Sunday, August 27, 2006
Loving someone brings with it ups and downs. This is a fact I must understand and accept quickly. But, still I hate it when I am unhappy. Nor am I happy when he is unhappy. This is like some butterfly effect. Whenever one of us is unhappy, the other will automatically be unhappy. And our moods will affect the people around us. Strange, isn't it? If you come to think about it, happiness and unhappiness can both spread their wings.
I am weak. I really am. So tired. Tired of crying, of being unhappy, and having to guess what is he thinking. It is not smooth. I hate things to get out of my control. Why can't we be happier? WHY do we have to always have to repeat history again and again? Why don't we learn from the past?
I am so so very sian now. Ureshii janai. No mood to study, but I will try to force myself de. For the sake of my own future..that is if I have one.
True Friendship
"True friendship is also not meeting that friend for a long long time apart from smses and emails but when you meet up, you have endless to talk about and that bonding is there despite each other's absence."
The above is adapted from a close friend's blog. I feel that it's very true. I am very blessed. I found my true love. A special soulmate who is true to me as I am true to him. He is always loving me, making my life complete. A constant companion and lifelong-partner. My best friend, more of a sister, who is always there for me whenever I need her. She makes me into a kind, cheerful person. No matter how often we hang out with each other, we are always so comfortable with her. My second best friend, who is a special person in my life. I am who I am today, she plays a major part of it. She makes me into a more open person. Open to the negative aspect of life and I became a more fun person to be with. She's a someone who never bore me or anyone around her. A comfortable person to be with. Lim, my favourite s211 gal who always makes me feel happy and we are comfortable with each other although we seldom meet up. Chunie, who is like my daughter, she's so lovable and pure at heart. Feel comfortable just being with her.
All my 4 gals, I feel close to them. The bonding is strong. I feel like I am connected to each of them in an unique way. Like fate. And now, I have found another close friend. Ju, a simple gal who treasures her friends and is another person I feel comfortable with. We have many similiar views on friendships and such. Ju, we must be life-long friends k~ *muack* Love u gals!
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Today, my two special gals called me early in the morning~! =D Feel so very blessed lar, they still take the time out to call me when I am ever so busy. Busy with studies, with lao gong and other stuffs. It made me so touched can!!! *_~ Okay, from now onwards, I must make the conscious effort to call them up and update them with my life just like we used to do in the past~!
Monday, August 21, 2006
I know I am in the wrong at times,
I cannot promise you anything,
But deep within my soul,
I know my heart is true to you.
Fear not, my love.
For I am always there with you.
Believe in ourselves,
And nothing can bring us apart.
Let's stay together itsumo~
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Thur 17th Aug
s211 gals' gathering was fun~! I simply enjoyed the company of my gals *_~
Must meet up more k~? =D
When I reached earlier at Bugis with Yun, a lucky thing happened to us, or rather me!!
We were approached by 2 Toni & Guy's stuff and went ahead to be models for their trainees. We were so lucky as there were only last 2 spaces left. Since I have nothing to lose (They assured us that the trainees were qualified to cut real human's hair!) and I wanted to try out this salon anyway, we agreed and walked to our destination - beside Apple Strudels.
I was amazed to be someone's model lar!! So exciting rite! My hair also persuaded me to trim it into a proper shape - so there! Yun mentioned she needed a haircut too. So you see, we have many compelling reasons to do it! Wahaha~ So long winded! Gomen!
The guy that cut my hair was so funny lar. He chose me like twice lar! Kept saying that: "I want to cut the white gal's hair!" U noe why?! When we were chatting as he was washing my hair, he admitted readily that he chose me cos my hair was easier to trim!!! As I expected lar~! =p
The whole process was enjoyable and his service was good. The result was great too~! I was very satisfied with my new hairstyle =D
Yun wasn't so lucky though! Her hair was cut by an Indian lady lar! No discrimination intended but it's just so unlikely that Toni & Guy has Indian hairstylist hor! And She is yet again surrounded by Indians and more Indians again when she is back in University!! Poor thing...and the Trainer was like implementing the same fringe into hers lar!!!! So very funny. And she kept asking us if her fringe is too short not!!!
Yun and I went to meet leen and lim at Bugis Junction. Where we had a fun time catching up with one another and window-shopping. Dinner was at Pastamania where we took lotsa photos~! Will upload them if I have time =DP.S. Sorry ah lim, we made you waited for us for 2 hrs long. So very sorry.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
I just came back from my gym exercise~! =p *grin* I felt so refreshed and energized after those stretching and running! Love it, man! =D
This wasn't the first time I went to the gym, it was my 2nd. The first time was last Saturday! I was damn tired after that, man! Slept like a pig and wasn't able to move a muscle at all. Was feeling the ache from the gym exercise the next day!
