I am almost at the end of my polytechnic journey and I'm still in doubt as to what I want to do upon graduation. Come September, I will embark on my first real working journey as an intern and I believe this would be a really good chance for me to see what the working industry is like. I'm pretty thankful that I got into a HR department for internship bc that's what I really wanted and intend to do in future if I decide to not/stop flying in future. As of now, I'm thinking of doing this crazy thing which is working full-time upon grad and then maybe study hard for my degree part-time. I know this won't be an easy task especially considering the fact that if I take up a full-time job I'll probably devote 101% of my time into work and will barely have time to revise on my studies. I'M SO LOST AS TO WHAT MY FUTURE IS LIKE AND WOULD BE.

(P/S: I hope 10 years down the road I read back my blog and know that I made the right choice to my future)

Y'know how lately everything hasn't been going on as planned. I find it so selfish how you can do all these without thinking about the consequences, now you have got yourself into this state we are expected to clear the mess you left behind? Don't tell me this is a family responsibility because I honestly feel none of us should be responsible except you. You never paid for anything in my life, for as long as I could remember. You never paid for my expenses, school, entertainment, travel, everything. So I don't understand how can you owe all these money when you never ever lifted a finger in helping out with the finances at home. So weird. Now I'm supposed to help you clear 1/5 of your debts with the savings that were saved intended for my future education, how and why. I hate how parents in Singapore are so so freaking simple minded it fucking annoys me. You want to take MY money you talk to me and discuss with me first, don't simply come up to me and tell me you're closing my savings account for no apparent reason that's stupid. Ugh fucking annoyed now.