Sunday, May 28, 2006
He gave me purple roses yesterday. Such a surprise, even though the first thing I told him was: "Why you go and buy roses for me again?"Really though roses are lovely but he's lovelier. Roses are too expensive le.CCN day = roses for me lol~!Thx the school for giving me roses~
Dinner at Fish and Co @ Airport. Leen's bday celebration with s211 gals.I used to always listen to the updates of yun's life and all.But, for the first time, I was given equal amount of air-time as yun. Maybe even more. I had become an extrovert. Got the Cert.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Group or not group?BEWARE!!! For I have gone cockoo and go and blog so many entries...Sadly, the long awaited darling group outing wasn't wad I had expected. Firstly, Sanjeev seemed to have drifted off from our group. Or, perhaps, he has never been part of it totally in the first place. He din come with us. Maybe he really has to attend a friend's bday party. Or maybe he just prefer his Princess cinema. I am tired of guessing ha.Secondly, there has been some changes to the configuration of closeness in the group. Ever since wee chong and I are together, I feel that there has been a different kind of atmosphere. Maybe, they just wana give us some personal space, but to me, I feel so weird and out of place sometimes. Just sometimes. Wish I could be back to those old times again. Juanna used to be the closest person I am in the group. Now, although she still is close to me...it's just sadly different.Due to the lack of 6 seats in the theatre in a row, we had to divide ourselves into 4s and 2s. As expected, wee chong and I sat together, resulting in a Not-so-group-outing feel.Soon after that, everybody seemed to have something on and we were left to ourselves. Not abandoned but it just feels so strange. The fact that everyone just leave after the show, not like a group outing lor. I had expected to go shop shop around after a movie..that was my original view of a group outing. Way before school reopens...Going to meet S211 gals later today to celebrate leen's bday. And to catch up with each other's lives. It will be fun I hope.
Pointless entryPardon me but I am now in the MOOD to blog, okay.Just skip this pointless entry, everyone. I just want to pour out all my feelings and thoughts here. Like Professor Dumbledore, so that I can look back some day in the future and laugh at the present me.I wish I have more time each day. More than 24 hours. It's simple. Cos more time = more spare time = time for more activities = time for those I have unintentionally neglected (my family) = more rest time (my beauty sleep) = more time for my best friends = more time for blogging = more time for personal space and more. Just more. I want MORE!!!It's that simple...isn't it? With more time each day, I can do more stuff. I can satisfy and please everyone in my life. I can be happier. It's just plain Juggling lar...trying so hard to balance out every little aspect of my life. Sometimes, I do get tired..Mentally too.But, think about it this way also. With more time everyday, we have to do more work. Humans, we just wana why lar!!! Everything also want it to go smoothly, according to our way. And if and when it does happen, we complain yet of another aspect that comes along with it. Controversies. Contradictions. They happen all too much..all so familiar to everyone.How I wish I can be like Dan Brown, author of Da Vinci Code, and many more books. Write a book and then I can be rich and famous. Create controversy. Create interest. Create publicity. And there you get it - your first million bucks!Sometimes, I hate myself so much. Doing something so meaningless as blogging when I should be checking out on my research...Just what am I doing?
Interesting fact about me: I love to listen to philosophical talks. My father and I will indulge in this kind of educating discussions sometimes.I overheard 2 working adults chatting about their workplace politics/conflict and about personal success and failures.Love listening and being involved in small debates with my darling group.That's the same reason why I don't ming listening attentively to NE seminars. And the coming World HR Congress. Just thinking about it makes me excited haha =)
The!How do one feel when his/her name is spelt wrongly by an important person in his/her life?Sometimes, I wonder what is happening. I can't really know what my mum is feeling, although she kept complaining/nagging that I come home so late, sleep so late...everyday like that, go out..not coming home early for dinner...She even said I only care about my friends, family is viewed as unimportant to me already..No, I told her before, many a times that I was busy with my projects, going to a friend's bday celebration, I mean I can't help it right..to be busy with these stuff!!!!Why can't she understand things from my perspective, and why can't I do the same for her too.From my mum's point of view, I would have been seen as a daughter who always come home late close to 11pm..sleep at 12 plus..couldn't even see her face in the day..early in the morning, I go to work, daughter still sleeping, I come home from work, she is still nowhere in sight. I worry about her meal, safety, health and yet she always just want to make me worried.How I wish she and I can understand each other more...maybe, it's just different angles of looking at the same thing, but why the hell can't people look at the same direction anyway?!! Cos. It's just the different roles in life that we play..Sometimes, I wonder whether we are just mere puppets waiting for our lives to begin and end by a Mighty Being's hand. Literally.I really don't know how to reassure her. And how to stop being frustrated with her when she nag at me again..about this same old topic...I have my life and I know how to take care of myself. Well, most of the time anyway. I can't live life according to her dictation, although I know she don't mean to control me in this way. Ha, I wish I have the same writing skill for PA report. The!
