Since new year's coming, shall wish u guys a very happy new year. This year been quite smooth for me, of course with ups and downs, but glad that i overcame them. Just went back to malaysia to visit my cuzzies, and ive just reached home.

Anyway, dun think i have any new year resolutions, probably cox i finds it pointless to make resolution when we actually say it for the sake of a new year. As usual there's no new year mood, singapore is getting really dull with festive seasons.

Ok la, gonna go soon, hope that 2007 will be a good year for all of us and there will probably be lots of changes, many people will be going to different classes, the TT04 currently might split into different classes. haiz, the thought of that makes me sad again... Ciao.

----> 2007, a yr probably for separation.. <----

Finally iam bothered to update my blog. These few days have been nothing but slacking and relaxing. Think i played enough, time for projects and i think we are in deep sh** cox we have like 3 or 4 projects due on jan. Damn... Hope we can make it thru.

Anyway, my dad's back, which is kindda good, at least i feel like its a normal home now. I Might be going to malaysia on sat, finally get to see my cuzzies.

These past few days have been very rainy, almost everyday will rain non stop. But the weather's kindda cooling and refreshing. hahaz, i just love the after effects of rain, the smell, the breeze and the sky color. Though its moody but, i love this kindda weather. Wierd huh.

And christmas is coming soon! Not gonna have any celebrations, lonely christmas again. haiz. Anyway since young ive always been wanting to celebrate christmas abroad, maybe america. I love the ambience of christmas abroad where pple go on streets greeting strangers a merry christmas and inviting one another to their house for a dinner. Its kindda fun huh. And more ever i think it will be snowing there too. Honestly, ive never seen, let alone felt snow before. Hope my wish will come true when ive got enough money to go abroad.

And to all death note fans, today is the sneak preview of the second sequel to the movie: the last name. Gonna catch it soon when i have the time and $$. My next must watch movie is the harry potter movie: The order of phoenix will only be out on 12th july2007, i shall slowly wait then. Anyway JK rowling has finally revealed her final book title, but iam not really expecting much though, the plot has been kindda disappointing ever since book 4. Or maybe i no longer like harry potter as much as i do last time.

Ok la, gotta go meet cus at BBDC to find out bout the theory and practical test dates. Ciao.

----> All i want for christmas is you... <-----

Finally back for more updates. Finally tests are all over already. Guess a did kindda badly for all the tests... Nvm, shall not talk bout it again. Anyway, went out with pearl, la, diana and xuan jie yesterday. After collecting their pay, went to K box, and its only 10 bucks per person! Super cheap la, sang from 5 smth till 8, after that went to eat at the food court which was kndda pathetic. And after that went home.

Watched Xman (a korean variety show), damn nice and funny. And chae young looks cute. haaz.. After that slept and went for bball, and today my grandma cooked but i din feel like going over and so only my sis and mum go.

Tests over, but the project deadlines are here to hound us... Sian. Hope we can make it through again ba. ciao.

----> Days after days pass, which means the day where i will not be able to see ur sunshine smile is also ending day by day... <----

Hi folks... HRM test was alright i guess, but din get enough sleep though. Regretted not studying hard enough. anyway, just packed my notes, finally. I know i should have done that earlier but i always tend to heed the last minute rule.

Went to study at mac with pearl, cus and jw at BP and went to cus house after that. Kindda drained off all my energy, prob. cox i din sleep much. Met an old friend some time ago,kindda glad that i finally met a pri sch friend. And he kindda told me bout his vision and he would get into a Uni first to get a degree and pursuing further. That kindda struck me, about what i wanna be when i grow up, and what i wanna do in the future, and whats my route in the future since iam kindda certain i wun be able to get into a Uni after poly. Shall "walk a step, and see a step".

Ok la, i shall go study... Ciao! GPA 3.5, here i come!!

---> i tried ignoring, i tried not to be too close with u, i tried everything, but its useless, this feeling wun go off... Tell me what i should do??<----

Finally back to update after such a long time. Had to sort out my thoughts bout some things. Plus, i din have much mood to update either. But now, iam feeling better, lucky for the bunch of guys in my class whom i really enjoyed myself with. I really appreciate them, thanks for the friendship, the bonds we had and everything.

My mood is probably gonna be sometimes off and sometimes on, so pls just bear with it, its just how i feel at the point of time, be it happy or sad or not. People always say that, your problem is considered nothing compared to people who are actually suffering more, but if only we can view it in this way, the degree of sadness differs with different people.

Anyway, CTs on this coming sat and next week, project datelines due on Jan, Jap test on Jan, and BSD presentation this friday. So much things to settle, doubt i can take a breather. How i wish i can just travel around the world without any worries or burden, without caring a thing, and just enjoy my life to max. But is that possible in life?

---> I felt empty everyday, its repititive, guess i just have to get used to it somehow... <---

I will be away on a hiatus... Probably be back on dec or later...

Your like a flower, looking so pretty
Bringing smiles to everyone around u
Thats what attracts me to u.
Your megawatt smile,
Will always stay in my memories

Your like a flower, looking so pretty
But i cannot have u
And so i can always stand in a corner
In that garden of mine, and appreciate your beauty

Your like a flower, looking so pretty
Untouchable,
And so i can only look at you from afar
As long as i can look at you, i will feel contented
I will not have you
Because i know i don't deserve such a beautiful flower

Had a wonderful bdae today! Thanks for alll the wishes and bdae suprise cake from the circle of trust today. Got beaten up quite badly esp. from kel, u betta watch out, iam sure u gonna need to visit the dentist to get ur teeth fixed when i leash my ultimate punishment on u. Muahaha... And thanks wenling!1 For ur wish too and the 18 chocolate sweets. at least i ate 10 out of the 18, haha... Better than nth huh. And thanks to my family and cousins for their bdae wishes too and the converse wallet and the 50 bucks.

Anyway had CMA test today, quite ok i guess, hope i will do well. After that brought my class to eat the Ko lo mian at bukit timah there. Then went to BPP with kok, kel, les, gl and cus.

Thanks for the cake, bashings, punctual bdae smses... Thanks for the friendship, thanks for everything. Even though, we make fun and make sarcastic remarks, but its all in the name of fun la hor. I wun mind de la, used to getting bullied already! lolz, jk la. too bad we weren't in the mood of alcohol! hahaz..

Had a really wonderful time, took a few photos but iam really lazy to put it up. Anyway, thanks to all for today and iam 18 officially!!! but i still dun look like iam 18... -.-" lolz... ciao!

---> Iam falling for u madly and deeply.... <----

Spent the whole day going out, only studied a little for CMA. Anyway, went out with my mum and sis to OG. Bought a converse wallet!! Finally... a new wallet. Thanks to my mummy. And after that went to meet my aunties, ah ma and uncle for an early bdae celebration of my cong jie uncle and mine one. Although it was supposedly to be a lunch buffet at some hotel but in the end had to go cofeeshop, nonetheless, i enjoyed myself lots. Thanks to my aunties, they really dote on me...

Some photos during the celebration today

Male leads Cong jie uncle (his bdae is on the 24th) and me (21st)



mine turn to blow cake



Time to cut cake...



My beloved grandmawho loves to nag, but cooks good food. lolz...



My aunties and cousin



Ok, thats all folks. Anyway, really would like to thank my aunties for having this pre bdae celebration. Thanks!

----> There's a limit to my feelings for u which ive kept within for so long. <----

Presentation's ok today i guess... Met azlan today. So coicidental huh. BTW, he's my sec sch good buddy of mine.

Anyway lectures's been pretty boring. as usual. Had lunch during lecture. hahaz, and i let kel tried one of my newest finishing move. Hope he likes it, anyway i do like it. Lolz. And next tues is CMA test!!! Damn man!!! I really hate math! But thats part of business, cannot avoid.

Nth much to update already, wanted to post some gay pics of guang liang, butiam too lazy. Next time huh. Hahaz. Ciao. Anwyay to a special friend of mine, do not always cling on unhappy stuff, instead just smile and be happy. have a nice day!

----> Why do i feel such great distance all of a sudden?? <----

Back to update. Super stress, super sick and super tired. Iam so down with the stupid flu. Its making me all queaky. Lolz... Got bsd presentation, i dunno why iam so stressed over it al of a sudden. Haiz. gotta tune myself a alittle.. Sorry bout my gan chiongness again! But iam a perfectionist.. Hahaz.

Anyway, stupid marcus [passed the flu to me and now brenda got it. I dunno why i got it from cus and why bren got it from erm, i dunno who. Lolz. Hmm... Nth much to tok bout, but CMA test is coming and i only remember the format for COGS!!! Iam so screwed, stress stress stress!! But i kindda love it.

Anyway, bumped yang loong today while i was going to sch, sorry was in a rush so could not chat much, but he's looking good. Hahaz, hope he is coping well

Anyway, tml's bsd, and good luck to my class for the presentation! And i dinlisten to OM lecture at all, cox i was being 38, gossipping with someone! And some pple had to think that iam kissing with a guy form the angle we are at... -_______-" Okok, getting too random. Anyway, its les and joc anni!!!! Woots... Happy anni, and les is such a swet guy la, with the cross sitching and stuff.. Hahaz. Ok la, gotta end, stupid flu!!!

---> iam alway thinking bout u, and i felt a certain distance between us now, its all too sudden, and iam hating this feeling.... <---

Happy bdae la, ang guang liang aka ang gu kueh... Crappy boy, love smaking fun of ppple esp. me. But none the less, he's still my bro. Lolz. Anyway, must grow up liao, stop behaving like 10 yrs old already! And sorry layz i not a very good host, alot of restrictions and "dian fei hen gui"... Lolz.. Hope u guys enjoy the gaying party! sorry ah, really alot of rules to follow. Lolz.

Anyway, exams coming, projects are coming, presentation's starting and time's losing. Ok la, gona go. Its been a fun fun day! U guys tc. ciao.

---> there's many things i would like to say to you, but i know the consequences if i say it <---

Ok, here to update. Firstly, this sem is so F***ed up!! CMA dunno what the lecturer toking, OM nv listen, HRM still okand the 2 IT modules, i can die liao. Super jia lat. And on my bdae got test. Nice huh. And the test had to be in the evening time which means i dun even have the time to celebrate it!!!! ARGH!

