One day...

I like the feeling of hiding myself in bed and watch a good movie.

#1 Not as good as The Lake House or Sweet November but it's still a good watch. I deeply understand what's the feeling of when you beloved one suddenly gone like this and never come back.

I know what should I do, what I ought to do and what am I supposed to do.

Live my life as you're still here.
All the pain and sorrow in the past few years were gone and I knew that our decision was good after all. We are no longer in hurt, and it was better this way.


Seems no longer call it as secret, at least - for me, not anymore.


Friends break up & I don't speak like "Give me a call if you need someone to talk to." and I don't ever give her a hug. So that day has come, she hug me and told me "I knew what you think and I know what you trying to say." I was a happy kids with lots of love surrounding me, but you know, growing up is scary. I'm evasive with this heart-broken month - January. Don't try to remind me what happens in two years ago, I'm not a forgetful person. Indeed, I remember it clearly.

& I spoke like an old woman - "Friend, you know what? I had a nightmare yesterday night, the feeling was back and I cried." Best friend never let me down like how I did to them (Well, such a loser), she comforted me with one sentences and I think that was more than enough.

"You know who you're, and sometimes, it was better this way. Be yourself. It's totally fine if he come back in your dream or just reality. You'll be fine."

I understand,
no matter what happens, we will heal.


I love you, stranger. But, I just don't like you anymore.
& all I really wanted to say is Thank You, Stranger.


One day, a good movie that you serious can't miss out.

Peeps,
Appreciation for what you got, whether it's a little or a lot.

30/1/2012

As I heard those words, my eyes filled with tears. Those words meant that it was time to go because we are not working out. I screaming silently after this long nightmare, I want you or just nothing. 

This seems so real, you're here for me. 

I miss you. 

#1 Spot something something? :D

#2 Alcohol is not-good but still the best accompany-kaki when you really think no place to go. 

#3 We are Lor Lor Family, her name is Lor Sinye and my name is Lor Hui Wei LOL I'm her Gugu ngek ngek :D

#4 I miss them! ♥

有你们真好 ♥

过年的印象都是 吃, 玩, 睡, 拜年. (体重上升以后才打算 :D)

因为祖屋已经从家乡搬来城市了, 所以过年都不在家乡逗留得太久.
舅舅既然给了我们一个大大的惊喜, 租了一间大间的双层排屋让我们住了.
大家又在住在一个屋檐下的感觉很幸福.

我喜欢我的家, 吵吵闹闹的家, 争用这样那样的大家, 分享幸福的大家.


这是爱, 那么的毫无代价的去爱.
没有计较的去爱是真爱.


爱不是迎合, 不会因为有时间去爱才去爱,
不是因为寂寞了才去爱,
不是因为后悔了才去珍惜这份爱,

不是因为必须爱才去爱.


有你们真好,
因为你们是我的人生的一部分.

这是我的人生, 所以我觉得幸福. ♥

新年快乐 Happy Chinese New Year

Have a promising and fulfilling New Year, people! Happy Chinese New Year.

Pre-CNY reunion dinner with friends is so great, I enjoy a lot of delicious food. Come on, throw aside that diet plan. FYI, Chinese New Year is the most important of the Chinese Holidays, let your stomach have a good holidays too. Eat all you can!

Lou Sang, one of the must-have-dishes during Chinese New Year. 

新年快乐, 

恭喜发财!

Love or Lurv

暑假还很漫长的过. 今天去当了一天的小天使.

老友七早八早把我给吵醒, 就这样去当了一天的小天使.
虽然无聊时间真的是多的很但是今天将心比心的心事真的聊多了.

无法想象那个我既然聊着聊着就笑了起来之后更加流泪了起来. 是疯狂的笑然后眼泪就这样的流了出来.
我好久都没有那样畅谈心事了.
是我们太忙了吗? 就连吃饭的时候都忘记了简单的问候.


对不起, 我迟来的问候.

由于不够人手的关系, 原本两次的break-time 变成了一次.
晚上放工后真的开始打鼓了起来, 为了慰劳两人, 来个十点后的晚餐.

但是他却说成这是宵夜. 明明我们都没有吃晚餐啊!!!


小插曲...  (与以上的故事是不相连的

不知到什么时候, 回头望的时候真的有点害怕自己崩溃的大哭.
因为大家明白我所以都尽量把我以前的话题减少了.
就那么一次我真的感觉到被强逼的感觉, 逼着你去接受和逼着你去明白.