MoodswingsRealise this fact: I will not be happy when he's upset.My mood has another additional factor affecting it, no? I guess it's becos I care about him and how he feels."I am happy when you are happy.""When you are sad, I am sad with you too."
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Frankness is essential for a healthy relationship. Any relationship.
ComparisonOne is depressed that life is meaningless; the other abandoned life. One is mentally tired; another says she's physically tired.Which one is worst among the three?
Yesterday went to follow up at Tamp Polyclinic. All is well. The doct asked me to go clean up my wound everyday..my eyes were popping OUT!!! Everyday..so troublesome!!! Luckily, the nurse told me to get some medical supplies and DIY at home lol~ And I told the nurse I have already got ALL the medical supplies le =)So, it was a good news to me. A really good news heehee. Am relieved that my wound is FINALLY getting along fine with me. Wahaha. Dun tell it, it has been extremely naughty these 2 weeks, askin to be pampered by me and stuff. I guessed it needed a rest. Like what I did yesterday.Had a weird dream last night, I dreamt that I was kissing Han..my les-partner in my dream. Like, real les-partner, nt kidding de. My gosh. I have no idea why her of all ppl, and not like perhaps: angelia, chata, yun or janis lol~!! But why the hell do I dreamt of kissing a girl!!! Alarming leh..
Saturday, May 20, 2006
No more Makeup Bar's service!!!18th May sucks, due to a certain person!!
In the slow process of healing...Love,Blur Sotong~
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
A series of unfortunate events~Cut by dining knife on last last saturday, last wednesday started to develop swelling of lil' bubbles ard my wound. Itchiness set in, and before I knew it, it became my source of pain. Consulted a clinic's doctor on last friday night. Given a jab to for prevention, antibiotics and pills to ease swelling. Ate for 4 days but still swelling persisted, grown even bigger by each day!!! Seeked second opinion/ follow up at tamp polyclinic and got a referral letter to Changi General Hospital. Went there to burst the "balloon" and got some pills and a jab to ease the pain. I felt much better after removing the fluid from the swelling. My finger felt like it is now lighter and more comfortable. Thanks, wei chang, for sending me to the hospital =) *muack* I love you~
Main complaints/ HistoryCut by dining knifeand swelling over right index finger..given antibiotics..but swelling persistent, mild pain (mild pain is based on my own expression of d pain experienced from my poor finger on a scale of 1 to 8. Mine is between 3 and 4 - A little pain and an even more pain - cute leh the scale you should reali see it for urself~!)no numbness (the doct pressed my finger and there were some responses lol~!)Physical Examinationtemperature=36.8pulse rate=086respiration=18blood pressure=146/082alert (means i m still awake durin d consultation haha)not in distress (i din cry out loud for my pain when the doct pressed my blister that was as huge and shaped like a grape reali~!!)right index finger - swelling.. with blister+++good capillary return (i wonder wad's tat?~! caterpillar? cos the word reali made me tot of tat~)no sensation loss (i can still make some sensational news lol ;p)InvestigationX ray right IF: No foreign body or fracture. (there wasn't any grape seeds, fish bones or wadsoeva found in my swelling blister)ProceduresNeedle aspiration of blister (i din noe needle also has aspiration de honestly wad is the world coming to?~!!)The above are interestin facts which are recorded in my "Referral for continuation of treatment" list. Hope you guys enjoyed my cold jokes lol~
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Finally, I reached a compromise.Yea, yun's words are always so right. Everything is a compromise.I feel that in some way, it is true and very logical. Feasible and fair to all parties involved.My finger is so hurting now..wad the fuck i hate my stupid finger. So R and D. Plus so damn ugly.The truth is unfolded and all has just began.To be continued...Thanks sharon, for showering me with ur care and concern. Your simple but heartfelt msg reali touches me. I am so very fortunate and I know it =D
Sometimes, the truth hurts. I am indisposible today, tomorrow and the day after.I hate to go into hiding from the annoying eyes of strangers.I hate lying to my mum about my whereabouts.I hate myself for being so cowardly. Kept hiding the fact from people close to me cos I don't wish to hurt them.I hate myself for being me.