Everything just feel so lousy. I guess iam not alone, but lucky got my gb gang. Lolz. And pls watch out for this person called bigprick, he dted me many times. Ima gonna remember that foreva. Lolz. Jk la. Anyway gotta go play gb. Iam so into retro games. Woots! bb.

----> I need u to be right here with me... <----

Ok ok... Finally here to update. I find that owning a blog and that updating it should not be a chore, but it is now, ever since sem started. iam like a lost sheep now, cox i dun understand lectures, i dunno what tutorial questions are talking bout. Guess i have not tune myself for lectures etc.

Nth much happened, but today my mum went to brisbane to accompany my dad. Guess he could not take it anymore, hope he does nto break down, cox i dunno what my family can do. Anyway, thanks mum, i know and we all know uve sacrifice much for us and pa. Thank you!
And i really hate the mood now, being all alone without my parents, and my sis locks herself up in her room, just like me also. So, ive got no one else to talk to. Really hope my dad is allow to come back!!! I miss eating dinner with them, i miss sitting on the car with them, i miss my dad's constant nagging of asking me to pack my room up, i miss my mum asking me to do this and that and so much more! Iam indeed a mummy's boy, but aim not afraid to say that i lovebeing a mummy's boy. Coz i feel loved everyday with them around. Iam not trying to be mushy or what, but i really miss them now! Too bad i din treasure them when they were in spore.

Nvm, its only bout 1mth time when our family with be reunited, cox my dad may come back during december. Anyway, school's been great, with my class around. Anyway its pearl's bdae yest. so, happy bdae! 18 aready, must grow up ah. hahaz.

OK la, shall update when iam free, ciao...

----> I always feel that time is nv enough when ur around.. <----

Hihi! U readers are lucky, ive been updating alot huh. Anyway, did not go to this morning's lecture as ive attended it yesterday already. And funny thing is i woke up at 8. Thought i could wake up late. In the end, i woke up early... -__________-"

Went for tutorial at 1pm, after that 4 hours of straight lectures after that. Sian, some more in the same LT. CMA is damn confusing today. Hope i can score well for this module. Anyway, there's this lecturer who came to tell us bout the industrial attachment and only 40 pple are selected. I really would like to go, but.... dun think my gpa cn make it. And iam really begginging to feel that if i chose the correct course or not, which focuses alot on IT, and iam really weak in that. I dun have much interest in IT. ARGH!! Its already the second yr and iam now beggining to regret. I can only continue pursuing the diploma.

Ok la, gonna end here. Ciao.

---> u kept me going through my day... <----

Ok... this is an apology from me to my class guys, for saying the word "retarted" to them cox it really makes me guilty when iam thinking bout it. Sorry for the late apology. Anyway i know its odd for suddenly apologising, but i really feel that i should apologise. So, sorry guys! anyway its becoz of the pain of my leg and the indesciveness that makes me so agitated, but i know thats no excuse. Pls accept my apology!

Anyway, Iam too lazy to blog bout today, and iam really sufffering from laughing syndrome today. Pls...iam not a wierdo, its only coz i can't control my laughter.
Wierd, i find everything funny today. Anyway, have a good day, ciao.

----> If only i can have u... <----

Today finally met up with rui xing to watch death note. A very fantastic show. Its bout one guy nicknamed kira, who picks up the book and when he writes the name of someone, the person will die of heart attack and if within 40 sec, he writes how he/she dies, the perosn will die in that way. And within 6 mins plus, the person must describe how the person die. Cool huh. And to avoid confusion, the perosn holding the death note must noe the person'sname and appearance.

Then the person who is also a genius called L, is in charge together with a team which consist of Light's father investigate and find out who the person is. Its a very intelligent show and kira and L battle their wits and see who can track the other party first. Fun huh, but i dun like L's concept of using another human life to test Light's (Kira) reaction and to find out who he is, even though the particular is a convict which is gonna be executed.

Anyway, mummy went to Seiyu and OG at bugis there alone and iam left all alone after watching death note. AFter that rui hao called, to see who's downstairs playing bball. And i was thinking of testing my leg, see whether ive recovered or not. Played with Jason, kaiwen, rui hao and his fren there. Di lun and another guy soon came. And after playing bball, my leg felt rather uncomfirtable. Felt wierd walking. Haiz... think ive strained it again. But i wun give up on bball just like that. So... good luck to me.

And Tml's lesson is at 1pm. So... i can wake up late! Ok gonna go already. Ciao... Oh, happy belated depavali and hari raya haji to all muslims and indians... Enjoy...

---> u erased the last memory i have of u... <----

Today's financial planning was dead boring... I really chose the wrong module. We went thru 3 lectures, 3 tutorials and later a quiz within 4 hrs.. sian right? After that we went to town with sheela also, to Far east and ate. Sorry i kindda lose my temper, during deciding where to eat for lunch coz my knees were giving way. It suddenly got tense up, i meant the ligament and i really had to seat down badly, luckily after that it sort of auto relax itself.

Anyway, went to cine to K pool. Wanted to play the X box, but its always occupied. After that smth happened and iam too lazy to tok bout it, but it was all in the name of fun.

Ok, now's the special post, which is a nipple slip from someone who seems to love to make fun of me. And he foolishly used the camera to take a pic of his nipple. Muahahhaha. And now's my revenge, ive heard of karma ( it may happen to me also) , but i dun care now, coz i will enjoy this min first. Lolz.

His nipple pic. Girls pls dun get horny over this pic.



I suppose this is his first unsucessful attempt at taking his nip. shot ...



I love the look on this face, coz he looks regretful for all the evil and lame jokes he has made. Credits to brenda.


Anyway, its all in the name of fun, dun be sad ok. Wheee!! Finally got my revenge. Hahaz. Ciao.

Today iam such a fillial son la. Went to the 24hr coffee shop behind my house and bye char bee hoon for my mother. After that we ate then my mother decided to go suntec city coz the Body Shop items are on sale! Ate at delifrance for tea break then went to buy my T shirts, after that go body shop lo. The exhibition hall seems plain, like not very crowded also.But my mother still got quite alot of good offers.

Head on to NTUC to buy some fruits and i saw asila in front, but din call out to her. Ate dinner at the JP's foodcourt. Then went home, shower,and watch matrix revolution. And i stil dunno what the hell this whole thing is bout. Firstly, how come the machine wanna invade human world when the common enemy is Smith? NExt, how come the machines offer to help when those sotong lookalike thingys are capable of such destruction. And lastly, what the hell is oracle doing in the ending with her eyes still intact. Or maybe they tried to mislead Smith by giving him a fake pair of eyes. And who's the old man at the end who is talking to the oracle. Blaugh blaugh blaugh.. ARGH! Nice show but a little too sophisticated or maybe slip shot.

Anyway thanks for all ur comments, i really appreciated that... And i suddenly felt that comparing to what my dad is facing now, mine is considered small fry. And my mother just booked an air ticket to go to brisbane on nov 3rd. Think my dad needs emotional support coz the upper and lower workers are giving him tonnes of problems. Here's a peice of advice, dun go overseas attachment. It just kills u physically and emotionally. And i proudly say that i have a dad who has the most endurance, for willing to stay there and face the problem just to keep his job for our family's sake. Thanks for everything, dad.

Ok la, gonna go now, meeting the guys for breakfast.. Ciao. U guys tc and appreciate what ur parents have done for u, question urself what u can do for them, instead of how they can do for u, afterall u wun be sitting here using the internet without them. Ciao...

----> But if u wanna cry, cry on my shoulder, if u need someone who cares for u, if ur feeling sad, ur heart gets colder, i will show u what love can do... but will i have that chance? <---

Today i was supposed to go out iwth my friends, but i din in the end. Could have gone to meet daisy and jacky for the grp outing but din in the end. Sorry, i was too lazy. Anyway, soent the day watching naruto, bleach and death note. After that surf the net and watch some tv. Thats how i live my day. I felt that sometimes its such a waste of time, i could have done my tutorials, but i chose not to. Prob. i will start tomorrow.

In da afternoon i was so sian that i suddenly thought of an idea to keep in touch with my dad and update him regarding our family matters without exposing my blog link, thats to set up another blog. Hope that he will feel better in Aus after reading our "chua family" blog.

Well... Sometimes i think i deserve to be"friendless", coz i always find it hard to make the first approch, example, making the approch to chat with someone on msn and etc. people may find that iam being "attitude" but its not really. Coz i always crave for attention. I tried to open myself up more, but each time i show my "true colors", i always get negative feedback, which is why i always chose to keep quiet, and tone down a little in front of my friends. And id ecided that the latter is a better option. Prob. keeping my trap shut would be the best option. Coz the closer i am with my friends, the more i get offensive, i dunno why also. Its in my blood. to those people, i apologise, i know its my fault, but i really dunno what else i can do, serious.

I used to not feel the problem with coexisting with my friends, but its prob. that iam growing up, that i started noticing i have lesser and lesser friends who really concerned me... Prob. becoz my dad is always with me in spore and thats why i always feel that i have friends. I treat my family as my friends and now he is in Aus, my sis at china, there's only me and my mum.

Anyway, iam not lamenting or what, iam just expressing my long self hidden thought as i think this side of me is actually a barrier between my friends and me. Tink i will stop here, u guys take care. Ciao.

----> I get lonely without u.. <---

Ok, a post dedicated to my good friend aka xuan jie, aka my jie mei, CHEN WAN XUAN! Dun say i nv write bout u la...
She has good temper, a good listener, quite short also... Hahaz, but that does not obstruct her in anyway... Erm.. I think she knows everyone's secret coz she always seemed so well informed. And she's quite a good gal prob. many guys like her. *ahem, see i so good* Lolz. wish to thank this wonderful friend for listening to my troubles and for being there for me when iam down or happy... Ok, thts all. Dun say i nv write bout u, lalala~ Treat me eat tomolo. See ya at 9am at LT 22! Lolz...

Since iam free now, i shall blog abit bout my sec sch days. Was in 1/9, the louiest class coz of my lousy PSLE then got promoted to 2/10, still in last class, kindda forgot most of the things which happened already! Then got promoted to 3/8 and then 4/8, however some of my bros got demoted. Kindda lonely aftre that. But soon found my own clique, which consist of lan, daryl, kiat and YS they all... Quite fun and i used to love history lessons but in O's got a C! Kindda depressed, coz i thought i would score an A for that.