我多么害怕的不是旧事重提而是旧的教训再次光临.


也许你的选择是对的, 毫无代价的去爱,
但是若爱到连自尊都可以抹掉的人, 更本没能力去爱.

爱的轰轰烈烈绝没错但是爱的忘掉自己, 是爱还是愚蠢你应该更加的明白.


今天我还是快乐的, 谢谢老友的厚爱.


放心啦你还是我心目中的大好人.

100％

时间久了, 伤痛就少了.

我不知到什么时候, 他人给的爱让我感到那么无助.
那页数空白着, 不是因为无法释怀, 而是明白, 时间久了, 比较就来了, 一切又重复.

我要给的不是这不公平的对待,
因为我明白只要有公平才能维持自己给予的幸福,
现在称不上 公平, 更加称 不上幸福.


我想现在最幸福的是 我比每天更加的少思念过去,
每天我都会为着那堆满的事情感到愤怒,
每天我都会让自己看多点, 听多点 和想多点.

我自己生活也活的和好.


面对群众说起你的点点滴滴, 我不多评语但是..
偶尔对他人说起你的点点滴滴保持了微笑,


有时候我想 这是成长的 代价,
能遇见你还是 真好.


从开始的喜欢到爱再从爱变欣赏再从欣赏变成喜欢.

就这样从一百分到三十九分, 我依然感到满足.


那天我却发现原来 另外一个一百分也会出现，
但是 这 一百分并没有 使我心跳加倍而只是 感觉到我要更加努力去发现 这是否会 永远及格的科目.

你会替我感到开心对不对?



我有想你,
就如现在.

对着这里说着说着希望着希望着你能阅读,
只要你安好；便是晴天 ♥

Did you?

Leave it broken and never try yourself to fix it.

End of last year, two friends break up with their own partner. Reasons for breaking up is all about third party. Let's describe them as A and B. Miss A was overly optimistic, she doesn't need any comfort and keep telling us that she will grow through this. Miss B was too stubborn for holding her relationship, hurts herself for realizing the man meant everything to her, but she meant nothing to him.

I never thought of write about their relationship life. Everyone has the right to hold what they want in their life, and my friends did, too.

I would not be surprised my brother suffered of break up before CNY. Truth to be told, recently relationship end faster than my smart phone battery life time. Well, I hope my brother get well soon.

Sometimes you just have to believe, a trust that had taken time, love, and good and bad experiences to build and it just been destroyed in ten minutes.

or maybe less than that.

I grow through from broken relationship, never want to blame third party, because I knowing, love can't be measured by right or wrong and third party did, too. I needed no explanation cause all I need is build a bridge and get over it. I swear, few years back, I told myself "Give me time, I will get over it."


& now, I did it.


Did you?

Lil surprises

I believe on what doesn't kill you make you stronger ♥

Spent lot on shopping. I think my parents will confiscate my credit card soon. Real soon.

Lil surprises from Mama. More than enough, I am appreciated! Really ♥ 

what about over?

• Charlie brown cafe @ KLCC. We don't know where this located. We asked direction from promoters, strangers but not from information counter -.-" We ask "Do you know where is Snoopy restaurant?" "What? Snoopy?" "Yes, Snoopy." until then I googled where is the location and the result is Charlie brown cafe instead of snoopy restaurant. LOL 

• Should I? This gonna cost me RM199 & I am still considering about this. RM199, way too expensive. 

Best friend broke up with her boyfriend. All I want is keep her busy & have fun with us. She were once so close with her boyfriend and now become another stranger that she don't know. It all came crashing down around her, her boyfriend was gone and, as she hurt. I know how this hurt. I share with her my experience, I thought of the fights that I had with my love. Though I couldn't remember all the reasons for fighting, I remembered the sense of accomplishment I got from working through our problem. That was always the best part. 

But break up is not the best part. 

All you have to do is move on. 

When the time and the strength finally came, you're forced to leave & move on without him. Move on friend! 

Good phren Mr.K

Sometimes, I wish I had a hairdresser boyfriend because I am too lazy to take care of my hair.
Sometimes, I wish I had a fashion designer boyfriend because I need some fashion sense.
Sometimes, I wish I had a chef boyfriend because I don't know how to cook.
Sometimes, I wish I had a driver boyfriend because I'm too lazy to drive.
Sometimes, I wish I had doreamon as my boyfriend because he can lend me his pocket.

