an already happy household a true cenacle of love IN ACTION.

That is what I will be commemorating today.

Faith. Hope. Love.

The greatest of these is indeed love.

And despite the pain and sacrifice and difficulty...

I choose love.





Tuesday, February 26, 2013

I choose (part one)...

Today Henry and I should have been in Philadelphia at CHOP for his first VEPTR rod expansion...

And while my heart and arms and stomach physically ache from missing him...

I was also able, for the first time since he died...

To think of it this way...

He will not have to go through any more pain.

We won't have to be terrified about intubation.

A dear momma's adopted girl is in the ICU with croup in Colorado at this moment.

Many babies here in the Chicago area are suffering from RSV this time of year (just like Henry did last year).

But there is no more suffering for Henry in heaven.

No more pain or worry or ambulance rides or bedside vigils in the PICU.

I can choose to be joyful about this reality.

And today I will...

Even as tears well up in my eyes.

(Part Two to come Thursday)




Thursday, February 14, 2013

Lenten Silence....

I don't know what to write...

What to say...

So I need to be silent for a while...

I will be back on Feb 28 to commemorate 3 months...

Until then please keep me and my family in your prayers...