Now i will post some photos of me, mine class in sec 3 and when we were decorating the class.

Thats me!! Got caught surfing porn.... Lolz. jk la!



My lovely class ( miss them!!)



Our classroom design



Drawn and design by this guy, khairul hazril whos in La Salle.



A hard day's work rewarded with wonderful lunch. I wonder whats my expression for...



Our class pet "oscar" and "i dunno".. Lolz.. Both of them got flushed down the toilet bowl accidentally i think. lolz. RIP.



My form teacher Miss Wang li sa!!! Best form teacher ever. Too bad she left for MOE HQ



got caught looking at upskirt :(... But i was sticking her legs...Hahaz



Lastly, Aloha class 3/4E8!



This post is dedicated to them, good luck for ur future endeavour!!

My happiest day ever!!! U nv fail to bring back my smiles and when iam deep in my sorrows, u awoke me with ur wam smile, shining on my heart.. All i can say is that its a happy happy day.

Ok, iam here to update! Yest. went to sentosa outing, quite ok la. Not very fun either. But the planning committee did a good job. Sad becoz the awa spirit is prob. gone forever. No more awa ordori! It just feels different, i still prefer awa! Anyway, jackie, dais and roxane, u guys rock!

After the whole thing ended we went to food junction at harbourfront there to eat. Kindda sian, coz no topic to tok with jackson they all. So i kindda spaced out at there. I think pple just dun like to tok to me.Prob. i dunno how to start a topic, i just dunno how to relate to pple. I always tried to tok, but in the end pple just dun hear me. So i just kept quiet, i find it better that way. Iam prob. no longer my old self. Even i also feel wierd when i tok to others, there's sort of a seclusion or like a generation gap between me and my friends. I just dunno the stuff they are toking bout. Why is it that friendships between other pple can get so close but for my case, ima just another normal fren? Feeling real bad now, i really need company, but no one to find. What the hell is wrong with me??! Maybe i need a gf, to share my problems, to be there by me when i need her, to be able to hear what i have to say and appreciate me by who i am. Ok thats all i have to say, ive changed, i dunno since when, but ive chnaged, getting quieter and becoming more and more like a stranger to the world. Is there anyone who is sensitive to my feelings and not leave me out?

----> unheard, unseen, unfelt, thats the feeling u gave me.. <------

Can't really go ot lsp now, look at the time... Its already 315 am... Anyway, today's alright, had dinner with the IMF e kiosk pple. We (kok, cus, gl, kq, and kel) came very late. The dinner was supposed to be at 7 but we came at 7.40pm in stead and thus all the food was gone:(
Anyway, at least they ordered some pizzas and cake. that really kept me full.. After that went to carefour and bought sushis which were on sale. But i din, coz it doesn't look fresh to me and iam full anyway.

After that went to the fountain of fortune with my class and joseph and the gal (forgot her name). After that all of us went home except the other guys other than me, cus, kok and kq. They prob. went for a drinking session and iam still underage. Not permitted to drink. Lolz, even though i very much wanted, but i mmight go home drunk. Lolz.

Lcukily my mother called and sheela took a ride, sorry to the gal, i din offer to send her home. hahaz, pai seh! Tml's gonna be a long day, got SC outing at sentosa. And iam under daisy and jacky's grp! Whic means i get to see my dear rockers and the rest. Hahaz, looking forward to that.

Ive just discovered that i have phobia taking photos, coz every photo i take, i look very eerie. Lolz, i cannot smile in front of the camera for goodness sake!

Oh... and yest. we (cus, kok, les, gl, kel, tiffany and jasmine plus me) went to vivo walk walk, after that went to K box, but nv sang much coz i dun like singing in fornt of so many pple. And ive really drain off all my monetary resources! not enuff to spend at all! I resort to taking my pile of coins and exchange for notes with the auntie. So ke lian right, and i dun wanna ask my mummy for money, if not she confirm nag at me.

Anyway, had a great week! Thanks to my friends esp. my class, even though iam not resposive to the jokes or be participative, but i really enoyed myself! hahaz, looking forward to next week, coz sch's reopening!!! Off to watch my death note, which is finally subbed. ciao.

---> I hate to see u so full of troubles... <----

Its been long since ive update... ANyway, shall update before i go and watch project runway! Yest. was suppose to go steamboat with cus, YK( aka best fren in pri sch) and one guy. But something happened and in the end, so cus and i went to K box at cine. Lolz. And we are the new "Fei ren Hai", iam the fei ren and he is the hai... Okok, i know its lame...

Anyway, Think its the second time thta i went to K box, sang to our hearts content since got only 2 pple. After that go home. Btw, cus singing was quite good. Lolz.

This coming friday is the IMF dinner aready and to wei jie, sorry ah keep postphoning our meeting, shall see u this fri. Holidays are finally coming to an end and its the start of the new semester, hope everything goes well. Erm... ok la, this is gona be a very short entry, ciao...

Yo... My latest craze = south park! U guys should go watch it. The plot and everything is so riculously funny. Anyway, just got back from my grandma house in bedok, did nth much these few days. Shouted at my sis just now when we are reaching home because of her parking skills but in the end, it was the car in front that was at fault, sorry for shouting at u...

Anyway, went to see my chinese physician, he advised me to either abstain form bball or try to play it less frequently, of course i will choose the later option. And also advised me to go swimming! But..., looking at my body, i will just get laughed at by the pple at the pool la.So embarassing, but for the sake of my legs, ive got no choice.

Whenever iam looking at the pple playing basketball downstairs, i really feel tempted to play, its the only chance where i can really let go and enjoy, far more enjoyable than sitting on the sofa watching tv. And it wil be long before i can still play bball!!! ARGH, stupid legs!

Well, for u guys who have been wondering whats the actual problem with my leg, i shall explain it. Erm, basically ive hurt my ligament and tendon, the ligament is in charge of putting the joints in shape, if not once u lift up ur kneee, the knee will go out of shape due to lack of the support of structure form the ligament or tendon. And i also got soft tissue, i think its the layer protecting the ligament and thus i will injure my ligament and tendon easily. Next, ive got flat foot, which means iam not suitable to run, jump and basically doing stuff which will stress my feet. And iam am so f***ing overweight and thus worsen the condition. And alll this adds up to my injury! Hope u guys get a better view of what my injury is all bout.

Ok, i gotta go watch south park, hahaz... And u guys enjoy ur holidays! Ciao. Oh, and its kelvin's bdae yesterday, happy 18th bdae!

----> Ive thought ive forgotten bout u all these yrs, but not... <-----

Finally iam bothered to make an entry to my blog. Finished watching Goong, a very nice drama, a must watched. Too bad in the end neither shin nor yul is the wang tai zi. Today went out with my mother and sis to buy fruits then visited my cousin, dexter and his family.

Actually there's a dinner tomolo with the IMF pple, but it was postphoned to 13th oct. So, basiclly i look forward to tomolo for nth... Hmm... Nth much to update also, coz iam too lazy to go out. Anyone wanna go out??? Call me along ya... haha.

Anyway school term is starting in bout one week time, hope i can get a GPA of 3.5 next sem!
Thats all folks. Ciao... Oh, btw, anyone wanna watch WTC??? Call me along ya.

Aye aye peeps... Din do much except that i used the com almost the whole day today.And finally ive finished watching inuyasha!! The last episode was really not the last episode as debated by the fans of inuyasha. ANyway, did alot of thinking throughout the holidays and sometimes i will think of death, what happpens after our generation blah blah blah...

Will human race be exterminated by aliens, will in the end be killed by the pollution we ourselves created, or will there be natural disaster and we will all die. Or we wil end up like the dinosaurs,wiped out by a meteorite? This leaves me one question, human lives are that fragile afterall huh. We are actually living in self delusion, coz we know that we might die one day, but we still continue to live. And when we are old,prblems like sickness, worring of your children not wanting to take care of u and death starts coming. So whats the use of academic and work achievements when we are gonna face death in the end. I know that iam repititing a topic discussed by many pple, i know iam digressing a little too much.

As ive said, we might get killed right? And now we are facing a population crisis with only 20000 plus new born babies each yr. Supposedly around 10 or 20 yrs ago, we have bout 30000 plus newborn babies and as the yrs go on, about 10000 babies are lacking, and can u imagine in the next 10 or 20 yrs? We are gonna be extinct, man... Maybe iam thinking too much, but these are issues that we must care i think we must care.

Look at what holidays have done to me, it gets me to think through bout life and death, population crisis and what i want and what i wanna achieve in life.

i simply think that having an achievement is really nth, its how u die thats important. But in order to do things u like, money is definitely a factor. Which is where these academic achievements come in. Okok, enough of that, hope ive stir some kind of emotion within u... Maybe my paragraphs are a little random and u may not understand, but what i wanna express is that this world have way too much problems and yet we are choosing to ignore it. Maybe self delusion is a kind of self-defence for mankind, coz if we keep worrying bout death, all of us will end up having depression.

Anyway, ive heard 2 great songs which ive liked it alot, Chase cars by snow patrol and Far away by nickelback. do listen to these 2 songs. Ok ok, gonna go. Sorry for the randomness. Lolz. Pls try and underdstand what i wanna express, coz even i, am confused bout what iam toking bout though. Ciao.

----> I wanna hold on to u and nv let go.. <----

My holidays are so GREAT *in a sian tone*... Boring. But i still love it, coz i can watch all the animes i want!! Yeah! Now watching inuyasha, and sessomaru sama is great. Oh, for the selection of the IS modules, i chose financial management for duration 1 and jap for duration 2. Cool huh, jap class with a jap teacher... Some people say that i have an ulterior motive for choosing a jap teacher, lolz. And a note to him, which is iam pure and i dun think dirty ok!

Well, nth much to update. Din go out with my friends either coz i dun have much friends, erm... its only now that i realize that my friends are sort of leaving me, or is it the other way?? Well, i dun have the habit of keeping up a friendship. Anyway, i have my com and my tv to keep me company. Of course, going out with friends will be more fun. Hope that i have a job, at least can earn some quick bucks.

Tried looking for one, but to no avail. At least ive tried, but nvm, shall stay at home and slack my ass off. Anyway, hope that actually someone reads my blog. Lolz, but nvm if no one's reading coz i am writing to myself. I own a blogger is becoz iam lazy to write down my day in a book, i prefer typing it out.