Monday, May 15, 2006
Happy Mothers' DayJust wana say Happy Mothers' Day to all mothers heehee~ Gave my mum a bouquet consisting of 3 fake rose with scented fragrance in a heart-shaped with rose print box. She seemed to like it lol..duno..but she was happily taking photos with her roses using my hp. Even asked me to put it on my blog lol~ My mum's so cute sometime =)
My finger is like a mini-balloon now...My stupid finger is now hurting like mad..couldn't type much..just wana tell all you guys about my condition. Sms oso vey slowly type..sian..no choice has to trouble darlin to help me type peer teaching notes...poor boi, he slept so little, tonite still need to continue typing. 12th may, night, he sent me to see a doctor at the 24 hr clinic in pasir ris. Stupid bedok, dun even have a single 24 hr clinic lor!!! Had to go all the way to Pasir Ris..I was so touched, cos he was very worried for me and my injury..din noe he love me so much..silly me~ Almost teared out at the cab..I was tat touched.!! Cut my finger accidently with a dining knife on last Saturday..it seemed okay until 5 days ago when it started to itch and swell little bubbles ard my wound..den I couldn't take it anymore so went to take a jab on friday with darlin and got myself some antibiotics as well as pills to ease the swelling..the infection must have been due to my weak immune system lar..weak me!!!..hope my finger will be healed soon..already took 2 days of medicine..sian!! i hate antibiotics!!!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Someone close to me once said that the reason why I feel the way I am feeling now is becos: I have only been experiencing the happiness aspect of a relationship. Conflicts, quarrels, fights, they haven't surface yet. That's why sometimes, just sometimes, I wonder do I deserve it all. Life has never been so good to me.
Have I become less and less rational? Scorpions tend to sacriface less important things, don't they?
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
What does it means when we look into each other's eyes and want to memorise the features of each other's faces ever so often?It can only mean one thing - our love for each other has deepened =)Love his hugs and kisses~
Monday, May 08, 2006
6/5/06
Singapore's duno how many times' General Election. It was also the day we celebrated our 1st month. Actually, 8th May is supposed to be our 1st month, but due to unforeseen circumstances, this was what that happened.
I wore a white dress, that he has never seen before and I can see that he was surprised to see me it it~ heehee. I thought it would be nice to wear a more formal dress for the occasion.
He fetched me from my house, as per usual, and together we took bus 87 to his house. I realised that his house is actually at a different side as ah yun's house, although the 2 houses are both near the interchange.
When we were taking the bus together, we seemed to reach our destination at a quicker pace. It is so true that when you have good company, time flies ever so fast~! Both of us noticed the difference, cos it was so significant.
His house is really newly furnished, with a modern feel to it. How I envy it, man~! =p
He actually tricked me~!!! That cunning guy~! =)
Asked me to find his contacts solution from his bedroom, so I stupidly went. Looked around at his table but din see it. I thought since he asked me to help him find, it must be somewhere at the table at an easily located area. My eyes were scanning at that level lar, so saw his gifts for me laying on his bed. But, I din go ahead and open it cos it's kinda impolite and I believed he would show it to me in his own time. And I was still busy searching high and low (but not literally looking up and down) when that guy came and told me his contact solution is over THERE *points to the bed direction but slightly higher*
And that's when I saw it~!! My gosh, I was momentarily stunned~!! As in my mind froze as I stared at all my printed version of our pictures. All over his wall. And at the center, there was this paper that said "I love you, zhu zhu."
When my mind started to function normally, the funniest part was how my brain works. It alway seems to relate to recent events that is still fresh on my mind. So, I thought of Densha Otoko. Shouldn't elaborate on it. lol~ Don't ask, thanks alot~!
