This was a really hard decision for me to make... goodbye.
I've moved
Relink me if you want!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Three little birds sat at my window, and they told me I don't need to worry
Should I or should I not change my blog? I already did actually (: Just that I wanna post a wee bit more there and figure out how to use it. I'll share it in due time, no worries. At the meantime, I'll just be blogging here to make sure my readers don't stop reading HAHAHAH (ya la i only have a few loyal readers....)
Just started watching Chuck- after a few years (yes, Elise would totally roll her eyes reading this). I like it!!! hahahahaha.
Yesterday I opened my inbox and I saw this:
Made me smile like a goofball. Thanks Rachel(: Thanks Liesel too for your E-Card! Wow, I wonder who uses E-Cards these days... I guess it's really a great way to save money and get your point across. Heehee.. Not implying anything Liesel (: Just really glad you cared (and that I didn't click delete)! (: (:
I guess all the birthday wishes did mean something to me... especially those that came from people that I care about- the close friends that make me think twice about just jumping off the bridge to my death (ok this is a weird way of saying it and no i'm not suicidal) 'cause I know that I actually mean something to them and they would not NOT notice my disappearance.
Last night I was digging up my older blogs, and I stumbled upon a group blog that I shared with 3 others in JC. Boy have I seriously changed. I wanna go back to Sg and dig up my old photographs and I'll post them some time!!!
For now, it's back to my Starbucks ice cream and Chuck. 6: I sound like a depressed woman.
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Can't believe I made so many friends here, that it makes it even harder for me to leave. I guess being away from home really draws you closer to a support group and they're really like family to me. Run out of face wash? Ask. Need food or company? They're just a phone call away. Really heart warming. They also threw me a small house party over the weekend. Gosh I'll really miss all of them. Their friendliness, hospitality. The fun times we spent together, the shitty times as well (like right now). ): I don't wanna go home!
yes, even though they caked me ):
Just started watching Chuck- after a few years (yes, Elise would totally roll her eyes reading this). I like it!!! hahahahaha.
Yesterday I opened my inbox and I saw this:
I guess all the birthday wishes did mean something to me... especially those that came from people that I care about- the close friends that make me think twice about just jumping off the bridge to my death (ok this is a weird way of saying it and no i'm not suicidal) 'cause I know that I actually mean something to them and they would not NOT notice my disappearance.
Last night I was digging up my older blogs, and I stumbled upon a group blog that I shared with 3 others in JC. Boy have I seriously changed. I wanna go back to Sg and dig up my old photographs and I'll post them some time!!!
For now, it's back to my Starbucks ice cream and Chuck. 6: I sound like a depressed woman.
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Can't believe I made so many friends here, that it makes it even harder for me to leave. I guess being away from home really draws you closer to a support group and they're really like family to me. Run out of face wash? Ask. Need food or company? They're just a phone call away. Really heart warming. They also threw me a small house party over the weekend. Gosh I'll really miss all of them. Their friendliness, hospitality. The fun times we spent together, the shitty times as well (like right now). ): I don't wanna go home!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
this is so true!
although asians don't really get invited and parties are racially segregated (at least in pitt)!
Forever 21?
Today, I am proud to say that I know what being an ah tiong feels like! Well, wanna feel it for yourself? Come to USA. I finished my paper in 15 minutes (including the time when I was thinking about what to eat later). Oh well.
Anywayss, I know today's my birthday (US time) and I know I am finally an adult, but I'm not the slightest bit happy about it. Maybe it's cos birthdays have REALLY lost their novelty to me. *shrugs* I guess I've slowly learnt not to expect too much out of life and carry on even though it sucks. Right now I'm sitting in bed, chatting online with some of my good friends that I'll miss when I head back to Sg, sipping on dark cherry mocha and zhnging my Adium layout. Pretty neat for a 21st huh...? Guess what? I'm okay with that! In fact, I love it!