Ok, think iam getting too random, shall watch my inuyasha now. Ciao...

----> Somethings are better left unsaid and not heard... <----

Well... Just changed my blogskin... Think that iam stuck with my previous skin for way too long. Hope u guys like it. Pls comment ya.. Anyway, checked the word Eden on dictionary .com and adapted form the website.. Which literally means
1) Bible. The garden of God and the first home of Adam and Eve. Also called Garden of Eden.
2) A delightful place; a paradise.
3) A state of innocence, bliss, or ultimate happiness.

And i love how the skin looks and the meaning which is exactly what i want in my afterlife. Kindda cheerful but yet unreal, full of surreal too... Kuddos to the creator of this skin.

Well, today went to see the chinese physicia again and went to my grandma house. Nth much to do also. Tried looking for a part time job but to no avail. Anyone got lobang can come and find me??

Anyway, maybe iam off to brisbane next week, but may not go also. Must see availability of tix. Ok, nth much to update, got lots of photos regarding the IMF, but iam tired to upload, next time then. Ciao. :)

----> Ive constantly reminded myself to let go, but to no avail... <-----

IMF is officially over yesterday. Its a very fruitful event for me, but along the way some things happened which really din mark my day. Too bad, some people fail to see it. And iam upset that a guy i knew is such a person. Iam just totally upset and angry. I wun talk bout it, people who are my real friends will understand my situation and i thank them for being with me during that day. Too bad, the person who is being made used to agitate me, fail to see what has happen. Anyway, to that person, i can understand why u did that, but u used my loved one to hurt me, that, i cannot forgive you. I call that an unsrupulous act even if iam too hyper sensitive, but u failed to clear the misunderstandings when i confronted u.

Aside from the unhappy things, ive got to know lots of great friends people from TT02 ( i think ), Sherman the head prefect from jin tai, cedric the rich guy who holds a super ultra cool and uper expensive Eos 70 cam, Jin long who always looks so cool and definitely friendly, wei xiong the person whom ive worked with in the press room and many more from that class. And Joseph too, the guy who always flicks his fringe in the past, lolz.. And Ive also know the 2 "toilet cleaners" who always walk around the e kiosk. I dun even know their name! =X And our in charge Mr chew beng keong aka big ass, and Mr Tan sze chin, both of u have taken good care of us and thanks for everything. Marcus who is always with me when iam upset, thanks for being such a good friend, and definitely lala, pearl and liyi. Thanks for tolerating my cold lame jokes and my "irritatingness". Thanks to my dad who always calls me early in the morning from brisbane to wake me up, and to my mother who always help me iron my uniform and lock the door for me when ive gone to work. And to my sis for fetching me back home, thank you also.

And Recently ive just discover that i kindda lacked the social skillls, the ability to make friends. Its always easy for me to make friends in the past, but now, haiz. Iam always left out of the pic, spaced in one corner. Its always someone who tried to fit me in to the pic but i know iam not one of them. Its hard. I know that i dun clique with them. Its hard, maybe coz i dunno how to joke, or is it my attitude? And i always make them feel irritaed, i think. And to those friends whom ive made in the past, iam so sorry that i din make the effort to keep up the relationship with u all. To my class, iam sorry for being so "cold" but i have my reasons for doing that and i will try to be back in the clique with you guys again. Hope u all will accept me one day. And to the girl i had a crush on, iam sorry for always intrudin into your life, i already know that i dun stand a chance but thanks for willing to be great pals with me. Anyway, not forgetting the family who always supports me!

Anyway, today's just basically slacking and sleeping, nth more and nth less. Same old lazy me. Hope to find another job soon, coz its another 3 weeks before we actually start next sem. Oh, and bout my results, kindda dissapointed with it, but considering the effort ive put in, i think i deserved only that much. Hope i can do well next sem. Ok, quite a long post huh, and to you guys, enjoy ur holidays before its gone in a blink of an eye. And to those mugging now, good luck...

----> Ive realized that iam still waiting for u after all these years since last time... <-----

Finally, ive got the time to blog. Anyway today's my break time from working in suntec convention as e kiosk asistant. The job Sounds nice but its boring!! Lolz. Anwyay, worked in the press room yest. coz my feet hurt like hell and there are seats at there, at leats i can sit down every now and then. Met all kinds of people, nice and rude people. And the funny thing is the nice pple are foreigners. very friendly people. u can expect greeting form them even though u dunno them. As for the rude, dun wish to tok bout it...

Then monday worked around the e kiosk area, my feet swollen like hell from all the standing. Nth to do at all, coz very little people came and use the com. But the real thing starts today, so i guessed it will be busy from now on.

Anyway, my team in charge mr chew, is damn good la. Help us fight for our rights for "free lunch" and also taking good care of us.

In da morning went to see dr chew, he says iam improving and ask me try to seat more which means more toilet trips for me. Lolz, the only place i can seat is on a toilet bowl. Anyway, slept like a log just now and i din realized that it ws raining. Haiz, have to rewash all the clothes.

And its 2 days before our results are out!! Hope all my friends will do well. And to those working and "slogging their guts out" today, good luck. Iam sure they are playing now. Lolz. Ok, gtg, ciao...

----> I could nv figure what you are thinking... <---

Just came back a few hrs ago from Tiong Bahru de OG. FInally bought my leather belt, shoes and tailor pants. Almost fewlt devastated when i couldn't find my stuff, coz i too fat already. Lolz. And my legs esp., almost all of OG's shoes cannot fit my leg. ARGH!! Then had to go tiong bahru complex there, and this uncle went throuhg all the trouble to find shoes that fit me and i nv even once felt or see him feeling fustrated. Hahaz, and he gave a very good discount too.

Anyway, i promised my mother that i will only see my friends play bball, ended up i played with them. My mother saw it, and you all should know what happens next. Got scolded lo, even though she say i am wasting her money but i know she meant well. Looks like i need to exercise some self control!!!

Hmm... Nth much to blog abt already, kindda tired now. Shall rest for a while, ciao...

----> Why is it that ur image come back into my mind again after all these yrs... <----

Hi! Yest. went out for the whole day to suntec for the IMF thing. Ended up with lots of impatient waitings and wasted time. But overall, it was alright. Beng keong, our leader, is very good and responsible. And not forgetting his nice perky ass as mentioned by brenda. Lolz. And thanks marcus,

Today, as usual slacked the whole day. I was on msn when i had a conversaiton with my dad. Lolz. Kindda wierd talking to him on msn. But the conversation went on smoothly, how cool is that huh. I bet not many people chat with their dad via msn. Anyway, heard jay's songs in the new album, the songs are good and to jay's fans, he is definitely not repeating his style of music, just that this is his style of composing and why should he change it? So pls support his newest album ok? Hahaz, though i have not bought it, but soon, once i have the money, i will buy.

Back to IMF... The day is coming soon!! And i seemed so unprepared. I dun even know thew standard procedure for reporting of lost password and etc. Better start my practising. Hhaaz.
Wonder if i can endure the 2 hrs standing and the worst thing has yet to come. That is..... my uniform may not be ready by this monday. I wonder what iam gonna wear. And hope i dun perspire much! ANd tomolo iam finally gonna cut my hair, see doctor and buy my leather shoes!
Hmm... well its been a pretty normal day, kindda enjoying this slow pace holidays and after today's chat with my dad, i suddenly realise that i enjoy conversing with my dad that much. Hahaz, gotta go, ive just found a new anime and iam planning to watch it! BTW, its lesnar's 18th bdae 2 days ago. So, happy belated bdae. Grow up liao, cannot be childish ah, and hope u and ur dear will bai tou dao lao!! ciao...

----> Maybe i still have feelings for the past... Maybe not... <-----

Ok... Finally iam bothered to update... Past few days, been doing nth, yest. went to m fren house. (His identity cannot be disclosed) Lolz.. But he lives in bukit panjang.. Opps..=X
Well, spend the whole morning watching magical girl nanaho. Very good anime, though cannot compared to bleach or naruto but the storyline is short and straightforward, most imptly no fillers!!! Which simply sucks.

Met this philippino guy who plays bball downstairs, he asked when iam gonna have my revenge and ive just remembered that he challenged me and ie lost that time. Iam sure his intention was clear, hope i can recover soon. Thanks for the encouragement. After my leg recover, i will treasure my legs more though.

Anyway, anyone has plans to go out, can call me anytime. Iam free of time but not free of money. If u know what i mean, i meant do stuff which doesn't involve spending.

Well... IMF is just less than a week away and our uniform is still not ready??! How ridiculous huh. Such a big and prestigious event and yet so many things are kindda last min. I've just discussed bout changing course with my parents a few days ago. Now kindda regretted not changing my course soon. Coz i think BIT is really not my forte esp. IT. Should have chosen tourism management. But i can'tpossibly leave my class and my friends esp. her. But in thrird yr, we will specialized in e commerce which really isn't what i want, but i have to get a basic diploma first. BTW, results are out on 15th sep and considering the amt of effort i put in, i doubt i will do well. i can only hope now.

My mother keeps complaining tht i din do housework, and had to nag at me before i actually do. But i did do my own part, din i wash the plates most of the time, throw rubbish, fold the clothes?? Why is it that my parents always overlook my efforts and strength and always look at my weakness?? I know iam lazy, but i still need time to adjust days without a maid though. Its tiring to do housework everyday. ARGH! How i wish my mother would quit her job and be a housewife. At least i wun be alone now blogging and instead, have someone ot talk to.

People who know me will find that i dun really like going out. I dunno why also. Lolz. Maybe i find it a hassle to go to orchard. Hahaz. and IMF's next week and iam on a diff. shift with most of my class. Luckily got some of them who is in my shift. Looks like we better find smth to do during the 2 hr break huh.

Ok ciao. Anyway a simple intepretation of L-I-F-E which ive just thought, which is , Life Is For Enjoying... Hahaz. Enjoy ur precious holidays coz for all u know u might be pining for such days when semester starts.

----> Everyday i pine for u, iam really desperate for ur smile..<----

Just went to my sis graduation ceremony just now at SIM, kindda boring, with speeches given by the chacellor and other pple. Finally saw my sis wearing the grad. robe. I felt very proud of her. My parents kept saying if i worked hard, i will be able t wear a robe too. I fullly know what their intention is But i dun wanna live my life just to get a cert. Even my parents said, 30000 dolllars and in the end its a piece of paper that we are after. But this paper can do wonderous things such as getting jobs and acheiving further from ur present education state.