This is the reason why I don't have boyfriend, I'm too greedy LOL

So, my friends was impressed by first sentence. Sometimes, I wish I had a hairdresser boyfriend. I will find my hairdresser every month to cut my hair, I don't like to keep my hair long, although I keep my word (keep my hair long + color) for such a long time, but yeah epic fail.

Short + Black = break promise LOL 

I'm glad that my hairdresser is a good man. We always keep in touch! We are kind of good phren LOL Obviously, my hairdresser is not this, my hairdresser looks so much more handsome LOL

2012 触 发点

这孩子长大不少. 

看着他每一年长大, 真的是很感动. 

看着他不会说话到呀呀发音, 到现在标准的大人对话. 我是感动万分啊. 

现在他上学去了, 我问他可认识女朋友了, 他既然暗笑了起来. >.< 

我真的怕时间飞逝太快, 下次他却告诉我这干妈他要结婚去了. 

孩子, 但愿学校没人欺负你, 读书愉快啊. 

Walk away

Nothing is wrong but nothing is right either. Decided to delete the last post, I don't want to keep it all here. I just want let everything out that I kept in all day. I'm tired of being like this.

I tired of being the one fix myself in everyone else.

Change, is funny thing. I sat down and wondering what we becoming and why. I wonder who you are and how we got here. If only I had the chance, I don't want to fix this all, anymore. I would rather use my whole life believing you will still the one climb a tree and get me an apple. I'm not asking you to tell me who discovered gravity & you tell me is Mr.Newton. This is Newton's method, not neither you nor I got this method. I am hoping you are still the one climb a tree & get me an apple or beehive.

You don't know what I feel when you think this is a total waste of time. For me, it ends up being one of the best thing I ever did and experienced. I need this reason no more - people change. I has had enough of this yet I giving more when I feel like give up. Friends often ask "Do you notice xxx changed a lot." Unlike others, aware of these changes, but I'm the one who keep it all inside. Irascible character, if you used to be like this, I don't mind. I seriously don't mind what is your character but as long as you're still you.

Nothing is wrong if you be who you are, I be the another one fit into your life. But what is when you get used of this and never understand how I take my step slowly and walk toward you.

Rules by you, seems go bit of negative. Our friendship getting into wrong track, you're lack of appreciation and respect to me, I wish I can just have a pause button for both of us. Telling you, I'm your best friend, I'm here for few years and now, you just want an end. Our conversations is not work, no effect cause you don't really listen to me.

I thought I knew you the most.


Walk away, maybe that's the way it's supposed to be.

C.o.a.c.h

How is your 2012 going so far, peepo? Mine has been pretty good, I did a lot of catching up with friends & my grandma as well. My grandma is cool grandmama, I swear. Went to shopping after my packed schedule, had a rush dinner with them before their shopping spree. My appetite is small, I guess my job causing me to eat less and eat less frequently. My family were worried about me, therefore, they ordered whole table of food.

I wish I am hungry.
At least I can eat more, I seriously afraid I got anorexia. *Skip this topic*
So after princess-treated-dinner (because they take of all the food on my plate, so I called this as princess-treated-dinner and feel #likeaboss)

#1 Likeaboss 

My grandmama is cool grandmama ever. I'm just simply say I want to get a new wristlet pouch bag cause the one I got from Taiwan is getting dark and want to get a new one. (I was thinking to get one after I got my salary) I swear, I just simply say that. & She purposely told my Mom about this and I got my new wristlet pouch bag just like that. Feel shocked & I wish I can dance like this.

#2 A bit over LOL 

#3 My very first Coach wristlet bag.

#4  ♥ 

#5  ♥ ♥ ♥

Ohwell, I should not spend too much, need to save more money. EARN more WEIY! 

2012-01-03

Insomnia, since then, I went to wash toilet. LOL

I made another decision & decided to move on. Don't ask why, I just want to make my 2012 good. Kiss 2011 goodbye. So now, I should have more time to update my dusty blog. I quit my job and decided back to school for further studies. There's still a lot of plan to make and a lot of thing to experience.

I think I need to go now, I should have a good sleep after so long!!!  *shouting* Been worked like robot before new year eve, can't feel my leg and couldn't make any decision -,-" Feel more depressed after quarreled with best friend. But we are fine now :8 He is a real bad boy & devil. 

My mood is pretty good cause I actually got a lot of new year gift + christmas gift :) Thanks peepo!

The aftermath of World War III -.-" 

2012 :)

Say goodbye to year 2011 and welcome a brand new year 2012. 

Best luck of 2012 everyone! 

We wish you a happy new year!