I've been contemplating switching blogs. This blog in particular has held so many memories for me and it goes waaaay back to J2. If you actually dig through my archives, you'd realise there really is nothing about my JC life and the first post was a picture post of Egypt. Well, that's cos I created it as a private blog on top of some other blog I had in JC (which is currently deleted and I don't remember how or why but thank you). This blog really was created at the pit of my depressive period in J2, and only one person knew of its existence apart from me. I guess it really did help me pull through cos he would read it and encourage me to smile. Then I hopped over, deleted the emo posts (lest people read it) and posted more normal/emo/stressed out posts during the A level period. Then I cleared it all just slightly after the A levels in a fit of anger (cos certain things happened that just made me want to forget all i went through), but right now I am pretty glad I did, because I wouldn't be proud of the way I was before, although it did make me stronger.
Like how one outgrows her clothes I feel that I've come to outgrow this blog. On top of that, I am pretty much a very different person from what I was before. But I'll definitely keep this blog cos of the memories I guess... (: We'll see.
.... And I'll blog about my PostSecret experience too!
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Scars make us stronger for life!
Anywayss, I know today's my birthday (US time) and I know I am finally an adult, but I'm not the slightest bit happy about it. Maybe it's cos birthdays have REALLY lost their novelty to me. *shrugs* I guess I've slowly learnt not to expect too much out of life and carry on even though it sucks. Right now I'm sitting in bed, chatting online with some of my good friends that I'll miss when I head back to Sg, sipping on dark cherry mocha and zhnging my Adium layout. Pretty neat for a 21st huh...? Guess what? I'm okay with that! In fact, I love it!
I've been contemplating switching blogs. This blog in particular has held so many memories for me and it goes waaaay back to J2. If you actually dig through my archives, you'd realise there really is nothing about my JC life and the first post was a picture post of Egypt. Well, that's cos I created it as a private blog on top of some other blog I had in JC (which is currently deleted and I don't remember how or why but thank you). This blog really was created at the pit of my depressive period in J2, and only one person knew of its existence apart from me. I guess it really did help me pull through cos he would read it and encourage me to smile. Then I hopped over, deleted the emo posts (lest people read it) and posted more normal/emo/stressed out posts during the A level period. Then I cleared it all just slightly after the A levels in a fit of anger (cos certain things happened that just made me want to forget all i went through), but right now I am pretty glad I did, because I wouldn't be proud of the way I was before, although it did make me stronger.
Like how one outgrows her clothes I feel that I've come to outgrow this blog. On top of that, I am pretty much a very different person from what I was before. But I'll definitely keep this blog cos of the memories I guess... (: We'll see.
.... And I'll blog about my PostSecret experience too!
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Scars make us stronger for life!
Monday, April 26, 2010
hiatus
will be back on the 30th of april, right now i'm seriously paying for all the traveling and slacking that i've done for the past 4 months........ catching up the night before the finals isn't an easy task. i'm so tired and i'm off to bed now...
for now, ask me a question... anything! see u guys at the end of the week!
p/s: i'm coming of age in a few days......
Sunday, April 25, 2010
(Semi)formals 2010
'twas an interesting experience and i guess this pretty much wraps up my American collegiate experience. ): my finals are up and coming next week, and then i'm all set to head home to start a new season. thanks for being a part of it.... (: my feet are still aching like crazy /:
Friday, April 23, 2010
email from dad part 2 for keeps, part two:
my dad has the weirdest way of expressing his love although most of the time i don't reply his emails cos i think it's so weird... i'm just that way i guess. i just try to steer clear of anything mushy especially what's said face to face. and i don't have a habit of expressing my love openly to my family members cos it's weird too... acccck...
Good that you make the best of your time there and I really hope that your eyes to the world have been fully opened in the few short months you have been there. Singapore for all it is good qualities has a bad way of boxing up a person's mindset and outlook.
At your age you have much to look forward to and much that you can achieve if you find what you want. A step at a time will bring different experiences, opportunities and can shape your outlook and direction in life. You have been blessed with financial resources that allow you some of the experiences your mother and I did not experience early in our lives. Also the world was different 30 yrs ago.