How i wish i could live in a world where everything is free, i dun have to spend money to get to other places. living in a world full of love form friends, but what i am going through in life is the extreme opp.

Well, i readmy friends' blog, most of them seemed to have a goodtime going out with friends but iam cooped up at home laying eggs. Call me a loner if u all want, but i just prefer staying at home doing nth at all. Just filling my thoughts and day dreaming bout someone.

Hope my leg heal quickly and i will be able to go out! Can't help but thinking that iam really in a very depressed state. My daily dose of happiness is temporary unavilable. Hahaz, finally i know what addiction is all abt.

Iam really sad, really depressed at heart, i dunnno why, just couldn't explain the feelings... Anyone knows what iam going through??

---> I really can't stay happy without u, u noe how impt u are to me?? <---

Its holidays which literally means having fun. But iam not. lolz. Been coooping myselfup at home doing nth but maple. Anyway, just went out with my dad this morning to lim chu kang, talked quite a lot with him, regarding his work. We all can see that he is very anguish, yet worried that the boss will not let him come back to spore. And the People he had to face there, with people backstabbing each other and stuff, this is what u called office politics. My dad says that the people there are hard to control, so there's no way to get the specific job done well.

Anyway, my best friend in pri wanna meet me, but i gaves excuses, to not meet him. I wonder whats wrong with me. Mauybe i dun like is personality now. *Shucks*
My sis asked me why am i feeling so sad nowadays, i think iam feeling anguish instead. venting my anger on them, i know its not right but i just couldn't stop myself at teh point of my rage, so i would like to apologise to them though.

I dunno why iam feeling anguish probably becoz of her. Iam always waiting for love, but nth gets reciprocated. Waiting like a fool, even though i know its impossible. Thes epast few days, i suddenly thought of my sec sch days where i liked this girl for abt 4 yrs. Kind of like a crush at first, but soon, i did stupid things to get her attention, towards the end, i was very angry for not cherishing her in the lower sec and up till upper sec, we din talk to each other, thatr period of time was considered the worst period of my life. Anyway, i would like to say sorry to her though. If ur reading this and u know who u are, pls accept my apologies and i wish u all the best.

Another thing iam feeling angry is becoz of my god damn leg! Been popping painkillers to stop the pain, after the effect is gone, the pain stilll came back and iam too lazy to see a chinese physician, so i kindda give up on bball now. Seeing people running and jumping at the bball court really makes me feel jealous.

This is a sort of a post to express my apologies to whoever they were and probably the reason why iam feeling so anguish and sad. The pain is intangible and thats probably why that its making me so unbearable. Ok la, i wanna slp, such a good weather for slping ain't it? Hahaz, ciao. Enjoy ur hoidays!!

----> If only i have u by my side, i wouldn't suffer so much now... <----

Exams are finally over!! WDA, totally screwed it though. Well, ive never study much for that, so i din expect an answer to come to me miraculously. Holidays are here, isn'tit what all of us are expecting?? Hahaz, but i guess iam gonna complain of boredom soon. Anyway, saw wei jie, my sec sch friend, after such a long time huh. Hahaz, had a very good chat with him, kinda miss my sec sch days.

Anyway, yest. was the finale of the exams, my mum's bdae and my dad's arrival from brisbane. All three good things in one day and my relatives ruin it by inviting us to her house and eat, when the food was just enough for like 6 pple, and we got 12 people (4 of whom are big eaters, which is my family). lolz.

Been mapling almost the whole night, think iam addicted to it already. lolz, anyway iam at level 26. 4 more levels to job advacement. Hahaz.

Ok ls, gonna go soon, need to get smth from my friend. Ciao. U peeps enjoy the holidays!

--->u left me all alone, stranding and vending for myself and thats when i realized how cruel u were<----

Today is a bad day man... Wasted one whole day doing nth..Lolz. And my final semestral exam is next week. Anyway, woke up at 12 smth, yeah i know its a little too late. Then watched finish GTO and bout 3 smth set off to the skin centre. Well, my skin suddenly pop up some rashes kind of thingy, my mum got freaked out then asked me go skin centre. In the end, its just some skin allergy la. And it cost me a 100 bucks. Lolz.

Anyway, maple is really addictive. Finally i know why is it that the game is stupid but yet many people are so addicted to it. Here's an appeal to the creator of maple, pls don make our life so difficult!!! I kill one monster only got 0.01 percent. sian. Then those strong ones i also cannot fight. then how to level up?? Hahaz.

Anyway, i better go study, i really need a gpa of 3.5 this semester. HAhaz. Ciao.

---> i miss your scent <-----

Ok, finally, time for a proper post huh... Anyway, projects are officially over except for WDA report which is almost done. Fri's MWA test and after that major tests. Time passes so fast, one sem is already almost over before we even knew it.

Had an outing yesterday with my class plus kevin and alvin. We played all kinds of ball games, got bball, volleyball and soccer. And seriously, i wonder if its the court there or is it that my skills are deterioting. Anyway, after that we went for dinner then head home. And i went to cut my hair at QB. And it turned out like shit!!! Looks like those sec school short hair, if u knew what i mean. ARGH! Bad hair day. And sheela says that my hair looked the same since sec sch!! Is it true?? Hahaz, guesss i must do smth bout it.

And today's national day!! "And its your bdae and my bdae" (a quote from my friend). Lolz. Well, glad that our nation has come so far, although its still vibrant and young. Happy national day! And eversince my mum comes back, she's been asking me to do this and that. Argh.. Why can't she just take a rest and enjoy. Life's not bout housework, you know.

Later gonna go my grandma house and probably changing my specs this sat! Muahahhaa..
Gonna go study.. BB.

-----> How i wish i could take u away from here... <----

Great... Ive shown my ugliest side of myself to her. A hot tempered, impatient and vulgar side of me... ARGH!!! Now that she knew that iam actually such a person, how am i gonna face her again!!! Why am i so out of control in front of her!!??

Sorry for the lack of updates. Many projects and my group have just completed the BMGT project report. Hope the teacher will be impressed by it. Now left woth BLAW presentation and MWA project. Sian.

Yest. cus, xuan and lala came to my house. Think they are the very first ones since iam in NP who came to my house. Played truth or dare then bout 9pm they went off. Thanks for accompanying me!!! And just nice during that day my mummy went to canberra to see my dad. And iam all alone with my sis but my sis always not in and iam left all alone.

Today went to school do MWA from 10am to 7smth! Whoa, codes after codes and databases after databases. Now at home doing nth. Just wanna relax, enjoy the peace without my mummy around for a while and ive found that i can't survive loneliness without my family. Kindda depressed. Well being all alone at home really makes u depressed. Finally know how my dad felt, hope he can manage his work over there. Heard form my mummy that its quite hard working there.

Now listening to techno.. Lolz, first time. By groove coverage. Not bad, i like the tune, not too noisy and at least there is someone is singing. Bored bored!! Iam all alone!! Anyone wanna accompany me at home. Lolz. Ok la, gonna go relax and slack my ass off, u peeps take care. Ciao babies...

Well, a very stressed week. Projects after projects. Mwa project's the most tedious one. BMGT project to be handed up this fri and next week there's B law presentation. ARGH!! And my leg isn't recovering. Damn it. Iam really desperate for Bball.All the competitions, all the 3v3 or 4v4 and all my bball friends. Why this has to happen to me??!! If only i can play bball, i might at least relieve some stress.

Iam thinking, is being too nice a good or bad thing? Am i being a nice guy or am i acting nice just coz she's around. My principles ive withold since sec school, all down the drain. I feel so unmovtivated, so useless. I even neglected her feelings and vented my fustration on her like a baby. Guess i gave her a very bad impression of me, but its no use hiding ur true self from someone u like, coz even if ur together, she will find out about what a person u are sooner or later.

I daren't think about what will happen to us, i'd rather this friendship to go on. iam too cowardly to face another rejection, i might just breakdown if u say u just want us to be just friends. U obviously knew that my actions to u weren't pure friendship but u continued ignoring...

Guess projects really made me an emo person this week.Iam just too stressed up, iam sure all of us are too. Hope we can pull through the projects and exams together and after that its holiday. All i wanna do now is just to play bball. But, i can't...

A boring day today. Did my MWA assignment which is sort of in complete mess. And the worst thing is that i cannot test it out whether my codes can work or not!!

Anyway, yesterday's my class bbq. Met and went to PS to buy the things, then went over to east coast. The weather was windy, and thats why we had a hard time starting the fire. But thanks to marcus and lesnar, lucky got them if not no fire liaoz. Anyway, the food i think is not bad, i mean the level of "edibleness". Hahaz. Towards the end, kel, kok and gl finally came, and thats where the fun starts. Hope we can organise such bbq again and this time brenda, daniel and KQ better join us huh.

In the afternoon went to see doctor again, the pain is sort of coming back again. Think i stood too long yesterday. And i saw azlan just now. It been a long time since i met him. But was kindda in a rush so couldn't talk much. Sorry dude.

Well, i'd better try and do my MWA now, ciao.

----> I've tried everything but u just wun allow me into your heart...<----

The state iam in now= miserable. My legs are hurting like mad. can't walk. And i leashed my temper on my mum and sis. Dman sorry. Stressed over my I&E project. They just dunno the importance of the document submission. I wanna help them also hard. Sian. ANyway this morning, went to see bball challenge. Only a pathetic of 8 teams joined.

Finally saw jin jian play. He's quite good. Dribbling and shooting and layup. Short but he knows how to cut basket. And chong hwee played well. Hope ur not thinking too much. And betta take care of ur leg. Anyway, just couldn't resist not playing bball, so i played. And consequence??? Leg pain again. Sian. Such a fustrating day. Just couldn't do things right. Iam just too tired. I need someone to support me.

And last night i dreamt of her. Lolz. Wierd huh. First time she's appeared in my dreams. Wished that the dream wouldn't end.
Ok la, gotta go. Ciao.

----> Sarang Haeyo... <----

Hahaz, sorry for not updating... Anyway, finally most projectsor shall i say half the amt of projects on hand are sorta finished. Just injured my ligament at my heel of my leg there. Damn painful, glad that its recovering. But no bball for me for 2 mth or so... Damn sad la... No bball=no life.