Yesterday was a great day, as usual, with my darling Chata~ *muack* love u gal~ We had endless topics to chat about and I told her abt my recent worries and happenings. There are not secrets between us sisters~! Simply love her, man~ it was amazing to realise the significant changes we had over these past few years. She has grown more matured while I have gone more logical and rational. Cool and collected, that's what I am now.
The movie, "Click" is officially my second favourite movie. The first being "The Island". Click is a movie that is entertaining, yet educating. It made the audience, including us, laughed out loud from the very start of the show, yet towards the end, it slowly progressed to tell us a story of wad might happen if we focus too much on work or our dreams and forgo our relationship with the family, the dearest people in our lives. I am glad I watched it! To be honest, I wasn't tat keen to watch this movie in the first place.
Through this movie, the moral of the story was to teach us not to focus too much on a single aspect of our lives. In our busy bumblebee-style of living, or rather working, we tend to sacriface precious time spent with the family, and friends. That is why friends sometimes lose contact with each other. Or family disputes occur.
Just to update: To all my precious friends and all those ppl to care abt me sincerely, I am doing well now. I am getting used to being in a relationship (I love u, lao gong~). And I am constantly juggling. Yes, time management is the crucial key, but I will strive to live my life the way I want it. Thank you all who supported me all these while and I love you all. *muack*
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Weakling..
I was so weak that I gave in to the temptation of crying!
I couldn't even let myself be angry at him for too long...
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
The Day We Celebrated Our 4th Month~
Yesterday, lao gong came to my house with the cake I bought for us, AND - a super big gift for ME~! I love it~! HoohoohooOo~ It's a doggie for me~! A plush toy, but nevertheless, a dog~! lol~ Thx dearie, for helping me collect the cheese cake~! *_~
I missed him so much!!! Cos I hadn't seen him in 2 days! I was so very happy to see him~!
We ate some of the cake. It's such a pity that the cheese cake was a lil' sour. The cheese was thick and it melted in the mouth. It was that soft~! =D I especially like the biscuit at the bottom of the cake.
We went to TM to shop ard for a while before we proceeded to stuff our tummy full with food at Seoul Garden~! The food was so-so, I still prefer to have restaurants' meal and my mama's cooking~! =)
When I came out from the stuffing-session, my poor tummy was so ROUND i tell u!!! I was gonna burst, just from walking! Couldn't walk at a normal pace, I told lao gong to "let's slowly take a stroll!" =p
We went to play pool after that. At downtown east, I lost all 3 rounds to my lao gong...expected lar..last time I won him was due to some mystery luck~! *_~ heehee
And he also bought me a mug specially designed with our photos on it. Cool~ And his own personally written message for me. "Eeyore love Zhuzhu" Now, I can see our pics tog every morning when I drink my milk le~! *_~
I couldn't wait to go to bed last night. Cos I got to hug my doggie~! Yay~! =D
P.S. Happy 4th Month, lao gong~! I love you~ *muack*
5.8.06 Saturday
It was a day I went to NTU. Arrived at 11.15am at ah yun's hse to help her carry her bags of belongings to the hostel. She finally gave me the gift she bought for me when she was at Thailand~! It is a beautiful blueish-green shell bracelet~ We went all the way from Sengkang to Boon Lay! It was a long trip! =.=
Met up with chata at the ctrl stn there and we boarded Bus 199 to NTU's hostel. Her hostel's exterior environment resembles a chalet, at least that's wad I feel. The interior is like primary school classrooms with all the lil' blue coloured doors. Kinda cute~! =p
The thing I was amazed at was their study desks and toilet. Let me tell you all why. Their study desks were so BIG~! How I envy~! =D And every one of their toilet requires a password to enter. I was shocked cos din expect the security for toilets to be so high lor~!
After a quick lunch at the newly-built canteen - Bus Stop, we went to Orchard to shop shop. It was so damn hot that day! I had headache and heatstroke at the same time!!! We had to order cold drinks to cool us down. The Mango Lingo at Far East Plaza was a godsent to me then~! =)
Friday, August 04, 2006
Fun with Chata n Jas Gan~Today we went to cafe galilee at White Sands library with the gals =D Saw jasmine gan like finally!! Been so long since I last saw her. They were late, luckily, lao gong was there to accompany me until they arrived *_~ thx alot lao gong~Caught up with each other's life. As usual, I din have much to say to jas. But it was good to see her. She became so feminine now~! Wad with her long rebonded hair and small lady's bag~! Haha =DOnce she left to go home and have dinner, chata and i started toking like usual again. We just seemed to have endless topics to tok abt~! Tok and tok and tok without any restraints. I felt so connected with her, my darling chata~! =D love u, gal~! When we had to part ways, we felt so sad leaving each other...she said something that touched my heart: "Even with my ex-bf, I also never felt so sad leh." Haha we are so damn les~~! Yes, I noe that lol~! Gave her a goodbye flying-kiss lol~! The next time i see her will be on her bday...so gonna miss her till then~!