I was touched and most happy that he actually did all this for me. What a romantic guy I have got~! This was one of the things I found out about him gradually during this one month =)
Even his computer screensaver was of us ^_^
I checked out his gift for me. Among them was a gift box. So I went ahead and open it up first. And I was in for my 2nd surprise~!! Never would I know that inside the box, it is the item that I have always wanted. A heart-shaped pendant necklace that I wished my boyfriend will buy for me~!!! In my favourite, nature's colour - blue~! My True Colour~
Although, it wasn't the exact piece I saw at Far East Plaza with ah lim that time, it was a similiar, or should I say, better vision of it~!!! =p
Feel so xin fu (happiness) and that there must be telepathy~!! I mean, how else would he have known?!! Haha~! He really knows me so well~
There were a pair of blue earrings that he especially picked to match my necklace so as to make it into a set. How thoughtful~!! =)
Next, I opened the card and read it. Words couldn't describe how I felt at that moment. Touched* definitely~! I felt his love for me~ Time seemed to froze - I was reading it real slow, to fully appreciate its meanings.
The bottle full of stars shown his patience and determination in wanting to make me happy. Cos, there were exactly 100 of them, took him 3 nights to complete. Plus a secret message that was just waiting for me to have a look after I got home. The stars were like gems to me, a precious bottle full of stars he had plucked for me from his piece of sky.
It was my turn to show him his presents.
I gave him a black leather wallet, so what like his old one, cos his was torn at the coin section. An eeyore cushion cos he likes this disney character, and a loving melody piggie that says "muackzz, I love you" when pressed on the tummy~Not forgetting a card for this special day. He helped me put on his necklace and I felt so loved and pampered~We played a lil' of each mostly 2-players games. Sadly, I don't really like them. Missed playing Strike Out with s211 guys~! But it was funny, me trying to outbeat him in all this games.It was at 6.45pm that he cooked spaghetti for me - eeyore's love meal lol~He kept trying to shoo me out from the kitchen when I was there to help put and "supervisor" haha actually I was learning too. The last time, I cooked pasta at ah yun's house, but that was crap, edible but not up-to-standard food yet. We had a wonderful dinner, no candlelights, but surprisingly, there was "wine" or so I had thought~!! Turned out to be grape juice in a "wine" bottle. Haha~! =p And there was dessert~!! Yet another surprise for me~! =) Waffle with vanilla ice cream topping~! My favourite ice cream choice~I felt so doted by this guy lar. Cooking for me and all~ Really appreciate what he did for me =)Thank you, darlin' for giving me such a wonderful and almost magically time~ Love you, *muack*We watched "Big Fish" vcd using his bedroom's TV. The movie is hard to apprehend but somehow, after watching it, you will definitely feel that you have watched a philosophical and meaningful story. I think the moral of the story is to cherish and know more about the people that are dear to you in your life while still having the chance to do so. Communication is vital and the willingness to do just that is even more important. Yup's that's how it basically went. So stay tuned, folks. Thank you all for being so concern about me and my life. Love you all~ *muack*
Happy 1st month to us~May we be happy together forever ^_~*muack* darlin' wo ai ni~
Saturday, May 06, 2006
I wonder...what surprise you will give me tomorrow~ lol =p
Can some Great-being speed up the time in our mortal world? Oh please, I beg you.This is the very first time I feel so strongly that times passes like a snail. When, when is tomorrow ever going to come? Waiting - it really is the period of time when everything crawls in a slow pace. i hate to wait.
I love him for loving me in his special way~Everything is special with him around.
Yo~! Thanks for the long wait, folks~! =) This is the Marie Claire bag. Is it nice? =p
Please comment haha~
And The Credit of this wonderful pic goes to Miss Tin Swee Lim. Without her, my blog readers will not be able to appreciate the wonderfulness of my Marie Clarie bag - cos she was the one who send me this pic. But, but, I was the photographer haha~!
Friday, May 05, 2006
HumansHumans are such complicated creatures.They can be strong, as in mentally. Yet, sometimes, strong emotions can still strike them. I guess, you can say the heart is still weak ya.Mayhaps, it's just Human Nature.