Well, anyway, today stayed back a while to do BMGT project then went off to watch movie. Pirates of the carribean. Not too bad, hahaz. coz the lead actress i think is keira knightly is damn pretty la...

Back to morning's lecture, was damn pissed off by smth, but i shall not say it. Just a word of advice, watch what u say, coz sometimes words can be very hurting even if it meant as a comment or joke only. Dun treat friends as smth whom u vent ur anger or fustration on.

Anyway, dead tired now, watched those bball play bball, but i din get to play. And finally couldn't resist the tewmptation to play, but ive just played for 5 mins. HAhaz. Ok la, gonna go now... ciao.

----> Am i being naive or am i being hopeful? <-----

Waiting for world cup finals to start. Darn boring now... And i doubt anyone's reading my blog. Lolz, coz my blog itself generally has got no specific content but updates on my day to day routine.

No bball for me, my mum debarred me from bballl coz of my stupid legs. Guess i really have to reduce my weight!!! Hope that its not the ligament problem again! I'd really cry if my ligament prob. is back. And i have IS later! My event is over and why he keep insisting us to come back for his lesson. BORING! I'd rather do project. And Pmrkt presentation is coming soon, gotta think of a way to stop the bad habit of doing that hand action thingy when iam presenting. Lolz.

That hand action thingy is a sign whereby iam trying to link my words up, as in thinking of the next line to say. Hmm.... think thats all la, ive lack of topics to share with u peeps. Anyway to my class, good luck for the Pmrkt presentation. Ciao...

----> If only i could be with u... <-----

Sorry for not updating. Its been a very hectic week. Finally completed my I&E and B law project. Met up with dan, bren and pearl for Pmkt project. Sorry man, have to meet up with u all on weekend. After that went home, then slacked and watched scary movie 4. Then helped my mum to sweep and mop the floor. Good boy huh.

Then went to taman jurong to stock up tidbits and fruits then went for dinner. Played bball after that now resting. Damn tired now. Anyway got back my results, some not very well done esp. Pmrkt. Pmkt 63, WDA 66, Mwa 71 and Blaw 81 =)

WIll continue to work hard but now project first. Really thank my group for putting in so much work ito projects. Hahaz, thats all la, ciao...

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Favourite colours: Blue and black

Favourite food: Hmm... Cha kway tiao without seaham, carrot cake, ice cream from ben's and jerry, maggie mee (BBq flavour) and lots more...

Favourite Song: Jay chou (all the songs), Eninem, green day, linking park, blink 182 and many more.

Favourite Movie: over the hedge (muahhahaha, got reason de....)

Favourites Sport: Basketball basketball and basketball!!!

Favourites Day: Saturday

Favourites season: Autum! The weather is cool and not too hot!

Favourites ice cream: ben & jerry

Current
Current mood: Feeling relieved and relaxed coz I&E over liao!

Current taste: Nth.. Only Saliva

Current Clothes : hang ten blue tee & Bermuda

Current Desktop: Using lap top... NEC versa 2000

Current time: 2149

Current surrounding: My bedroom..

Current annoyances: PROJECTS and exam results! RAAH!

First:
First best fren: Hahaz, Ang wei jie from my pri sch

First crush: Hahaz, secret, but same sec school as me..

First Movie: Can't remember.

First Lie: I did not urine my bed la...(actually i did=X)

First music: dunno... Blue's clue theme song. Lolz.

Lasts:
Last cigarette: ....

Last drink: Plain water, iam healthy...

Last car ride: On sat, my sis and mummy fetch me home

Last phone call: Pearleen

Last CD played: I more retro, i play MP3... muahhaa ...

Have you ever?
Have you ever dated your best friend: Nope.

Have you ever broken the law: Dumb question..

Have you ever been arrested: Look at my face and u wil know...

Have you ever skinny-dipped: WTH is that??

Have you ever been on tv: dunno...

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: Lolz no la...

Things you are wearing: What thing??

Things you done today: projects and projects. Watch tv, use toilet, play bball... Thing you do when you are bored: I watch tv...

Five ppl I have tagged : Kel, kok, lan, daryl and lala...

Guess that iam too much of a perfectionist huh. Had my grp's event yest. which i thought it sucked. I mean pple are literally standing around or sitting on the floor. Dead boring. The bands are fantastic, to me at least, but lucky that we got halfestride and revenow to save the day. I was so scared to see the situatio inside that i went totalk to the cleaners. Lolz. Just wish that the whole event will end quickly. Really sorry to those who found our event boring. But we really tried our best already. Though my group is those very last min. pple, but the event still is quite a sucess though.

The clubbing part was damn fun. Haha, many ple dancing to the beat of DJ mix. Stand tilll my legs turned sore. Iam sort of a bouncer, checking chalk. Got to know many friends though. Esp. halfstride, the lead singer is damn friendly and cool!!!

The whole event ended offically at 12, right on the dot. Packed up til 1 smth in the morning then went home. Reallywould like to thank the I&E teachers for coming, thanks mr ng form the estate who helped do paperwork for us. Thanks to the AV pple, esp. the malay guy. Lolz.Friendly guy! Thanks to the servants for staying back and offering me a drink. That really lighten up my day. Hahaz. Thanks to the sercurity guard, thanks mr chua (not me but the guy who is in charge of the cleaniness of convention), thanks to the serurity guard. Lucky got themif not confirm got many prob. Lastly, to the pple who came, really sorry if u all find the event more of a suffering. And of course to my grp, esp. gerad and wagner, they are the band performers and also the organiser. Sorry for my incompetence for failing to bring more pple in but i showed my remorse in action by helping out and stuff.

Finally I&E is over, we will defnitely make it a much better event IF we had the chance again. And lastly to her.. Her simple message of concern about my event really mark my day. Felt as if all the efforts were worth it even though she din come. Thats all la. Ciao. Enjo ur weekends man, coz its project time on monday again!!

----> You breathe life into me <----

Maybe its the projects which are driving me insane!! Why isn't any of m friends going for my event!!!?? Need to get bout 30 people layz.. Die man... And Blaw and bmanagement is due next monday for draft. Damn it! Why din i use the 2 weeks to do my project properly. Why always regret when it happened so many times already. Guess i just dun lean my lesson which is proper time management. Tomorrow collecting wda and mwa, sure fail or just nice pass. I hate that! I wanna do well!!! I wanna get GPA of more than 3.5, i wanna get into a U! Maybe its not even these things which trouble me the most but others!

ARGH!!

Life just seem to get tougher when u wanna do well! ciao.

Busy busy busy... So many projects on hand! And i din know that the deadline is so near after our holidays! Hope we can pull through this. Anyway, today just stayed at home.Nth much. Played bball just now again. Kindda sprain my ankle.

Anyway, had a near 1 hr of good talks with my mum. And i din know my dad was suffering so much at brisbane. I thought that everything was going smoothly. It kindda hurts me when i knew so much have been happening and yet i only know it like yesterday. I really dread adulthood now. So much politics to face. Hope that my dad will be able to tide through this crisis.

Hmmm... Past few days esp. yest have not been very good. Did an event about band gig and its on next sat and yet we left so much things to do. Hope that many pple will be coming.

Well, despite so much things have been happening, think iam kindda lucky to have met the girl of my dream! I wonder if i hadn't transfer class, if i was in other course, if i wasn't even in this particular poly, would i have met such a wonderful person. Felt as if iam now living my life for somebody and not myself.

Hmmmm.... Nth much to update la, i dun have much social life de. hahaz... Next week will be the starting of term. Gotta be busy busy and busy already. Aiming for a GPA of 3.5!! Good luck to myself and of course to my class. ciao...

----> You took away my everything, my thoughts, my mind, my soul and my heart...<----

Why is it that whenever u have a prob, u wun come and approach me?! Why are u able to take things so lightly? Why pretend to be happy when i obviously know that your sad? Why are u making yourself suffering, you could have told me that ur sad, or maybe u weren't??

Maybe i thought i knew you well, i thought i could detect at least smth when ur dissapointed. Iam useless afterall. I couldn't even help solve your prob. Everytime you would be so chatty, but after that incident, you became quiet. My heart sle to doank that instant. I knew how u feel, yet i wasn't able to do anything!? Argh! What am i thinking at that time, to be joking around and not serious and not sparing a thought bout ur feelings??! i hate myself!!

Damn it!! My right leg hurts so damn much when i do lay-ups!!! I guess thats a sign trying to tell me to stop bballing. Pray that my leg problem will be better, dun wanna repeat the pain i had when i was in my sec school days.

Used to have this ligament problem which really sux. Had to use the walking stick to walk. I can't even lift up my leg, let alone walking. Glad that ive recovered now. But my legs still hurt when i play and run too much.

These few days, have been project-ing (a new word, meaning the projects are still going on, thus with the "ing"), hope that we will be able to finish, coz up till now we only sort of completed 1/2 of marketing project. My kan chiong ness is reigning now. Lolz.

Nth much to update though, just that the shopping trip at holland V. was great today!! wahaha.... Hmmm.... ok la, iam going offf to sleep soon. And i declare that i might stop using msn already. Haha..... Ciao.

----> I know that confidence is build within, but my source of confidence is from you <----

The first movie we watched together and the 2nd time we had meal alone. I will always remember it. Even though i din look happy, thats coz iam trying hard to hide this tingling feeling of happiness. I smiled as you slept on the bus, throughout the whole journey i was just looking at u. Just that, is enough to keep me going. I finally realised how much i need you.

I regreted not taking any action, i just let it past!!! ARGH! But i believed that u deserve a wole lot of better guy out there than me. Nonetheless, i still like u, nothing can deny that. Everyday i carry with hope that the day u and me will be together, but i guess, it would not be possible. But i will always remember the day in my heart, eve though it is just another normal day for u. To me, it was a whole lot more than just a normal day.

----> A glimpse of your smile is all i needed <-----

IMF training was alright. Kindda bored towards the end. Learned quite a lot bout service and attitude esp. GEMS. Very useful lesson.Can't wait for the day to come where all bankers, ministers and some other government body leaders will come. Hope iam up to the standard. Now's holiday, daren't even think bout the projects, which we must complete one or two weeks after the break. Thats all for the day, dun feel like updating. Ciao.

