i said there's someone i'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year

WWHHHHEEEEE! (:
i called eddie this morning to wake him up for school! (:
but guess what? he didn't have school.
so i woke him up for nothing.
BUT HIS VOICE WAS SUPER FUNNY.
lols (: can't wait for friday and the holidays!
fyi, mr chia, we have not gone out since like forever!
so date me soon hor.

oh, and good morning, love (:

i want you.

i cried while reading both entries.
when you told me you didn't love me anymore,
my heart broke.
i didn't know what to do.
i felt so lost because i lost something very precious to me - you.

i want you to be the one for me too.
i want to be the one for you.
and yes, love,
i want to try it all over again ((:

if i die.

edison: you whom i have spent the last 2 years and 4 months with. i took my Os with you. i got my IC with you. i went grocery shopping with you. i took my first cable car dinner with you. i went to Phantom of the Opera with you. i entered poly with you. i cut hair with you. i went on a holiday with you. i shared special moments with you. i worked with you. i brought the kids swimming with you. i went JB with your family and you came with mine. i know your IC no, your passwords, your matric card no, your whole family's birthdays, your height, your weight, your house address, your preferences. i fought with you, i cried over you, i walked away from you. i'm sorry for the bad times. but i am happy for the good. just know that i love you, and honestly, nothing's gonna change my love for you. and if i die, i'll miss you and not knowing how things might have turned out between us if circumstances had been different.

Nicole: I could never get you out of my mind. You're just stuck in my head seriously. You're the person i could cry for. I could laught with, I did so many things with you like you said. Today's Emily's birthday. Remember how i used to share present with you? I long and i wish for that today. you take care of my little gritty bits while i take care of yours too. I wounder is it still gonna be the same for you that you said nothing's gonna change my love for you? You'll be the one i think of if there's trouble. I'll always be secretly looking out of you. Whether if you are okay or if you need something. I'm thankful for your blog that at least i know something about you still. if i die, I'll regret not spending the days with you.

let's start it all over again.

posted by ed

All I Want You To Know.

A full complete circle.
That's what and how I can describe to you.

I want to reopen this blog, a new chapter in my life, and your life as well.
I want to remember the past,
the time we spent together
the laugh that we laugh together
the long walk we used to have by the canal
the places that we went together
the playground that we sat at
the cable car that we took
the ice creams that we ate

I want to be there for you,
I want to hold your hand again,
I want to be the shoulder you can cry on
I want to be the person you can depend
I want to be the one for you

I have learn how to make decisions
I have to learn to be proactive
I have learn how to independent, so that I can be strong for you
I have learn many things

I went by your house during the wee hours of Monday morning.
I drove around the carpark, took a walk under your block.
Tears flowed down my cheeks.

The multi-storey carpark is almost done,
the road leading to your house has changed, with new tiles,
as i walked under your block,
I remember sitting there waiting for you to come down
I remember fighting with you there
I remember how I used to give you a hug before you going up the stairs
I remember how i played with you at the staircase
I remember your laughter
I remember your smile as you walk home
I remember how i waited for the bus alone after sending you home
I remember how your messages would come shortly after we depart from each other

Do you remember the first few months when I accompanied you home?
I remember asking "How do you know where to alight? The place looks the same to me. Do you go by the numbers on the street lamps? "
How silly is it right ?

I keep this conversation you had with me still, I couldn't bear to delete it.
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:07 PM:
i love you too.
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:07 PM:
but right now, i'm just taking time to consider, to take stock of my life
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:08 PM:
there are so many things that both of us want to do
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:09 PM:
the reasons for a break are - 1) there are things we want to do, and would result in 2) no time
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:10 PM:
3) we don't really "click" that well anymore, and as a result, 4) we always argue, because i don't have enough patience
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:11 PM:
5) you just made new friends, and you'll need to spend time with them
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:12 PM:
the reasons for us to continue are 1) i still love you, and you love me too, 2) i dunno if you'll still be there if i said yes, i want to be with you
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:13 PM:
3) i dunno what i'd do without you, and 4) i dunno if it's possible for us to still continue
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:14 PM:
5) you're always there for me when i need you, and i want to be there for you too
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:14 PM:
i need to be more disciplined and mean to say no
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:15 PM:
kannan is a huge problem for me, and i dunno how to handle it.
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:16 PM:
but recently, i learned how to say no, and refuse to give my number away, and i'm proud of myself (=
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:17 PM:
so i dunno. gimme some time alright?
oh nicky, you're so fine sent 22/4/2008 8:17 PM:
love love you

I think it's time for me to reply you, which you realized that I did not reply

ed says:
I love you too, STILL!
ed says:
I miss you, my lil princess

I don't know what your reply would be,
but again
I want to be there for you ALL OVER AGAIN!
I want to let you know, my love for you has never change.

If I've been more patient, I think we would be happy together,
It's my fault

Would you forgive me and give us a chance, all over again.
And we'll walk through difficult times together.