I guess as parents we are glad to know that you are happy because its the single most important thing any parent wants for their children. Parents have children as a celebration of their love and joy in each other and hope that as they grow, they will find meaning and joy in their own lives.
Yes we have sent you on that journey and I hope that as you take it all in you will find more of the missing pieces in the puzzle that will complete your outlook and direction in life bringing you a lifetime of joy. I hope that there will also be pieces of the puzzle where God is honored for the great things he has done and will continue to do in your life.
Cheers
Daddy
i guess my dad kinda knows me well although i don't share anything with him (just weird, like i've said). i still AM going through a stage where i am still struggling to come to terms with things and discover who i really am and what i really want in life. it's great that i am starting to see the fuller picture over time, although it took me pretty long to figure out what i really wanted, but i'm so glad to know that my life could be a lot worse but what's worse didn't happen (: it could, but it didn't. that thought alone just makes me feel so satisfied. well, sometimes i wonder... like how would i know what i'm missing if i never even had it to begin with? accccccckkkkk i guess the grass is always greener on the other side most of the time, but you just need to look above and beyond that. i guess the plain on the other side ain't sunshiney too. glad i've seen that (:
right now, all i want to do is just to smile and take things in my stride, knowing that for every person who thinks i'll fail, there'll be 3 more who will stand beside me regardless.
positive vibes, positive vibes. being plagued by negative thoughts day in and day out really drains your energy away, and i learnt it the hard way. there's no point being sad. so what i tend to do is just push it away, play some happy music and smile (: gosh, look where i am now and what i've become... hard to see me in a depressive emo state like how i was in the past. wow.
god is so good. hallelujah.
p/s: i'll share more when everything is confirmed.
Good that you make the best of your time there and I really hope that your eyes to the world have been fully opened in the few short months you have been there. Singapore for all it is good qualities has a bad way of boxing up a person's mindset and outlook.
At your age you have much to look forward to and much that you can achieve if you find what you want. A step at a time will bring different experiences, opportunities and can shape your outlook and direction in life. You have been blessed with financial resources that allow you some of the experiences your mother and I did not experience early in our lives. Also the world was different 30 yrs ago.
I guess as parents we are glad to know that you are happy because its the single most important thing any parent wants for their children. Parents have children as a celebration of their love and joy in each other and hope that as they grow, they will find meaning and joy in their own lives.
Yes we have sent you on that journey and I hope that as you take it all in you will find more of the missing pieces in the puzzle that will complete your outlook and direction in life bringing you a lifetime of joy. I hope that there will also be pieces of the puzzle where God is honored for the great things he has done and will continue to do in your life.
Cheers
Daddy
i guess my dad kinda knows me well although i don't share anything with him (just weird, like i've said). i still AM going through a stage where i am still struggling to come to terms with things and discover who i really am and what i really want in life. it's great that i am starting to see the fuller picture over time, although it took me pretty long to figure out what i really wanted, but i'm so glad to know that my life could be a lot worse but what's worse didn't happen (: it could, but it didn't. that thought alone just makes me feel so satisfied. well, sometimes i wonder... like how would i know what i'm missing if i never even had it to begin with? accccccckkkkk i guess the grass is always greener on the other side most of the time, but you just need to look above and beyond that. i guess the plain on the other side ain't sunshiney too. glad i've seen that (:
right now, all i want to do is just to smile and take things in my stride, knowing that for every person who thinks i'll fail, there'll be 3 more who will stand beside me regardless.
positive vibes, positive vibes. being plagued by negative thoughts day in and day out really drains your energy away, and i learnt it the hard way. there's no point being sad. so what i tend to do is just push it away, play some happy music and smile (: gosh, look where i am now and what i've become... hard to see me in a depressive emo state like how i was in the past. wow.
god is so good. hallelujah.
p/s: i'll share more when everything is confirmed.
In the arms of the Angel
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh a beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the Angel fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight life and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh a beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the Angel fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight life and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of the Angel fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the Angel
May you find some comfort here
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