----> my heart sank when i saw u leaving. <----

Hi all... Sorry for not updating. Anyway, yest. marks the end of the gruelsome CT. I think i swill do very badly considering the amouint of effort i put in. Anyway, its over. Yest. Dunno why i suddenly damn sick after i reached home. The now got flu and sore throat. So.... thats why u peeps can't blame me for not updating right?? hahaz.

Anyway, monday is the IMF thingy, looking forward to that though. But meeting at centre point at 8am!!?? Hope i can make it. Lolz. Currently slacking and stufff. For those of u who dun always see me online often now, i appear offline. Hahaz. Not becoz i like it, its just that i dun wanna cjhat with pple on msn. Its tiring u noe, with the typing and stuff. I wonder how some can stay online for hours just using msn. Lolz.

Now iam watching this show called lui guang sen lin. Quite nice. Hahz, its a taiwanese ou xiang ju. Hmmm... nth much to upodate though. Hopefully by monday i will recover. Thats it then. One more thing!!! Ple support our grp's event. Its band gig cum "non alchohol clubbing". Mmore details at stereo-effect.blogspot.com Thanks. Ciao.

Yo... Here to publicise our event for my I&E project. We will be holding band gig performance cum clubbing session (NON ALCHOHOL). The day will be on a sat 1/7/06 at 7pm to 12am. pls visit the webbie http://stereo-effect.blogspot.com/ for more info. The price is very reasonable considering the bands that we are inviting. Even though u may not have heard them before but they are good bands in singapore. Pls help spread the word. Thanks. Anything just email us to book ur tix.

Ok... Now for today, B law, i think they are super smart.For those of u who dunno, they actually have 2 sets of papers with the MCQ questions in diff. order. Damn smart right???!!! Lolz. Anyway, think i did OK for the test considering the amt of "effortless" into studying. And my grandma just came to live with us yest for a few days.Got a bit of comm. barrier coz she doesn't speak MT and Eng. But managed to make her understand my words by my hand signs.

Hmmm.... Thats all for today, nth much. See ya guys around. Remember to visit the webbie for more info on the event.Anyone can come!!! Just sms me or what to book ur tix. hahaz. Ciao.

----> I thought u would come and ask me to accompany you, but u din.. <-----

Today's WDA test. I think its quite ok. Pray i get bout 70smth. Lucky i din study much and memorise the definition. Its more of practical work. My whole class left except only pearl and me. I kindda stuck at one of the question, if not i confirm can finish within an hour. Not becoz of another reason ah!!!

Monday's B law and i slcked the whole day today. Lolz. Played bball with my neighbour called xiao ming. Lolz. Its true! He's called tan xiao ming. Today i was left alone at home by my mummy and sis. Sian. They went to shop.

Hmmm, that sums up my day. Its exam week next week. Gonna be busy busy busy... Good luck to all TT04 peeps and of course to all taking exams now. And to those in JCs, sec sch or whatever, betta treasure ur holidays coz when u all are busy mugging for your final exam, we are probably having our sem break.MUahahhahaz.... Ciao.

----> your the last thing on my mind when i sleep... <-----

Hmm.... Today's quite a OK day i guess. Hahaz, first up is jenny lam's mwa. I still haven settle the IIS problem. Then ish WDA. Hahaz, he taught us normalization. Maybe i think it simply and thats why i did it quite fast. Lolz. But in the end got a few mistakes here and there. Gotta practise more on normalization. I still haven start on my revision. And my exam is on this sat!!! Then after that is B law, and my tutor is going on a break or smth. No comments though, i wasn't close to her or whatsoever.

Went down to play bball after that with kai lun. Damn sian, no pple come only bout 5 to 6 pple only. Nv play much. After that slacked all the way to now. Hahaz.

Just a random thought. How do u guys define friends? One whom talk to u and at the end of the day, say goodbye and thats it. And the repititive cycle just goes on. Or someone who is considerate by doing little things such as waiting for u while your in the toilet or smsing you once a while asking you what she/he is doing. If u guys think that friendship is that great then think bout the days when you and ur best buddy were hanging at the canteen when ur in kindergarden. Do u still contact him/her? I think 90% of you will say no, right??? Some say that friends are just part of your memory lane. Just somebody who will accompany u for a part of your life. Have you ever wondered why your life's so empty? Sometimes, i do. Up to now, i stil dunno exactly what i want from my life. Getting a job, settling down , grow old and just die. I think its kindda scary. If only i know what i want exactly. Up to now, i still dunno if i made the right choice by joining this course though. But iam lucky to have friends in TT21 or 04. I really appreciate the times with them. But like what i said, in 20 yrs down the road, will we all stil be in contact?? Or maybe i should just think bout the present and not thinking too much ahead?

Anyway, its just random thoughts though. But all i wanna say is that since friends are not with u forever, how bout ur family? They are always beside u, but we nv find them as significant compared to our friends. But to me family always comes first. Hope my viewpoint will stay the same even if i have my own family. Or has it already changed??? Hahaz, ciao...

----> the ugly side i saw of u... i still totally love it! <----

Bloody bball match. It totally suck!!! I have nv met such fuking jerk. Insulting my style of bball. Laugh ing at me just coz iam fat. Ya, ur in the national team and iam fuking not. Happy??!!! I do admit iam lousier than u. And i fuking hate u! I know my own limits and stop trying to challenge me. I lost to u both attack and defense, u happy now? Fuking hell.

Basketball is about enjoying not about insulting! U pissed me off, and iam not gonna let it go just like that. Thank u for giving me even more determination to improve mself. I shall chnage my way of playing, to defeat u. And to those pple who think bball is just a game where u laugh at pple and look down on them then ur fuking wrong. Sorry for all the profanities. But iam totally pissed off!!!!!!

I think iam getting lazy to blog already. This sem at least iam kindda more hardworking, at least i got do all my tutorials. Today's lesson was alright though. Hope i can do this project esp. IT related. I think next week is gonna be hectic. With the starting of projects and stuff. Can't afford to slack already.

Just now went to lao pa sa there to eat satays. Damn nice man. But i was wondering why all the satay shops are together. although it might provide more choice for consumers, but i think it will be like the PC market where all products are equal and they are earning at equal profits. Lolz. Ok, i shall not digress, just wondering though. Anyway, after that my dad went to bring us to geylang to see prostitudes. Lolz. We were like pointing at them and commenting. Hahaz. But they are quite unfortunate too. Some of them betrayed their body to earn money for their family. Can't blame them too.

Ok la, gonna go view my e learning lecture for B law. Hahaz, ciao.

----> what am i to you?? <-----

Long time no blog... Getting lazy to blog bout events already. Hahaz. On sat, there's AO bbq at wee leong condo there. Very fun.... Can meet my brothers and fellow scs and scos. The food was fantastic, esp. the salad. Hahaz. Hope vanessa sees this, iam praising her cooking layz. Prepared and stuff before all the people came with joan and shu hui, i think i create more trouble instead of helping . Lolz. After that, went home at bout 10 smth and zzz.

On sunday, woke up at 7 smth to go malaysia to visit my grandparents. Ate quite a lot too. PLayed with my cousins the naruto game on ps 2 for almost the whole day. Lolz. After that reached home at bout 10smth and quickly rush to do my wda e learning assignment.

Today was events managent. Quite boring la.HAahz. ANd this week is the starting of most projects already, hope can complete all on time.

Ok la, gonna go do my b managment tutorial now, ciao...

-----> I love ur new look!! <-----

Today's just another day. Morning woke up very late. My mum too. Hahaz. Then ate spaggetti for "branch". My sis cooked it, very delicious. hahaz. And today's mother's day. Wish all noble mothers a happy mother day. I remember that everytime its mother'sday, i woud draw a card and give it to her the first thing when she wakes up. But now, ever since iam in poly, i stopped. Kindda of felt guilty but i really dun wanna draw a mother's day card. Lolz. Such a fillial child huh. But if u truly love ur mother, u will help her do house chores right?? And i helped, so i guess iam quite a fillial child afterall.. Hahaz.

Anyway, my ex maid came back. I wun call her my maid but as a friend la. She came chit chat and we went for dinner to celebrate mother's day. I really miss my this friend though. Glad to know that she's doing well.

Just finished my tutorial for marketing, spent only 15 mins doing it. Lolz, i think my answers are not of quality but quantity.

Ok la, gonna end here. Nth to blog about also. Just wanna tell my parents that i love them alot! Hahaz.. Ciao.

hey!! Sorry man... Long time no blog. Just got back my com and its working well. Basically iam just too lazy to blog and ive got so much to do, things such as tutorial and studying. Iam really gearing up to for this sem's modules as there are no modules involving calculations and math! B law is by far one of the hardest module, iam sure everyone agrees.

Today went back to school for photography lessons then went town with pearl to collect her lappy. Knew quite a few new friends form photography. Bball was full of action, almost got into fight with someone. Lolz. Lucky nth happened.

Well, nth much to blog also. Kindda bored now. watching prince of tennis. Not one of the best animes, but its got action.

And tomolo's mother's day. And ive got no suprise for my mum though. Simply becoz iam not creative enuff. hahaz. And my dad will be back next wed or thurs form brisbane for a week. Finally can see him. Kindda felt wierd without him at home.

Ok gonna go soon, hopefully i can attend the AO outing next week. Ciao.

----> Everything i do is all about u <----

Sorry peeps, its been long huh. Anyway, school started, everything's pouring in. Projects, lectures and tutorials.. Kind of not adjusted to it yet, so been feeling a little odd. Lectures are boring as hell,but iam loving the subject sprob not the IT modules. but lucky got jenny hong. hahaz...

Keepseeing shu hui,daisy, vanessa, joan, christina and ah lian everywhere in school.Lolz.. how i wish they were in my class!!! Muhahaha,then we can rock all day... Hahaz.

Todayi was suppose to go for the interview as MC, but i din, too much responsibilitties already. and i can't commit much toit, so i rather give up and let others have a chance even though the probility of me getting into mc is 0.00000000000000000000000000001...

Ive been wondering, why is it that people are not sensitive to other pple's feelings? if only we are all sensitive creatures, iam sure no one will feel left out. Been feeeling kind of lonely after BAOC, i missed all the fun and all the peopleof awa ordori!

iam tired, so... that kindda explained my randomness in my paragraphs. hahaz. just finished my tutorials, gonna take a break now, ciao....

