i am so fucked up..
my whole life is in a mess..
a big mess!!
and guess wat??
i can't go out anymore!!
haiz..
why must it come to tis...
i went out yesterday wif my friends..
when i got home already and i don know wat i do wrong, my mom scold me..
and also said i cannot go out anymore..
fuck!! damned fuck!!
i am confused..
today supposely had to go for session but i can't go..
sorry guys..
i just don understand..
is it wrong to go out during the weekends??
why am i not allowed to enjoy?
it is not like wkdays i everyday go out..
fuck la!!
i'm tired of tis..
last time, every sat and sun i nvr go out but went to play soccer downstairs..
then a few months passed and u scolded and nag at me..
says i am playin too much..
ok, i reduced it..
i put a limit..
last time, my friends and i planned to go gym every sun..
when i told u abt it, u nvr disagree..
but within three wks, u started to scold and nag at me..
cos of wat??
cos of my school..
ok, i stop..
then last time, either sat or sun i would go out..
to enjoy or to go study..
but then u also don like..
scolded and nag at me..
ok, i listen to u and stop..
and now, i told u every sun i got session..
but then yesterday u told me tat i cannot go out anymore..
how am i goin to do something faithfully when every time i must stop halfway!!??
haiz...
is wrong to have friends?
too many friends??
my only regret is tat i have given my mum hp no to my teacher...
all started through her..
all these trouble started tis year..
tis damned year..


i have decided to go for her remedial..
but not to pleased her but for the sake of my mother..
no way am i goin to smile to her ever again..
and she was rite..
i hate u!!
hate u to the core!!
mark my words..
nve seen someone so the busybody!!


hmm, maybe wat people says were right..
those malays wearin tudung is the most vicious and cunnin people..
these type of people so the damned scary..
don try to think tat i will appreciate wat u are doin..
more likely i hate ur "kindness"...
wonder how my father can know of such a person..
maybe he is unlucky..


argh, fuck la..
i'm chiowin!!

i am sick..
and nvr go sch..
so bored cos i am alone at home..
my mum ask me whether to go to the doctor but i said no need..
don waste the money..
so, woke up just now i take care of myself..
put cold towel, drink hot tea..
at first it was only a sore throat but then now, fever, flu and my sore throat is healin..
quite strange cos the past few days i have been drinkin lots of hot drink and i got sick..
when i drink soft drinks, never get sick..
aniway, its gd la i nvr go sch..
cos i injured my leg when playin soccer on sun..
btw, i got a free ticket to a movie cos i helped do a survey..
gd boy rite?? haha!


hmm, nothing more to say..
so bye2!

hmm...
yesterday went swimmin!!
wheeee!!! hahaha!!
at jurong..
it was a last min decision..
at first want to go town but some don want..
sumore no money..
had trouble meetin up at first cos we keep changin the venue..
finally met up at one of my friend's house at marsiling..
go there by bus then all in the bus sleep..
luckily we wake up right on time if not we miss the stop..
then all like kanchiong spider.. haha!
then swim for abt few hours then chiow..
went to 7/11 to buy food and we sat outside the shop to comsume our food..
damn funny cos we were like bangla..
bangla pun tk teruk gitu.. haha!
then we created some music and made the place very dirty..
then we ask bangla to help buy rokok cos we all no age.. haha!
lepak2 at the chinese garden park and went home at ard 9:30..


then today woke up late for school..
actually there is another reason but.. forget it..
and i went to sch durin my recess..
misses 2 tests, ss and chem..
die already..
cos in the afternoon,just now, have o's listenin compre..
today is mon and it felt like the middle of the wk..
so tired..
last wk 1 whole wk stayed back after sch to play soccer..
but also got other events and playin soccer made me go home late and wastin time..
hope it won't happen again tis wk..


i am like so fed up..
hope money will not be the barrier between a gd and a brigt future..
its okay if u don understand..
my life is too complicated and too troubled..



long post rite??
i know..
wat to do, update for 1 wk..
k la, gtg..
must do hmwk..
A.MATHS!!!

had my 'o' malay oral just now..
luckily i was the six person..
no need to wait long2..
then while waitin i was so bored..
i knew revision would not help cos nothin i do would improve anythin..
so i just sat there holdin a peice of revision paper..
to give impression to the invigilator tat i am revisin la.. kc only.. haha!
felt like sleepin..
my friends all talkin and revising, i just keep quiet..
to relax.. if not later like 'kanchiong' spider.. haha!
so happy tat the oral is quite easy..
abt preparation for exams and stress from parents..
hope i can do well..
and next..
listenin compre!!



i am so stress..
not abt sch but abt family..
can't wait to grow up faster..
can earn my own money and ease my parents burden..
haiz..
if only can strike toto.. haha!
like real..
sigh....

hmm...
i decided to blog today..
cos long time nvr blog.. haha!

lets start wif birds in my sch canteen..
hmm, there are birds at my sch canteen all of a sudden..
its okay la if they are harmless but the birds like to sit on top of the canteen light and not only tat, bird shit will drop.. haha!
scary....
but got warnin one before shit drop..
the bird will 'gelek2' its backside and jeng,jeng..
xtra sauce for the food pls.. haha!

then my 'o' oral malay is in 5 days time..
so scared..
then followed by listenin compre..
really hope i pass my malay..
cos my malay teacher said tat we did badly for paper 2 compre..
but wat's done cannot be undone..
haiz..
but i knew i gave my best..
just have to pray for gd grades..

now, every teacher will threaten me of playin truancy if i skip their remedial..
like fuck..
abusin their powers only..

ok la, chinese show startin already..
gtg..

*somehow or rather, i just can't let go....