----> ur the reason for my smile <------

Good evening! hahaz... I was suposed to meet my class and go sentosa but the air con men have to come at 10am!!! spoilt my plans. Sorry ah.. But i din really feel like going though. they stayed and fixed till 12 smth, by then i was too lazy to go out. hahaz.

Anyway, ive been wathcing prince of tennis using my sis com, so iam lucky that iam able to use her com again. hahaz. Went down to play bball, i was allalone but soon some pple came.. Playing bball alone is fun!! Not that iam a loner or whatsoever, but i can retrain my stamina and polish my skills.

Hmmm, really nth much to say, haven been doing much today, just slacking though. tomoo's lecture from 9 to 1 i think. sian... Haven really gear myself up for studies. iam sure all of u are still in holiday and BAOC mood huh..

I really have nth to update on already, so ciao.. hahaz.

----> There's smth special bout u that no one knows except me.... <----

yoz... Sorry for not updating.. hahaz, too tired liaoz. Anwyay, yest. went to ps to watch reincarnation with my fellow tt21. The movie was the most non horror movie ive watched. Lolz.And the scary part bout the movie is that itsnot scary. ahahz, iam really not trying to be brave but its just that the movie was dead boring. Anwyay, just realised that carrerfour has got a melbourne sandwich shop. i think not bad laz. And pearl bought a sandwich for a whooping 4.50 bucks. I could have ate 2 plates of char siew rice. haahaz.

For the mc thingy i reall gotta apologise to joc. hahaz, pai seh, dun think iam up for it. too much committment. of course iam interested to know more friends la, but imagine the tremendous amount of workload. Wanted to be sco, but i think all the pple not available liao. Hahaz, and i suddenly miss awa odori. How i wish i could turn back time and remincese the time we had.

Lectures were defintely boring. i din listen to any of it. Maybe iam stil in BAOC mood, iam sure all of us are. to those who tag, thanks alot for making my tagboard look more like a erm............... tagboard?? Lolz, i will link u babes up soon.

I have a lecture at 3!!! omg, really not a good timing, ok la, gonna go liao. Byezzz...

----> u reignite my life <----

Just came home from bballing. Met kai lun, tony and those khakis from art park. Very fun, finally got back the rhythum of bball. Scored quite a few points.

Today's a boing day, went out to my ah ma house to eat dinner. My sis just got her license, so she's driving us there. lolz, quite a scary ride, but we reached there safely though. My mum and i kept nagging at her, until i think she cannot take it liao.

After that changed and play bball. Damn tired now. Finally, we are starting schoool soon. Holidays ended at a blink of an eye. lucky i joined BAOC, if not i will be bored to tears. Ive been thinking whether i wanna be sco or not, but think not ba. quite hard to be one, coz of the committment. PLus somemore, u have to be creative, i lack that, so i guess i will not be joining. But i will definitely help out if i have the time.

And i reall wanna join serve cambodia!! missed the sabah trip, so i hope to go to cambodia or china. Hope my mum will let me go this time. And i wanna join i dare 06 too!!! Omg, so many things i wanna do, but din have the chance to.

Ok la, shall end here already, hope tomolo will be a good starting day. ciao

Today officially marks the end of the BAOC 06. Awa ordori grp 2 is no more already. I will definitely miss shu hwee, daisy, joan, vanessa and many more. U guys rock and we are the rockers!! Hahaz. My class was made to attend this cca fiesta thing whihc i think is a complete waste of time. But nonetheless, they still came. Thanks guys.

Yest. was sort of an ending for the rientation. We din get much prize but got the best id award, shawn was happy like toad just coz he is the id chairman. Lolz. But i think they squeeze in an awardfor us la. its not that awa ordori is not good, but we lacked enthu and more sporting pple. But its my faulkt too, for not getting my freshies to cheer. Anyway, its all over, so i hoped for the best of them and the efforts we put in paid off though. Who would know our pain, all the staying backs and time we put in. All these for a mere 3 days event. but iam really glad its all over finally, hahaz,

Went to crystal jade with many pple. Lolz, too lazy to name. Bout 18 pple. Then i suggested playing zhong ji mi ma, then i ganna the worst punishment. Lolz, had to eat a dumpling dip in a sauce which i made, contained vinegar, chili, and giniger and it defintely taste like shit.Lolz. Then i thpought i lost my wallet, then i realised that i put it in my back pocket. Damn sotong la. HAhaz,

Then today, met christina, joan, daisy, pearl, shu hwee and jun wei for breakfast at KAp, then went for the cca fiesta thing. Stayed back for the telematch between the diff. schools. Then went to collect my laptop, wnated to go town, but can't.

Ok la, shall end here.Ciao.

----> Its probably time for me to move on, i finally understand that we can nv be together<----

I broke down finally in the toilet today. Cry baby huh, iam the sort of perosn who can't take stress and not fulfilling my responsibility. Its my fault and i knew, i can't blame anyone, it was fun initially, but it turned out disastrous. I was totally dissapointed. U nv knew how i felt. No one was enthu and its my fault. I can;t think of any fun cheers, i can;t think of any fun games, and i din take goodcare of u all. For that i apologise. To those freshies who stayed back to help esp.xiao hui, ci qi, charles, crystal, xiao jun and sieew hwee, thanks alot and i really mean it. A sincere thanks. To shakti, and gang of ao 2 sorry for not fuilfiling my responsibility. People say that i think too much, but i know that deep down iam not a good leader. I thought i had all under control, i thought i was funny, i hope u all have a fun time, but it turns out to be the exact opp.

For the first time in m life, i knew the meaning of totally being useless, my frshies were suffering yet i can't do anytthing esp. to charles they all. To my fellow sbs, thanks for tolerating my sotongness. Thanks for being there for me esp.wan xuan. and to wan qi they all, i know u all are stressed up too, and i may not understnad it, but i knowhow u feel.

I was alone,angry reproaching myself, i was sad, i was hurt, but the pple whom i called frenzzz kept adding salt to my ound.and its happened many times. and to some of u, pls do not yelll at me and vent ur fustrations when i din even do u wrong or whatsoever. Maybe i take jokes too carelessly, maybe iam too used to it already. U insulted the perosn i like and i even laugh it off. I dun hate u for that, i know u were joking, but its really over thelimit. Very over the limit. It happened many times, and i gave up already. I rather take u as fren than enemy.

i often ask myself, is this the me that i want in front of my frenzzz.trying my best to be funny and trying had to regard u all as my good pals when i know that iam just a normal fren to u all.I know. Dun need to hide it.

iam glad that i saw true frenzzz, pple who stayed by me and pple who understand. And all these feelings are conjured up within a day.

If not for u, i would have already broke down. I would not be joking and lauging after so much has happened if it wasn;t for u. i really thank u for that. And lastly, sorry to my freshies. anyway, it been a hell of a long and busy day. quite a long post to vent my feelings out.

hihi.... long time no blog!!! Hahaz, sorry for lack of posts. Firstly my lappy is under repair, secondly iam damn busy with MAOC orientation and thirdly iam just too tired. Anyway today marks the first day of BAOC. My class, haiz, damn not enthu and i tried hard to invovle them, but i guess iam just too imcompetent. Nvm, today first day only, tml i will make sure they bond well with one another!!!

Today styed toill 6 smth to clear up the exam hall deco. Damn heartbreak, esp. those pple who stayed till 11pm to do the deco. Coz only one day, then must take down the deco le. Haiz, kinda sad, the efforts we put in does not exactly reflects the result we want though.

And one more thing charles and crystal are the pagent of awa ordori!!! All form my grp de. muahhaha. Ok la, damn tired already.really wanna rest and tml must wake up at 530!!!! Ciao.

----> Ive fall too deeply with u <-----

Iam still awake at this hour... bored and lonely. VERY lonely. My sis's aslp, my mother's on her way to brisbane and my dad's in brisbane. My friends are all busy with their things and most imptly, i have no money. Hahaz, iam so guilty, din go back to school to help out with BAOC. But going back next week. Now iam finding a suitable bbq pit at ecp thru the internet. finally, my class is gonna have a bbq. And sorry to kel they all, kept bothering them, could hear from their tone that they are tired.

Today's slacking day. Slept, eat, watch tv, played with my hp functions and use lappy all the day.No bball for me, my hand still hurts now.

Iam like so excited too. hahaz, coz she's coming back!!! Woot! Ok, iam oging crazy, but i count myself lucky that for the past 2 weeks, i din brood over her and stuff.

Ok, nth to tok bout already and i just watched survivor just now and they changed the timeslot!! But i got a feeling that the fellow who's got the hidden immunity might win though. Or probably courtney or maybe aras. Hahaz, thats the good thing bout holiday, i can stop worrying bout my school work and concentrate on such things.

Gonna go now, doubt i can slp tonight. ha~ha. ciao.

sorry, din update for the past few days... hahaz, too lazy. Anyway, past few days were just helping out with the BAOC tingy. Quite unhappy bout a few things, but i shall not mention it, maybe it was partly becoz of my "gan chiongness".

ANyway, today met the ever crappy guang liang and together with kel to meet cus, les, xuan and nana at PS. Then went to ECP to ride bike. Kinnda fun though. hahaz, though i always ganna "shoot", buti laughed too. Then had a bad fall, and i was still laughing like dunno what... I think is the way i fall, hahaz. And thanks kel they all for helping me. After that, went home together with xuan and nana, while the other guys went to somewhere. No money lahz, sad, if not can enjoy more. Lolz. Material comfort can buy u happiness. lolz.

Anyway, bought a new hp sponsored by my sis, hahaz, kinnda confused by the zealion of functions. Hope it can last.

sometimes i dunno if is it me or it is my nature that i always feel left out, iam a boring guy without interesting jokes or topics to share. iam not being emo here, u guys are great, but its just me, i think all of u can feel it, iam not part of the "clique", but nonetheless u guys are very good friends. Damn, iam contradicting myself.

Anyway, no bball for me tomolo!!! Hurt my hands, damn... Ok la, gonna go already, and my mummy will be going to brisbane to meet my dad, so..... total freedom for me!!! hahaz, of course i will miss them loads. Ciao.


-----> finally your coming back!!<-----